Cat POV
I feel so happy right now I'm tempted to hug everyone in school! Jade and I... We are girlfriends! I would have never thought it would have happened! And so fast! My heart is so full of joy right now! We kissed this time a real kiss (not a peck on the lips I stole her in her 'sleep'... I still feel so embarrassed about it, but luckily Jade was not mad at me! Phew...). And let me tell you my GF kisses me so good she even made me like the taste of coffee! Hehe...
As we enter Sikowitz's class we find Tori and the others sitting on the stage while the rest of the class is either checking their Pearphones or taking a nap. Sikowitz isn't here despite the fact Jade and I are at least 10 minutes late.
"Where's Sikowitz?" Jade asks
"His mom called him... Apparently she found something 'weird' under his bed and he needed to go check what it was" Andre replies before he notices that we are holding hands.
I giggle blushing while swinging our arms back and forth "Hiiii!" I greet everyone
"Uhm, HI, Cat..." I see that Tori is also looking confused at us. Robbie is gaping instead. Beck seems sad and maybe even angry... I feel a bit bad for him... I hope we can all still be friends. Him, Jade and me I mean... if not now, eventually, in the future...
"So hmmm... You and little Red look closer than usual I see..." Andre continues to tell Jade. I smile at the nickname he often uses for me.
Jade lets out a sarcastic laugh "Please... Don't pretend like Beck didn't tell you guys already"
"Tell us what?" Tori asks her
"Jade and I are together now. We are girlfriends!" I say giggling. I just couldn't hold myself back from announcing that to everyone!
Jade smiles at me then turns to Tori and the others with a smirk.
I hear the other students start talking behind us. Some boy whistles and a girl laughs. Jade immediately turns in their direction with her scissors in hand. Where was she even keeping those?
"Someone have a problem with us?" she asks angrily at them
Everyone starts shaking their head no or saying that they don't as they look at her scared.
"Good" she says placing her scissors back in one of her combat boots. Hehe my girl is so resourceful and badass!
"But I don't understand Cat, since when you and Jade are... Hmmm... You know... Since when do you like each other?" Robbie says blushing looking at us wide eyed and luckily he has not Rex with him today or who knows what kind of mean things he would have said to us.
I'm about to reply something to him but Beck anticipates me "Jade is just using Cat as a rebound"
I feel so hurt. I look at him shocked... I can't find anything not mean to tell him in reply so I just don't say anything ... How can he even think that? Wait... What if he is right though? Oh jeez, I've been so happy about finally be able to be together with Jade that I didn't even think of that possibility. Now that I think about it Jade asked me out right after she broke up with Beck...
"I don't need a rebound Beck. I was already over you the moment you practically told me I needed to change to be with you. Cat likes me for who I am instead. And I like her too... So much" she says looking at me with a smile.
I smile back and I start to relax a little but the doubt is still lingering in my head.
"But you are always mean to her!" Tori says to Jade.
She glares at her and Tori looks afraid "I'm mean to you Vega. Cat and I have always been friends instead. And I was never too hard on her. Right babe?" she winks at me
I giggle "Jade can actually be a sweetie to me when she wants!" I say and blush looking at Jade. Maybe she didn't want me to say that to everyone. But she is smirking so I think it's OK.
"See Beck? Apparently I can be sweet if I'm not dating an asshole" she says
I flinch as I hear her use a bad word but this time I say nothing as Beck stands up saying "So I was the asshole in our couple?"
"Yes!" Jade says letting my hand go and taking a few steps towards him, looking furious and about to pick up a fight
"Jade!" I call her worried
"Guys, let's just..." Tori tries but Jade yells at her
"Shut it Vega!"
Beck is looking so angry at Jade, I've never seen him so mad before... I'm starting to feel scared
Luckily Andre steps between them "Jade, Beck calm down! I think it's better if you two stay away from each other for awhile" she tells to Beck and Jade.
"With pleasure" Jade says grabbing my hand and dragging me with her out of the class. I look behind me at my friends, sad, and I see Tori and Andre looking at me in the same way. Robbie is still gaping at us and looks shocked from the whole situation while Beck looks down.
