First and foremost this is the original story before I started to rewrite it... and got stuck in the writing of the rewrite. If you are following the rewrite you will notice quite glaring differences between this and the one you have already started following. I do not intend on giving up with the rewritten version, however, I think you guys waiting for me to get over my blank slate of a muse isn't going to happen any time soon. So I am re-posting the original. This was my first completed story and it is very different from how my last stories flow.

Secondly, this is not beta'ed. NOT AT ALL. There will be mistakes in spelling (I'm Australian and some words we spell differently). The layout will honestly have you wondering what the hell I was thinking. I wasn't; well that's not true. What I was thinking was that I knew what I was doing and screw anyone else... yes I was a conceited little shit even at the age of 31.

Thirdly, there are 68 chapters to this story, including the epilogue and two outtakes. All of which have been uploaded to my profile I will try to upload as often as I can. Please understand that I have a busy life in the real world. This includes two children, one grown and the other with disabilities. So while I should be able to update wherever I am, if something happens please understand that I will miss updating.

Last but not lease. I am not SM. Not even close. I do not own the franchise, work in any capacity with the publishing houses or studios. I merely escaped from reality to play with some characters that I fell in love with while reading four books in a matter of days.

Oh dear lord, take me now. Seriously I don't mind having babysitters; really I'm fine with that. But when they go as far as wanting to stand outside the bathroom door while I pee is just one step too far. It's been two days since Tanya discharged me from the hospital and I swear that if I didn't check the room Char or Peter would have set up the monitor we bought peanut in my room so they can hear me sleeping at night. The only reason why they haven't is that nobody wants to push me too far and cause my blood pressure to rise higher again. Well, that and the fact that Jasper has officially moved in now.

That's one plus to this enforced big brother vibe running in the house. On top of this, I have Edward and Alice checking my B.P. every morning and night. Let alone everyone and I mean everyone is on their way from Forks here. No not just mother and father, but Billy, Jake, Kate, and whoever else from the res (more than likely Seth and Leah will make an appearance even if Seth hitchhikes); and Carlisle and Esme. Yep, Carlisle took the time off of work to come and be here while everything is going on. Can you say cabin fever people?

"Hey what's going on in there? You fallen in or something?" Damn Peter, while I know he means well I just can't go with him standing outside the door. Jasper at least waits down the hall.

"Peter I love you, not just because you're like a brother because you really are. But get the hell away from this door or so help me I'll have Char cut your bed privileges' down so far you'd think you joined the priesthood." I hissed through gritted teeth. I swear if this is them trying not to bring my B.P. up I'd hate to see what will happen if they try to do raise my stress levels up.

"Please Peter; I need some sense of privacy right now. You're killing me here." I whimper through the door, fighting the tear that I know are setting to leak out before I can pee.

Thankfully I can hear the retreating steps down the hall and within seconds I can at least pee. After washing my hands and face I swear I hear him chuckling outside the door.

"Come on you two; time to go back to bed." He uses his sing-song voice and that's it.

"No! No more, I mean it. I don't need everyone making my decisions for me. I appreciate it and love you all but no more. That bed can be the most comfortable thing I've ever slept in, but I don't care. I need some normalcy not to be treated like a god damned china doll. I want my life back!" my little rant has caused the entire house to meet in the hall. Char looks sympathetically at me, at least when she's with me everywhere she at least lets me be me. Jasper too, though he has some issues with the whole I'm a big girl thing at times.

"Alright, come on Bells lets go outside for some girl time. That means unless you have two lumps sitting above your belly button and below your neck get the hell out." Thank you, Jane.

I'd kiss you if it wasn't going to cause some serious issues. But while I know this is what I need, I can't look up to meet Jasper's face. I know I've just hurt him in the biggest damned way. He's been patient, hasn't pushed too many buttons, and promised me that he wasn't going to leave my side and now he's getting kicked out from the one place I know he wants to be.

"Bella; sweetie. I know you need some time but if you need anything that's not here, call me and I'll bring it over ok." He sounds so defeated.

"Jane can you give us a minute, I promise I won't lose it again." She kisses me on the cheek and I lead Jasper to the room.

"I'm sorry; I know it's a bitchy move to have a hissy fit like that. But I want us back, not the china doll Bella and Jasper where everyone's afraid to talk about something important around me because nobody wants to stress me out; because it's not working. If anything; it counterproductive. Can I ask you to do something for me?" my voice sounds like I'm five by now but he stands there with nothing but love in his eyes and nods his head.

"Take me out tonight. Just the two of us even if it's just dinner and back home. I need something that's not about the pregnancy; I need it to be just you and me. Let's enjoy some us time and let the stress of everything sit at the back of our minds for one night. Please?" I'm practically begging to go on a date, have I sunk that low?

The smile that creeps on his face shows me that maybe it's something that has been playing on his mind. A quick kiss on the cheek, because if he goes near the lips we both know it won't be so quick. Hey, I'm hormonal, pregnant and in desperate need to be loved by the man I'm in love with. So sue me.

Heading out the back patio I notice that Jane has everything ready for someone on one chatting while Char, Alice, and Rose have all gone out somewhere for something. Not sure if it's a good thing or not, but I appreciate the thought.

"You okay Bella. Not checking on the pregnancy but about you. Up there where everything gets compartmentalized and left to be gone through at a later time?" Jane asks, her tone is soft, but at the same time, it's reassuring that she's worried about me, not just peanut.

