First and foremost this is the original story before I started to rewrite it... and got stuck in the writing of the rewrite. If you are following the rewrite you will notice quite glaring differences between this and the one you have already started following. I do not intend on giving up with the rewritten version, however, I think you guys waiting for me to get over my blank slate of a muse isn't going to happen any time soon. So I am re-posting the original. This was my first completed story and it is very different from how my last stories flow.
Secondly, this is not beta'ed. NOT AT ALL. There will be mistakes in spelling (I'm Australian and some words we spell differently). The layout will honestly have you wondering what the hell I was thinking. I wasn't; well that's not true. What I was thinking was that I knew what I was doing and screw anyone else... yes I was a conceited little shit even at the age of 31.
Thirdly, there are 68 chapters to this story, including the epilogue and two outtakes. All of which have been uploaded to my profile I will try to upload as often as I can. Please understand that I have a busy life in the real world. This includes two children, one grown and the other with disabilities. So while I should be able to update wherever I am, if something happens please understand that I will miss updating.
Last but not least. I am not SM. Not even close. I do not own the franchise, work in any capacity with the publishing houses or studios. I merely escaped from reality to play with some characters that I fell in love with while reading four books in a matter of days.
The drive towards the property was a quiet one; Junior was sleeping in his car seat, Bella lost in thought, and me driving down the road towards our home. We'd signed the paperwork a little over a week ago, and thought it best if we looked over the place to see what we wanted to do and what needed fixing before we could move in. We still hadn't told anyone that we had bought the house and land, thinking it would be a good idea to have it ready for everyone to see before the news broke. That plus we still needed to get furniture and shit like that.
"Baby, what are you thinking about?" I asked when I saw the smile creep on her face.
She turned towards me but wouldn't say anything as she grabbed my hand and squeezed it a little tighter than normal. I let her be; knowing that she would eventually tell me what was going on in that head of hers. We'd left the house a little while ago, thankfully without the inquisition of Char and Peter. So far Bella's been able to keep things from getting too out of hand, Char being at work and Peter helping out at ma's place –we've been able to get things done without being constantly questioned or followed.
It took another 10 minutes or so before we pulled up to the main gates, when Bella's got out and opened them. Her smile even bigger at the idea of opening the fucking gates, I'd have to get used to the idea of her so happy with us living together without having Pete or Char to bounce off. She jumped back in the car once she had closed the gates and we took the very short drive up to the house itself, her giddiness affecting me as she began to bounce in her seat.
"Calm down baby, it's all ours now." I chuckled as she stuck out her tongue at me.
It looked just as perfect as it did on the day we inspected it, well that was until we walked around and entered the house itself. Someone had broken in and spray painted the fucking walls and smashed the windows to the main room. It was a mess, with the floor covered with glass and god only knows what.
"Baby, what in the world happened? How, why?" she whispered as she held Junior in her arms.
I knew where she was coming from and I wanted to answer her but I knew if I opened my mouth, I'd regret saying anything. Pulling out my cell, and calling the local police station, before I sat with Bella to help calm her down.
We sat there on the front porch waiting just looking at the fields in front of us as Junior played on the mat that Bella always carried in his baby bag. I wasn't sure how long it took the police to turn up but every minute that passed I got more and more fucking frustrated. Why the hell would someone go out and fucking vandalize someone else's property? Jenks did a check on the crime rate in the area for fuck's sake, and he came up empty handed.
It was so wrong, all of it. I was lost in thoughts of finding the fucker and killing the bastard when the police finally showed up at the property. The two officers looked bored out of their skull, but if they took that attitude I know I'm gonna get my ass thrown in the back of their car.
"So what seems to be the problem here?" the older one asked, I swear the fucker was only here to finish up until he got his pension of something like that.
Bella noticed my mood and stepped in before I did something really fucking stupid. She showed the officers the house and all the damage done, it wasn't until we had walked through with them and took a closer look at some of the damage did some things start to stick out. Like the word "Major" painted in red, only covered with some black shit that they tried to cover it up. I pulled the young officer aside and pointed out the distinct markings.
"Does this mean anything to you Mr. Whitlock?" he asked and I felt like smacking him up the back of the head. I wouldn't be fucking pulling him aside if I didn't think it important.
I explained my rank with the US military and how I had thought that I wasn't something that would be co-incidence since we only just bought the house just under a week ago. He took the statement and began taking photos of all the damage while Bella continued to show the elder officer around. It's a good thing that she's more level headed as he was really showing how little he really cared about his job or the damage that was all over the house. I took Junior and went to explore the rest of the property, the barn, and all other buildings were fine, not damage there. It looked like it was just isolated to the house. I was relieved that it was only there but still why the hell did some little shit do this.
"You okay babe? I mean other than this pissing you off?" Bella asked and it was a good thing that she added that last bit because I really didn't want to be a fucking prick to her.
"Come on; let's go see how much damage there really is. Other than the painting and the windows. Plus it might be a good thing to look into a security system. Maybe we might be lucky and that it won't take too much extra work." I fought the comment that was fighting its way out. I couldn't take my frustration out on her but shit me her half full glass mentality was pushing the wrong buttons.
We walked back into the house once the officers had gone and really looked around.
"Well babe if you wanted to change the color of the rooms we at least have a reason to do so." She called from the front of the house. I snorted.
I needed to get out and take a breather. I handed over Junior to her and took off running through the fields, ignoring her calls and knowing full well I was making her upset. I ran for nearly an hour maybe more before I gave up. Fuck what the hell had I done? Why the hell didn't I just tell her I was going to cool off? I sat down on one of the big rocks just thinking about how pissed the fuck off was that someone would do that to the house, and how much I had fucked up by taking off like that and completely treating her like a piece of shit.