I feel bad... So bad. Things were not working between him and Jade from some time now but now that she wants to be with me I fear we made everything more complicated. What if they won't be friends anymore? What if no one of our friends would want to be friends with us anymore? Oh chiz...
Jade leads me to the hall's stairs where we both sit down.
I look at her apologetic. Her anger still visible on her thoughtful face.
"Jade... I'm so sorry" I tell her
She looks at me and relax "For what?"
"For making everything more complicated... Because of me you and Beck are fighting now" I say pouting
"Nothing new" she replies
"But this time you were practically at each other's throat! I never saw you two so angry before!" I insist
"You were not with us all the time you know. And it's not your fault. Why should I be with someone that doesn't appreciate me and who doesn't make me happy anymore?" Jade tells me
"Yeah but maybe we jumped the gun a little... I mean not literally. Cause I think jumping a gun would be dangerous..." I say and she laughs shaking her head "But maybe we could've waited some time before getting together"
"Maybe... But after I spoke to Beck this morning and I found you waiting for me by my locker I realized I just couldn't wait anymore. I just wanted to do it..." Jade says looking at me in the eyes with her classic smirk that I find so attractive.
"Do what?" I ask her
"This" she says leaning towards me and capturing my lips. I can hear my heart in my ears for the excitement as I close my eyes and respond to her kiss wrapping my arm around her neck while she places her hand on my bare thigh and her other hand on one of my hips pulling me closer to her. And I'm already and completely lost in her... I love her... I know I do. From quite some time now. And now that I finally have her, I want this moment to last forever. She grabs my legs placing her hand under the back of my knee to tell me to get even closer and I practically jump on her lap as we start making out like there is no tomorrow... I feel a little ditzy from how excited I am. I feel like I'm flying! I bit her lower lip a little bit and she releases a sound I never heard her make before... A sound of pleasure... A moan... Oh my gosh I made Jade West the Goth Queen moan! The sound and the thought alone makes me feel funny... A good funny though. Like it sends a funny tingling that goes from my brain throughout my spine and makes me feel funny in a place I can't even think about without blushing even more than what I'm already doing right now.
I love this feeling. As she opens her mouth and I slip my tongue inside she meets me with her and our tongues start massaging each other but unlike our previous kiss this time she is in charge.
I would've never thought this moment would come... I feel so lucky... I start to remember the first time I met her. It was from back then already that I've started having a crush on her. Even though I couldn't understand it at first cause I was thinking: Whaaaat? I'm a girl so how can I possibly have a crush on another girl? But then I learned that that was actually possible while growing up... But I was still scared cause I didn't know if Jade would have ever felt the same or if I would have just freaked her out by telling her my feelings. And then she started dating Beck... And I knew (or at least thought) I was hopeless. So I just decided to push my feelings for her so far down, that she would have never discovered them. To do that I started dating guys just to try to get over Jade and have what she had with Beck. But of course it didn't work. Finding guys to date was ridiculously easy... Even though people think I'm childish, lightheaded and maybe even a little crazy some time, I know boys like me... Even too much maybe. And sometimes mainly because of my look, which makes them so 's why when some of them tried to do something that would have made me uncomfortable I would have just stopped dating them. I've never been intimate with anyone... The thought kinda scares me actually. I don't know if I'm ready for that kind of intimacy... yet. But when I'm kissing Jade my body reacts in this funny way I never felt before while kissing a boy... Like... It's trying to tell me I might be ready... With her... But it's too soon... Definitely too soon. So calm down crazy hormones!
I lost track of the time from how long we are kissing. Jade's hands are now now tangled in my hair while mine are just below her chest and if I would have to place them just a little higher... I said calm down hormones!
I giggle as she pulls away to breath for air and I do the same before she licks my lips a couple of times making me giggle even more before she resumes the kiss.
Gosh who would have ever thought that one day I would have kissed Jade West! I start to remember the first time I met this wonderful girl I'm now kissing...
