AN: I couldn't stop myself. I just have to let this story out of my system. I don't know how long it will be. If it's a one-shot or longer. In case you can't tell I've never done this before. This is all so new and overwhelming for me. I really start to toy with our boy in this one. Next chapter is citrus'y. This one is still a tease. Don't hate me! And thank you for taking the time to read it!

Disclaimer: I don't own Star Wars or any Star Wars characters. This is just a Reylo fan smitten' out! :D


~~Knock - Knock~~

Rose, Rey and Kylo looked at the door at the same time.

~~Knock – Knock~~

Voice outside:' Come on girls open up! The ice is melting'

Rey: 'Just a minute.'

She gets up and puts shorts on while heading for the door to open it.

Rose:' I hope you got the good stuff Poe; this is a special occasion.'

Poe:' Relax Rose I know how to please my girls!' he said while winking at Rey.

Kylo:" Gods help me I will pull every bit of thought and memory from your head, very slowly and very painfully." He angrily thought to himself. He really hated this pilot. So smug and debonair, a kriffing "ladies' man". And this his scavenger is supposed to feel attracted to? He glances at Rey, sees her smile shyly at Poe and his heart sinks.

Finn was there as well. As soon as both men were inside the small room and their sight got accustomed to the low light…

Finn:'Aahhh..Ren!'

Poe was quick with his gun and fired a shot at him. Kylo flinched but before he raised his hand to use the Force the blast was stopped mid-air in front of him.

Rey:' Stop it! It's not really him, it's just a projection I made. 'traces of panic on her face.

Finn, Poe:' Whaaat?' in unison.

Rose:' Why did you stop the shot? He's not real it would have gone through him. Right?'

Poe:' What the?'

Finn:' Oh that's that Force stuff Luke used to do isn't it?'

Rey:' No he isn't real. But still…' she let the shot hit the ground at his feet. A bit too close for comfort but he kept it cool.

Rey: 'Don't do that to him.' Her tone was annoyed.

It's almost like she's bothered by the idea of someone else shooting him. Almost like she doesn't want that to happen. Almost like she cares…

Kylo:" Like she…" he's getting that sinking sensation in his gut again. He shouldn't dwell on this type of ideas. It's not safe.

Poe:' OK so he's fake. Good, here's a couple I've been meaning to give him' he says with an evil grin while he cracks his knuckles and approaches Kylo rapidly.

Rey gets up quickly and steps in between them.

Rey: 'Stop that Poe. Don't you dare touch him, he's mine!'

Shock and intense heat sink in to Kylos face. He looks at the scavenger in front of him shielding his massive frame with her smaller one. Her arms open wide to try and cover as much of him as she can, like this could make a difference with her small frame. Cute!

Finn:' You said he's not real Rey, why protect him? '

Poe:' And what's that "mine" stuff?"

Rey:'Uhmm..See the thing is…'

Rose:' Never you mind that! Give us the stuff already I'm thirsty. Being with Mrs Icicle in the room all this time, Gods know I need a drink'

And then it hit him. Kylo finally connected the dots, this was a social gathering, with multiple people and alcohol. But why has the girl said it was a special occasion? Could it be connected to Rey?

Rey:' I don't know about this. I've never done this before.'

Rose:' That's the point silly. We're celebrating your first time! And Poe promised he'd bring good quality stuff, right Poe?'

Poe:' You betcha darlin', Finn- Ice the cups my dear man. Ladies I give you: cook McGinty's special stuff!' He said while presenting them with a metal canister that oozed a very strong smell.

Kylo:" You have got to be joking!"

Rose:' You got it from McGinty?! How did you do it? The old scruff is tighter than Gen. Hux's arse.'

Kylo was beyond disappointed, like this could ever proof to be an adequate experience for Rey, I mean really! Some random cooks home recipe, all of this would've been too much if not for that last comment. The very idea of Hux's arse being taken into consideration, at any given point had him revolting. He shuddered at the thought. Luckily, they were all paying attention to the idiot pilot poring the questionable spirit into 4 random cups, could've been caf cups really. He has a vague idea about the Rebels being scum and such but never took the time to consider them being literal scum. Surely, they have some form of resources, all those weapons and ships, surely some of that credit they invest in personnel right?

