Jade POV

So another week passed and now that things are OK between us and our friends, all that is on our mind is my parents... We decided we are going to try talking with my mom again today. She is always off to work so we didn't really speak that much this week. And after her, the problems will still not be over... There is also my dad I need to speak to...

But I have something else on my mind, something way more important: I have to stop Cat from taking those pills. She is addicted. I can see she is. Her reaction proved it to me, when I tried to take those pills away from her the day I found out she takes anti-depressants to not think about her sister's tragic death.

It's not good for her, even though her parents seem to believe that it is and that taking those pills is the only way for their daughter to be happy again and the only thing preventing Cat from self-harming.

But I disagree. Cat is happy with me. I know she can be this happy with me even without having to assume those meds that are practically erasing her sister from her memories.

Her parents took her brother to see the doctors today and I'm currently on her couch checking my phone and waiting for Cat to get ready.

I have a picture of me and Cat kissing as my savescreen that makes me smirk. I look at the time... She is up there in her room from quite some time now, what is she taking so long? We are just supposed to go to my house it's not like it's a fancy date or something. I'm dressed with my casual clothes too. I huff and make a new status on TheSlap

Jade West

Jeez my gf is taking so long to get ready today! I'm waiting for her from 20 minutes now! Wtf catvalentine!

Mood: Bored :/

I receive a few comments.

Andre Harris

Don't you want lil Red to look good for you? ;)

Robbie Shapiro

Chiz, I would be happy to wait hours for Cat, just to go out on a date with her! Just saying, don't kill me Jade!

I roll my eyes. Those freaking guys should really learn how to control their hormones at least around us or else... Then I read Vega's comment

Tori Vega

Patience is a virtue for strong people, Jade ;)

I groan annoyed... Have they all decided to piss me off today? Apparently yes, since I also see that Beck just replied to Vega's previous comment:

Beck Oliver

Yeah, well, Jade is tough but somehow her and patience don't really match xD

I angrily reply

Shut the f up all of you, or I'll rip you guys a new one as soon as I see you!

I only decided to censure the f-word to not get reported again but I still smile satisfied when no one of them has the guts to reply.

Only Cat comments

Cat Valentine

Calm down love, I'm coming! Just a sec! Got a surprise for yaaa! xoxo

Hmm... A surprise huh? I smile but don't show my excitement as I reply

Just get a move on babe!

I put my phone away in my purse and after a bit I hear Cat's voice coming from the stairs

"Heeeey, surprise!" she says

I turn to see her and my eyes go huge immediately. Cat is smiling at me dressed in her old cheerleader uniform from junior high

"Go Pelicans!" she says jumping a few steps and then doing a cartwheel to get right in front of me with a huge grin.

I look at her stunned, gaping like an idiot

She giggles at my expression "So can I still be a cheerleader? I guess this skirt looks a bit too skimpy on me now, but, it's been a few years you know..."

"Baby... You're so damn hot! You look even better now than you did back then!" I'm able to say eventually.

She giggles and gets on my lap straddling my legs with her bare thighs. Shit she is turning me on so much already... The wait was definitely worth it.

"I was thinking... before we go to your house to talk to your mom, we can both use a little distraction to feel more relaxed" Cat says wiggling her eyebrows at me

"Absolutely" I smirk and pull her lips on mine grabbing her by the hips. She wraps her arms around my neck as we deepen the kiss making our tongues meet in our mouth. I can't resist to Cat Valentine when she is so seductive, like right now... I mean... she is dressed in her old cheerleader uniform!

I make one of my hand slid down her torso until I reach her skirt. I push it up enough for me to slid my hand underneath it and my fingers immediately brush her center through her cotton underwear. She moans in my mouth but keeps kissing me.

I feel that she is already wet for me. I smile in the kiss and bit her lower lip lightly making her whimper in excitement before she leaves my mouth and kisses my nose only to return to my lips again and suck on my tongue.

Oh shit that was so hot! I have to make her mine right here, right now! I push her underwear aside and start touching her directly.

She leaves my mouth to moan more loudly this time "Oh Jadey!"

"Kitty Cat..." I moan lightly too as I slip a finger in her.