Flashback
I was so little... It was the first week of junior high school. I had my natural dark brunette hairs back then and I used to wear pigtails all the time cause my mother thought I looked cute with them. I also used to have braces cause my teeth back then were not so pretty... Eew. Luckily I don't need it anymore. I feel so lucky every day now that I look at myself in the mirror and I see me without it. Oh did I mention I also used to have some freckles on my cheeks back then? Yeah I guess at some point in my teenage hood I really had a glow up while growing up hehe
I remember the day I met Jade so well...
I was in the school courtyard during lunch.
I pick Mr. Purple from my backpack and I smile as I start petting him. The new school kinda scared me and I was afraid no one would have liked me and that I wouldn't have been able to make new friends there. But I knew that I could have always count on my little giraffe friend to make me smile, no matter what.
I start singing a song I made up in that moment while doing a little dance holding Mr. Purple at me with my eyes closed and like I still do now sometimes, I space out from the world surrounding me. But the other kids notice me and start laughing and pointing at me. I look at them offended.
"Why are you laughing at me? It's mean" I tell them, pouting
They laugh even more. Eventually an overweight kid around my age and that I think was named Axl, or Alex (I don't remember) gets closer to me with an evil grimace on his face "Look at this girl! Who let you out of the kindergarten Missy?" he says chuckling with his friends, another tall boy and one less tall but more bulky.
"What's that supposed to mean?" I ask him offended hugging Mr. Purple at me
They laugh so much they have to hold their belly. With one quick motion Axl takes Mr. Purple away from me.
"Let him go! He's mine!" I say trying to take Mr. Purple back but he easily pushes me away, and with just one hand he is able to make me land on my back, on the ground. I lay there trying to fight back the tears but I still sob a little while straightening my skirt as he continues to chuckle pointing at me before he looks at Mr. Purple "She still brings toys to school! She must be retarded!" he says.
I start crying freely now. Back then I couldn't believe someone could be so mean for no reason. But I still gathered the courage to get up and trying to take Mr. Purple back.
But it was a useless effort: he pushes me away again, this time with not enough strenght to make me fall, but just to keep me at distance and continue to make fun of me. He laughs in my face doing a bad imitation of me crying with an hand rubbing one of his eyes as he says "Do you want your little toy, child? Here!" he hands me Mr. Purple but as I try to take him from him he throws it to one of his friend. I run to him but he throws him to the tall kid who laughs "She looks so pathetic!" he says as I fall after I jumped to try to intercept the throw and grab Mr. Purple, but with no success. I feel my knees hurt where they hit the ground and I cry even more "Stop it! You're scaring him!" I try to tell them but they laugh so hard at my words that one of them pretends to fall on the ground, and starts rolling on his back from how much he is laughing.
"I think it's time we put him out of his misery then!" Axl says at one point and he grabs Mr. Purple by the neck and starts squeezing it, like he wanted to choke him. I hide my face between my hands crying so hard. When suddenly, out of nowhere, I hear Axl scream. I remove my hands from my eyes and I see him on his knees covering his... lower regions with both hands in front of a tall brunette girl who is looking at him with cold but mesmerizing blue eyes. She was able to take Mr. Purple from him! She saved Mr. Purple! Axl's bulky friend tries to sneak on her from behind and I'm about to tell her to watch out but she has already turned to him and hits him with a punch right on the nose. He screams in pain as he stumbles back with a bloody nose. The brunette girl barely shakes her hand from the impact of her first connecting against the boy's face while she is still holding Mr. Purple with her other hand, like she is protecting him. I look at her like I'm watching a superhero in action. The tall boy is looking at her scared but challenging like he is trying to decide if he wants to try to attack her or not when the girl grabs a rock from the ground and throws it right on his forehead. The kid cries "Ahhhhh! My head!" he says holding his head with a pained expression. I remember laughing for the first time at seeing someone getting hurt, which kinda makes me feel bad to think about it now.
Then I look at my saviour and I see the girl standing in front of me, so fierce and beautiful handing me Mr. Purple. I smile and wipe the tears off my face standing up. My smile gets bigger as I look at Mr. Purple. He looks OK and all in one piece!
