First and foremost this is the original story before I started to rewrite it... and got stuck in the writing of the rewrite. If you are following the rewrite you will notice quite glaring differences between this and the one you have already started following. I do not intend on giving up with the rewritten version, however, I think you guys waiting for me to get over my blank slate of a muse isn't going to happen any time soon. So I am re-posting the original. This was my first completed story and it is very different from how my last stories flow.
Secondly, this is not beta'ed. NOT AT ALL. There will be mistakes in spelling (I'm Australian and some words we spell differently). The layout will honestly have you wondering what the hell I was thinking. I wasn't; well that's not true. What I was thinking was that I knew what I was doing and screw anyone else... yes I was a conceited little shit even at the age of 31.
Thirdly, there are 68 chapters to this story, including the epilogue and two outtakes. All of which have been uploaded to my profile so I should be able to update daily. Please understand that I have a busy life in the real world. This includes two children, one grown and the other with disabilities. So while I should be able to update wherever I am, if something happens please understand that I will miss updating.
Last but not lease. I am not SM. Not even close. I do not own the franchise, work in any capacity with the publishing houses or studios. I merely escaped from reality to play with some characters that I fell in love with while reading four books in a matter of days.
J POV
After dropping Bella off last night, that kiss sealed my heart forever. I was hers for eternity I would never want or need another woman again for however long I grace this earth. The mere movement of turning to go back to the car hurt inside; so much so I couldn't bring myself to let go of her hand until the absolute last moment. But fuck me if she didn't put her stamp on my heart to claim me when she placed her hand on the side of my face. I couldn't lean in; it took all of what I have to not take her then and there.
But as she kissed me I couldn't contain my want any more than I could remember feeling anything remotely like this for any other woman in my life. It was everything that I remembered from that night, and so much more. She wasn't going to disappear the next day, even if she was to sleep in her own bed and me in mine. I knew where I would find her in the morning. As I made my way back to my car I couldn't get rid of the smile even when the police pulled me over for random breath testing.
"I know that look, either you just won the lottery or you dear boy are in love." The officer stated.
Hell, I think it was both. I just grinned and complied with the orders of counting to 10 in the little machine and waiting for him to let me go. When I made it back to the apartment I did notice that Emmett and Rose were still not home, I quickly showered and went to bed, dreaming of Bella, and the future that I wanted to give Bella and peanut, a place of our own; maybe another child for peanut to play with.
I knew Bella was an only child but I also knew how good it was to have a brother to be there for you when you needed someone that wasn't a parent. Honestly, I wasn't sure how many of our friends were able to handle being without brothers or sisters. If things go as I hope they will, who knows maybe we could have another child.
"You look happy this morning, what time did you get in? We waited for Bella to get home until 1 this morning but then had to call it a night. You better not have made my girl tired today." Rose both excited and scolding at the same time. There's a mum that I wouldn't want to face in the future.
"Wait we got back around 11 last night and you didn't catch her? She's good if she got past all of you." I laughed as I reached for the coffee that she had placed in front of me.
Her face, when she realized that Bella had pulled a fast one on her, was beyond funny, seriously I wanted that captured on film and framed.
"Alright smart ass, I want details. Where did you go and what did you do." She cornered me in the kitchen. What is it with women and details? Damn, I feel sorry for Bella she'd have to face way too many people this morning.
"I took her to Emily's and Sam's restaurant for dinner. They loved her off the bat; something about if she could handle me then she'll be able to handle anything Peanut threw at her in the future. Then we went to the gardens in the park and just walked and talked. Oh, but never play 20 questions with that woman. She was relentless." A vague enough description of the night's events, I wasn't going to give her any more than that and I could see she was happy for now anyway.
Quickly looking over at the clock I saw it was 8 am, I knew what I wanted to do this morning; I was going to surprise Bella by taking her out to breakfast. I quickly ran the plan past Rose; since she is Bella's boss I thought it might be a good idea. I didn't want to cause any issues with her work. From what she told me last night it was her dream job, and that she was grateful that it was offered to her. Kissing Rose on the cheek I made my way down the hall to grab my keys and wallet. I could hear soft laughter from the kitchen as Emmett entered joining his wife. He was one lucky man, and so was I.