She gasp and moans again closing her eyes and starting to move her hips back and forth on my hand gripping my shoulders tightly for support and panting. I watch her mesmerized, she is so freaking sexy. My other hand that was holding her by one of her hips goes a little up to cup one of her breasts through her uniform. I smirk as I feel her rigid nipple poking through.

"No bra babe?" I ask her

She bits her bottom lip and nods "Mhm... Hmm... You like?" she asks

"Love it" I smile and slip another finger in her.

"Ohhhh! you make me feel so good Jade!" she moans again and starts moving faster on my fingers.

"You like this babygirl? You like how your Jade feels inside of you?" I ask her... I'm getting wet just by watching her

"I love it!" she says before releasing another moan. I rock my hand back and forth inside of her matching her movements. She is so beautiful... Gosh I can't believe I'm having sex with a cheerleader. I think it was always a fantasy of mine... Yeah maybe I was never as straight as I thought I was... Or maybe I'm so in love with Cat I can't think straight anymore. Literally.

I feel her walls clenching tightly around my fingers as she screams in ecstasy her eyes rolling in the back of her head "Oh jeez... Oh yeeees!" she screams as she reaches her climax "Oh funk!" she continues to moan and I laugh. She is so damn adorable when she has an orgasm but still does her best not to swear. I don't know how she is always able to do it... I mean I also try not to swear during... these moments, cause I know that she doesn't like curse language but one time when she was down on me I couldn't help but scream 'Holy fucking shit' cause she made me come so hard by eating me out... Yeah that's how good my kitty is in bed... How good we both are judging by how loud she is being right now. And thank God there's no one else at home, cause I just had sex with Cat on the Valentine's couch with her moaning the entire time.

"Jaaaaade!" she scream one last time before relaxing on me hugging me by the neck and resting her head on one of my shoulders, still panting to try to catch her breath. I pull my fingers out of her vagina and wrap my arms around her waist, kissing her on the neck.

We stay like that for a bit before I grab her by her bare tights and get up hoisting her up with me. She is so light. I bring her upstairs to her room kicking the door open while she is kissing my neck. I place her on her bed and she immediately drags me on top of her and starts fumbling with the buttons on my jeans undoing them so she can slip her hand inside of them, starting to touch my pussy through my underwear. I moan and my hands leave her body to push my jeans down together with my underwear.

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After we made love for at least another half an hour, I'm dressing back and Cat is also changing into more appropriate clothes to go meet my mom with me.

I look at her cheerleader uniform she left on a chair by her desk and I smirk before looking at her as she is fully dressed in a pink shirt and jeans now.

"I understand now why you wanted to be a cheerleader so badly, back in junior high... You were already thinking about seducing me one day!" I tell her teasingly.

She giggles brushing her hair with an hair brush while looking at herself in the mirror "I actually wanted to be a cheerleader to be like my sister. She was a cheerleader once..."

I look at her wide eyed as she seems to realize what she just said. Her eyes become huge and worried. Her hair brush falls from her hand and on the floor.

"Cat...?" I try but she is already starting to freak out, her breath becoming heavy and uneven and her eyes filling with tears as she tries to run out of the room

"I f-forgot to take my pills... My vitamins today... S-sorry!" she tries to leave the room but I catch her in my arms stopping her

"I need to...! Jade let me go!" she cries.

"Baby shhh... It's okay look at me!" I say. She is crying but she does, looking me in the eyes.

"You don't need those pills" I tell her

"No! You don't understand Jade I..." she is saying but I kiss her on the lips to silence her before telling her

"You can't take them right now anyway. You have to eat something with it before remember? Or else they will make you feel sick" I reason

She looks worried "Oh gosh! what can I do? I can't start remembering... I can't! I want to be happy!"

"Do you often forget to take your pills?" I ask her

She shakes her head no "I'm used to take them from years now... I just... Ever since I'm with you I'm starting to forget to take them sometimes because I feel so happy like... like..." she says as realization forms on her face

I smile "Like you didn't need them anymore. Right? That's how you feel? " I ask her

She looks at me and nods

I smile even more "See? You don't need those pills to make you happy"

She smiles back a little "I just... need you... to make me happy"

I nod and kiss her again. But after a bit she pulls away "But about when I'm not with you? I can't deal with it on my own... My parents tried to help me but it didn't work... I'm so scared" she says burying her face in the crook of my neck. My poor babygirl...

