Cat POV

I feel excited right now... I just starred in Jade's play 'Well wishes' as the protagonist. She always chooses me to star in her plays ever since we got into Hollywood Arts. She has always seen this potential in me that spurred me to pursue my passions and talents... I love Jade so much and is not a secret anymore. Right now I'm in my changing room smelling the scent of the red rose Jade gave me before my performance. It's a tradition we have ever since our first year! Every time I would have starred in one of her plays she would have gave me a rose. I still remember the first time she gave me one...

Flashback

Jade wanted me to star in her very first play she wrote for school, which was about a woman who used her charm to make a rich man (played by Beck) fall for her only to steal his fortune. I still can't believe I was able to play that part and, to use Jade's words, nailing it! But that's what I like the most about being an actress... Being able to play so many characters and personalities even if so different than my own. When I act I become a completely different person. I love it. I may be a bit more into singing but I definetely love acting too.

Anyway I was in my changing room that day when Jade knocked at the door.

"Come in!" I said

"Hey... Ready?" Jade entered hiding something behind her back. But in that moment I was so nervous I didn't notice it.

"Hey Jadey. Yeah..." I greeted her with a smile "I was just repeating a few lines, I'm so nervous!" I told her, pacing through the room

"You'll be great Cat... Only thing you have to be nervous is that you'll have to kiss Beck in my presence and you know how jealous I am" she told me with a threatening tone

For a moment I looked at her worried but she soon bursted out in laughter "Joking. You know I trust you... I wouldn't have picked you as my lead, otherwise"

"Oh... So that's the only reason why you chose me?" I asked her a bit disappointed

Jade smirked at me "No. I chose you cause you have this look in your eyes..." she said looking at me with her own piercing blue eyes. I felt my heart beat getting three times faster just because of that look she gave me... And that smirk... Oh gosh... "You hide something Cat Valentine..." she told me

"What's... that... suppose... suppose..." I couldn't even form my usual question. Her gaze was so intense. I still remember I got goosebumps... I was already in love with her from so long... No matter how hard I was trying to get over my feelings because she was with Beck at the time

"A potential... You're not just an amazing singer. You're an amazing actress too. And you proved it when we rehearsed. I knew it, cause you are such a creative person, full of energy..." Jade told me

"Oh Jade! Thank you!" I told her throwing my arms around her neck. She didn't hug me back but I didn't find it strange since she always made it clear she didn't like hugs. When I let her go though I noticed the true reason: she was hiding a red rose behind her back.

My eyes went huge "A rose?" I remember I thought it couldn't be a gift from her for me. Beck must have given it to her right? But she quickly erased any doubt from my mind

"For you" she told me

I started gaping "Wh-what?" I exclaimed

"You're the star of my play so I thought you deserved it..." Jade told me

I couldn't believe it... She was giving me a rose... To me! Not to her boyfriend who was also in the play, but to me!

"Well say something!" Jade exclaimed "You think it's corny? I'll just throw it in the trash then" she said making a move to turn away from me but I grabbed her arm making her face me again as I leant in and gave her a kiss on the cheek so close to her mouth actually, I legitimately got worried she would have taken an hint about how I was really feeling about her

"Jade thank you so much! It's so beautiful! Oh my God! I love..." I had to bit my tongue there and quickly change what I was going to say "...Roses... I love roses!" I repeated taking the rose from her hands and inhaling its scent

She smiled "I know. You told me once"

"I did?" I asked her.

"Yep... Not long after we met you asked me what was my favorite flower and I told you I didn't like flowers. And you said you loved roses. So, after seeing you so nervous about playing your part, I thought about giving you a rose as a good luck for your debut, you know?" she told me

I had forgot about that but she didn't. She has always been such a sweetie to me "Aww Jade! I'm speechless!"

"Yeah yeah, just don't cry now or you'll ruin your make up. Also don't tell anyone I gave you that, ok?" Jade told me

I nodded smiling while looking at the rose... I was indeed doing my best not to cry from the happiness in that moment because I needed to be on stage in just a few minutes. "Why I can't tell anyone?" I asked her

She shrugged "People wouldn't understand our kind of relationship" Jade told me looking away. I could swear she was blushing

"Why, what kind of relationship do we have?" I teased her. Maybe I was getting somewhere afterall!

"That we're... You know..."

"What?" I giggled

She rolled her eyes "That you are like my pet"

That answer made my heart fell for a second there, until she added

"So I kinda care about you" and this time I could see her blushing clearly

I smiled widely at her words. I always knew how hard it was for Jade to talk about her feelings so I knew what she really meant... But I still decided to play along "Arf!" I pretended to bark making her smile aswell before she turned to leave my changing room. But I called for her "Jade?"

