-Chapter 35- Wake me up-
-Rachel pov-
"It's only weird if you make it weird" I glare at Blaine as he throws his hands up "Sorry"
"She's been in there for too long" Santana growls and walks toward the bathroom door "Are you ok?"
"I'm fine" We all roll our eyes at the response "You know September is my favorite month?"
"That's cute" Santana pounds on the door "If you don't open this fucking door I'm gonna cut you to pieces!"
"Santana!" I push her away from the door "You don't talk to someone who's dealing with stress that way! It's only been 2 minutes! The test will take time!"
"It's done" We both look at the door and see the one line "I'm fine"
"Thank the he~" Santana is cut from giving Quinn a hug by Quinn's outstretched arm "What?"
"Just don't" Quinn frowns and turns to the bedroom "I'm not going to school today"
"What just happened?" Santana looks at me confused "Did I do something"
"Fuck you Santana" I walk up to Blaine "Let's go"
It takes a moment but he follows me outside. I hope into his car and we head to school. Screw Santana right now. If I was Quinn I'd have cut her away. So much for being a good girlfriend.
-Santana pov-
'Fuck you Santana'
'Just Dont'
You fucked up Santana! You useless idiot! You can't even figure out what's wring with Quinn and you pissed off one of the only people who cares about you! You fucking dumbass!
No I'm strong! I'm useful and smart! I'm beautiful in my own way. You didn't put to much emphasis on that one. Because I know it's true...right? Right?
I look down at the scars on my wrist. These don't look beautiful. But the doctor said I was. Quinn says I am. But she doesn't now...she doesn't even want a hug.
I slowly walk up to the door and knock "Hang on" when did Fran get in there? She opens the door and glares at me "If it isn't the fuck up! Get the hell out of here and go to school ok? She doesn't want to see you!"
"I-I-I'm Sorry" I take step back and put my hands on my head as the negative thoughts creep in "IM NOT! IM NOT! IM FINE! I DONT WANT TO DIE! I don't want to die...I want to die"
"Quinn call Maribel" I feel myself get pulled into someone's arms "It'll be ok...I didn't mean what I said I was upset...I'm so sorry Santana"
I just shake in the person arms. I feel completely numb. If this person lets me go I'm a goner. There's no hope for me. I push myself out of their arms and run. I grab my keys and hop into my car.
I hear yelling but i don't care. I pull out of the driveway and drive as fast as I can. I speed down the road not really thinking. Just doing.
-Time skip-Rachel pov-
Maribel called Shelby into the office during Glee. I had seen she was worried earlier but she didn't say why. Brittany hasn't heard anything either but all the moms look worried.
"Uhh why don't we do a song huh?" Shelby looks pale but points at Blaine raising his hand "You got one Blaine?"
"Yeah" Blaine stands up and walks to the front of the Blazers room "This is one that's just on my head right now"
-Santana pov- Blaine singing-
I'm on a country like road right now. I'm hitting speeds that my car can barely handle. It keeps veering to the right or left every now and then. I'll be fine though. I just need to get feeling again
Life's too short to even care at all oh,
I'm losing my mind losing my mind losing control
These fishes in the sea they're staring at me oh, oh
A wet world aches for a beat of a drum
Oh, oh
I pass a truck that has to go over on the side more. I start applying the brakes but it's not working. My car isn't responding anymore.
If I could find a way to see this straight
I'd run away
To some fortune that I should have found by now
I'm waiting for this cough syrup to come down, come down
There's no cars that I'm seeing but I still can't stop. It's like my foot just won't move. I feel something for the first time this trip. I feel fear.
Life's too short to even care at all oh,
I'm coming up now coming up now out of the blue oh,
These zombies in the park they're looking for my heart
Oh , oh
A dark world aches for a splash of the sun oh, oh
There's lights coming over a hill a bit a ways away. They are taking up the whole road! I try to get over to the side but my car veers left.