"Then I'll never leave you alone. Ever again" I tell her caressing her hair.

"But that's not possible Jade! You have your own life! Your parents..." she says but I interject.

"Who are never home and always distant from me" I say

"Jade... You know you can't be with me all of your time... And I just don't feel ready to stop taking my pills anyway. Sorry... Not yet. Not completely" she tells me looking at me apologetic

I nod at her and I continue to smile to let her know it's okay "It's fine Cat. You don't have to stop all of a sudden. But maybe you can start by reducing the consume? Like, you can take them less frequently,. Maybe not every day anymore"

She looks uncertain but then she says "Yes... I think I can do that... If you help me"

"Of course kitten!" I say lifting her chin up at me and kissing her lips

She smiles and I say "Let's start with today ok? Today you won't take them"

"But we have to go meet your mom! I can't risk having a crisis and freaking out in front of her or she'll never let you date me again! She already hates me ever since we are together, cause I'm a girl..." she says sadly.

"Ok first I don't care about what she thinks. Second she doesn't hate you... She is just mad at me for not telling her before that I was in love with you. Third, forget about my mom for today, we can just stay here at your house. I'll spend the night with you and we will talk to my mom some other time one of these days" I tell her reassuringly

She smiles widely as soon as she hears me saying that I will spend the night with her but then frowns "But I really wanted to meet your mom and explain her..!" she tries to say but I interrupt her pressing a finger on her lips

"Shhh... It's okay babygirl. My mom can wait" I tell her. She smiles

"Ok Jade" she says and I wrap an arm around her shoulder making her seat with me on her bed

"You said... you wanted to be a cheerleader... because of your sister" I try cautiously

She nods looking down

"Do... you want to talk... about her?" I try. She stays silent so I say "Sorry, you don't have..."

"No, I guess I kinda shocked you by mentioning her before... Cause I never have before. But yeah I have... Had an older sister..." her voice is calm but I can see tears falling from her face. She quickly wipes them and takes a long breath.

"How was she like?" I ask her trying to distract her from the thought of how she died, while caressing her shoulders. She leans on me resting her head on my legs and laying down on one side with her legs pulled up to her stomach.

She smiles but it's a sad smile "I can barely remember her anymore... I was so little... Her name was Ellie. She was like a second mommy to me... I looked up to her so much. She was so gorgeous and talented. She liked to dance and sing... I remember I wanted to be like her" Cat says

I start caressing her red hair on my lap "I think she would be proud of you. You have many talents aswell, including singing and dancing" I tell her

She looks at me and her smile gets wider as she motions me to lean down. I kiss her on the mouth before she says "You're sweet Jade. But she won't be proud of me... I... I let her die... And did nothing. That's pretty much the only thing I can think of when I remember about her" she sobs and wipes her tears again "That's why I need to forget about her..." she continues

"Oh Cat..." I start asking myself if I should tell her that her mom told me everything already or if that would bother her too much and maybe I should just let her tell me what happened by herself when and if she wants to. But I need to tell her something right now to let her know it wasn't her fault and that she did something very important by calling for help. So I say "You're a wonderful person Cat. You always try to help others. You can't blame yourself"

"Yes I can!" she replies screaming and taking me by surprise. She buries her face in her hands crying as I pull her up and hug her

"Baby shhh... It's okay! I'm here Cat shhh..." I whisper in her ear as she continues to cry. She buries her face in my hair and I can hear her say

"Me and my brother were alone with her... We were having so much fun when... Her boyfriend arrived... He was screaming at her... Then he started beating her... and I just run away scared. I heard everything! He was yelling bad words at her the whole time! She was screaming in fear! My brother was also screaming! And I just hid under my bad scared!" she says through her sobs

And now I realize why Cat hates so much when people scream or swear... That still bring bad memories to her. I feel so sorry for her especially because just like her mom had told me she still feels so guilty for Ellie's death.

