First and foremost this is the original story before I started to rewrite it... and got stuck in the writing of the rewrite. If you are following the rewrite you will notice quite glaring differences between this and the one you have already started following. I do not intend on giving up with the rewritten version, however, I think you guys waiting for me to get over my blank slate of a muse isn't going to happen any time soon. So I am re-posting the original. This was my first completed story and it is very different from how my last stories flow.

Secondly, this is not beta'ed. NOT AT ALL. There will be mistakes in spelling (I'm Australian and some words we spell differently). The layout will honestly have you wondering what the hell I was thinking. I wasn't; well that's not true. What I was thinking was that I knew what I was doing and screw anyone else... yes I was a conceited little shit even at the age of 31.

Thirdly, there are 68 chapters to this story, including the epilogue and two outtakes. All of which have been uploaded to my profile I will try to upload as often as I can. Please understand that I have a busy life in the real world. This includes two children, one grown and the other with disabilities. So while I should be able to update wherever I am, if something happens please understand that I will miss updating.

Last but not least. I am not SM. Not even close. I do not own the franchise, work in any capacity with the publishing houses or studios. I merely escaped from reality to play with some characters that I fell in love with while reading four books in a matter of days.

I watched as Bella and Junior drove up the drive and as much as I wanted to run down and grab them both. I had my ass handed to me so many times last night that I was smart enough to sit and wait for them to get out of the car and make their way up the porch. I watched as Momma bent down and hugged her saying something that I didn't quite hear. When she pulled away I saw the smile on her face and watched as Bella nodded to whatever they were talking about.

"Felix, let's go, Marcus is going to be there too." Momma called into the house.

Pa came out the front door, hugging Bella and joined momma at the car putting Junior in the car seat they had bought after the little man was born. We sat there on the porch just looking out at everything in front of us, both acting like little school kids.

"What did momma say?" I asked after what felt like for fucking ever but was probably only 10 minutes. I looked over at her to see her smile.

"She told me that it's time we got to know each other's bad side. That not everything is going to be sunshine and daisies." She giggled at the end, knowing momma she probably said it a little more assertively than that but I wasn't gonna put my foot in. She was smiling and that to me was getting us somewhere.

"Doesn't this feel like high school?" she covered her mouth within seconds after letting I slip, I guess her filter was broken or something today.

I couldn't help it I laughed at the situation. It was a lot like high school and the fact that we were both grown adults just made it a little weird. She rubbed her face I guess to get her thoughts in line or something, women's mentality is beyond any makes ability to comprehend pa said I had to agree.

"So..." she broke the silence that had fallen between us once more.

I looked over again at her to see her concentrating on her hands like they were the best thing in the world.

"Can I ask you something?" she seemed a little put out by the situation and I couldn't help but feel a little smug that she was just as uncomfortable as I was.

Yep I'm a selfish prick, but we all knew that. I nodded my head not sure if I was gonna like what she was gonna ask.

"Why did you run off? I get you were beyond pissed, and I wasn't upset about that. But what was it exactly that made you need to get away?" she finally turned to face me, her determination to sort this out etched on her face. It was my turn to look away from her gaze she was truthful to a fault, almost innocent.

"Bella, it was a lot of things. The fact that someone had broken in and done that to the place, the police and their attitude to everything, some of the things that was done to the house itself. Even your optimism was daunting at the whole thing. Momma and pa bought Peter and me up to believe that your home is your castle and no one should fuck with that. So when I saw that someone was messing with our home I got pissed, well more than pissed. I wanted to hurt someone but I would never take that shit out on your or Junior. I never wanted you two to see that side of me. Emmett and I saw a hell of a lot when we were overseas and sometimes I freaked his ass out when I let loose in the gym." By the time I had finished my head was resting in my hands.

I couldn't look at her even if I wanted to; I was pretty sure that I had scared the fuck out of her regardless. We sat there again quietly, each lost in our thoughts. I was wondering when she was gonna start making her way to the car to leave my ass. I'd never talked to her about everything that happened while I was on tour. I didn't think it was right to let her know what I had seen.

"So the Major painted on the walls set you off a little?" she asked.

I should have realized that she would have seen it, especially since I had left her in the house for god knows how long while I ran like an ass. I couldn't say anything, so I just nodded my head as my shoulders dropped with everything that was flooding back.

"Your time in the military is part of you, achieving the rank of Major in the time you were in the armed forces is an amazing thing Jasper. If someone wants to see that, another way let them. I know; you know and everyone else that we love knows what you did wasn't because you wanted to go and blow shit up. I don't know what you faced over there but I'm not that naive to think that you sat on your backside twiddling your thumbs." Three words came to mind.

What. The. Fuck. How is it possible that this woman is able to take this shit so easily? If we bottled this shit we'd be fucking millionaires by the time Christmas came around.

"What you think I didn't see that on the walls? I had to do something to keep me occupied while I was settling Junior down and you were off calming down." She smiled at me and really, I don't think I'm able to think that I'll ever understand this woman or any woman for that fucking matter. They're a different breed of everything. In true Bella style, she brought me back to the situation at hand.

