First and foremost this is the original story before I started to rewrite it... and got stuck in the writing of the rewrite. If you are following the rewrite you will notice quite glaring differences between this and the one you have already started following. I do not intend on giving up with the rewritten version, however, I think you guys waiting for me to get over my blank slate of a muse isn't going to happen any time soon. So I am re-posting the original. This was my first completed story and it is very different from how my last stories flow.

Secondly, this is not beta'ed. NOT AT ALL. There will be mistakes in spelling (I'm Australian and some words we spell differently). The layout will honestly have you wondering what the hell I was thinking. I wasn't; well that's not true. What I was thinking was that I knew what I was doing and screw anyone else... yes I was a conceited little shit even at the age of 31.

Thirdly, there are 68 chapters to this story, including the epilogue and two outtakes. All of which have been uploaded to my profile I will try to upload as often as I can. Please understand that I have a busy life in the real world. This includes two children, one grown and the other with disabilities. So while I should be able to update wherever I am, if something happens please understand that I will miss updating.

Last but not least. I am not SM. Not even close. I do not own the franchise, work in any capacity with the publishing houses or studios. I merely escaped from reality to play with some characters that I fell in love with while reading four books in a matter of days.

Thank fuck we are out of that hospital and sleeping in our own bed. That Junior is now in his own crib, and that Bella didn't completely freak the fuck out when we got home. I couldn't help but feel a little of the claustrophobia that Bella was feeling new the end of the time in the hospital, and really I can't blame her, they had her on strict security for the first 2 days due to passing out as a result of her blood pressure as we later found out. It had sky rocketed 20 points in less than a minute. Scary as hell I can tell ya that much.

But after the first 24 hours some jock strap itch leaked that Bella Swan, the most notable psychologist working in the media at the moment had just given birth so the hospital was surrounded with fucking reporters. Even the paper that she worked for had someone looking for information. But none of us wanted to really tell her what was going on due to her rise in the field that she works in. I'm proud that she's so damned good at what she does but she didn't need all that shit to hit her face on. I'm still at a fucking loss with how we were able to get out of the place without being hit with all the fucking reporters and that shit.

But damn it our family really needed to find another way or reason to celebrate, or let us know its coming. When we got home after being released everyone was there except Alice of course as she still had the rest of her shift to finish. And shit me she had fucked up hours to work. I got that she's in her residency and shit like that but damn it's pretty much 36 hours on call and that. No wonder those two always looked fucking exhausted and that Bella always offered our bed for them to catch some sleep when they rocked up at the house.

But getting back to the events of the day.

I was hoping that this wouldn't put her in a bad mood. Tanya had told me that she may be experiencing the effect of something called the baby blues. Pretty much where the mother feels overwhelmed by all the attention and pressure to be the perfect mother. It would explain her pacing the room at night or should I say this morning, and her reaction to having the family together all the time, not allowing her time to get used to being a mother herself.

Tanya said that people with Bella's personality and selfless acts would put on a good face but it would eat her up inside, trying to live up to the expectations of being a perfect mother. So when I offered to return to the hospital or go somewhere else I wasn't really surprised that she decided to face the crowd that had formed in front of the house. But I liked her theory of the sooner we face them the sooner they get the hell out of our faces for a little while.

I watched Bella like a hawk throughout the gathering, and the minute that Junior was awake I made sure that she was the only other person to go and get him out of his crib. She needed to feel connected to him, and not be forced to give him up. I would do anything to make sure that no-one overstepped the boundaries that were set during the hospital visits.

"Is there something that you haven't told us, son?" Both pa and Charlie have joined me at the bench where I had found myself for a quiet minute.

"Sorta, Tanya said to keep a real close eye on Bella's behavior and to make sure she had plenty of time with just her and Junior. And well we all know what type of woman she is; I just want to make sure she's okay." And it was the truth, but I needed to keep my eyes on her while at the same time make it not as obvious as it truly is.

"That bad huh?" Charlie's worry for his only child and grand child is clearly seen on his face as well as heard in his voice.

"Something called baby blues," I answered hoping that he knew what it was.

Clearly, he either knew what it was or wasn't going to push me for details. A few minutes later I noticed that they had stepped away and Bella herself was making her way over to me.

