First and foremost this is the original story before I started to rewrite it... and got stuck in the writing of the rewrite. If you are following the rewrite you will notice quite glaring differences between this and the one you have already started following. I do not intend on giving up with the rewritten version, however, I think you guys waiting for me to get over my blank slate of a muse isn't going to happen any time soon. So I am re-posting the original. This was my first completed story and it is very different from how my last stories flow.
Secondly, this is not beta'ed. NOT AT ALL. There will be mistakes in spelling (I'm Australian and some words we spell differently). The layout will honestly have you wondering what the hell I was thinking. I wasn't; well that's not true. What I was thinking was that I knew what I was doing and screw anyone else... yes I was a conceited little shit even at the age of 31.
Thirdly, there are 68 chapters to this story, including the epilogue and two outtakes. All of which have been uploaded to my profile I will try to upload as often as I can. Please understand that I have a busy life in the real world. This includes two children, one grown and the other with disabilities. So while I should be able to update wherever I am, if something happens please understand that I will miss updating.
Last but not lease. I am not SM. Not even close. I do not own the franchise, work in any capacity with the publishing houses or studios. I merely escaped from reality to play with some characters that I fell in love with while reading four books in a matter of days.
I stood at the door watching Jasper not answer any questions that the girls were throwing at him, and I've never been more proud that he didn't give anything away. I quietly went back into our room to grab my bag from the other day, searching for a little envelope that held something that was one of my most valuable possessions. I couldn't help the smile that crept up on my face; it's not something that I'd get used to but at the same time something that I'd never want to lose.
Slipping it into the bag I'd decided to use for tonight holding my wallet, phone, and anything that I needed for the night I was ready for what eve he had planned for the evening. Quickly making my way back to the living room I had noticed that only Jasper and Jane were waiting for me; seeing to read my thoughts they pointed outside where three very intrigued women staring at me with looks of utter bewilderment. I would have to say that this would be because I'd kept this from them.
"You got everything you need?" Jane asked pointing to my bag, with a big cheesy smile plastered on her face.
I nodded my head eagerly. She quickly made her way over and kissed my cheek once more before joining the girls outside; while Jasper took hold of my hand, directing me towards the front door.
"Remember just you and me," he whispered in my ear, causing a shiver of delight to run down my spine.
Right now was one of these times where I wasn't sure if it was my hormones or my natural response to being this close to Jasper and his undeniable power over me.
We drove for all of 10 minutes before we stopped on the side of the road. At first, I had no clue what he was planning or where we were. Yes, I have lived in the area for nearly 9 months but it doesn't mean that I know my way around the place.
"Do you trust me?" he asked with a wicked smile playing across his features.
That there should have tipped me off that something was coming. Not the question, but the smile. I have only seen it once since I met him and that was the night when we first met.
"Of course I trust you. Why?" I'm pretty sure that my curiosity at whatever he was planning doubled if not tripled.
"I have a surprise, but I want to know if you'd let me do something." The cocky smile that had caused my panties to dampen so easily had quickly been replaced with a sheepish grin.
Not sure which one was worse really. Both make me weak at the knees. I'm sure my face looks a little out of character, I'm the one who has all the crazy ideas and unusual plans formulating in my head. The last one was when we pranked Peter because he was using me as a cover to eat the wedges that we'd bought in the shopping, and then having the audacity to not share.
"I promise it's nothing bad. I want to blindfold you so you don't know where we are going." While at first, I was a little worried about the whole blindfold thing I could see how much the idea of surprising me was to him. Taking a big breath I turned and held my hair so he could tie the piece of cloth around my eyes.
"You know you're very trusting Bella. I could do anything right now and you wouldn't know what was going on. I could do this"- as his hand oh so softly trailed up and down my thigh, not quite hitting my center but sending me wild none the less –" or this" as he whispered in my ear sending another shiver down my spine -" or even this." He kissed my pulse point just behind my ear. Now ladies if someone as both physically and emotionally appealing did something like that to you; would you be able not to whimper? I think not.
