- Stay focused or almost so.
After I leave the room, I walk towards the party again, going through all the corridors that he himself had shown me, until I arrive again at the party site, there are still people dancing in the middle of the courtyard. I walk to the bar again, the boy who is working on it, smiles as soon as he sees me. -What did a woman like you come to in a place like this? -She laughed and sat on one of the benches facing the counter. -I got dumped, actually it wasn't like that, but it was almost. -The boy turns around and pours me a drink, when I smell it I realize it's wine with Vodka, I turn it around and drink everything I had in the glass. -I don't know how I can say this without looking like I'm hitting on you, but this kid is stupid, I wouldn't do that. -He smiles and looks at me. -Thank you for the almost compliment. -He keeps staring at me and then I start laughing. -What is it? some problem? I ask without understanding. -Depends on the point of view, I just don't know how I'm going to tell you that. -I keep looking at him, and then he takes a napkin and hands it to me. -Your mouth is all smudged with lipstick. I take the napkin and wipe my mouth, starting to laugh. -This is not really a problem, but anyway, I want another dose of something very strong, I need to forget the damage sequences I took. -He laughs and turns to the huge shelf of drinks, takes a bottle of Jack Daniel´s and puts a double dose in my glass, my eyes shine, but before serving me, the boy takes a can of Red Bull, opens it and finishes filling the glass. -Here it is. -Smile and take the glass already taking a sip. -MELISSSAAAAAA ! - I hear Manuela's voice and turn around. -Where were you? -I drink another sip before answering. -Knowing college. -She squints and I make a landscape expression. -So being like that ...- Where were you, girl? -I ask her with an intimidating tone. -Knowing the mouth of one of the college students. -I shake my head in denial, turning all the drink in my mouth, she makes a face and the bar boy laughs. -Let's go? -She asks approaching me. We will. - She walks towards the gate, I leave the glass on the counter and smile the boy square, he understands the hand and smiles too. My name is Arthur. -I reach out to greet you too. - My name is melissa. -He lowers his head and kisses my hand, I smile without grace and he lets go of my hand. -See you on Monday. -See you on Monday. I answer walking towards the gate, where Manuela was waiting for me. - Was it this boy who showed you the college? -I shake my head. -No, he was just the boy who served me drinks. -She starts walking and I follow. -He is cute, I would take it. -Well, who you would catch is not Manuela. -She rolls her eyes and laughs. -I just enjoy the good things in life and that includes picking up boys. -Many boys you mean. -I speak completing your sentence. At that hour there was no bus anymore, so we just had to go on foot. It wasn't very far, at least not for me, since I have cachaça in my mind, by bus it was about 10 minutes, on foot about 30. I walk all the way singing various songs, while Manuela did not leave her cell phone. I didn't tell her about Lucas because I don't even know what happened myself, I'm still trying to digest, I stayed with a boy who seemed to want to be with me and out of nowhere he dumps me, is he a virgin too? These questions are puzzling me more and more, I don't know what to think, it's all a little strange, Manuela would laugh at me if I tell for sure.
After the minutes, we got home, it literally wasn't my house and it wasn't a house either, it was an apartment, it was from Manuela's relatives, from the wealthy part of her family, they let us live there to study, since nobody lived there. We went up the stairs and went inside, taking off my shoes and also my clothes, leaving my cell phone on top of the nightstand going straight to the bathroom to take a shower, Manuela lay on the bed the way it was, without even taking off her shoes, she didn't smell of drink or nothing, it must be just tiredness. I go into the bathroom and turn on the shower, letting the water fall on my naked body, while I remember the moments in the test room with Lucas, my body shivers, I even feel a cold sensation in my stomach, I can still feel him hold tight my thighs, while your mouth kissed my neck. I am very foolish to think of one side, he must have taken several girls today, I was just one more on his list, and that smile does not deceive me at all, but why does it matter so much? Was it because of the outside? I don't know, this is puzzling me. A few minutes pass and I get out of the shower, with a towel wrapped around my body, put on a skull and cross pajamas and lie on the bed next to Manuela, she is already sleeping, I get up and walk to her feet, take off her shoes and I lie down again.