Rey:' And what's the point of all this?' she asked as she takes her cup in her hand.

Rose:' To loosen oneself up' she grabs her own.

Poe:' To give way to good times' he said with a sly smirk on his face. He hands Fin his filled cup.

Kylo just about had it with the punk.

Rey: 'But I am loose. I could run or fight easily right now.'

Finn:' Not that type of "loose" Rey. More like relaxed. Just give it a try'

Rose:' You're an adult right? First times come and go. That's why we're making a celebration out of this. '

Her first drink. There's no way she was that innocent. But what was that other thing the girls said, if she's an adult? Surely, she was. That was not the body of a child. Then again, she has had a difficult upbringing. All those years in the hot Jakku sunshine could have helped in aging her. Panic started spreading in his entire body as she just stood there and thought a little too much at her answer for his liking.

Rey:' I guess I am an adult. It's hard to tell I was very young when I was left on that planet"

Kylo is stung, he feels her pain. The bond shares some of their emotions now and then, but the pain of abandonment is an intimate memory that he has experienced first-hand. He understands her pain. The pull in his chest is strong for her now. He wished he knew.

Rey:' I guess I'm 19, that counts as adult, right?'

A different pain hits him. Yes, she's adult but still so very young compared to him. 30 is no doubt a number girls her age are not that interested in.

Kylo:" Why am I even taking it like that?" This night was too much. He didn't know why he did this to himself. He could very easily just reveal himself, spew a few good insults for good measure and no doubt the Bond would have them separate due to tension. Still it was very curious that Rey's friends managed to see him. Their bond was usually a private matter. There was that one-time Luke saw them but that was a long time ago, and they were both so entranced with each other that he never stopped to consider why that happened. Could have something to do with Rey managing to color him blue?

Poe:' I wonder how old that battle horse over there is?' He said mockingly towards Kylo.

Rose:' No doubt younger than you Dameron. Have you seen that leathery face as of late?' She says and the girls start laughing.

Poe:' Hey I'm only 32! I'm not that old!'

Kylo:" Still older than me." He's happy to have this small win tonight.

Rey:' I think you're the closest to my age Finn, right? What was it? 20?'

Finn:' 23. This beautiful beverage however is the fresh and plump age of 3!'

Rey:'You can keep spirit that long?'

Poe:' Darling that's for a different time. Now just close your eyes, don't think about it and take a sip.'

Rose:' Cheers guys! To first times!'

Poe, Finn, Rey:' To first times!'

They all take a sip. Then they notice Rey wasn't letting her cup down.

Rose:' Rey stop, not all at once!'

Poe:' That's gonna sting!'

Kylo:" Oh sweet girl, no!"

Finn:'Rose …'

Rose:' I know Finn, I guess the party's over early. We'll just have to see about it tomorrow.'

Rey basically chugged all the liquid at once. After the last gulp she let the cup down and her face had a weird frown on it. Her throat burned and she could feel the rest of her body heating up.

Rey:' Poison!' she croaked out.

Rose:' Rey, you don't down alcohol like that. Are you ok?'

Rey:' Poison! Foul!'

Finn:' You still there sweetie? You still with us? Having a good time?'

Rey:' Yes. I'm… I'm fine. Just the taste is more that I was expecting. I don't think I like Spirit.'

Poe:' Ha Ha Ha, not that way, I would imagine not. You still with us sweets?'

Kylo:" Sweets? Do you have a death wish, you kriffin…" he would definitely need to get the pilot back for tonight.

Rey:' Yes. Just, everything is really hot.'

Poe:' Cooks stuff is renowned for potency. Just take it easy OK?'

Rose:' Maybe you should lie down.'

Rey:' NO, no I'm fine. Just feeling like ripping everything of.' She's of the bed and pacing now. The strong burn still in her throat.

Finn:' Yeah, I don't think this was such a good Idea. Rose?'

Rose:' Yeah I think you should call it a night Rey. Turn your icicle of and get in bed. You'll be OK tomorrow."

