First and foremost this is the original story before I started to rewrite it... and got stuck in the writing of the rewrite. If you are following the rewrite you will notice quite glaring differences between this and the one you have already started following. I do not intend on giving up with the rewritten version, however I think you guys waiting for me to get over my blank slate of a muse isn't going to happen any times soon. So I am re-posting the original. This was my first completed story and it is very different to how my last stories flow.

Secondly, this is not beta'ed. NOT AT ALL. There will be mistakes in spelling (I'm Australian and some words we spell differently). The layout will honestly have you wondering what the hell I was thinking. I wasn't; well that's not true. What I was thinking was that I knew what I was doing and screw anyone else... yes I was a conceited little shit even at the age of 31.

Thirdly, there is 68 chapters to this story, including the epilogue and two out takes. All of which have been uploaded to my profile so I should be able to update daily. Please understand that I have a busy life in the real world. This includes two children, one grown and the other with disabilities. So while I should be able to update wherever I am, if something happens please understand that I will miss updating.

Last but not lease. I am not SM. Not even close. I do not own the franchise, work in any capacity with the publishing houses or studios. I merely escaped from reality to play with some characters that I fell in love with while reading four books in the matter of days.

A/N: As I said sometimes it may be late. Never let an 18 year old try to tll you they can look after a pup that had just come home from surgery over night... it doesn't end well for anyone.

BPOV

It was him, he was here. I wasn't dreaming; it wasn't my mind giving me what I truly wanted. I was sure of it. Slowly, I opened my eyes to find not Jasper but Carlisle, Edward and Alice in the room with me. It was a cruel trick that my heart and head had decided to play on me. I was positive this time; I had been double teamed by my own memories and physical being. I couldn't help or hold the tears as they fell. Maybe it was time that I just gave up on finding Jasper. Maybe it was time to look into the future and the possibility of finding another love. No I couldn't do that. My heart was given freely and I won't take it back no matter how painful it was.

"Bella; honey are you okay? What happened?" Carlisle gently broke my thoughts and as I noticed giving me the once over with his eyes.

"I'm fine Carlisle. I promise. I just felt a little light headed. I guess I didn't eat that much at lunch after all." I tried to reason.

I mean what would he have thought if I had said that I thought I was the man of my dreams, the man I loved after one night; only to find that I had imagined the whole thing. He quickly checked my pulse, blood pressure, heart rate and asked if I felt anything near peanut.

"Well it seems that maybe it was a lack of food. Lay down and we'll bring you something to eat in half an hour." He informed me and the rest of the room. Char hadn't left my side, I was extremely glad of that. Not that I didn't love these three but I needed her right now.

Before any of us could say any more, the mothers and Rose came into the room with a force, kicking out Edward and Carlisle.

"Bella what happened? You scared everyone." Mother asked, and I could see the fear in her eyes.

"I, I guess I didn't eat enough at lunch and it caught up with me. I'm so sorry everyone. I ruined the cookout." I didn't know what I was to say. I mean they would send me to the loony bin; maybe I'd meet bugs bunny or daffy duck?

"Yep, Miss Bella you have officially flipped your lid" I thought causing myself to laugh.

"There's the second sign Bella, watch it or you might really crack." Breaking into an all-out belly laugh; and gaining a few pointed looks.

"See even they think you've lost it." The little voice in my head that I think is meant to be my conscious or sanity.

"Bella that's bull and you know it. Hell I know it. Before you passed out you said "Cowboy" now spill what's going on in that head of yours." Rose demanded. Bringing me out of my temporary insanity.

"Fine. I thought I saw my cowboy. But obviously I didn't or he'd still be here now wouldn't he. Then I thought that if I had told anyone you'd all send me to the loony bin; making me think that maybe I'd meet bugs bunny or daffy duck. Then I realized that I had finally cracked making me laugh. Then I realized that I was laughing at how fucked up my life was that I had laughed at something like that. The second sign that nothing is right. I was having a little debate with my sanity or conscious or whatever it is that little voice in my head." I rushed out.

Waiting for one of them to call Carlisle to come and book me on the first bus to the asylum. What I didn't expect was that they would all break out laughing at my quick trip down nuts road. Maybe it was contagious or something. Who knows?

"Bella what's Cowboy's name?" Rose's next question.

What she was fishing for I had no clue, but hey I think I have earned the pain that's coming up now so why the hell not. Maybe sharing would be a good thing. Make it not so big.

"Jasper; But I don't know his last name. Why?" I answered and asked.

Flipping your lid and getting questioned was not a good mix. It was downright confusing. And I didn't like it. I was already having second thoughts of giving up his name. What I did notice was the shared look between Rose Char and Jane. What were those three cooking up in their collective minds?

"Little B, what does he look like? Your cowboy." Char cooed behind me, trying to not freak out the insane pregnant woman sitting between her legs.

"Dirty blond curls that hung down his face. Piercing blue eyes, almost like Peter's but not. Defined jaw and very very luscious lips. Did you want details on his body?" I asked gaining a definite no from all of the ladies in the room. There lose if you ask me.