"Yeah?"

"You can call me how you like... But I know you're so nice to me cause I'm your bestie" I winked at her

"Whatever you say" she told me, but coming from Jade I knew that was a yes so I giggled...

"See you out there babygirl" she continued, with a smirk before leaving my changing room. I always loved when she called me babygirl. Also the rose and the whole conversation we had made me all giddy and flustered.

Jade West certainly knew how to make a girl go weak at the knees... That was my thought as soon as she left. I was so determined to live up to her expectations during the play though, so I quickly refocused on my role and got in character.

/

After the play I was so happy cause I knew I had done great. I remember searching for Jade to ask her if she liked my performance. But as I was passing by Beck's changing room I found the door slightly open and heard Jade's laugh. I started peeking and saw her in his arms. They were kissing before he hoisted her up and placed her on a countertop.

"Woah there, you better lock the door if you're in the mood for a quickie" I heard Jade saying, smirking in a sultry way as she was looking at her then boyfriend.

I couldn't see Beck's expression cause his back was facing the door but I remember running away in tears after hearing that and before they could spot me.

Any little hope I had gathered before the play, about me and Jade actually becoming a thing one day, was completely destroyed after what I had just witnessed.

I changed and got home immediately, deciding to just become a living cliché and drown my sorrows in ice cream and cheesy romcoms while curled up in my bed with my stuffed animals. Jade had tried to call me but I ignored her. She texted me asking me where I was and why I left so soon after the play, telling me I had been amazing. I remember deleting many angry texts before I could send them to her in which I had typed things like 'Oh so nice of you to remember about me after you and your boyfriend have finished' or 'Leave me alone!'.

In the end I just decided to take my 'special vitamins' for the second time that day to calm myself down just so I could reply calmly with a made up story about a family emergency and thanking her for the compliments.

That day I decided I would have just dated whoever would have showed even the slightest interest in me and be with them... I knew I liked girls more than boys, but boys were easier to attract and also I just wanted to rub them in Jade's face. If she could have had a boyfriend and just ignore me, I could have done the same...

Or so I thought... Except I really couldn't. Whenever I was kissing a boy I was dating I was imaging Jade and at the same time thinking how it would have been a thousand times better kissing her and her full, soft lips, looking in her sea blue-green eyes and holding her in my arms and be held by hers. I even tried to grab a boy's boob one time just because I was thinking about Jade so much while we were making out... That was so embarrassing! He broke up with me not long after that. I think he had gotten the hint that I was more into girls... Well he was nice to at least not spread the rumor before I came out, since he goes to our same school. I couldn't let Jade know I was into girls back then while she was with Beck or she might have realized I had a crush on her and I was afraid she was never going to speak with me again.

Anyway that's why I really couldn't have a serious relationship with anyone or do anything more than kissing the boys I was with. I only wanted Jade.

Who knows what kind of boys I would have kept dating just to get over her if we would have never gotten together... I don't want to think about it.

All I can say is that I feel like the luckiest girl in the world to finally have her now.

End of Flashback

Since I liked the rose so much, Jade decided to make it a tradition to give me one before every play I would have starred in, and this time it was no different... Actually it was different but in a good way! Or should I say amazing? Cause now we are girlfriends, so I didn't have to hide my feelings anymore. In fact, this time when she came in my changing room with a rose for me, I thanked her just like I always wanted to do ever since the first time: by making out with her like my life depended on it, and luckily this time my character (a teenage girl who fell in a well) didn't need much make up or it would have gotten all smudged and ruined.

I'm waiting for Jade in my changing room at the moment, cause she is all mine and I plan to make her mine right here right now...

The play is over from a few minutes now so I decide to just go out there and find out what's taking her so long. Maybe her dad? She invited him to attend her play and I know his opinion is very important to her, so I hope he liked it.

I return to the stage, looking at Mrs. Lee's daughter still hanging from the ceiling waiting for her cue that's never gonna come. I feel a little bad for her... Maybe we should help her get down from there before Jade and I...

I stop because of what I see as I move the curtains. Jade and Tori hugging near the stage. Tori has a huge smile on her face and her eyes are closed. Her arms wrapped around MY girlfriend's neck and she is clearly hugging her back. My girlfriend, Jade Wets, is hugging her back. The same girl who claims she doesn't like hugging people unless it's me... The same girl who claims she hates Tori Vega...

I can't believe it!