Kylo:" I'm not a kriffing toy! She couldn't turn me off if she tried!" he mentally shouted angrily, then his use of words sunk in and he felt his gut tighten. NO...mustn't think of the girl like that.

Rey:' I think so to. It will be fine if I hit the hey.'

Finn:' Call for us if there's something you need OK. OR if you don't feel better.'

Rey:' Sure, night guys. See you tomorrow!'

Rose:' Call me if you need, ok? Night night!' she smiles at her friend and grabs 2 glasses and follows Finn outside.

Poe:' Next time don't down it all at once ok sweetie? Good night!' He winks again and leaves with the remaining cup and canister.

Rey uses the Force to quickly close the door behind them and as soon as she's sure they're no longer near her room.

Rey:' Gods take it off!' and she almost rips the pants of her. She pulls on the tank top as well and the material loosens a bit on her body but stays on. She's back in just the panties and the new loose tank top.

Kylo:' This is my cue to leave.' They're alone now, no point in pretending he doesn't have a voice.

Rey:' Don't you dare move toy' she may be a bit out of it.

Kylo feels weird. Did he enjoy that. Noo…Maybe?

Rey:' I'm not letting you go until I get something out of my system.' Her posture is a bit loose now, she sits on the bed holds her temple for a minute, as if to clear her mind, and then raises her eyes at him. She looks serious now.

Kylo:' Rey? What are y..'

Rey:' Just stop! For once, just stop. I'm sick of it' she angrily gets up the bed and is in his face now. She grabs him by the scruff of his shirt and pulls him down at her level. With her free hand she points in his face angrily.

Rey:' I know you're not real!'

Kylo:" I can really smell cook's recipe now, wow. It does smell like poison, if not that at least like motor cleaner."

Rey:' But even if you are a projection I made in my mind, I will have satisfaction.'

Kylo raises his eyebrow now. Funny girl, and really close, with very tinny hands.

Rey:' Every time we see each other you rave on and on and on, well now it's my turn. So, you just shut it boy toy and listen up! I'm getting you of my chest tonight!'

Kylo was baffled, confused to say the least. And everything on him was extremely tight! And hot. Her breath was hot, her hands, the waves of Force around her sparked. So many emotions, so many mixed feelings escaping trough the Bond.

Kylo:" Maker help me I'm not going to make it tonight!" He looked in her soft hazel eyes, his own betraying him.

Rey:' NO! Do not make those puppy eyes I love so much. Not now, I need to do this." She inhales and exhales hard and let's go of him. She smooths his shirt and heads back to her bed. She sits down, her eyes never leave his.

Rey: 'Do you have any idea how hard it is for me? Seeing you all the time, feeling the things I feel? And on top of that, our bond sometimes shares our emotions, so I don't only feel what I feel I also feel what you feel. '

Kylo:' That's tough sometimes I'll admit.'

Rey:' Extremely tough, we're supposed to be enemies. I have the whole Resistance on my shoulders, my friends, my masters Legacy, and what do I do? I fall in love with the kriffin' Supreme Leader'

Kylo: 'Rey stop. '

Rey:' No dammit you're my projection, you will listen to me, even if you're not really him, I have to at least tell one of you! I feel like I'm going mad sometimes.'

Kylo knew. He could also feel like that. He can very easily slip from one emotion to the next. At times he just wants to let it all go and take her. Flee together on some distant moon and be done with everything, but then she best him or defeats him or reminds him of that damn Resistance and he could almost end it all. The hate, the passion it's all very hard to keep in check.

Kylo:' Ok Rey. I'll listen to you tonight. Let me have it, I can take it.'

Rey: 'Thank you! And this is exactly my point.'

Kylo:' What?'

Rey:' This, you are being mister "I own you; I can end you if I want" and just when I'm ready to hate you, you do something nice like this. You give me a tiny fraction of your light. It's torture. It's like you're playing with me. And I think It gives you pleasure. '

Kylo just stares at her now. Yes, her words are true, he is very conflicted. Whenever the Dark takes hold of him, he can be cruel, mean, hateful, but in these moments of indulgence he is consumed by his Light side. It's what has conflicted him since he was a child.