"Oh baby... That's horrible... But you were so little there was nothing else you could do! You called the police despite how scared you were. You were able to call for help! Thanks to you your brother is alive. Ellie would be so proud of you, of her little sister!" I tell her kissing her on the head.

She pulls away from me and looks at me, her face wet and her make up completely ruined because of her tears.

"B-but... I could have saved my sister too, if I just tried to do something more like my brother... Calling for help was not en..." she seems to realize something looking at me questioning.

"How do you know I was the one who called for help?" she asks me

I blush... Damn it I let that slip "Your... your mom told me. About what happened"

She looks at me shocked "You... My mom... She told... But of course!" she yells at me standing with a jump and pointing at me

I look at her confused as she continues "That's why you wanted to be with me! You just felt bad for me didn't you? You knew I was so messed up, so when you found out I loved you, you didn't have the courage to break my heart telling me you didn't feel the same so you pretended to reciprocate my feelings!"

"What?" I blink at her unable to believe that she can really think I would do that. Then I remember that her outburst and sudden change of mood might be a side effect due to her not taking her pills today. So I quickly stand up to try to calm her "Babe..." I say trying to pull her in a hug.

But she pushes me away "But of course! How could I be so stupid! I was just a stupid kid to think that your feelings for me might have been anything other than pity!" Cat continues to yell at me

"Cat, you know it's not like that! After everything we shared together..." I'm telling her but she cuts me off with a slap in the face. I look at her shocked but for just a second. I can see by her expression that she is not herself right now. Her eyes are wide, she is shaking and looks so angry

"How could you? You had sex with me! You took my virginity... F-fucked me... And you don't even love me!" Cat says

Hearing Cat saying the word 'Fuck' is probably something I thought I would have never heard... Now I know for sure she is not herself right now.

So I do everything to make her come back to her senses. I grab her wrists despite she tries to get free and fight back and kiss her hard on the lips

"Let m...! " Cat tries but I don't let her. I keep kissing her with all the love I have for her until eventually she stops trying to push me away and relaxes remaining still. I let her wrists go and she hugs me and starts kissing me back. After a bit she pulls away and looks at me, bursting out in tears.

"Oh my God Jade! I'm so sorry! I'm so sorry! Did I hurt you? Oh gosh I'm a terrible girlfriend!" Cat cries kissing the cheek where she hit me and I squeeze her at me even more saying

"Babe you're the best girlfriend. And you didn't hurt me at all. You were just not being yourself. You know I'm with you cause I love you. Your mom told me what had happened to you that day you felt sick after we had been at the diner. We were already together so you have no reason to believe I would be with you because I feel bad for you. I want to be with you because I'm in love with you Cat" I tell her

"I know! I love you too, so much! I just... I don't know what had gotten into me! Oh gosh I told you such horrible things! I didn't mean them Jade... I want you to know I..." Cat is telling me but I cut her off with a quick kiss on the lips and say

"I know Cat. I know. You don't need to apologize. I'll never let you go babygirl" I say starting rocking her back and forth in my embrace. She hugs me tightly and mumbles a thank you as she starts crying again.

After a bit I pick her up bridal style and sit with her in my lap on her bed to make her feel more relaxed. Then I place her on her bed and stand up. I'm about to ask her if she wants a glass of water but she immediately grabs my hand pulling me back on the bed with her.

"No! Don't leave me Jade! Please I'm sorry I told you those mean things! I wasn't being myself! I love you and I know you feel the same for me and when we make love I feel so good and happy and I know it's because we are in love, please don't leave me because I was mean!" Cat pleads me shaking me by the shoulders and I hug her again.

"Cat relax! I told you I already knew that! I was just going to ask you if you wanted me to bring you a glass of water" I reassure her

"Oh... yes please" she tells me.

I let her go with a kiss on the cheek and stand up with a smile "I'll be back in a minute" I say.

"Kay Kay" she replies.

I sprint to her kitchen and immediately fill a glass with water in the sink. I drank it for myself to calm myself down a little too, before I refill it to bring it to Cat as fast as possible.