I know it's dumb to be jealous right now, cause I know Jade loves me and also it's probably just a simple hug between friends but... Since when Jade and Tori are friends? This feels like that time I found her with Beck, all over again, except now she is with me so I'm even more jealous!

I storm off crying till I reach my changing room to gather my stuff and leave the theater.

I call my brother and tell him to come pick me up. Luckily he is been doing good lately, and I thank God for that. When my brother goes through one of those... Let's say 'normal phases' I'm happy cause I don't have to be worried about him hurting himself (or others) and I can also talk with him. As I leave the theater from the backdoor and walk outside he arrives in a few minutes, cause luckily he was nearby. I tell him what happened as I turn off my Pearphone (Jade was already trying to call me, but I feel too mad to talk with her, right now, just like that time a long time ago).

I tell Manny what happened and he laughs

"Why are you laughing at me?" I ask him

"Cause you're acting like Jade cheated on you or something! Do you realize how ridiculous you have been, running off from the theater like that?" he tells me

"Well all I know is that I thought she was with me now, so excuse me if I don't like finding my girlfriend in my best girl friend's arms!" I tell him

"So you have two girlfriends now?" Manny asks me

"No Manny! I meant..."

He laughs again "I know, I'm just joking Kit Cat"

"Well you're not funny!" I shout at him

"You're not too funny either when you get like this, ever since you're not taking your pills... You and your mood swings..." he tells me shaking his head in a mocking way

"I'm working on it okay!" I say. I had to tell him about me trying to overcome my addiction to my 'special vitamins'. I can't tell my parents and other than Jade he is the only one I can rely, on this matter, especially when he is 'normal'.

"Yeah I know Catty, I wish I could do that too, but if I stop taking my pills I go all..." he makes a whistle sound with his mouth pointing at his head.

"You're getting better too Mann" I tell him reassuringly.

He glances at me smiling "Thank you! But seriously, you should call Jade. I'm sure there's an explanation of why she was hugging that friend of yours, Tori right? Didn't you say she found her the woman to pay for her play and to rent the theater? I bet Jade was just being grateful to her"

I think about it for a moment and close my eyes facepalming "Oh, but of course... Chiz, I'm so stupid!"

Manny laughs "Guess I'm the brain in the family!"

"You really are..." I say "...Sometimes" I add

"Hey!" he protests and I laugh too

"Just bring me back to the theater would you? Sorry Mann..." I ask him

"Of course, no problem baby sis" he tells me making a U turn and driving me back there.

As we arrive by the theater I find Jade, Tori and Trina talking, by the entrance. All of them have their phones in their hands. They look at us as my brother pulls up and I leave his car. He nods at me with a smile before leaving. I wave at him grateful.

"There she is!" I hear Trina say pointing at me

"Cat! Where did you go?" Tori asks me

Jade just marches towards me looking furious "Give me one good reason why you just left like that after the play"

I blush looking at her "Cause... I'm jealous and stupid?" I say with a timid smile

She looks at me surprised "Jealous of what exactly?"

I look down "I saw you and Tori hugging and..."

"She asked me for an hug, just an hug after she helped me with my play and all! You can't have possibly thought I could like Vega!" Jade exclaims

"Gee, thanks... I'm so unlikable?" Tori asks getting closer to us with Trina

Jade rolls her eyes at her "Cat here thought there was something between us"

Tori looks from her to me "Oh my gosh Cat, you know I would never do something like that to a friend!"

I giggle "I know... Or else I think I would've punched you!" I joke... But I actually believe I would.

She laughs "I would've probably asked you to punch me! I could never live with myself knowing to have hurt a friend of mine!"

"I would like seeing Cat punching you, Vega" Jade smirk

Now it's Tori the one who rolls her eyes, pretending to ignore my girlfriend's comment as Trina interjects:

"Hey by the way since you girls swing that way, don't you think I look super hot tonight? I mean even more than usual?" Trina asks. She is all dressed up and is looking at me and Jade as she strikes a pose she must think it's sexy but she only looks pretty goofy to me.

We both look at her confused. Or better I look at her confused. Jade just looks annoyed

"Uhhmm yeah, you look pretty" I say politely to the older Vega.

"Did you really just said that?" Jade asks me shaking her head disapprovingly.

"I just wanted to be nice!" I whisper to her

"By boosting that idiot's ego?" Jade asks me as I shrug while Trina who was clearly satisfied by my reply is telling us of how she fooled Mrs. Lee with her beauty, pretending to be Jackie Bonet at her restaurant, before Tori drags her away from us telling her sister they need to go home and mouthing a 'Sorry' to us.

I giggle waving at both of them before I turn to Jade.