"You know that was really not fair," I whined as I rubbed my legs together trying to find some friction to calm my nerves that were tingling.
I heard his soft chuckle as he placed his hand on mine once more only to make me moan once more. I felt the car take off once more as we listened to the radio in silence. It wasn't something that either of us found uncomfortable just relaxing. It felt so good to be just us for once.
As we sat there I thought about all that we had gone through these last few months, from the shock of finding one another once more, him dealing what the idea of being a father; my parents, and their reaction. The dates and family dinners that Jane and Felix had made compulsory for us all; helping Brea through her time of need, and still being there for her now; Alice's heartbreak and her growth which I should tell you is amazing now that she's willing to open herself up more (yeah she's still a little skittish but she's getting there with some help from both me and Edward).Emmett's realization that his wife is more than just his wife but someone who deserves to be spoiled every day of his life and the hilarious shopping sprees to get her some gift that he thought would be perfect for her. With everything that's happened; it's amazing I'm not looking like I haven't slept in days.
"Hey what are you thinking about over there?" he asked and being blindfolded he really should have warned me somehow. I nearly knocked my head on the roof of the car from jumping.
"Right now I'm thinking that I need to breath, but I was thinking about how crazy wonderful, and amazing these past few months have been," I answered truthfully, and I wasn't ashamed of this either.
I felt rather than saw as he raised my hand he was holding to his lips and kissed each knuckle softly. "I can imagine, it's been one hell of a ride, but I would do it again in a heartbeat." The smile that I can only assume to be plastered on his face is clearly obvious in his voice.
"So not to change the subject but are we nearly where-ever you are taking me?" my excitement clearly winning over my natural reaction to surprises.
Again he chuckles at my reaction, clearly enjoying the fact that I wasn't getting upset over not knowing where we are going and what we are doing.
"Just a few more minutes, I promise." His only reply just making me giddy for whatever he has planned.
I know it's something special, I can feel it. But as long as it's just the two of us I'm fine with special. Hell, I'd be fine with burger and fries as long as it was just the two of us. Lapsing back into the peaceful quiet with only the rumbling of the engine and now soft music I lose myself to the idea of having Jasper to myself for the night. But it's being lost in these thoughts that I don't realize that the car has stopped and that Jasper is standing there waiting to help me out of the car.
"Am I going to trip over my own feet anytime soon?" and this is a serious question let alone a legitimate one. I've done it before and can guarantee that its gonna happen again.
I feel his breath gently blow across my face as he bends to kiss me, is slow but full of everything that he feels, and more. I get lost just in the kiss. I'm a goner, I know and I accept that fate gratefully and happily.
"I promise to catch you if you fall stumble or even miss a footstep." His only reply.
Holding his hands he leads me across the smooth grassy terrain that is slowly getting deeper and deeper. Smiling at the feel of everything around me, the sounds and the smells are just adding to the feel of everything.
"Okay, now I'm gonna help you to sit down, and then you have to count to 50 before you take that blindfold off. No cheating because it will just spoil the surprise." His voice a mixture of nerves and excitement.
I simply nodded my head, glad that he was able to put his fear as well as my own to the side for the night.
So I started "1, 2, 3, 4..." I called but before I could say 10 soft music started to play somewhere around me, my head turning to find the source.
"10, 11, 12, 13..." but when I got to 25 suddenly the most appetizing smell reached me, instantly making me hungry. "26, 27, 28..." I reached 40 before I felt soft hands cup my face and a soft voice near my ear.
"Bella I didn't think you would count so slow." His voice causing me to gasp and a delicious sensation ran through my body making its way down to my core.
"41, 42, 43...50" I finished my counting and reached behind to remove the blindfold. I was floored with what was surrounding me. Candles floating in bowls of water, a little side table thing, you know what I mean. One of those little lap trays that you use when you have breakfast in bed; filled with different foods that I'd been surviving on for the past 8 months or so. Flower petals scattered all over the place, well the blanket but you get the picture. It was amazing. The only thing missing was Jasper, he was nowhere in sight.