"Bella you didn't imagine him. That's Peter's brother." Char's voice was almost like talking to a pre-k kid. Yeah school was working on her ability to talk with kids too.

"Jasper Whitlock is Peter's brother? He's Emmett's old platoon buddy." Rose spoke up. This was getting too weird for me. I tried to get up but got pushed and pulled down by Char and Alice.

"Hey! I want go to the bathroom if you don't mind. Unless you want to clean up the mess. Peanut's sitting on my bladder or something." I threw to the room of ladies, bringing another laugh and a helping hand up from Mother and Jane.

"Fine but you get straight back into that bed when you finished." Alice piped up, slightly annoyed. I saluted her, I mean I wasn't going to win any medical argument with her, Edward and Carlisle in the house now was I?

The chatter that was flowing through the room while I was in the bathroom abruptly stopped as I walked out of the bathroom and made my way back to the bed where Char was holding the bedding up for me to climb in. Mother and Jane looked like they had been crying, or were on the verge of crying. I was starting to worry about what had caused them to be like this. Did they really think that I had lost my mind?

"Honestly I'm fine. I promise. I think it's just all getting to me right now. I'm going to be a single mother to a beautiful baby." I reassured them squeezing their hands trying to not only tell them but show them that I was fine.

"Bella. Jasper is here. I promise you that he's here in the house." Jane was talking but I couldn't believe her. It would hurt way too much for it to be a lie. Shaking my head I whispered

"I don't believe you. Don't do this. It hurts too much already." Tears starting to fall down my face once more.

I felt rather than saw Jane leave the side of my bed. I didn't pay much attention to what she was doing or what everyone else was doing around me. I wanted to go back to that bubble right now that I was in when I first came back to Texas. But I knew I couldn't, and I wasn't going to break that promise that I made on the plane. I was going to be strong for peanut.

When I looked back up I noticed that I was alone, well almost alone.

"Jasper. It's really you? I'm not dreaming this. Please tell me I'm not dreaming this." I whispered. I couldn't take it if I had lost myself again. It would truly be torture.

As he made his way over to the bed I thought that maybe they were right, but when he grabbed my hand and kissed each finger, I knew. I knew it was him. Well that was until he spoke, telling me that he'd been looking for me all this time. That he didn't know I was here all this time. That he loved me, not just because of that night, but that he loved me from the minute he stepped into the cab of my truck.

Now came the hard part. It nearly broke my heart all over again when he congratulated me on being pregnant. He was so detached, his emotions from minutes before were so full, and I could have swum in them. Hell I think I did. Was he mad that I kept peanut and that now he would have to put up with me in his life as well as peanut? It was getting confusing again. It's been one busy day. And I just wanted it to be over.

So I told him; "Well up until this afternoon Peanut" –I pointed to peanut-"was a Swan. Now he or she is a Whitlock." My voice so low that I thought that he didn't hear me.

I couldn't look at his face, to see the disappointment written all over it. But as he lifted my head and told me that he loved the idea my life started to fall into place again. His kiss was amazing, just as I remembered it; soft, longing and too short. We stared at one another not knowing what to do next. We knew absolutely nothing about one another. Well except that for the past 5 months the people we knew and loved knew both of us and no-one figured out this amazing mess that was finally making its way to be sorted out.

"Charlie Swan. If you go in that room right now I will not be responsible for what happens. And you will clean up your own mess. I swear to god. Let them be. They have to work this out." Mother's voice was heard in the hall, she wasn't yelling but you could hear her through the door.

I guess the mothers, Rose and Alice had filled everyone in; and father wasn't happy.

"What do you mean? Clean up my own mess. She's my daughter for heaven's sake. Where has he been these past months while she had to go through this on her own?" Fathers slightly raised voice countered mothers argument. I didn't care. He told me he'd been looking for me, he had held onto the little note I had given him. Father was not going to destroy this on me.

I pointed to the door and mimed locking it to Jasper. He quickly got up and did what I was silently asking. Joining me back on the bed moments later, laying his hand on my stomach. I couldn't contain the sigh that left my lips when he touched me. It was like he was showing me that he was okay with the idea of being a father.

"They're right you know; your parents. We do need to talk." Jasper broke the silence but I knew he was right. He deserved to know why I lift that night.

And so I told him. Everything that had happened between Edward and I, the breakup before that night ever happened; the talking to his parents when we told them we were over; finding out I was pregnant and though he was shocked that father had effectively kicked me out; working with Rose as my boss; living with Peter and Charlotte. Everything. And he listened and so did my parents I think. I didn't hear them go back to the living room. We sat again in silence again once I had finished letting him absorb everything that had happened during the past five months. The knock at the door broke us from our thoughts.

Jasper got up and answered the door; there standing at the door was everyone. And I mean everyone. I guess it was time to answer everyone's questions as to what happened, and where we stood in all this. This was going to be interesting.