"I think you forgot something in your changing room" she says giving me back my rose

How could I forget it! "Thank you!" I say pecking her with a quick kiss on the lips before bringing the rose to my nose.

"By the way you were perfect tonight. Like always. You will always be the star in my plays" Jade tells me with a smile

And I smile back at her with a huge grin "I love you Jade"

"And I love you" she replies, before we go hand in hand to her car.

As we get in I ask her "Did your dad like the play?"

"He did... He defined it 'excellent'" She tells me

"That's amazing!"

"Yeah" Jade smiles too "He also told me to tell you, you were great"

"Aw I'm so happy!" I say

Jade looks at me for a moment before starting the car "Remember my first play? When I also couldn't find you after it?"

I feel myself blushing as I nod. I know where she is getting at...

"You saw me and Beck... You know... That's why you run off like that to your house. Right? Just like you were about to do now after you saw me and Tori hugging" Jade smirks

And I nod again "Only this time Manny was able to make me realize how dumb I was being, for doubting you even for a second. I told you I'm jealous and stupid" I say

Jade chuckles "Stupid no... Just jealous..."

I smile

"Beck was never jealous of me... Even if I was of him"

I look down feeling guilty

"I'm sorry... I guess I'm a jealous girlfriend" I apologies doing my best puppy dog eyes at her

"Don't be sorry. I like it" she tells me

"Really?" I ask her surprised

She nods still smirking "Knowing that you can be just as jealous of me as I am of you, it's a proof of how much we care about each other... And it's hot to have such a jealous girlfriend" Jade says starting to caress the inside of one of my exposed thighs as I'm still wearing the shorts I had on during the play.

I smile flattered at her as I watch her sultry expression as she even bites her lower lip as she is ogling my thighs.

"You think so? Then, maybe I should spend the night at your house... What do you think?" I ask her

"Absolutely... And since my mom is in New York for work, we have a large bed all for us, you know what that means, right? We're gonna have some wild sex tonight" Jade wiggles her eyebrows at me

I giggle "You're so naughty Jadey!"

She grabs my face crushing her lips on mine. I tangle one hand in her hair and I cup one of her boobs with the another one. This feels just perfect. I'm with her from more than two months now, but I'll never get over how perfect and lucky I feel every time my lips are on hers like this, every time I'm touching her like this, every time our tongues meet and every time me or her moan lightly in each other's mouth because of how excited and turned on we feel from each other.

As Jade is driving us to her house few minutes later I tell her "I didn't take any of my antidepressants lately"

She looks at me surprised "Really?"

I nod and look at her smiling "For the past two weeks"

Her eyes grow wide "Two wee... What? You told me you were still taking them regularly skipping only a few days"

"I lied... I decided I wanted to quit with them completely, after what happened at the hospital, you know when we brought Rex there and I got locked up in a padded cell. But I didn't know if I could make it without my pills yet, and I didn't want to disappoint you in case I wasn't able to, so I told you I was still taking them every now and then. But actually... yeah, it's been two weeks today." I tell her

"But... You were completely fine every day... And you were able to give such an amazing performance for my play tonight" she tells me

"I know right? I mean my mood swings apart, for the first time I feel very good, even without my pills. And also more... lucid... More... Myself" I say

Jade looks at me again and I can see she is proud of me. Her eyes glistening as I continue "Every time I felt weak or anxious these days I just kept reminding myself why I didn't need my pills anymore... Because I want to be myself. I don't want drugs to influence my behaviors. I want to be the girlfriend you deserve Jade. Not a child you need to take care of"

Jade shook her head squeezing her eyes clearly fighting back her tears "You've always been the one for me Kitty... I'm so proud of you. You are amazing"

"Not that amazing..." I say

"Why? You feel anxious? Or like you could have a panic attack?" she asks suddenly worried

I shake my head no "I just found out I get extra cranky and jealous when I'm more myself. I mean I acted like a total bitch to you just because Tori gave you an hug!"

She laughs "You acted like what?"

"Like a total..." I'm about to say it again when I realize what I just said "Oh shoot! I usually don't swear!"

Jade continues to chuckle "It's okay... At least now I know you're also capable of doing it!"

"Of course I am, I'm not a child you know!" I exclaim with a sassy tone

Jade smiles at me "I think I'll love getting to know this new side of Cat Valentine"

"I still sleep with Mr. Purple though... You know... habit" I tell her laughing

She giggles too "I can live with that as long as you also sleep with me"

"Kay Kay!" I tell her making my voice sounding extra bubbly on purpose this time and she understands it, cause she smirks.