I sat there for god only knows how long, but I do know it was starting to get cool when I finally made my way back. I found her and Junior sitting in the car, Junior asleep and Bella dozing off in the back seat with the door open. I guess I deserved that.
"I'm sorry sweetheart." I softly said as I kissed her head before closing the door and getting into the front seat.
I had really fucked this up, now I had to figure out how to fix this. I guess the honeymoon stage of our relationship was over.
The drive back home was completely silent, only the noise of the car's engine could be heard. Bella had woken up after I had stopped to open and close the gates at the property, but she still hadn't said anything, hell she wouldn't even look at me. Again I know I deserved that but it still hurt like a fucking punch to the gut. I had to make this right somehow; but I was still drawing a blank when we got to the house. And to top up this really fucked up day, everyone was there. Now I knew I was gonna be in for it.
Bella just grabbed Junior and took off inside, she didn't say anything to me or any of our family. So that right there tipped everyone off that I fucked up real bad. We all heard the soft slam of the door, knowing she didn't want to scare Junior was the only thing I think that was stopping her from slamming that fucker.
"What in all that is holy did you do fucker. That girl has never and I mean never been that upset. She's not pissed, she's fucking hurt big time." Char seethed and if she could I would be dead and buried ten times over.
Now Char may be a country girl at heart but she hated using foul language, so for her to say that shit I knew how bad I had fucked up. We all turned as we heard the door opened once more waiting for Bella to walk back to the room.
"Leave it Char. This is between him and me." she whispered, not looking at anyone before she headed back to the room.
"Fix this." Charlotte hiss as Peter pointed to the backyard.
I had the joy of being escorted out back by my brother and two of my closest mates. Yeah this wasn't gonna be a good night.
"Fuck." I cried as I slumped into one of the yard chairs on the patio.
"Somehow I don't think that covers this Jazz. What the hell happened today, you two have been rainbows and fucking unicorns for the last week and now it's like hell just froze over." Emmett said clapping me on the shoulder as he sat down beside me.
We could hear the girls trying to get Bella to open the door to either our room or Junior's room. I'll give her credit she made sure no-one was gonna get in that room anytime soon. I couldn't tell them what caused this shit to begin with, which was fucking worse.
"I fucked up, I knew this, I was pissed and took off to calm down but I didn't tell her shit. I just took off." I told them through my hands, gaining a slap up the back of the head.
Fuck I knew I deserved that but still coming from the human bear we call Emmett that shit fucking hurt.
"You dumb ass. Of course she's gonna be pissed, but what fucking happened for it to get this bad? Where was Peanut in all this drama?" Peter was on to something. I thought back to this afternoon.
"Dude please tell me you didn't fuck up with your boy in your arms?" Edward sounded astonished as he slowly pieced everything together before I had. I was so caught up with my pissy act that I didn't even think of Junior and what I had done to him.
"You dumb ass get your poor excuse of an ass in that room and talk to her. NOW" shit even Rose was ripping me a new one.
Had I really fucked up that badly? A kick in the ass form little Alice and I got the point, literally with her heels were pointy fuckers and hurt like hell. Needless to say I got up of the chair and headed for the door. I knocked on the door but was getting no answer. So I did the mature thing, I sat my ass out front of the door and didn't move. So shoot me we kept the god damned keys in the room now in case we wanted some privacy. I heard as everyone left the house shortly after I made camp for possibly the night knowing I needed to fix this they gave me the privacy to do it right.
"Bella please it's just you me and Junior here now. Can we please talk about this?" I asked through the door.
I was not against begging to at least get her to talk to me. I sat there for a little while not knowing what was going to happen. I had heard the soft lullaby she had sung to Junior since he was born, and it made me feel more of a fucking douche cause you could hear it in her voice that she'd been crying. I now know why the girls were treating me like shit.
"Baby please let me in so we can talk." I called through the door. I heard her footsteps as she made her way over to the door; but I didn't hear the twist of the lock so I guess she moved over to talk.
"Why?" it was one word but fuck it hurt to hear her talk like that; her happy and carefree attitude gone with my fucked up tantrum from this morning.
"I'm sorry baby. I am so fucking sorry. I didn't think. I needed to get out before I lost it and took it out on you or Junior." I threw my head against the wall; I didn't care if I put a hole or dent I could fix that later. I needed to fix this now.
"What's gonna happen next time Jazz, you just gonna leave me and Junior if things get too much all of a sudden? What if I wasn't there and it was just you and Junior; what would have happened then? How can I trust you after you took off? I mean I know I did that after our first night, but at least I had the decency to leave you a note telling you why. You just put Junior in my arms and took off. Can you even imagine how freaked Junior was? It took forever to calm him down. I was lucky I found the keys sitting on the porch a little while after you left, what would have happened if you hadn't. Junior's bag was still in the car." She had started crying again, I didn't need to see her to know it.
"What can I do to fix this sweetheart? I'll do anything." I couldn't hold my own emotions in check as I lost it at those words. Knowing I had caused her this pain was beyond anything I could think of.
"I need time Jazz, not forever. Just tonight; maybe it might be a good idea I you stayed at mommas place for the night. I'll talk to you in the morning. I'm meant to be dropping Junior of so she and Chelsea can have a nanna day with the kids." I knew when I was being dismissed, but she gave me hope that we could fix this and talk once she was ready.
I wasn't going to push her; but I'm gonna do my fucking damnedest to fix what I fucked up.