If I could find a way to see this straight
I'd run away
To some fortune that I should have found by now
I see the lights getting closer to my car. I can't get my car off the left side without veering again. I take the chance though and turn right. I'm now sideways.
And so I run now to the things they said could restore me
Restore life the way it should be
I'm waiting for this cough syrup to come down
The truck hits so quick I barely register it. I was still drifting when it hit. I'm in the air now. All I can do is wait to fall down.
Life's too short to even care at all oh
I'm losing my mind losing my mind losing control oh,
I wonder if Quinn will be ok and forgive me for this. I hope she does. I look to the right and everything is going in slow motion. I can see the truck going sideways now.
If I could find a way to see this straight
I'd run away
To some fortune that I should have found by now
"I'm sorry" I pull out my phone as I feel the drop and push a contact "I'm sorry I failed mom...I love you"
So I run now to the things they said could restore me
Restore life the way it should be
I'm waiting for this cough syrup to come down
I hear her crying as my car slams into the ground. I roll and roll and roll. When I stop rolling I hear yelling. I can't respond though as the darkness takes over. I'm so sorry love...I won't be home soon.
One more spoon of cough syrup now, oh
One more spoon of cough syrup now, oh
-Quinn pov-
I feel a pang in my heart and fall to my knees. The pang turns into a knife twisting. I can't help the strangled sob that breaks through. I feel arms wrap around me and yelling but I can't focus.
Something happened to Santana...she's not ok.
-Time skip-
I'm sitting in the waiting room with the family. Rachel and Brittany are holding onto me. I look across the room at Fran. She looks at me then looks away. She blames herself...she's falling back.
"Hang on" I stand up and leave Rachel and Brittany to walk to Fran "Its not your fault"
"It is my fault!" Fran stands up teary eyed and upset "I said all of those mean things! I killed her! I killed her"
Fran collapses into a ball of sobs. I feel my own tears start to form as I drop down to her. I wrap my arms around her and she fights. She pushes at me but I hold on until she stops. When she stops we just sob and hold each other.
"Family of Santana Lopez?" I look up at the nurse standing in the door way "I guess that you all"
"Is she ok?" Maribel stands up and puts a hand on Frans back "Is she going to be ok?"
"She's awake luckily" He looks down at the clipboard "She's on some painkillers and won't be walking for a month maybe never...the police told us the brakes broke but weren't tampered with...she got lucky"
"Can we see her?" The nurse sighs and looks at Maribel "What? Is it so bad a mom wants to see her hurt daughter?!"
"She asked for two people specific" The nurse looks at the board "Quinn and Fran"
I feel Fran tense beside me "I can't go" Fran shakes her head frantically "Maribel goes first"
"No I won't" Maribel steps in front of Fran and makes her look at her "Santana wants to see you and I don't blame you! Now get up and go see that girl"
"I-I" Maribel raises a eyebrow and Fran sighs "Alright"
I help Fran up and we follow the nurse. He leads us to her room and walks away. I take a deep breath and open the door. I choke on a sob as I see her. She has so many tubes attached.
"Hey...come in" I nudge Fran in before following her to Santana's bedside "I'm just gonna start off saying I'm sorry to both of you...Quinn I didn't mean to go off...I was scared and reacted bad...Fran...don't beat yourself up ok? I'm sorry I'm...I'm making you beat yourself up you shouldn't be...I don't blame you for what you said I would've"
"You don't don't deserve this" Fran sniffles as she put a hand on Santana shoulder "You know you'll be on watch now right?"
"Yeah" She sighs "I guess you never fully get out huh?"
"You couldn't take your meds" Santana looks at me confused "You couldn't take your antis cause I was in the bathroom"
"They weren't in that bathroom" San frowns "They were out anyways"
"Never leave me like this again San" I can't help breaking down as I throw myself onto her "Never leave me again!"
"I won't Princess" She wraps her arms around me and I feel wetness on my shoulder "I won't"