"Hey babe, you okay over here? You seem a little preoccupied." Her true gentle nature was something that I would cherish for all time, even if it caused me constant worry.

"Yeah; just wishing that it was the three of us for a little while you know. I love our family and friends but I would kill to just have you me and Junior in a room where we won't be interrupted. Where we could just relax." I felt like shit but I knew she'd kick my ass once she was able to if I lied; and besides I haven't been able to lie to her since we first met 9 months ago.

A smile crept onto her face; I knew something was cooking in her head.

"Let's play hooky. Meet us in the room in 5 minutes. Make sure you are alone. Remember our doors has locks on them." God, I love how this woman thinks.

As she made her way through the crowd, informing those who tried to stop her that she was going to have a quiet lay down in the room after a very trying few days in the hospital no-one thought to second guess her. At times I wished I had her power over everyone. No questions asked, but then again from what I was told about her life before meeting her she was a wild child that knew her limits. Never break any rules or laws but getting damned close that the warnings were handed out plenty in her home.

I can guarantee that if we had known one another growing up, there would have been hell to pay. But as I sat watching her I couldn't help but get the image of her sleeping form out of my head. Awake or asleep this woman had hold of my man card with no problems. Thankfully she wasn't like the other girls though. Poor Emmett after the big night he had with Rose a few months ago he handed that thing over; resulting with shopping trips and the title of bag boy from me and the rest of the guys. Hell his fucking build can handle that shit, and some of the freaky ass shit I've seen him bring home at one time or another is just too kinky for words

Getting up from my seat I quickly excused myself under the assumption that I was going to look in on Junior, it gave me a half-hour at least to spend with my girl and I'll take anything I can get. But it would seem that I was going to have a harder time than Bella did in escaping, though I have to admit she had a better excuse than I did.

"Jasper, congrats again on becoming a daddy. How's it going anyway? I know it's only the beginning and all but I'm curious." Peter asked, but I'm sure he was wondering how loud the little bundle of joy could be, and if it wasn't for his fussing this morning I would be say that he's the quietest kid there is.

But now I can only smirk as my brother's face drops from all smiles to a grimace.

"He's a quiet one, but he can be loud if it's too much for him." Now that should give him something to think about.

Somehow after everything that Bella's gone through he's let the hormones hit him rather than Char; though Char was always being Bella's shadow from what I've been told. A quick pat on is back I was off again to make my way to the peace and quiet of our room.

Too many family members needed to talk to me, unknowingly stopping me from the one place I wanted to be more than anything. After Peter, it was Emmett, Ma, and Demetri at once mind you. All asking if they could hold Junior once he was up and settled. I was actually expecting it from Ma and possibly Demetri, but Emmett was a little shocker. I gotta wonder if they knew what I was trying to do, but how the hell could they have over heard the little meeting of the minds we had.

It took a total of 15 minutes before I was able to enter the house without company. I was on the verge of going insane. Gotta love the family and friends; doesn't mean I can curse them to the fiery pits of hell from stopping me from the one thing I wanted more than air to breathe. As it was by the time I got to our room I saw my beautiful angel sound asleep on the bed. She looked so peaceful there that I couldn't wake her, but just sat there watching her and admiring her natural innocence even after having gone through so much in the last few weeks.

"She looks so sweet right now, you know I may not always be the most up-front person when it comes to feelings and things like that, but watching her like this always takes me back to the days when I was able to take her out to the reservation and watch her ride bikes and horses, or when she would want to dress up in my old work shirts trying to throw Jake into jail when he got busted eating before dinner." I practically hit the roof when Charlie crept up behind me.

I was pretty sure that I yelped like a dog when it gets trodden on. The soft chuckle of his voice was beyond irritating; letting me know that he knew he scared the shit outta me, and he liked it.

"You know we had planned to hide out for a little while when she came in here. But those pains out there kept catching me to talk. She wanted to have some alone time, just the three of us. But I think she needs the sleep more than anything right now." Not taking my eyes of the woman that had changed me so much it scared the shit out of me sometimes; but when I looked at things, I wouldn't change it for the life or death of me.