"I'll see you guys later," I called as I ran past the kitchen to the front door.
"He's got it bad." Rose's parting words were so true. But I really didn't care.
The drive over to Bella's house I realized that I hadn't found out what time she was meant to be in the office. I mentally kicked myself and was thinking of back-up plans as I pulled up to the curb outside. I had just gotten out of the car when the front door opened and she was running out.
"I'm not giving you details right now Char, it can wait until tonight. Promise I won't let Rose in on anything either. Pete, could you drive me into work?" she was calling through the door, looking flushed but extremely happy. God, I hoped it was from the memory of last night.
"Looks like I don't have to Little B. You got a knight in shining truck over there... My truck too by the look of it!" Peter's voice carried over the laughter from inside. I guess her parents were there as well, if not more.
I made my way to the passenger side door and opened it for her as she turned around and noticed me standing there. Her face lit up with the most amazing smile I had ever seen. As she made her way down the stairs I saw that not only were her parents there but so were mine. I wonder if they ended up crashing the night or if they got there early to get some details from Bella.
"Looks like I got here just in time then," I whispered as I kissed her on the cheek. The only reply I got was that breathtaking smile of hers, and I would take that any day of the week.
"Oh and Peter; I'm not little, I'm fun-sized." She called out before realizing the implications that could be made with that little comment. Her cheeks were instantly inflamed with a blush that I couldn't help but laugh at.
"I can gather that. Or at least Jazz can." He shot back without missing a beat. I shook my head but looked up in time to see Charlotte clipping him up back of his head.
"Oh my god… why did I just say that? He's so going to give me hell for that." She moaned, her embarrassment from the little showdown painted all over her face. And yes she was going to regret that comment.
After a few minutes, she had calmed down enough to talk without beating herself up. I couldn't help but watch her every chance I got while driving, memorizing her every feature as she sat there beside me.
"So Jazz, thanks for the lift this morning. But you do know where Rose and I work don't you?" she asked, only realizing that we were not heading to her office building. Her face was beautiful even in her confusion as to what was going on.
"Well, I was thinking that after last night I'd take you to breakfast. Don't worry; Rose already knows you're going to be a little late. That is if you want to." I asked watching her while we had stopped at the lights. As she smiled and nodded her head the car behind us was honking its horn.
"Cowboy, the light's green. I think he wants to get moving." Bella's words broke me from my self-induced zoning.
Realizing this, or more correctly having it pointed out to me I quickly put my foot back on the accelerator and headed once more to the little diner I knew served the best breakfast there was. It took another 15 minutes to get to the diner, but while it was a quiet drive it wasn't uncomfortable. More like we knew what the other was thinking.
Helping her out of the car I couldn't help but place my hand on her bump. But I didn't expect to have the bump move under my hand. I think I swore, but honestly, I was not in my right mind.
"Relax Peanut is just moving around in there, nothing out of the ordinary there." She softly spoke bringing me back to earth and lessening my idiotic response.
Of course, it was Peanut; I mean babies do move around while in their mother's womb. I felt like facepalming myself at how stupid I was at that moment. She gently grabbed my hand and placed it back onto her stomach and held it there. Within a few seconds, I felt our baby move once more. I looked up to her eyes, I couldn't fathom what this felt like to her, but it was just something I would hold in my memory forever.
That there was my baby moving; showing me that he or she is indeed living in this beautiful woman standing in front of me. I was one lucky and a happy bastard. What can I say?
"Come on, let's go in. Maybe Peanut is hungry?" my voice a little rough with emotion.
I once again held the door open for her and guided her to one of the booths waiting until she had gotten herself comfortable before I sat down myself. Soon the waitress came over, handing the menus and taking our drink orders.
"So how is it you got past everyone last night without notice?" I asked watching her smirk at her own bit of ingenuity.