"So if you knew why I took off, why were you so upset and pissed last night?" I asked watching her blush a little at the sudden change of subject. Again, she found her hands the most interesting thing in the world.

"Okay you deserve to know, but don't get pissed at me once its out." She slowly raised her head so she was looking at me.

"At first I thought you had left me, I know you left the keys, but I didn't find them for over two hours. By then I was pissed that you would do something like that to Junior. I knew what had happened brought out aside of you that I've never seen before and it annoyed me that you held this side of you in. I want the whole you Jasper not the half you where you hide this side of you away." She looked up at me, our eyes never breaking contact with one another. She looked and I mean looked into my eyes searching for something, what it was I have no clue but she found it.

"Then once I found everything and I realized why you did what you did, I felt stupid; if I had thought about it and not been so emotional I would have realized this at the beginning when you gave me Junior. But then the whole thing with Junior hit me. You were so upset that you needed to calm down, take off to clear your head or whatever. I wondered what you would have done if it was just you and Junior that were there. Would I have gotten a call from the police telling me that you were being arrested and my son was currently in the care of someone I didn't know? That scared me more than it made me angry" She took a deep breath and settled herself once more, I guess gaining control of her emotions.

"So I guess I did the same thing you did when I went to the room last night when we got back. But at the same time I wanted to talk to someone but since we had made a deal about not telling anyone about the house yet, I thought it would better if I was by myself then let it slip to everyone. But then the girls came and started to talk to me saying that you were going to have to fix this and that everyone was pissed at you because I was so upset at something you did, and well I felt like crap because everyone was on your case and I couldn't really do anything." I didn't realize that this was so complicated; here I thought she was pissed at me when it was everything that had been happening since it all started. Women are far too complicated for anyone to be able to understand.

I watched, as she headed inside, not sure what she was going to do. It didn't take me long to figure out she was in the kitchen as I heard the clatter of plates and glasses. It was another 10 minutes until she came back out baring a tray laden with food and drink. It was always her way to calm down in the kitchen, so it shouldn't have surprised me that this was where she went. After a quick thank you, we both ate in relative quiet, well as quiet as it can be on a ranch filed with horses. I watched her as we sat there not talking, wondering what she was thinking but I wasn't sure if I really wanted to know.

"What, do I have something on my face?" She asked as she began to wipe her face. I couldn't help but smile at her reaction.

"No, your fine, but I was wondering what you were thinking." I guess she was a little embarrassed about what her thoughts were as she broke out in a blush like I hadn't seen in a very long time, in fact I think hadn't seen that blush so strong since we first met. I felt like one of those cartoon characters where the little light bulb goes off above their heads.

"What not like you have ever had thoughts like mine when you fight with someone." She defended herself. I guess it showed on my face that I had worked it out.

"So how about we go for a walk instead. I don't want to start something at Momma's house." She grinned at me as I saw my little fantasies blow away with the nonexistent breeze.

I held out my hand for her to take if she wanted. If yesterday's little meltdown was about me taking away her choice and hiding parts of me I wasn't going to make the same mistake again. Thankfully, she grabbed my hand with a smile on her face. I led her around the property towards the trees where Peter and I used to hide when we were in trouble and wanted to get away till either momma or pa had calmed down.

"Where are you taking me Jazz?" she asked as we passed the barn, not knowing the significance of the area that we were standing.

"It's a place that I always went to when I needed to calm down when I was younger. Well Peter and I, but I was always here more than he was." I turned to see her reaction but her face didn't show anything. Well almost nothing, her lips twitched as she tried to control her emotions.

"So I guess if Junior is like hiss daddy then I'm gonna have to get to know the property really well." Then she lost her battle with that smile that was fighting its way on her face. As we rounded the corner of the barn, Bella tripped over a big ass stone that had always been there but as she had never really been in this part of the family home so it was natural.

Reaching out to stop her from actually meeting the ground, I pulled her closer to me. Now I didn't do this for any other reason but to stop her from falling, but as her body came closer to mine I couldn't help but moan as her body pressed against mine, and the gasp that forced its way out of her mouth didn't tell me to stop either.

She stared at my eyes and I couldn't help but look down to her lips. She licked her lips and fuck me that just went straight to my cock. Slowly I again looked at her seeing if I should stop before I start anything, there was nothing there that was telling me otherwise. I guess she felt something too as the next thing I knew were her lips commanding mine in the most forceful way she had yet shown me. Fuck it was hot and god didn't I want more but I wanted to wait till we were at least away from any thought of being interrupted. So as much as it fucking killed me to pull away, I did, and her pout was fucking adorable.

"Wow, if that's what it's like to kiss you after a fight, I wonder what it's like to have make-up sex?" she breathed out once she stopped pouting.

"FFFFFFUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKK" I groaned, the idea was just too tempting.

If I didn't know better I'd swear to all that's holy she was doing that shit on purpose. However, before we could take this anymore we heard the car come up the drive telling us that everyone was back.

"Come on let's get our boy and go home." She smiled as we walked back to see both Momma and pa smiling as we approached the porch.