This fanfiction is an imaginary What If Scenario of what would've happened if Jade had gone to Cat's house instead of Tori's after she had broke up with Beck in the episode 'Jade dumps Beck' from the first Season of Victorious.
Jade POV
Have you ever tried to drive when you're crying? It's not easy at all... I'm barely able to see where I'm going... I was on my way to Tori's house, to ask her help to get Beck back. Yeah this is how desperate I am. Willing to ask Vega's help to fix things between us. That and because I don't want anyone from school to see me in this pathetic state. Jade West doesn't cry in front of anyone... Anyone that matters at least. But as I'm just a few houses away from her home, I don't know why but something clicks in me and I change my mind.
Maybe I don't need Vega's help to fix things with him. Maybe I don't need anyone's help. Why should I be the one to make the first move to make peace with Beck? If he doesn't feel the need to do anything to get me back maybe I should just make him realize how much he misses me until he will come back to me telling me I'm the only one for him... And if he doesn't... I don't even want to think about it.
I squeeze my eyes for a second and change my destination. I just need to see a friendly face right now. But a part from Beck the closest thing I have to friend is a certain little bubbly redhead that I know since junior high school: Cat Valentine.
As I pull in the Valentine's driveway and park my car wiping my tears and the mascara off my face with some tissues, I take a slow breath to calm myself down before getting out of the car and walking to Cat's front door. I ring the doorbell.
I feel like a mess. I just don't want to think about Beck tonight, and Cat has always been good at distracting me. The girl is always so cheerful. I don't know how she is able to be like that all the time. I pretend I don't like her but I actually envy her for that.
Cat herself opens the door.
"Hiii Jadey!" she smiles at me before frowning as she notices my expression "Jade, are you okay? Have you been crying?" she asks me
I roll my eyes "No why would I. I only broke up with my boyfriend"
She looks sad at me "Aww Jade. Tori told me about you and Beck... I'm so sorry... Come in!" she says letting me in "Let's go to my room" she tells me taking my hand in hers but I yank it away
"I know where your room is" I tell her sternly
She pouts at me for a moment but then smiles "Kay Kay"
As we go to her room I make an annoyed face as I look around. Cat's room is full of bright colors, pink being the dominant one, stuffed toys and pictures of puppies and other animals all around. The opposite of mine. Like always I mentally facepalm at the thought that this girl seems to not have grown up in the slightest from when she was 12. Only thing that changed about her is her hair color which she dyed a bright red from a couple of years now. And her body which is definitely more developed now... Not that I payed too much attention to it, but... Yeah. I realize I'm looking at her toned bare legs while I'm thinking that. I look away. Why this girl has to wear either shorts or skirts almost all the time?
She closes the door behind me as she asks "Do you want to talk about it?"
"No" I immediately reply
"Oh ok well..." she says but I cut her off unable to stop myself
"I just don't get it... I gave Beck two years of my life, he knows I'm jealous but he still gives his number to other girls and hangs out with them just so those skanks can flirt with him! He even let Tori kiss him during alphabet improv! How can I trust him if he keeps doing this kind of stuff? I'm so tired of his BS... But at the same time I don't want to lose him I... I don't know what to do... Fuck! " I finish my ramble fighting back the tears that are threatening to escape my eyes again
"Swear!" Cat says pointing a finger at me frowning
I groan while plopping on her bed pushing some of her stuffed animals away to lie on it.
Cat sits next to me and starts to gently massage my forehead with the tip of her fingers. I look at her questioning "What are you doing?"
"Trying to make you feel better" she says smiling at me
"Then tell me Beck will realize how amazing I am and that he will do anything to get me back!" I tell her
She looks at me tenderly "Jade can I tell you something else?"
"What?" I ask her
She looks away for a moment before looking back at me "Do you remember when we first got to Hollywood Arts together? We were so happy... For the first time I was seeing you smile every day since your parents divorce"
"The point?" I say annoyed looking at her... Her chocolate eyes look so beautiful and peaceful it's almost distracting. Wait what? I must feel very emotional right now cause I don't know why I even thought of that
"...Then we met Beck, and you two immediately got along" Cat continues "I must say I was a little jealous cause you were my best friend and then all of a sudden I was seeing you hanging out with him all the time" she blushes and looks away for a moment before giggling. I look at her with a puzzled expression. What is she trying to say?