I wake up the next day with Manuela talking on the phone, she looks excited, I look at her and ask who's just moving her mouth, without making a sound, and she makes a sign with her hands indicating that afterwards she spoke to me. I go back to bed again, take out my cell phone and look at the hours, but in fact I don't want to see the hours, I'm hoping that Lucas would text me, but how would he do that if he didn't even get my number? I put the phone back on the nightstand and close my eyes to sleep again, but Manuela jumps on top of me, I swear to God I felt two of my ribs enter and exit my kidney quickly. -He called me ! -She screams and I look at her without understanding. -Who called you? -The guy I got yesterday. -Define to get it. -I speak waiting for your answer. -Hot friend, I had sex with him. -I put my hands on my eyes with a landscape expression, since I had just woken up and my brain hadn't even oxygenated yet, I think I heard it wrong. -Did you have sex with him? When did you meet him? -She laughs and gets off me. -Yesterday. -I sit on the bed and look at her without saying anything. -What was Melissa? It is not because you are a virgin that everyone has to be. -I'm not telling you to be a virgin all your life, or not to have sex with anyone you want, you just don't need to have sex with a guy you just met, and another thing, life is yours, do whatever you want. -She shuts up, I get out of bed and go to the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth. As soon as I finish I leave the bathroom and Manuela was no longer at home, I already had coffee ready, so I just help myself and drink.
Some hours have passed since the time I woke up, as I had nothing to do, I read scientific files and then I went to watch a movie that was on TV, of a movie I watch 2,3 and when I realize it was already night , I think about going out to drink something, but I didn't want to go alone, so I decide to go to sleep. I was anxious about Monday at college, and as I didn't have a drink at home, I decided to take a sleeping pill, I highlight 2 pills from the pack and drink, the action came quickly, it wasn't even 10 minutes and I see everything getting cloudy, indicating that the feeling I wanted had been achieved, I lay on the bed and quickly I fell asleep. The next day I wake up, I was still sleepy due to the medication, Manu was neither in bed nor at home, he must have slept outside, on my cell phone there was no message from her, I also do not resolve to disturb you. and Sunday came down to that, I was marathon running and eating fatty and sweet things. when eight o'clock at night, someone knocks on the door, I get up from the sofa and walk to open it, when I open the door completely I see Manuela, she seemed to be under the influence of something not normal. -Hello Girl. -she says hugging me. -What's wrong with you? -Hahaha I don't know, I just feel light and happy. -Close the door and take her to the bed. -You drank? -I really ask just to be sure, but that didn't just look like cachaça, I know a drunk person well. -Just the basic. -I take my fingers up to your eyes and see your enlarged retina. -What did you use? -She looks at me smiling, looking like a maniac. -Nothing I shouldn't. -I take a deep breath and try to keep patience so I don't punch her in the face, because it was the thing I wanted most at that moment. I took off her shoes and clothes, I had no work at all because she was practically in a coma, I lifted her up, taking her to the bathroom, made her sit on the floor, near the drain, while I turn on the shower, letting the cold water fall into her body, she moans and tries to leave, I push her again and she starts to cry. -Sorry ... I ... I don't know what gave me ... -I ignore her apologies and continue to pour water over her body. A few minutes pass and she is in a catatonic state sitting in the same place. -Tomorrow we talk. -I leave the bathroom and walk towards the bedroom, I leave Manuela alone in the bathroom. I was not patient, and at that moment she needed help and not judgment and I was not the person for that. I lie in bed and try to sleep. Morning wake up with my cell phone ringing due to the alarm clock. I look to the side and Manuela is still sleeping. I get up and walk towards the kitchen, make a strong coffee and make some toast. Once ready, I eat and start getting ready for another day of college, it's Monday, today things are really starting to get tense. After a shower and getting dressed, I grab my bag and leave the house. Manuela hadn't even woken up from her sleep, I wouldn't call her, she needs to rest and put her thoughts on the axis. the bus passes by, and I get in, sit on a bench, whatever. as I travel, I listen to music as usual. Arriving at the point of college and go down. walk to her. I pass through the gate and head over to the room I study. Now things are more serious, there are no more parties, it is to focus on studies.
