14/09/2021
"Good morning love"-Sheldon rolled over the bed to see Amy an give her a kiss.
"Morning Sheldon"-She kissed him too, and rubbed a bit her neck.
"Did you sleep well?"-Sheldon asked.
"Could've slept better, but it was okay. The window noises were annoying me all night. And that smell of rotten pizza from the neighbours."-Amy complained.
"Amy, I didn't hear the window with my hearing. That's weird."-Sheldon shrugged.-"I'll go prepare lunch, we have to eat fast so we can get that plane to California and give the guys a surprise."
"Okay, I'll get dressed."
Amy, do you remember those symptoms from before? No, it can't be. It can't be.
Well, I think I still have a pregnancy test here... I could just do the test. If it's negative, nothing to worry about. If it's positive then... We'll think about that... It's not going to be positive, is it?
Well, it won't. But just to be sure, okay?
After ten minutes, Sheldon was starting to get nervous. He did his usual ritual of knocking the door thrice. "Amy, are you okay? We agreed that we'd only be seven minutes maximum in the bathroom!"
Amy had small tears in her eyes, happy tears. "Yeah yeah I'm okay, I'm sorry I took so long. I was waiting the results for something!"
"Results? For what? Are you dying? AM I DYING?"-Sheldon freaked out.
"No, no-one's dying. It's the complete opposite"-Amy wiped the tears away and opened the door. She showed the test to Sheldon.
His eyes widened open.-"Amy that's- fantastic! But we should get going to California, my loves. And for your information Amy, the opposite of not dying is living, not being pregnant."
Amy laughed.-"I know Sheldon. Yes, let's get going"
Sheldon gave her a long, passionate kiss while rubbing her belly, where in a few months, the baby bump will start to show. If everything went good of course.
I'm scared. I'm scared it's going to happen again. I couldn't stand it. I doubt Amy could either. What if... No, Sheldon, think positive. It's not going to happen again. This time is not going to happen, this time next year you'll have a small little baby in your arms, okay? Think of it that way Sheldon.
Three knocks, "penny, leonard and the triplets!"
Three knocks, "penny, leonard and the triplets!"
Three knocks, "penny, leonard and the triplets!"
"It's open, come in Shamy!"-Penny said with a smile from the inside of the flat.
The door opened and Sheldon and Amy found Penny sitting on the sofa, with little Elliot in her arms, little James was playing with a few toys and Stella was just asleep in Leonard's arms.
"Woah they've grown so much!"-Amy said and smiled to the big family.
"I agree with Amy, they really have."-Sheldon said.-"Could I hold one of them?"
"Oh- Of course Sheldon. Just make sure to not let him fall okay?"-Penny said and getting up, she passed little Elliott to him.
"Here, shh, calm sweetie, it's just uncle Sheldon. Elliott, sweetie, calm."-Penny tried to calm her son, who didn't really like anyone except from his mum and dad.
"He's still the smallest of all, huh?"-Sheldon asked curiously, as he moved the baby calmly. He was doing it pretty good actually.
"Yep, but I'm sure he'll catch them someday"-Leonard said with a smile from the other part of the room.
Sheldon sighed.
Amy's pregnant again, we're going to have a baby this time, I shouldn't be thinking about this. But I can't stop it. How would it all have been if he wasn't born like that...? We'd be a happy family now, like Leonard and Penny.But no. God or whoever is up there decided that we weren't worth it. What mum said didn't explain anything. How can it be god's plan that I loose my son. How on earth can it be his plan. How can it be his plan that we have to suffer all the time seeing the triplets and Bernadette's sons when ours wasn't even born alive.But look at them. Why do they have their sons us don't? It's not fair. It's not fair that they got to see theirs, hold theirs, read to theirs and I didn't.It's not fair that Leonard got to know his sons and daughter. It's not fair that he can hold them everyday, tuck them in bed when I can't. It's not fair. But it still is our true and sad reality I guess.Think positive Sheldon, Amy's pregnant again. You'll have your little baby here in... May... In may. Again may. Why do you want me to hate that month?
Sheldon was shaken off his thoughts by little Elliot moving on his arms.
"Penny! Penny! What do I do now?"-He asked, scared the little boy would fall.
"Sheldon, I'm sorry to ask, but how did this come? Last time you guys visited you didn't show any interest in holding him. Not that I complain, he rarely leaves my arms."-Penny grinned.
"I didn't get to hold mine, I guess I need practice if Amy ever gets pregnant again..."-He mentioned the touchy subject again, but immediately walked towards Amy to out a hand on her shoulder reassuring her.
"Sheldon, there's no point in saying 'again'."-Amy looked at Leonard and Penny with a smile and said.-"I'm pregnant again"
"Amy that's amazing! I'm sure everything will go okay this time"-Penny said, going to hug Amy.
"That's amazing guys, I'm so happy for you!"-Leonard said.-"Penny, we should really put the babies to sleep"-He said, with still asleep Stella in his arms.
"Yep, coming. Sheldon, do I take Elliott or do you want to help us?"-Penny asked the theorical physicist.
"I'm helping you"-He smiled at the kid and brought him to the room.
"So, now that you're pregnant again, are you guys going to move back to Pasadena?"-Leonard asked the couple while eating dinner.
"Well, we just found out this morning, but I think we'll be staying there. We have new good jobs there, and we can always come and visit you, or just call you. New York is a new step of our lives."-Amy said.-"We have a big flat there and we're already settled down. It's been almost a year since we moved out of Pasadena, but we're not coming back."
Penny smiled faintly, she thought that maybe her best friend would come back but no...
"Amy's right, we're staring again in New York, we have great jobs a great house and there's great schools there. We will visit you at least twice a year, don't worry."-Sheldon had thought that for a while, but it was right, they had a new life in there.
24/12/21
Sheldon smiled and carefully rubbed Amy's baby bump. "Amy, Amy, wake up. We've got to go to the Wolowitz's house for dinner remember? You've taken a long nap."
Amy rubbed her eyes and opened them and closed them repeatedly.
"Sorry Sheldon, I'm just really tired."-Amy said and gave him a kiss.
"I understand, now let's leave this hotel room and go before they get angry at us because we're late"
Amy kept rubbing her bump all the way to the house, she had being doing it a lot.
"Sheldon, in five months, our baby girl will hopefully be here, can you believe it?"
"Well yes because I made the calculus, but no. It's getting so real again..."-Sheldon looked at Amy with a serious face.-"Do you ever wonder how it would all have been if we hadn't..."
"Lost him..? Yes, really often actually. But he's in a better place now, I like to believe he is in heaven like your mother says. He's a little angel now, I guess."-Amy sighed.
"He is, I'm sure."-Shelson said and held Amy's hand tight.-"Heaven is a really sweet name, isn't it?"
Amy rose an eyebrow.-"I'd like to disagree Sheldon, and I think it's too early to think names for our little girl"
I'm sorry about the heartbreak in the last chapter, I promise it gets better for them. Please let me know what you think in reviews please! :D
I'll start writing chapter 9 as fast as possible :D