I giggle happy. "Thank you" I timidly say to the girl.
She just nods at me, serious, before a teacher arrives almost running towards us "Oh my God! Jade West! What did you do now! I swear I never saw another student getting into so much trouble during their first week!" she says. Other teachers come to help the hurt kids that are either crying or complaining about how hurt they are. They call Jade crazy and say other mean things about her while pointing at her as they're escorted to the school's infirmary.
Jade looks at the teacher that is scolding her and just smirk and that was the first time I ever saw that smirk that I would have learned later to be such an iconic expression for her.
"Glad I was able to make a new record" Jade says.
"Wipe that smug smile off your face miss West cause I'm bringing you to the Principal! And you better hope you won't get expelled!" the teacher tells her
"Oh no, I'm shitting my pants" Jade says sarcastic
"You little brat!" The teacher says angrily grabbing her by the arm but she immediately pulls free
"Don't touch me. I already know where his office is" Jade tells her with a glare
"It's my fault! Those boys were bullying me! They took my stuffed animal from me and even made me fall on the ground two times! She just wanted to help me she wasn't being mean! Those boys were mean!" I say almost screaming. I won't let my hero get in trouble for saving me and Mr. Purple.
Yep I didn't even realize it in that moment, but I was already thinking of her as my hero. I think my crush for Jade started in that exact moment...
The teacher looks at me while I'm holding Mr. Purple to my chest. Then her eyes trail down to my knees. She notices the bruises and she understands I'm telling the truth.
"Oh I'm sorry honey. Do you need to go to the infirmary too... Hmmm?"
"Cat... Cat Valentine" I say and then shook my head no "I'm OK now. Thanks to her" I smile at Jade. I don't know if I imagined it but I think she blushed a bit in that moment as she looked at me before looking away.
"Well Cat..." she continues "That still doesn't excuse how violent she was to those other kids. Plus it's not the first time she gets in trouble. I have to bring her to the Principal" she says glaring at Jade who just rolls her blue eyes.
"But she just wanted to help me. Please, I don't want her to get expelled because of me. Make sure to tell the Principal why she did... what she did to those boys! Please!" I plead to the teacher.
She seems to think about it but then nods "Of course. It's only fair. Let's go Jade" she says to the girl. Who looks at me like she is surprised that I cared so much about her getting expelled.
I smile at her and before she turns to follow the teacher I reach for her hand and squeeze it "Thanks again. You were amazing!" I whisper in her ear.
She chuckles "Anytime... Just tell me if someone else bothers you"
I giggle and nod before the teacher grabs her other arm taking her away from me and with her. "I'm coming okay! Jeez..." I hear Jade yell.
Luckily the boys weren't hurt too seriously. The one that was hit from the rock had a bump on his head but that was it. And considering the fact that Jade had attacked them to protect me, the principal decided he wasn't going to expel her so she only got a month of detention, every day after school.
I met her the following day again in the courtyard at lunch, sitting alone under a tree eating a sandwich. I bounced to her smiling
"Hey hey! Hiiii!" I greeted her with a loud happy voice.
Jade looked at me like I was a cartoon character she couldn't understand "Hey... I didn't recognize you without your little purple giraffe" she says taking a bite of her sandwich
I giggle and sat indian style very close to her. She looks at me incredulous and moves a bit more distant from me.
"Mr. Purple is good and safe in my locker! Thanks to you!" I tell her
"Oh my God, you even gave that thing a name?" she asks me shaking her head
I nod with enthusiasm "Of course! I have a whole family of stuffed giraffes at my house! His dad is Mr. Longneck! And his mom is Mrs. Pinkie! But I also have other stuffed animals like Mr. Duckling and..." I'm saying but she cuts me off
"Ok I get it, you're still a child! Jesus... You're weird" she says
My smile turns into a frown as I look at her shocked "What's that supposed to mean? I thought you were different..."
"Just because I defended you from those stupid bullies yesterday, it doesn't mean I think it's ok for a 12 years old girl to act like she is still seven or something..." she tells me.