Kylo:' I don't do it on purpose. You must know that. I don't mean to toy with you. You're more than that to me.'

Rey:' And that's the other thing. This is the exact same thing the real Ben would have said. Gods just make your damn mind already man. I know it's very hard, and you are very conflicted, but you're a grown man for Force sake just make up your mind and stop sending me mixed signals.'

Kylo:' OK Rey. You're right. But you can do that as well. I'm not the only one in this dance, whenever you get the chance you rip my heart out! You need to make up your mind to!'

Rey:' That's not true.'

Kylo:' Oh yes, it is. If you're letting go, so am I. Whenever I tried to show you my soft side you've stabbed me in the gut. I've given you my entire soul, I've shown my true self to you, and you just left me there. You rejected my hand and in doing so rejected me. Don't accuse me of sending mixed messages. You fight me every chance you get and tonight you say you like me? You say I'm the ideal man? Then WHY the FUCK REJECT ME?'

He's basically screaming now but he doesn't care anymore. She lashes out at him and he's just supposed to take it like a good boy? Hell no! He's a man, and he has needs, and emotions to! If she can throw at him, he can throw at her. Fight on!

Rey:' You're right!'

Kylo:'What?' did she just agree to him.

Rey:' You're right! I have been mean to you.'

She's not screaming at him, not fighting him, she's agreeing to him.

Rey:' But you have to understand where I'm coming from. You're the enemy!'

Kylo: (dark eyes filled with passion stare her down) 'I'm not your enemy!'

Rey:' Exactly. You're the enemy, but not MY enemy. And that's a problem.'

Kylo:' You can't possibly make this about your stupid Resistance Rey.'

Rey:' They're my family Ben. I have nothing, I am nothing. To them I am something.'

Kylo:'YOU'RE SOMETHING TO ME! I care dammit, I have never hidden this from you! We're fucking Bond!' She did it again. Somehow, she hurt him again. Why does she do that? Why does he let her do that? Why every time he lets her close, she just cut's her way into his heart. He just opened for her and she cut him even more open. It's never enough for her.

Rey:' But it ends tonight Ben. I told you…' tears are falling down her face 'tonight I free myself from you!'

Kylo:' What?' honest confusion in his eyes. She gets of the bed and approaches him, the tears still falling gently on her face as she smiles at him. It stings, knowing he did this. His hand moves towards her face when she reaches him, he cups her cheek.

Kylo:' Rey' he breather out softly. His eyes wet as well.

Rey:' I'll get you out of my system tonight Ben and I'll be free of you. No more conflicting emotion.'

Kylo:' Rey no. Stop, this is enough. You've drunk that damn concoction. You're not yourself.'

Rey:' Tonight I want my satisfaction Ben. Let me get you off my chest.' She leans in. Her hands are back at his collar pulling down. She's intoxicating him. Her passion sparks around them in the Force, the dim light. The way her chest rises and falls. She's so close to him now, so very close and hot. He ca feel her breath on his face.

Kylo:' Rey, please!" he pleads.

HE can't do this. HE can't fight her; SHE has his entire being in her hands. She's so close, her body is completely against his now. He can feel her form melt in his frame. His hands circle around her now, a mind of their own. He holds her tight, he knows he want this. Damn them all!

Kylo:' I can't fight you. I don't want to fight you anymore Rey! Please, stop this madness! Free me Rey!'

Rey:' I'll free myself tonight Ben, and tomorrow it will be alright. The real you doesn't need to know. Just let me have tonight! Just one night!'

She leans in and her lips lay the softest, sweetest kiss on his, and his entire being explodes. Wave after wave of emotion hit him and fill his entire being. His tears finally leave his eyes as he closed them, he leans into her and takes all she has. The Bond hums and vibrates and they melt into each other.

Rey pours her entire heart into it. Damn it all, tonight she rids herself of him. All her emotions, all her hate, all her love. He's not Kylo Ren, he's not Supreme leader, he's just Ben. No legacy, no family name to keep, no responsibility. Tonight, he's just Ben and she's just Rey.