irst and foremost this is the original story before I started to rewrite it... and got stuck in the writing of the rewrite. If you are following the rewrite you will notice quite glaring differences between this and the one you have already started following. I do not intend on giving up with the rewritten version, however I think you guys waiting for me to get over my blank slate of a muse isn't going to happen any times soon. So I am re-posting the original. This was my first completed story and it is very different to how my last stories flow.

Secondly, this is not beta'ed. NOT AT ALL. There will be mistakes in spelling (I'm Australian and some words we spell differently). The layout will honestly have you wondering what the hell I was thinking. I wasn't; well that's not true. What I was thinking was that I knew what I was doing and screw anyone else... yes I was a conceited little shit even at the age of 31.

Thirdly, there is 68 chapters to this story, including the epilogue and two outtakes. All of which have been uploaded to my profile so I should be able to update daily. Please understand that I have a busy life in the real world. This includes two children, one grown and the other with disabilities. So while I should be able to update wherever I am, if something happens please understand that I will miss updating.

Last but not lease. I am not SM. Not even close. I do not own the franchise, work in any capacity with the publishing houses or studios. I merely escaped from reality to play with some characters that I fell in love with while reading four books in the matter of days.

J POV

"Let me get this straight first before anyone asks anything. I have no clue what's happening any time soon, but right now I need some food." Bella's little introduction caused a few chuckles and giggles.

You could tell she had everyone wrapped around her little finger. Even pa, he never bent for anyone, yet here he was bending to Bella's every whim. As no-one was moving to get her something; I decided it was up to me to take that on. I mean it is my baby she is carrying, though I would love to make it more in the future. Where did that come from? I think I'm getting a little ahead of myself here. Yes she kissed me back but who knows what this means.

"Where the hell do you think your going? You have some major questions to answer there." Charlie's anger obviously hadn't gone down too much.

At least he wasn't trying to kill me as yet. He may look like he's calmed but now I heard his voice I wasn't going to mess with that anytime soon.

"I was just going to get her something to eat. Like she asked sir." I replied gaining a muffled "brown-nosing" from Pete. I wasn't going to disagree. This man was Bella's father after all.

One of the ladies present must have thought ahead of time as they came prepared with choc peppermint swirl ice-cream for her. Soon everyone was perched around the room in different positions and places. Both my mother and Bella's mother were sitting either side of her. Charlie and pa were guarding the door with Jake and his father flanking them, not like I was going to run off or anything. Geez give me some credit.

Emmett and Rose; as well as Peter and Charlotte were sitting on the floor leaning on the wall. While Alice, Edward, Carlisle and Esme were now perched on the chairs beside the other wall. Yeah it was like sitting through the Spanish inquisition or something. It was that uncomfortable silence before you knew something was going to happen. All I could think of was that I was looking at 14 very interested people at different states of amusement or annoyance. It just depended on who you looked at, and where there attention was at that moment.

"I want to know how you to met. And how he hell this happened." Charlie finally spoke with finality. I looked at Bella; she didn't need to have her father pissed at her again.

"Look how we met was not the best of circumstances. She picked me up while I was walking in the rain. I, well lets just say I don't think Peter is such a push over anymore. I'm not going to go into all the details of that night because only two people ever need to know that. But when I woke up she wasn't there. When I heard her truck I didn't know what to do, so I ran to try and get her to stay. But I wasn't fast enough and she was gone before I could get to her." I got caught up in the memory, almost forgetting that everyone was there.

"That doesn't explain why you turned up to Charlie's place last month. You know if you told me who you were I might have helped you out. Well maybe not." Jake brought me back to reality with a thud.

"Let me ask you something. If you found the one girl that changed everything you looked at, how you looked at people and everything what would you do to get her back? I did the one thing I could think of; I went looking. Emmett and I went back to the hotel, and they gave us the name I. Swan. So we went from there. And I don't regret a damned thing now." As I finished I noticed the little nod from Charlie, maybe I had scored some points, I don't know.

Peter's shit-eating grin was sort of encouraging depending on what was going through his head.

"So what did you do Jasper? You can't go into a story like that and leave it there. It's just not nice." Little Alice called from Edwards lap where she now sat.

"I mean you said you had a name, and that was it. How did you go from a name to an address?" she continued when I didn't answer.

"Well Emmett and I went back home. We looked everywhere and did everything that we could think of except bring Rose in. It wasn't a good thing if she used her contacts and I didn't want her to loose her job or anything. So we eventually turned to a friend of ours from our army days. He's now a cop and was able to eventually track her down. Giving us her address, well her parents address. That's when we went for a drive last month. It took two days of driving non stop, with Emmett and me taking shifts so nothing could happen. When we got to the address at Forks Washington she wasn't there. She had moved a few months before. So when we came back I started working at the gym as a security guard of sorts while I had our cop friend looking for her once again." I felt like I was giving my personal story from birth.

"Is that what you two were doing all that time Emmett McCarty?" Rose asked Emm, gaining a nod in answer. I knew one man in the room was going to be a very happy man when he got home, I thought. God that sounded sleazy. I wanted more with Bella; So much more.