It wasn't until I heard the movement in the long grass behind me that I realized what he had done. He was bringing my dream to life. The grassy field, the food, the candles (which I'm guessing is meant to represent the stars as it's still light out), and the petals creating the unmistakable perfection of my dream.
"Jasper it's beautiful. Thank you." I spoke softly looking for my one and only perfect man.
"Only for you baby," he replied as he kissed softly down the column of my neck; paying extra attention when I started to moan.
As I slid forward I felt him slide behind me and wrap his hands around my waist. We laid there for an unknown amount of time, nibbling on the foods, feeding each other, and just enjoying each other's company with no influence of others or stress reminding us that the outside world did actually exist.
"Have I told you lately how much I love you?" he whispered in my ear before kissing the top of my head. I smiled reveling in the emotional climate we were in.
"Hmm, not in the past 10 minutes. But it's good to know." I murmured between kisses.
"Well I do, and you want to know something else Miss Swan?" his eyes holding nothing but love while his tone was so serious that I was a little taken aback at its unusual sound. Raising a brow in question to both his statement and tone I waited for him to continue.
"I think that I'm one lucky son of a bitch. Not only have I got a great family, but I have the best woman in the world for myself, and she's having my baby. You have brought out the soft side in me, calming me when I'm stressed, nervous, or a little out of control. And all you have to do is look at me with those beautiful big brown doe eyes and I'm lost. You've given me something that I never thought I would want or need. And that thing is you; all of you. Mind-body and soul. But I'm a selfish son of a bitch. I want one more thing from you. Do you want to know what it is?" again I was lost in all he had said.
It was like he was able to read my mind or something. It was everything I had been thinking of for the last few months. As I sat there thinking of everything he had said he watched me; never breaking eye contact. Finally, as I came to the conclusion that there was nothing except peanut that I loved more in the world other than him he saw something in my eyes. I wasn't sure what it was but whatever it was brought the biggest smile to his face.
He slid out from behind me and helped me stand, it took a little while because I really didn't want to move from where I was, or have him move for that matter. Quickly he turned towards the basket he had sitting beside the blanket; I assumed it was for all the food he had brought. I was still wondering how he was able to set this all up within a short period of time.
But before I could get too far into that though I was brought back to reality as he slowly bent down on one knee.
"Isabella Marie Swan. I love you; I know that I couldn't breathe without you being in my life. I don't want to live without you being there in the morning when I wake up or be there when I come to bed every night. I know with every fiber of my being that I can never love another as I do you. I love you and peanut. Both of you are the world to me and I haven't even met one of you yet. As I said I am a selfish son of a bitch; and if I want something I go after it with everything I have. And what I want, is you; always and forever. Bella… my beautiful… loving… stubborn… and love of my life. Will you do me the honor of being my wife, now and forever?" His words brought tears to my eyes, a lump in my throat, and my knees to give.
Slowly with a little bit of help, I sank to his level. Taking hold of his face with two very shaky hands.
"Jasper Whitlock. Yes; yes I will marry you. Yes; yes I will give you my now and forever. Yes; I'd scream it if there was anyone in the vicinity to hear it." As I finished talking his lips met my own, it wasn't crazed, wild, or uncontrolled.
The kiss was full of passion, promise, and love. I was lost; that was until he pulled away making me pout. In all this time I hadn't noticed that he held a little black box; or that it was opened displaying a beautiful gold ring adorned with a single heart-shaped diamond surrounded with tiny little sapphires and rubies.
"It belonged to my grandmother from my father's side. Peter has given Char the ring that belonged to my grandmother from my mother's side. I hope it has the same luck as it did for them. They were married for well over 50 years. I want us to beat that with at least 20 years. You up for it?" I laughed, leave it to Jasper to propose with such conviction, and then break the ice with something like that. I could only nod as he slid the ring onto my finger.