She is were I left her sitting against the headboard of her bed only now she has Mr. Purple and a teddy bear with her and is hugging them tightly.

I hand her the glass of water and she says 'thank you' smiling at me before drinking it. Then I take her hand and I help her get up to take her to the bath and wash her face before we return to her room.

I kick off my shoes and she does the same. Then she turns to me.

"Be with me... I want to be with you" Cat tells me motioning to her bed

It's still early but I understand that after her outburst maybe she just wants to cuddle up in bed with me a little and sleep. So I tell her "Sure babe, let me just draw the curtains" I say but she grabs my hand.

"No... I meant... Let's make love. Again" Cat says to me

I look at her surprised from her request "Are you sure?"

She nods then looks at me pouting "You don't wanna? I know we already did it today but..."

I shake my head "No it's not that, I just didn't think you were feeling up to, after... Well..." I say motioning with an hand behind my back to where some minutes ago she had her outburst.

She shakes her head "I just want to show you how sorry I am... And how much I love you. Just let me show you"

"Cat, I know that. We don't have to make love right now for tha..." I'm saying but she starts lifting her shirt over her head and then unzipping her jeans that she pulls down her legs until she is just in her bra and underwear.

I'm looking at her with a watering mouth as she smiles seductively at me leading me on her bed with her. She looks me in the eyes as she says "Just let me..."

And I let her...

She made space for us on her bed removing her stuffed animals and I made quick work of my clothes too before she started kissing practically every inch of my body. And then we helped each other getting free from our bras and underwears and made love again. Her on top of me the whole time. Her leg between mine and my thigh between hers. We kissed, moaned, told each other how much we love one another and lost the count of how many orgasms we had. I've already said this but I'll say it again: I never felt so in love in my life...

I don't know for how many hours we have been at it...

All I know is that it got dark outside in the meantime, so at least a couple. And we would have continued if we didn't have to stop at some point because Cat's parents called her at the phone telling her they would have been back soon and that they were going to bring pizza.

Cat told them I would have stayed the night and they asked us which pizza we wanted. We both decided for a Pepperoni one.

We put some pajamas on (I have one of my spared pj's at Cat's house by now) and just decided to cuddle in bed together waiting for her parents to return.

"That was so amazing, love" I tell her at some point while I'm hugging her at me and she is resting her head on my chest drawing circles on my stomach with her index fingers

"So amazing..." she tells me with a smile and we exchange a peck on the lips. Then she appears thoughtful "Ellie would've been 26 right now... She was 10 years older than me. I don't remember much about her but I like to believe she would have been happy for me if she knew about you and how in love we are"

I squeeze her at me. "I'm sure she would."

I notice while she is talking how Cat seems more lucid and mature in her way of speaking when she is off her meds. If I could just make sure she wouldn't have those panic attacks anymore she wouldn't need those pills any longer.

I hear Cat giggle which brings me back from my thiughts "We used to play karaoke all the time... Ellie, Manny and I... My brother wasn't so good but he liked to make us laugh. But Ellie was so amazing... I think she inspired me so much to be who I am today. I wish I could remember her voice better. But if I start remembering too much about her... I will eventually think of... of... " she trails off and I can already hear the panic in her voice so I turn to her in bed immediately and grab her face

"She loved you and she was an amazing person. That's all you have to remember about her" I tell her.

She smiles and nods a bit sadly "I'll try..."

"Your mother showed me a picture of your sister. Of Ellie" I tell her cautiously

"Yeah? She was beautiful right?" Cat asks me

"Yeah. She looked so much like you. I also noticed she used to wear a ladybug hairclip... A ladybug. Just like the one you put on your locker" I say looking at her with attention to make sure what I'm saying isn't making her uncomfortable.

Cat seems to think about it then nods "I knew I had made my locker like that with someone in mind. I guess the ladybug reminded me of her... She loved that hairclip. My mom gave it to me after Ellie..." she shakes her head squeezing her eyes and I start caressing her face

"It's okay you don't have..." I'm telling her but she continues.