As soon as I walk through the door and the first person my eyes meet is the party boy. I take a deep breath and don't let any emotion show, I just move on, sitting in the same place as in the previous class. he just looked at me, like he wanted to suck my soul. Right after that he didn't look at me for a moment, how do I know that? Why did I look at him most of the time from my peripheral vision. Class time passed. Now is the break, I would use that time to go to the test room again, but this time to really see things. I got up from the chair, and walked down the halls, having mild Flashbacks from the night of the party. I still didn't understand the real reason why the boy left that way, even because I don't know him, but I wasn't in the mood to have sex that day, especially with a boy I only saw twice in my life. I imagined that because it was morning, the door could be open, but as soon as I put my hand on the handle and turn the door closed, I snort by the mouth and get frustrated. -Why did not you call me? I could open it for you. I end up being frightened by the boy's voice, with his approach to my back, I could feel his breath in my ear. even scared, I don't turn around, I keep my hand on the knob and remain motionless. -I wanted to know the room, but ... alone and with details. -He laughs like he doesn't believe. - Deep down I feel like I want to remember the night that passed. -He takes a step back, pushing me, taking his hand with the key to the door and opening it. -You are very convinced. -Maybe just a little. -His hand opens the door and he pushes me again, now into the room and locks the door. -What do you want with all this? -I asked looking at him with some anger. -You. -He walks up to me, holding my hair, pulling me against his body, looks into my eyes fixedly. -I'm going to finish what I started yesterday. -And so he starts a kiss, it takes me about 3 seconds before reciprocating, I feel like he was kissing me hard and that just makes me more horny. Return the action, taking a few steps back, until you reach the same table that we stayed at for the first time. He holds me by the waist, sitting on it, I cross my legs on his waist, leaving his penis in indirect contact with my intimacy. The kiss was getting more intense, our tongues meeting inside our mouths, he bit my lips, while his hand went over my body and again I did what made him separate the kiss from the previous time. I held his hand tightly and put it on my chest and differently from the other time, he squeezed even harder, making me give a groan of practically pity, he separates the kiss, and goes down taking light bites on my neck. My right hand goes under his shirt, scratching his defined abdomen with some force. Lucas takes the initiative and takes off his shirt, I'm particularly surprised, I didn't expect this from him, but I didn't complain. I took a fixed look, taking my mouth up to his neck, also making bite trails with sucks, only going down even lower, reaching his chest. he holds me tightly by the hair, making me look up, approaches me and passes his tongue between my lips, as a provocation, I can't resist and I take a bite of it, making it bleed a little, he smiles and doesn't seem to be angry. just again, my tongue now bleeds into my mouth, I taste the tasty taste of blood. His hand now goes to the bar of my moons, and with one movement he removes my shirt, placing it on the table, leaving my breasts only covered by a black bra. to make my situation worse, Lucas starts to slide his thumb over my shoulder, it felt like his finger was hot, or a vampire verbena, it burned and burned, he went down some more, reaching the middle that divided my two breasts, mine breathing was heavy and strong, I felt my heart go out through my mouth. and so the boy advances again to me initiating another kiss, now his hand went against my body more willingly, holding my waist tightly, squeezing, and making me almost lie on the table and it was here that the noise of the signal rang. and laughs, separates the kiss and bites his own lip. I take a deep breath and get up. - we have to go to the ward. -Lucas leans against the table, looking at his scratched belly and then looks back at me with a malicious expression. -I might as well finish what we started. - I take my shirt, taking a few steps towards the door. I turn towards him and laugh. - That would be rape. -Well, it's not rape if the victim wants it. -Victim? - I gave a mocking laugh. -I like black humor joke. One point for you. - I said finishing putting on my shirt and I left the room.
