-Chapter 22- Truth and conversations-
-Rachel pov-
It's been a week since the call from Finn. I can't believe I was holding all of that on my shoulders. I feel so much lighter without that on them. Ive gotten so much better mentally. I sigh happily and head toward class.
"Rachel" I look over my shoulder at Santana "We need to talk"
-Time skip- Brittany pov-
"YOU CALLED ME?!" I jump up from the library table and look at a angry Rachel standing in front of Santana "You lied!"
"Rach I just wanted you to be better" She moves away when I go to grab her hand "Please you have to believe me!"
"I can't believe anything you say" tears form in Rachel's eyes "We are through!"
Rachel runs out and Santana runs after her. I stand there stunned looking at the door for a while. Did she leave me? Am I single now?
Smack!
I hold my cheek and look to my left "How stupid are you?" I see Anger in Quinn's eyes "You know you just blew all of your chances right?!"
"I just wanted her to be ok" I feel the tears start to fall "I just wanted her to be ok"
I fall into Quinn's arms as I sob. I really thought I was doing a good thing. Maybe I am too stupid. Maybe that's why my family never wanted to be with me. Maybe I'm the one who should've been jumping.
No! I can't act like this and think like that! My life matters! I got to make this right somehow. I don't even realize I'm in my car until I hear a knock on the window.
"You don't know where they went" I look at Quinn confused "Let me in"
-Rachel pov-
"I mean come on!" I motion to my body as I drink from the tequila bottle "I'm a hot ssson o a bitch!"
"Yess you are!" Santana chuckles "You are so hot!"
"And so busted" We both jump at Maribels voice "The hell are you parked by the park drinking?!"
"Brittany hurt me bad" I look at the bottle in my hand "I need this"
"What you need is to talk this out" I look up at the woman who's become like another mother "You don't need to drink your problems away! You've come so far healing! Don't go back now"
"You're right" I sit the bottle down "I need emma"
"I'll take you both" Maribel opens my door "Judy and Shelby are on the way to get the car now"
We switch over to Maribels car when I hear yelling. I look over and see her running toward me. Oh HELLL no!
"Rachel please! I'm sor~"
"Fuck you!" I point a drunk and angry finger at her "You don't gotta hurt me and then expect to just come back in mys life! You fucked me up! I thought I was special but you hurt me! You lied to me and right now! I just wanna be away from you"
"Please let me talk" I roll my eyes and she goes on "I just wanted you to be ok! I saw you hurting and blaming yourself! I-I didn't wanna play this voicemail to you but...this is Finns real words to you"
'Rachel Berry I'm going to beat you to a inch of your life! You're gonna wish raping you was all I did! I'm gonna enjoy the pain that spreads across your face when you have to watch me with you mo-'
I end the voicemail. I couldn't handle to hear anymore. I felt bad for locking this man up but...he wants to do bad things to me. He threatens my mom and whatever was in that. Brittany, even though her lied, was trying to hide that from me and make me feel better.
"Right now I think we shouldn't date" I look into Brittanys eyes "I just think for right now I need to focus on friendships and myself first ok?"
"I'll wait as long as I need to" Brittany gives me a big hug "I'm always going to be here for you"
"Thank you" I pull back and look at Maribel "I need to go see Emma now"
-Brittany pov-
I watch Rachel get in Maribels car and go away. I know she's going to be home tonight but still. I should be the one holding her hand when's she nervous and now I may not. She still wants to be friends though..I can live with that.
"You'll get her back eventually" I look at Quinn who pulls me into a hug "You did the right thing there"
"I love her Q" I choke out a sob "I love her so much!"
I keep crying into her arm for a while. We eventually get back in our car and head to the house. I immediately go to my room. I just need some peace and quiet.
-Time skip-Rachel pov-
Emma helped me understand something's. I need to work on myself more before I work on anything else. I already knew that but it helps getting the second opinion. Especially from someone like her.
The second things was that I need to realize that Finn want my fault. That's going to be the easier of the two in my opinion. After that voicemail I've already pretty much got that in my head. When I get into the house I see Brittany reading at the kitchen table.
I walk in and give her a hug. I can't be with her right now because I wanna give her all of me. Right now, I'm not all of me. I just wish I could be.
"You ok?" I look up at Brittany who's looking at me worried "You seem like you're scared to let go"
"Just let me hold you please?" Brittany nods and wraps her arms around me too "Thank you"
We let a comfortable silence over take us. This feels nice and I don't wanna let it go but I need to get myself in a good mindset before I try again. I don't wanna make her worry about me 24/7. She doesn't deserve that.
When we break apart finally I walk out of the room. I end up in my room to sit and wonder. How's long is it going to take? Will she still be waiting for me? Will I be what she really wants?
I guess that's for the future to decide.
-Santana pov-
I am sitting outside beside Quinn. It's silent but I have things I wanna talk to her about. I just don't know how to speak up...I guess I should just go for it.
"Hey Q?" She looks over at me "You really wanna be together right?"
"Of course" she looks at me confused "Why?"
"Because I feel like I'm not good for you" She goes to speak but I cut her off "I just want to make sure you are getting something out of this too"
"Santana I am happy with you" She grabs my hand and smiles brightly "I wouldn't wanna be with anyone else"
"I'm glad to hear that" I rest my head on her shoulder and let out a relieved sigh "That's all for now"
Quinn nods and goes back to her reading. I feel safe here with her. I feel like I'm at home with her. I feel like for once in my life I'm me! I never wanna lose this piece of me.
I need this piece of me.
-Shelby pov-
I finally got Beth down for a nap today. I walk out of her room and to the bedroom. I see Judy on the bed looking at a picture. I walk up and see it's a picture of her, Fran, and baby Quinn.
"Where's Russel at?" She looks up at me confused "The photo"
"He was away on business" Judy sighs and looks back at the picture "I just never thought I'd end up like this"
"A lesbian?" She playfully smacks my arm and lets out a chuckles "You ok?"
"I'm good" She gives me a genuine smile "Now that I have all of you with me"
I pull her close and give her a kiss on the cheek. Soon another set of arms wraps around us and I see it's Maribel. I've never thought about being in a multi-person relationship before. I must say I'm enjoying this though.
I just hope it lasts. I really do like both of these women. They've made my daughters lives better and they've made mine better too. I love this so much and I can't wait to see what's next.
I just really hope I'm apart of what's next.
Yes it was shorter and I know I said I wasn't going to get this out. BUT! The idea finally came to me and I typed it as fast as I could. I hope you all enjoyed!