"But then my parents took it away from me and also hid all the pictures of Ellie when I had... An incident... Did my mother also told you...?" she asks me worried

This time I feel my own tears running down my cheeks as I nod "I still can't believe that you wanted to end your life... At such a young age... You would've never grow up to be such a smart and talented young woman. And I would have never met you... And my life would've been so miserable right now" I say

"Aww Jadey!" she says hugging me at her tightly "I wish she didn't tell you about that"

As she is hugging me I tell her "Just promise me Cat, promise me that you will never ever try something like that again no matter what. I want you to try to remember even when you're having a crisis that I love you too much and I just can't lose you. You are my best friend, my girlfriend, the love of my life... And if you die... I would die too"

Cat pulls away from me and looks at me shocked "Jade don't ever say that again!"

"Then promise me Cat!" I insist

"Of course I promise! I would never leave you! Jade I love you too. I love you since forever... And I want to be with you, forever" she says

I smile reassured while she wipes my tears away from my face with her thumbs and then starts licking my face making me giggle

"What are you doing? Licking my face clean? I ask her.

"Yeah, I'm a Cat! Remember?" she says. And we both laugh at that.

We hear her parents come back and Cat's dad calling for her

"Cat? We are back, honey! Where are you?" he says

"Hey daddy! I'm in my room with Jade!" Cat tells him

"We brought pizza!" her brother yells

"Yeah come downstairs you two before it gets cold!" her mom echooes

"We brought pizza!" her brother repeats

"Yeah I heard you the first time Manny! Just a sec!" Cat continues, rolling her eyes at me.

I laugh as we stand up. Cat takes my hand but before we can leave her room she stops and tells me "It's better if we don't tell my parents about... well... before... And that I want to try to take my pills less frequently from now on. They won't like it"

I think about it "I don't know, maybe they deserve to know... I mean yeah, I know for sure that they won't be agree. Your mother was absolutely clear about that when she threatened me to keep us apart if I would have tried to stop you from keep taking those pills or even if I would have just mentioned Ellie to you" I tell her

She looks at me wide eyed shocked "My mom threatened you to do that? How could she? I can't believe it!" she says clearly hurt

"She just wants to protect you baby..." I tell her

"By threatening the girl I love to keep me away from her, if I stop taking some pills? Some pills they give me to make me forget about my sister just so they can have the perfect daughter they always dreamed of? Then what, they would've just started giving me even more pills to make me forget about you too? I can't believe it I'm so mad right now!" Cat is saying getting angrier at every word and starting to raise her voice.

"Shhh babe calm down!" I try to tell her

"No I don't want to calm down! Now they are going to listen to me!" Cat says opening the door of her room. And I realize how her mood continues to swings because of her being off her meds.

I stop her and close the door again

"Jade! Why...?" she asks me and I say

"Cat, while I agree with what you just said, I want you to try to put yourself in their shoes... They... lost one of their daughter in a horrible way... " I tell her

And she interjects "And I lost a sister!"

"I know, but what I meant is... They are just doing what they think it's best to keep you safe. That's why we will show them you can be happy even when you're not on meds. You will gradually start to take those anti-depressants always less frequently. Until you will feel like you don't need them at all. And then we will just tell them one day that you're not taking them anymore and that you're perfectly fine. OK? " I ask her.

She nods and relaxes "Yeah... You're right." then she throws her arms around my neck "Gosh what would I do without you?"

I chuckle hugging her at me "You would be just as lost as I would have been without you"

She giggles and starts kissing me.

"Manny is eating all the Pepperoni from your pizza Cat!" her dad calls for us again.

Cat releases my mouth and says "Nooo! Mannyyyy!"

I laugh while she takes my hand "We better go! Hurry!"

"Yes ma'am!" I say kissing her cheek before we leave her room.

Before we go downstairs Cat squeezes my hand and tells me "You won't tell anyone right? About everything... I don't want our friends to know. For now at least"

"Of course Cat. You didn't even have to tell me. I wouldn't have said anything" I assure her.

She smiles widely "Thank you love"

I smile back at her kissing her hand. It will not be easy, but I know I can help her. And I will help Cat. Cause I love her.

A very long chapter! Review!