I pout and look away. I feel so hurt... I don't want to cry in front of her but I'm already feeling tears in my eyes that I try to wipe when suddenly she says
"Look I'm sorry I didn't mean nothing by it. I'm just a gank sometimes. I can't help myself. But if I have to be honest... I actually think you're cool." she tells me and I immediately forget I was crying as I feel my heart flutter at her words.
"Really?" I ask her hopeful
"Yeah, it's kinda cool to meet someone like you... Kids our age usually just wants to grow up as soon as possible. Only to find out the adults world sucks." she says looking in front of her with a lost expression.
"I guess... But I always try to look at the bright side of things. Rather than the bad one" I giggle "Like yesterday: those boys were so mean to me but thanks to them I met you. So in the end what happened was a good thing. You get me?" I ask her placing my hand on one of her knees brushing it with my thumb.
She looks at my hand "If you say so" she says before taking my hand in hers but only to remove it from her knee. I pout a little
"Nothing personal. I just don't like to be touched" she tells me.
I look at her confused furrowing my eyebrows.
She looks at my bare legs (I'm wearing shorts today) "Do they hurt?" she asks me
I look at her even more confused for a bit but then I notice she was looking at my bruises that are still visible "Oh no, don't worry... One time my brother and I did a race with our bikes and I fell and hurt myself way more than this. My brother tried to help me: he told me to go with him on his bike so he could take us to our parents faster but he lost control of his bike along the way and then we both fell. I think he hit a car or something... I don't remember much of what happened after that but when I woke up both my brother and I were at the hospital..."
Jade looks at me questioning like she doesn't know if what I'm saying is true or if she was supposed to laugh cause I just told her a joke, so I say "True story! But we are both good now, so don't worry!" I giggle
"Ooookay..." she just replies
I smile then I remember that I never properly introduced myself to her. Silly me!
"I'm Cat by the way. Cat Valentine. Cat with a C, Valentine with a V! Hehe" I laugh
She looks at me briefly and I can see the corner of her mouth curve lightly in a smile before she takes another bite of her sandwich. I remember in that moment of my own sandwich that my mom made for me as I reach for it in my backpack.
"Nice to meet you Cat with a C... I'm..." she is saying but I anticipate her
"You're Jade West!" I exclaim for her
"How do you... Oh of course. Mrs. Dawkins mentioned my name yesterday" she says
"Yep and I remembered it! I'm happy you didn't get expelled. She says you only got detention..." I reply saying the last part of my sentence with my mouth full as I started to eat my sandwich, before remembering that it's not very nice to talk with the mouth full of food... Oh well...
"Yeah. I need to be at school for two hours after the lessons. Every day for a whole month... Damn it." Jade groans
"I'm sorry. You got in trouble because of me. To defend me... " I tell her with an half guilty half apologetic expression but I'm sure that I still look full of admiration for her
She shrugs "Eh... That's alright. Those idiots deserved it. They thought they were so tough until they met someone who could actually fight back" she smiles clearly proud of herself before she returns serious saying "Plus that wouldn't be the first or last time I get in trouble. So don't worry"
"You get in trouble often? Why?" I ask her curious and a little concerned
"Pretty fucked up situation at my house. My parents divorced and they ignore me all the time. I'm just trying to get their attention I guess. But since I'm failing at that I at least try to have some fun." Jade explains
"I'm sorry to hear that. But there are other ways to have fun, you shouldn't get yourself in troubles! Or say bad words!" I tell her
"Oh shit, sorry" she teases me smiling.
"Swear! Again!" I scold her pointing at her mouth with my finger
She laughs "Seriously though, this month of detention will be soooo freaking boring. Maybe it would have been better if I actually got expelled" Jade says
"Of course not!" I protest
"Why?" she asks me
"Because then I wouldn't have been able to see you again... My hero!" I giggle nudging her shoulder lightly with mine
She shakes her head giggling too "You really are weird"
I frown stopping to laugh "What's that suppose..."