"I think so; the past couple of days are nothing to what's gonna happen when mother and father get here with everyone else. Not sure where they're all staying though. I just want things to go back to the way they were before the hospital visit. But I know they won't. I love them all but like I said sometimes it's hard to let others take care of you. I'm very independent and I feel like everyone is taking that away from me." I sighed, it felt good, no amazing to talk to someone that had gone through all the stress of pregnancy.

I love Char and the girls but I need to talk to someone who's gone through this and mother isn't here. That sounds bad even to me, but I know I mean it in the best possible way.

"Honey; don't take it too personally. Each and every one of them loves you and only wants what's best. That little baby is gonna have some very overly protective aunts and uncles, let alone the grandparents." She smiled, and it's almost like she's lost in her memories.

"You know I was gonna bring over the ultrasound that showed what peanut is the other day. I was gonna give it to Jasper as a present, sort of like letting him know that I trust him and that I want him to be there. Not just in our lives, but in the room when Peanut is born." Even the thought of Jasper makes me smile, and the thought of him being in the room with me, being one of the first to hold peanut just makes it so much better.

The giggles from Jane have thrown me, what's she giggling about anyway. Looking over to her I can't help but look confused, this woman is almost one of the straight-laced women I have ever met and she's cracked.

"Bella, I don't think anyone would be able to hold Jasper back from being in that room. If you haven't noticed these past few days he has only left your side after someone has physically forced you two apart, like the bathroom run just then. And when that happens we all get to see moody Jasper until you return." I think my eyes just popped out of my head.

He's that worried about me and peanut. No wonder he looked so hurt when I dragged him into the room just then.

"So what did you talk about when you two went off just then anyway? He looked almost dead at first like he was gonna get his ass handed to him, but when he left he was happy as a fat kid at the candy store."

Queue the blush people, get out the sunglasses, I went that red at the memory of almost begging Jasper for some time alone that I'm embarrassed beyond anything I've ever done in my life. And trust me I've done some damned embarrassing things in my life. I shook my head, there was no way I was gonna give her that much dirt about me; settling on some half-truths.

"I asked him to take me out tonight, something where there won't be any stress, where it can just be the two of us. I miss that." I may have started out with some half-truths, but it ended up being something like ¾ truths.

"Ah, don't worry your secret is safe with me. I won't let the girls get hold of you now. Though I don't think anyone is in the mood for another verbal bashing again today." Cheeky woman.

One of these days I'm gonna ask her to teach me everything she knows about getting things outta people without them knowing. We spent the rest of the time just sitting there on the patio, enjoying the warm weather, waiting for the girls to come back from getting whatever it is that they were sent to get. It was peaceful relaxing and just what I wanted and needed. No constant reminder that I had to watch what I was doing. I could get lost in my head and not worry about it being dissected by a room full of people. Basically it was heaven on Earth right then and I didn't want to let it go.

But as all good things must come to an end, I was glad that the girls had returned, and that I had "mellowed out" as Rose called my sleepy expression when she saw me sitting on the pool chair as she joined Jane and I outback.

"So what are we going to do with our girl time mamma? Last time we had one of these you had me walking around shopping for sex toys and lingerie. Now I know we can't do that so what's your plan?" Char was never too quiet about all this.

She even showed me her finds. I think it was one of the few times that I'd ever had a full-body blush while I was at school.

"We ladies are going to do exactly what Bella is doing now. Relaxing not thinking about anything but getting lost in our thoughts. If that doesn't work then we will catch up with everything that's going on in everyone's lives. But one rule is that we do not bring anything about Bella and peanuts well-being into the conversation. Do I make myself clear?" Jane never did leave anything open to discussion or argument.

Did I mention that I loved this woman?

If not; god I love this woman.

The nodding of three heads and the soft thumps as each of the four women around me took their seats in the circle was utter bliss to my ears. And the best thing about it was that no-one, and I mean no-one did bring up the pregnancy throughout the day, and Jane didn't let on what was going on with me and Jasper that night. The talk consisted of Rose telling us about Emmett's latest attempts at romance; Char and Peter thinking of going away for a belated honeymoon, and Alice and Edward's PDA whenever they were together. It was absolutely amazing to not be the center of attention for a while.

"Bella, I think your bag is ringing." Char brought me out of my thoughts with a thud, that thud would be my bag hitting the chair beside me.

A message from Jasper which Jane red over my shoulder; be there in an hour. Promise to make it just you and me. No stress. Love Jasper. I squealed, yes me.

With a little help from Jane, I headed for my room to get ready.

"Where is she going?" Rose asked Jane, but thankfully I was able to close the door and head to the bathroom to shower and get ready with no help from anyone.

It was heaven.

Slipping under the water was so relaxing, I was beyond happy when I was able to get out, get dressed in something I felt comfortable, and not have to worry about having the girls pick out my clothes. After brushing my hair and slipping on my shoes I heard the distinct sounds of Jasper's car and the frightened squeaks from the girls about his sudden arrival. I waited until I knew he was inside the house, getting grilled by the girls before I stepped out of the room; only to find Jane standing guard at my door.

"Have fun, and remember if something is wrong, he wants to help you so tell him. I'm a call away if you need anything." She whispered in my ear as I kissed her cheek. She may not be my mother by blood but she was in every other sense.