"... But I was happy cause he seemed to make you happy too. You two were so good as friends... But then you started dating and... You were fighting every day. Because of your jealousy and because Beck complained you didn't trust him even though he wasn't exactly pushing the other girls away from him... I'm sorry to say this but your relationship quickly became toxic for the both of you. That's why I just wish you two would have stayed like you were... happy and just friends... " Cat says tucking a strand of my hair behind my ear with a sad smile.
I pull myself up in a sitting position and glare at her. She notices it and looks at me scared
"So you're saying we shouldn't get back together? You know I love him and this is your advice? Wow thanks a lot Cat!" I yell at her standing up
She looks mortified at me as I stand up "Coming here was a mistake" I say
She jumps after me and grabs my wrist to stop me from opening the door and leave
"No! Don't go, please Jadey..." she says
"Don't call me that!" I glare at her furiously so she corrects herself "Jade... I'm sorry I didn't mean that... I mean... I shouldn't... I mean... I..." she starts sobbing "I just want to see you happy again... Like you used to be... I'm sorry don't go away... I'm your friend"
I look at her a bit moved from her words but when I'm so angry I'm simply a bitch (more than usual) so I yell "Let me go, you're not my friend!"
The look Cat gives me as she let's my wrist go makes my heart break in two. It's like I slapped her with all my strength across the face.
"I... I'm... not?" She whimpers. I see big tears forming in her eyes as she places an hand on her chest with such an hurt expression that she actually looks like she is really in physical pain, like I just stabbed her or something...
I can' t stand it, I can't be so hard... Not with her. So I do something I never usually do: I pull her in an hug and start stroking her hair softly
"I'm sorry Cat. Of course you are my friend... I'm just angry because of Beck right now, don't listen to me when I'm like that" I tell her softly while I feel her scent all over me. Vanilla. It's... nice
Cat stays still in my embrace for a bit before I hear a little giggle and feel her enveloping my body with her tiny arms as she pushes herself up on her toes a little to rest her head on my shoulder. I feel her tears wetting my shirt there, as she calms down
"I am sorry Jade. I shouldn't have told you those things. I know how much Beck means to you" she tells me with an hint of sadness in her voice
I pull away looking at her in the eyes "It's OK. I know you care about me. And I'm grateful to you for that" I tell her. She smiles a big smile and wipes her tears away from her face.
"You're sweet Jade" Cat says which takes me by surprise.
"No I'm not" I tell her. She shrugs and giggles "Why would you even say that?" I ask her
"You hugged me... And told me nice things" she says taking my hand in hers.
"Still, I'm always mean to you. You know that" I tell her
"Not always... You're actually nicer to me than you're with the others. Except Beck..." she says. And I have to admit it's true. I don't give Cat too much of an hard time because, one I know this girl from years, two I'm mean but not a monster I can't hurt someone like her, and three... I like her... As a friend... Even though I wouldn't admit it to anyone. She is looking down at our joined hands now, before continuing "And when we are alone you're sweet to me, even if you don' t realize it..." she smiles at me. A genuine happy and big smile
I smile back a little, because her smile is contagious. I let her hand go soon though as for some reason I was beginning to feel myself blush while looking at her. I must really feel very emotional tonight...
"Can we just... I don't know watch a movie or something? I want to distract myself" I say.
"Kay Kay I know just the right movie!" she says bouncing through her room to take a DVD from her collection.
I roll my eyes at her enthusiasm as I lie on her bed again. She returns waving The Wizard of Oz at me. I look at her with an expression that says 'Seriously?'
And she just smiles saying "You remember the last time we have seen this?"
I sigh and look up at he ceiling pretending to be annoyed but my smile is betraying me as I reply "Yeah... We were in junior high and you had to audition to be a cheerleader. You were so nervous, so I bought you that DVD to distract you and we watched it together"
"Yes! Aww you remember Jadey!" she says grinning at me
"Yeah... And I also remember that in the end you were able to get in the cheerleaders just fine. You looked pretty good in your outfit" ok I don't know why I said that. It just slipped out of my mouth at the memory of her dressed as a cheerleader I guess...
"Aww thank you! I still have it, you know and it still fits me!" Cat tells me giggling
"Good to know" I say sarcastic
She smiles leaning down to kiss the tip of my nose. I look at her almost shocked... For a moment I thought she was going to kiss me on the lips... I feel myself blush as she bounces to put the DVD in the player turning the TV on. Then she opens the door to leave her room
"Where are you going?" I ask her
"I'll be back in a seeeec!" she says in a sing song voice from her corridor.