/

After we get to her house I immediately jump in her embrace and she takes me to her mother's bedroom. We kick off our shoes and socks and she pushes me on the big bed following me soon after, jumping on it to start removing my clothes but I raise my legs and stop her pushing her away lightly with my feet against her shoulders.

She looks at me serious for a moment trying to understand if I just want to play a little or if something is not making me comfortable

"I want you so bad" I reassure her

She smirks and grabs one of my feet from her shoulder kissing the back of it

I smile at the gesture "But before... I want to try do something I have never done" I continue

She raises her pierced eyebrow at me "What? Taking me from behind?"

I blush "No!" I laugh but then I think about it feeling a rush of arousal "I mean... Yeah we can try that, later"

Jade chuckles at my words "I'm down"

"But before that I wanted to..." I take a long breath and push myself upwards in a sitting position against the headboard of the bed. Jade moves close to me and kisses me on my shoulder. I can't see her as I have my eyes closed right now but I know she understands it's something important.

I open my eyes "I need to talk about... Ellie"

"You don't have to baby. You've already told me about her" Jade says

"I know. But this time, I need to for myself. To have a closure" I explain

Jade just nods brushing one of my shoulders and kissing it again.

I take another deep breath "I loved her... I love her. So much. She was my big sister. The only sister I've ever had. She was the person I wanted to be... Kind, happy, confident... A beautiful person"

"You are just like her, Cat" Jade tells me.

I smile at her and take her hand in mine "I would give anything just to see her again... And I know one day I will see her again." I feel Jade's grip tighten on my hand like if she is afraid of where I'm getting at and thinks I could still try to do something stupid as soon as she leaves me alone. So I continue "But that day has to wait... Cause I need to live my life right now. I can't blame myself for what happened to her. But I also don't want to forget about her. Not anymore. I don't need meds to be happy... Cause I already found my happiness. Right here" I say looking at Jade and bringing her hand to my mouth to kiss it.

As I look at her I see she is crying. I smile reassuringly at her. I'm completely fine. I'm not even shaking anymore while talking about my sister "After so many years, I think... No I'm sure that I've come to terms to what happened to Ellie. And even if it still hurts so much to think about it and I don't think it will ever stop hurting, not completely at least... I can let her memory rest in peace. And remember her with a smile." I end my speech smiling.

Jade is still sobbing instead "Cat... I thought I needed to help you, but in the end you did it, all by yourself... You are so strong... Stronger than I thought... I'm so freaking proud of you"

"Thank you, love. You did help me though. You are the reason I decided to quit with my pills in the first place. And like I said you're the reason for my happiness" I tell her leaning in to kiss her on the nose.

She giggles wiping her tears and mascara off her face with a tissue.

"Yay! Only Cat Valentine can make Jade West cry tears of joy!" I tease her

She nudges my shoulder but smiling "Shut up"

I laugh "Oh okay... I was about to ask you if we could continue from where we had left off but..."

Jade cuts me off jumping on me. I release a little squeal of surprise that turns into a moan as she starts biting and sucking at my pulse point with the clear intent of living an hickey, while her hands are kneading my breasts. "I told you shut up, I'll do the rest" she whispers to my ear as one of her hands reaches down to unzip my shorts and I feel already so wet and ready for her to touch me. I wrap one leg around her body pushing her even more on me and looking at her in the eyes with lust and love as she is starting to brush my center through my soaked panties. As she does that I see she is looking at me in the same way, and I fall in love with her all over again. She pushes my panties on one side and starts touching me directly as I grip her shoulders tightly and I think I'm leaving a few marks on her but she doesn't seem to mind. At least until I bit at one of them as I buck my hips into her hand, when I feel her sliding two then three fingers in me. She whimpers when she feels me biting at her shoulder. Yep, I made Jade West whimper! But that only seemed to spur her further as she start moving her hand even faster and giving me so much pleasure I feel like I'm going insane and all I want in that moment is Jade to push me over the edge making me hers like only she can do. When I feel her pumping her fingers knuckles deep in me, I don't even bother to not be loud as I reach my orgasm, chanting her name.

After I recover, it isn't long before every single piece of our clothes is thrown on the bedroom's floor and Jade's thighs are wrapped around my neck, squeezing my head between them as she is moaning incoherent words and I'm holding her in place with my arms hooked under her legs...

/

We stayed up all night... making love till daylight.

Hope you liked the chapter. It was based on the episode 'Wok Star' but adapted to this story. Also as you can see when Cat is off her meds she is less childish and airheaded and more focused and mature, even if more moody sometimes. Also see what I did there at the end? Arianators where you at?! :)