"... But I like you" she tells me
I grin from ear to ear "You... Do?" I ask her
"Yeah. You're not afraid to be who you are or to say what you want. Not many people can be like that. People are fake. That's why I don't like many people. But you're..." she looks at me smiling "... You're one of a kind, you know? You're real"
I let out a little scream of joy as I lean forwards to hug her with my sandwich in hand "Thank you Jade! You are very kind! I like you too! You are so strong and tough!" I tell her and I mean every word. She laughs for a bit in my embrace but says nothing. I think I made her blush. I giggle.
"Friends?" I ask her
"If you want us to be friends, first, let me go!" Jade says. I let her go nodding
She looks at me smirking "Second, always remember: no hugs!"
"I promise!" I say. But of course I would have pretended to forget about that more often than not during the years. Hehehe
"Good" she says
We continue to eat in silence for a bit. I steal glances at her from time to time. Even back then, even so young Jade was so beautiful. She already used to put make up on but it was way lighter than the one she uses now. And also she didn't have piercings or tattoos at the time... But her pale skin was already so perfect. And her eyes... So soulful... And her brunette hair so long and beautiful and of a lighter color compared to mine...
"I heard you sing yesterday to your stuffed giraffe... Mr. Purple?" she asks me at some point distracting me from my thoughts
I nod. Then realize what she just said "Oh jeez, I was being loud?" I ask her worried
"Loud enough for everyone nearby to hear you... Not to mention that little dance you were doing" she mimics the way I was dancing the other day while hugging Mr. Purple at me.
"Oh man..." I sigh blushing embarassed
She laughs "Don't worry about it. I was actually impressed... By your voice. I have no idea how you're able to sound so good with braces but if that's how you sing with it, I can only imagine that you would sound incredible without it" she tells me
I beam at her full of joy "Thank you so much! I love to sing! I sometimes make up a few songs but never have the courage to sing them to anyone but my stuffed animals!" I say
"Well maybe you should consider singing as a career. I love to sing too you know... But what I would really love is to be an actress one day. You know star in a movie or a play, or even write one... Being in a musical in Broadway would also be amazing." Jade says
I look at her gaping before I feel a huge smile forming on my face "Shut up! Really? Being in a Broadway musical has always been my dream since I was little and my parents took me and my brother to see one!"
She giggles "Really?"
"Yeah! Also I always wondered what it would be like to be an actress and explore different side of my personality! I bet it would be so cool!" I tell her
"Well there's this school, here in LA... It's called Hollywood Arts high school... My older cousin goes there. Maybe in a few years me and you could also audition to attend it. It's a school for very talented kids who want to become actors and singers or directors and screenwriters. I know we just started junior high so to think about attending that school now it's a long shot, and maybe it's just an impossible dream anyway, but..." Jade was telling me when I say
"That sounds amazing! I definitely want to audition for that school one day!" I affirm
"Don't be so enthusiastic. First we have to prove our talent. Also a lot of things can change in a few years..." Jade tells me. I pout... then I have an idea. I extend my pinky to her
Jade looks at me questioning with a raised eyebrow as I say "Ok then... Let's make a promise to ourselves: if when we end Junior High we will still love to sing and to perform and if we will be pretty good at it, you and me, together will audition for Hollywood Arts! Pinky promise!"
Jade rolls her eyes "Pinky promise? Seriously?" she ask me.
"Mmmh mmh" I nod happily "Come on Jadey!" I say trying to grab her pinky with mine.
She smiles shaking her head "Ok ok, just don't call me 'Jadey' again, ugh!" she says grabbing my finger with her own and making the pinky promise with me.
Oh we kept the promise by the way, and we succeeded. Yay! But... I may still like to call her Jadey from time to time haha
I giggle and then hug her again
"Cat! You have a very short memory, do you? I told you, no hugs!" she says
But I laugh and take my time to let her go.
And just like that Jade and I were best friends.
And just like that I had a crush on her
End of Flashback
And just like that we are together now!
By the way here in the present we are still kissing passionately while ignoring the bell that announces the end of first period and the start of our next class.
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