I roll my eyes and take the remote to push play and start the movie. She returns with a bowl of marshmallows that she places near me as she takes her stuffed purple giraffe and jumps on the bed next to me.
"Marshmallows?" I ask her
She nods smiling "My mom usually doesn't want me to eat sweets before bed but she said I could this time cause I told her I had my best friend over!"
I feel my heart flutter hearing her say once more that I'm her best friend despite the fact I'm mean to her more often than not.
"You're staying over right? You sleep here tonight... Right? We can share my bed like the old times " Cat asks me hopeful, and she looks so adorable that I just can't say no to her.
I smile "Sure. As long as you have some clothes for me for the night, that can fit me... unless you want me to sleep with you in just my underwear" I let out a chuckle
"Oh it wouldn't be a problem for me, actually I would like..." she trails off and blushes almost as red as her hair looking away from me. She lets out one of her usual giggles but this one seems more like a nervous laugh "I mean I'm sure I'll find some of my jammies that can fit you!" she says.
I look at her. What was that? It's almost like Cat hoped I would have actually slept half naked with her... Nah that can't be... Right?
I say nothing and we just start watching the movie while occasionally eating some marshmallows.
I'm watching the TV but not really seen it as I start thinking about Beck again. How could he let that Alyssa Vaughn hit on him so blatantly and have the guts to tell me I'm making a scene at him over nothing?
What if Cat is right? Maybe Beck and I need some time apart to decide if we actually work better as friends rather than lovers...
Then at some point during the movie I feel Cat lightly poking my side with her fingers. I turn my head to glare at her and tell her to stop when I see her with her mouth full of marshmallows and her cheeks looking huge.
I start giggling "What the...?"
"C... ubb... buuuny" she says or rather tries to say.
I laugh "Chubby Bunny?" I ask her
She nods and points at the half empty bowl and then to my mouth to tell me to do the same with the marshmallows that are left
"Oh no... I'm not doing it" I tell her smirking
"Co... on..." she tries to say and I laugh again
"Nope" I reply to her. She looks at me pouting with her huge cheeks before her face lights up as she jumps on me
"Cat! What the...?" I say but she is already grabbing a marshmallow and putting it in my mouth taking the opportunity that I was talking
"C...aaa...!" I try to say and to push her off me but she has already grabbed another marshmallow and tries to place it in my mouth. I laugh and in the end I let her do it and she keeps this up until the bowl is empty and my mouth is full just like hers. We look at each other smiling between choked laughs before I start tickling her and she starts shaking while straddling my legs and has to spit the marshmallows back in the bowl releasing them from her mouth to let out her chuckles.
I do the same after her, before placing the bowl away on her bedside table while she is still giggling laying on the opposite side of the bed
"Not fair! You weren't supposed to start tickling me Jade!" Cat says between her laughters
"Now now, you know I don't play fair" I tell her as I sit on my knees and grab one of her bare feet to start tickling the bottom of it. She gasp and starts laughing even more trying to free her ankle from my grip
"Jadey! Hahahahahahaha stop! Hahahahahahaha I'm so... Hahahaha ticklish! Hahaha" Cat laughs kicking her other foot and trying to slid off her bed to get away from me.
I start giggling too at her reaction "Where do you think you're going?" I say and grab her other ankle to pull her closer to me again but I put too much strength in it pulling her too close to me until I find myself sitting right between her bare legs (she is wearing shorts). She sits up and her face is so close to mine right now I can feel her uneven breath on my skin.
She stops chuckling immediately looking at me serious. I stare at her gaping. Good lord she is so fucking beautiful so upclose... My eyes take in everything about her flawless face: her chocolate eyes, her perfect nose, flaming red hair and then I found myself staring at her pink lips. I feel myself blush and even more when I notice her face is flushed too and she is staring in my eyes. Both of us seem unable to say a word but neither of us wants to pull away. After what it felt like ages Cat reaches my face with her hand to touch my cheek, caressing it lightly with her thumb. Her lips part in awe and I can see the white pearls of her teeth for a moment. My heart is starting to beat always faster when I decide to pull away placing my hands on her hips (my hands burning at the contact) to put some distance between us.