"Not hard really. All the parents were asleep in the living room, and everyone else was in the kitchen. So it was a clean break to my room. I locked the door so I wouldn't be bombarded by the girls this morning. How'd you know?" She had laughed throughout telling this little explanation.
"I live with Emmett and Rose. She cornered me this morning for details." As I spoke I watched her face, I guess it had something to do with the comment to Charlotte about not giving anything away.
"Don't worry; guys give a very vague description of dates. All she knows is that we went to dinner and to the gardens." She visibly relaxed as I continued.
A few minutes later the same waitress came over to take our orders. Both getting pancakes and a bowl of fruit, but Bella needed it to be smothered with chocolate sauce.
"So how did you sleep last night? Any good dreams?" Bella asked as we waited for the food to arrive.
"Actually I slept really well. I can't remember what I dreamt about. Whatever it was it must have been good because Rose even commented about me being happy this morning." I had no problems going further into it if she was interested but I didn't want to scare her by telling her exactly what I was dreaming about or thinking about before I fell asleep.
"What about you. Any good dreams?" I questioned, bringing that blush that I had secretly loved to bring about. "To use the word of last night. Spill." I couldn't help but want to know what had brought that blush on, or the fact that she had been busted in something that caused her to blush even more if that's possible.
"Fine, I had a sex dream. Do you want to know more?" I think she did that on purpose as the poor waitress had just come over and almost dropped the tray she was carrying.
I waited for the waitress to leave before I could answer, I don't think she wanted to know all the details but I was insanely curious.
"Yep, give the details. Who with, where, anything you want to tell me." I learned my lesson last night. No holding back.
"Not giving all the details, it is a public diner after all. But you were there, in a field and I was not happy with Char as she woke me up from it." She bluntly informed me, not batting an eye when she spoke.
I was in awe, I wanted to know more but as she said it was a public diner and it didn't make too good of a morning conversation for the rest of the patrons to overhear. We ate in relative silence but again it wasn't uncomfortable. It wasn't until we got the check that we realized that we had been in the dinner for over an hour.
"Okay, I know you cleared this with Rose and everything but I have to get to work; I have to write up my column before it goes to press. I need to make it more me, less clinical." Bella's rambling was cute in a funny way. She looked like one of those cartoon characters where they talk at rapid speed before they realize that nobody could understand what they were saying.
We made it back to the car and headed towards the building she worked in.
"So are you going to give me more details or are you going to let me think about it all day?" I asked her, that dream had been on my mind since she told me that I was the one in it with her.
It was a good feeling that she dreamt of me like that, but I wanted to know what I had done, maybe... Okay, Jasper, do you need to take a cold shower before you head to work; get your mind out of the gutter for a while.
"Oh doesn't that sound interesting. Keep you in the dark after getting your interest. How about you keep it in mind until we play 20 questions again." I couldn't believe it, surely she wouldn't.
"Well, maybe I'll tell you later but not right now. I need to get my head back to work; how about tonight. It seems like we are having another cookout tonight, I'll tell you then. But you cannot and I repeat cannot tell anyone; especially your brother. He's already planning on getting me with that comment this morning. I wouldn't be surprised if my bed isn't covered with fun-sized candy bars when I get home tonight." I watched as she thought of all the possible pranks Peter would and could play on her with that little comment. It was so innocent but really Peter never took things like that as innocent.
"You know I'll hold you to that. It's gonna drive me crazy all day at work." Was all I could think to get her mind off the inevitable that would face her tonight.
We had pulled up to her office building; I didn't even realize that we had driven her so fast. I was disappointed with the idea of getting here so fast. I really was enjoying her company, she was easy to talk to, listen to, and be around. I was not looking forward to work and having to deal with the overt advances of the receptionist as of late. She usually never approached me but for some reason, she had decided that it was time to mess with me.
"Well, it's a good thing that you'll be coming over tonight. Otherwise, you'd have to wait longer." She said just before kissing me softly and exiting the car. Today was going to be torture. I'm not going to be able to keep myself from thinking about that dream.