The little cry from the bassinette brought both of us back to reality.

Bella stirred a little in her sleep but after placing a hand on her shoulder she relaxed. I knew enough about how Junior's cries that he wasn't hungry. By the time I had turned around Charlie had my boy in his arms. It was something that I knew Bella would have loved to have seen. As quietly as I could I grabbed the camera from the bedside table and took a quick snap of the image of my soon to be father in law and my son. Now I sorta understood why Bella was so happy when she took that photo of me and Junior at the hospital this morning.

Charlie mocked glared at me, but the smile on his face totally screwed his act.

"Come on let's get out there before those women come running in here," I whispered to Charlie before making my way over to the door.

We both looked once more at the woman asleep in the bed, and really who wouldn't be in awe at the way this woman is with everything that happens and how she handles everything.

"You know I'm glad you two had a boy first." Charlie's little statement had me a little confused as to what he was getting at. And I'm pretty sure that it was obvious to him as well.

"Could you imagine what would happen if Junior here was a girl? No one would be able to be within a 5-mile radius once the boy craze hits. That plus if she'd ever taken on the same personality as Bella you'd have your hands full." He chuckled, which only wanted me to find out more of what Bella was truly like when she was growing up. And I knew just who to corner.

I was going to have a serious talk with Jake once I got him alone before he goes home that was going to be one of my ultimate goals. Bella may have told me what she was like, but I wanted to know some of the more troublesome things she got up to. And I knew it would have been with Jake and the kids down at the reservation from what she's told me. They were her real friends who didn't try to take advantage of her for anything.

I watched as Charlie became swamped by the females in the yard, even Rebecca was within the throng of women making baby noises to my son. Somehow I don't think Demetri will have so much trouble in convincing her to start their family. Those two would be an interesting pair to watch, their so much like me and Bella but the gender roles are reversed.

Wow, gender roles. I think I've been around Bella too long while she's working.

Shaking my head at the blatant psychological terms that are running through my head I spotted Jake sitting in the corner with Billy drinking and laughing at all the women surrounding Charlie.

"I think that's more action he's ever seen, even before Renee." Billy laughed at the expression on Charlie's face, if he knew what was good for him he'd pass that little man to one of the grandmothers surrounding him and make a run for it.

But I think he might be enjoying the time with his grandson, and who am I to take that away from him. Just hopefully he'll be able to hold his own with those women. I settled down beside the two guys I had come to see as extended family, and really they were so relaxed and calm it was hard not to like them.

Deciding to just man the fuck up and ask I threw it out here; "Charlie told me something a few minutes ago. I gotta wonder what Bella was like growing up." The grin on Billy's face was easy to see and understand, he was all for ratting out both Jake and Bella's little adventures.

"Well, you gotta see it this way, until she was about 15 she was more boy than a girl. She could throw a punch that landed most guys her age on their arses, and she knew more about motorbikes than Jake did about cars. But some of the things that happened with those two were beyond anything anyone expected they would do." Billy was getting into the idea of storytime, while Jake was looking for a way out, and as Kate was busy with he had nowhere to go.

My interest was hooked before he even got into any real detail. I nodded my head to let Billy know he had my utmost attention unless it came to rescue my son from the crowd surrounding him.

"Let's see theirs the time when Leah over there had a thing for Jake, but girls, unless they were Bella, were not his idea of... interest I guess you could say. Well, those two invited young Leah over for a sleepover.

"Now little Leah was afraid of frogs. So these two had saved up their allowances and bought about 20 plastic frogs that made noise in her sleeping bag. The racket they made between Leah's screams and Bella and Jake's laughter brought Sue, Harry, and me into the room faster than you could imagine. Needless to say, Leah got over her little thing for Jake, and Jake and Bella seriously had some trouble. For punishment, they had to help get Leah over her fear of Frogs that was only worse after that little stunt." The smile on his face as he remembered the little prank clearly showed that time does make the memories bitter sweet.

While Jake was decidedly looking down at his feet as Leah smacked him up back the head. "You know I still never forgave you two for that," Leah said as she walked back over to her parents. I spent the rest of the afternoon listening to all the little pranks and trouble the two caused. I hadn't had such a good laugh for a long time.