She looks away from me embarrassed and back at the TV still playing the movie and then says "Gotta pee!" as she bounces off her bed and runs out of the room.
I'm still trying to wrap my head around what just happened. It seemed like we were about to... Kiss. And both of us seemed to want it... What the fuck? Since when Cat swings that way? Since when I swing that way? I arrived here crying my eyes out because of my boyfriend and then I was about to kiss Cat? A girl?
Do I have feelings for her? Does she have feelings for me? What is going on?
No it can't be... We were just fooling around and our crazy teenage hormones just decided to make us a little confused there. But in the end we didn't do anything weird... So everything is normal. No need to overthink it...
I'm glad that when Cat returns to her room smiling she seems to be thinking the same thing as she plops on her bed like nothing happened hugging her purple giraffe at her.
"Oh no! The flying monkeys!" she exclaims pointing at the movie and continuing to comment from time to time like it's the first time she has ever seen it.
Same old Cat. Everything is normal.
But it isn't... Not completely at least. When the movie ends and she gives me one of her pajamas, and I need to change she excuses herself again and goes to the bath with a blush.
Weird. Cat and I always used to change around each other when we were little so why it should be a bid deal now? It isn't... Right? Then why am I feeling relieved of not having to try not to stare at her when she would have taken off her clothes from her beautiful petite body to get into her PJs? Wait I just thought of that? Why? I shake my head.
When she returns she is already in her own pajamas (a purple shirt with candies drawn on it and long pink pants) and I am in mine (knowing my tastes she gave me one of her PJs with less colors, a simple blue shirt and white pants with green polka dots). She smiles at me and we both get in her bed
"Let me tell you a bedtime story!" Cat says as soon as she wraps the sheets around us, her purple giraffe always with her and between us.
I groan "Noooo!" but she starts anyway.
She starts a random story about a kitten who had fallen in love with a bunny but was too scared to tell him because they were too different and she wasn't sure he would have reciprocated her feelings. I don't pay much attention to it but maybe I should have had...
I pretend to be asleep already midway through the story hoping that she will just stop talking and I feel grateful when I hear silence and understand that it worked. She turns off her bedside lamp and tells me "Nighty nighty Jadey" caressing my head lightly
As I'm about to really drift off to sleep I hear her start talking to herself after some minutes. She is whispering but being so close to her in the bed I'm able to hear her. I open one eye certain that she can't see me because of the dark and I notice that she is holding her purple giraffe in front of her. She is talking to her stuffed animal... Typical Cat... I hope it won't be a long conversation, as I close my eyes again trying to sleep. But then I hear her saying something that gets my attention to the point that my eyes blow open:
"... So Mr. Purple... What am I supposed to do? Jade's my friend. My best friend. I can't ruin everything. I need to get over my feelings for her... I know Mr. Purple that I can't just ignore my heart, but she loves Beck. He is a good guy and also my friend... I know I know... He doesn't treat her right... I mean he is nice but... She deserves better... He always flirts with other girls instead of realizing how lucky he is to be with such an amazing woman... I just want her to be happy. I know I could make her happy... But she will never want me... So we just needs to be friends" she stops talking and I see her hugging her stuffed giraffe at her sitting up and starts sobbing. I close my eyes as I see her looking towards me.
"Jadey? Jade?... Are you awake? Jade? " she whisper softly in my ear shaking my arm lightly. I pretend to be asleep even snoring a little and she believes it. I know she does because otherwise she would have never have had the courage to do the next thing she does, which sends a jolt thoughtout my body.
She leans down on me and I feel her long hair tickling my face a little before she presses her lips on mine.
She kisses me, a soft, gentle kiss on my mouth. Her lips taste a little salty because of her tears but they still feel amazing to kiss. I hope she doesn't realize that my heart started beating three times faster the moment she placed her lips on mine. I'm half tempted to respond to the kiss when suddenly she pulls away after just a few seconds and snuggles with her back into me taking one of my arms and making me wrap it around her tiny body. I hear her release a content little giggle. And in barely five minutes she is already snoring, asleep.
I can't sleep instead... I'm shocked... Cat has feelings for me... And I'm currently in bed with her, feeling confused as fuck, after I just broke up with my boyfriend. And I just can't stop thinking of how good, and soft her lips felt on mine just few minutes ago...
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