"So how is it that none of us were able to put one and one together to get this sorted earlier?" Char asked the room in general.

I was sort of wondering that too. I mean I told Peter, Emmett and Rose. And by the sound of it Bella told Char. So how come it took so long to get to this point.

"I think it was because I never told anyone Jasper's name. I always referred to him as my Cowboy. So until a little while ago it was always cowboy. I didn't even tell mother the whole story until lunch today." Bella's voice was soft and laced with some emotion that I couldn't understand.

I wanted to sit with her, but with the two mothers sitting on either side of her I couldn't do anything but smile at her, hopefully showing her that I understood and I wasn't going any where.

"And all I ever told you guys was that she was my Unattainable Angel. If I had given you the name Rose you could have lost your job. Your a reporter and all and could have really done some damage to your future if you had. When I told Peter about it all; all I had was the name Bella S. And he always referred to Bella as Little B." I finished.

The look on Bella's face was breath taking. Her smile was, wow. I could have just stared at her all day.

"So now that you found each other what are you going to do?" Bella's mother asked looking between Bella and me.

"What I would love to happen may not be the best thing. But what I want to happen and I'm hoping that Bella thinks the same is that we get to know one another better. She's carrying my baby, and I will be there for both of them regardless of the outcome of everything."- As I said this her face fell. I didn't want to break her heart but I knew what needed to be done for everyone involved. - "As much as I would love to be with her in every way, I think it would be better if we got to know one another first." Her face lit up again once I had finished speaking.

"I think that's a good idea." Her response gave me hope that maybe I wasn't the only one that wanted more than just friends and unattached parents.

The questions continued for at least an hour ranging form what was going to happen if things worked out, causing me to smile and I think the same could be said for Bella; to what if things didn't work and we ended up hating one another. I doubt I could ever hate my Bella. She was everything I ever wanted or needed in my life and nothing would ever change that.

"Alright everyone enough questions for the night, not that I'm finished with you two by a long shot. But I think it might be time to let these two to talk a little more privately and for the rest of us to go start cooking." Charlie broke in.

His anger had gone after the second question as far as I could sense. I wasn't liked or anything like that, but I wasn't going to be killed by him either. So that was reassuring. As everyone got up to leave I distinctly heard Peter's comment; "So I'm really going to be an uncle to peanut. Not just figuratively speaking."

He sounded extremely happy and smug. This coupled with Char's little squeal of delight was an encouraging thought.

"Well that went better than I thought. I was sure father was going to try and kill you." Bella said as her parents and mine were the final ones to leave the rom.

"It hasn't been ruled out yet Isabella." His gruff response and pa's throaty chuckle made us both slightly jumping from our seats.

Her eyes were the size of saucers, and I think what ever colour was in her face drained. I think mine was very similar to that too. I took the coveted spot that I had wanted through out the time we were all talking, well we were talking they were questioning.

"So what do you want to know? I'm an open book." I told her and it was true, anything she wanted to know I would tell her.

"Did you mean all that? What you said. That you want more than just friendship?" her voice so soft, she was scared that I was only saying that so I wouldn't have to face her father's anger?

The tears had already started to form in her eyes; it hurt just seeing her think that. Grabbing her hand once more I held on as tightly as I could without hurting her.

"Of course. I've spent all this time looking for you because I didn't want or need anyone else. You changed me in a way that I never thought could be possible. I'd follow you to the ends of the world and back; I'd happily jump off a cliff if that's what you want me to do. But I also meant that before we jump into anything I think we should get to know each other. I know what I want but I won't force myself on you. Momma taught me a lot better than that. Actually I am amazed that she isn't trying to castrate me right now. I think she's still on a high from finding out she's gonna be a grandma." At this thought we both softly laughed. But I could help that she hadn't told me what she wanted.

So I bit the bullet and asked; "But what about you. What do you want from this? Do you want me to just be your friend who happens to be your baby's father, or do you want more?"

I couldn't stop the desperation that leaked into my voice, I was sure she heard it but she didn't say anything about it, in fact she didn't say anything. I felt my heart fall to the ground, and went to slowly remove my hand from hers. So it wasn't me that didn't want this I thought. Of course she wouldn't there was no way I was anywhere good enough for her. But as I slowly lowered her hand onto the bed she tightened her grip.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean that, it's just that I've been dreaming of this day for months and now it's here. It's a little bit of a head spin." She confessed, making my heart climb up from the floor but not daring to go higher than my knees, it would take too long for it to hit the floor if she decided that maybe she didn't want anything more.

"I do want you, more than you know. But with everything I've gone through these past few months it's gonna take a little for me to come to grips with it. That you want me too. Its part of why I left. I thought there was no way that someone like you would want someone like me. I was sure that you were married or had a girlfriend and I couldn't take it. I fell for you that night. Even before we did anything. Before you said anything, but I was scared out of my brain. I couldn't take it and I did the one thing I was good at. I ran." She rushed out everything; tears running down her face and while my heart soared that she felt the same as I did it fell that she thought all this.

That she wasn't good enough for me. I held her, not wanting to let go, deciding that if she would let me I wouldn't ever let go. I finally had my Bella in my arms again and I wasn't going to let her leave without a fight.