A/N: Thank you for the kind reviews!

"Written like this are their thoughts"

'Like this regular dialogues.'

Lets see how much Lemon we can squeeze in this chapter. The story is rated M so if you don't Like this sort of thing/scenarios, here is where you should stop and click away.

Disclaimer: I don't own Star Wars characters, story line or anything related to them. I just like writing fan fiction.

Disclaimer no. 2: I may also use the Force in an inappropriate way but I'm not that savvy on small technicalities. Basic point is: Timeline/Story line accuracy I'll leave to the more well informed Star Wars connoisseurs, I'm just writing a funny story. Kindly read it as such. :)


Chapter 7: Indulgence

3 days had passed since that incident and Kylo was leaving the Medical Bay on the Finalizer. He was currently heading for his room. With a lot of Bacta and the help provided through the Force by Rey that night, he was all healed now; nothing but a white star shaped scar remained on his leg to indicate where the object had been. Another one to add to his already growing collection. He opened the door to his room and hesitated before entering, his mind returning to that night on Kashyyyk with Rey:

~~Flashback~~

Her harsh words had made him stop and she could finish closing his leg. He was right on one aspect, she was also wounded herself so she couldn't fully heal his wound. But she did manage to at least fill in the hole and stop the death threatening part of the bleeding. All that's left now was to find something to bandage and put pressure on the wound.

She needed something long and sturdy enough to go round his massive (A/N: Beaffy) thigh. Also something semi clean would be nice seeing as he still had a big gash that could easily get infected quick.

Looking at the remnants of his cut cape, it was slashed and covered in dirt, she wouldn't put it on his open wound. Going by instinct she reached into her tank top and began to unwind and remove her breast binder. The material was stretchy enough to go round his leg and it was pretty sturdy. The elasticity would come in handy with the pressurizing as well. If she could tie it proper, a constant pressure could be ensured until he got to a medical unit.(A/N: Imagine a long semi elasticated cloth instead of a traditional brassier)

Kylo:" What are you doing!" he questioned when he saw her removing her binder. Not that he minded the concept but this wasn't really the best time for that line of action.

Rey:' Bandaging you up. I needed something clean to put on that wound and this is the only clean enough material not covered in mud I have right now. It's a good thing I double down on layers. I could've used my outer tank top but that got muddied over pretty good."

Kylo:' But you would've been uncovered if you used the outer.' he said as Rey finished tying the material on his leg. Angry eyes stared at him then.

ReY:" Listen child...This is a life or death situation,OK?! Now is not the time to waste on shame or comfort. I'm trying to save your life and not spare myself the inconvenience. Honestly you wouldn't last a week in the desert."she said with a huff.

She grabbed his arm now, gave him a firm look and pushed his shoulder back into its socket. Kylo gave a loud painful howl and soon found his arm being placed at his chest. She leaned in and used the remainder of his cape to tie his arm in place. She was very close to him as she was currently struggling to get her hurt and trembling fingers to tie a knot at the back of his head. Her newly freed breasts were in his face barely covered by the outer thank top and he could feel warmth on his face. A faint flowery scent present."

~~ End Flashback~~

Sitting at his desk Kylo took her binder from his drawer and felt it in his glove free hand. It was soft, still dirty from his blood but when he placed his lips to it he felt it was no doubting it now: ignore the indication of blood and there it was, her scent. In this clean room away from other outside smells he could really take it in now. A strong flowering scent that bloomed more strongly when he rubbed his lips on it. It was soft and it smelled of her. When he closed his eyes it was like his face was shoved in her chest again. He steadied himself with one hand on his desk as his other kept rubbing the material on his lips taking all of her in. His pants became more and more tight with every breath he took.

That night she took care of him. Either because of anger or her own pain, she did not speak to him much after she bandaged his arm. After being sure he was ok she turned on his distress beacon and gave him his light saber (just in case). She frowned and apologized, then left with his ship, leaving him behind to be rescued by the Order.


As soon as Hux heard of him being healed the messages started to come in. The screen on his data pad was now constantly beeping and lighting up with a lot of Caps Lock and red fonting. Attention symbols and Alert notifications left and right. The prick made sure to let Kylo know exactly how much of a failure that mission had been. He included cost casualties, fallen men and even a graphic that showed how this mistake took them back a full quarter on progress with the locals. The village was abandoned but still, the fire they started spread and took down a part of the newly grown forest as well. The locals were very upset. Kylo felt a personal sting regarding casualties. He lost 3 of his knights in that explosion, new trainees needed to be recruited and trained, it would take years to recuperate. It was a very big casualty for his Knights of Ren assembly.

Trying to look back at the night, another annoying fact poked at his thoughts: how come in the field when the Bond brought them together he could not see her surroundings or whom she was with. Back in her room he could plainly see and hear each member that entered her room. He could also see her room very clearly, her bed, he could see the table and the glasses, the bed, he could smell the alcohol on her breath, could see her walls,they had pictures on them..that cursed bed and her on top of him.

Kylo:'Stop, calm yourself' he thought to himself. Breath in and out slowly.

The idea of her in his plain sight yet hidden by a veil of secrecy made him agitated. It mattered to the Order whom the Resistance was meeting with, but what if she wasn't having an official work related meeting. She could have gone there to have a personal rendezvous with someone, a man even. He needed to make things right somehow, he was losing ground and in doing so losing the battle. He raised from his desk and headed to leave when the sinking sensation in his gut took over and he placed his hand on his abdomen and closed his eyes.


When he opened his eyes he was there, in her room facing a different part of the room. He turned around quickly and saw her on her bed with that girl Rose. Based on primal instinct he let himself hit the ground and used the plush armchair in front of him to hide from her.

Kylo:' I feel like a kriffin' child...this is stupid!' he groweled at himself. He didn't expect this to work, but the room was dimlited and his part of the room was dark. The armchair was placed a bit diagonally so his legs were visible, but the darkness helped in counseling them. The odd position helped him pear over the side to look at them. He closed his eyes, inhaled and exhaled long and as silent as he could. Stealth was the way to go.

Why did he hide he did not know. It just felt right. These past weeks were wired to say the least. Her confessions, her taking care of him...and the possibility that she had been in another's arms had his blood pressure rising again. A full head on confrontation with her felt too soon. He needed more time to collect himself.

Kylo: he opened his eyes abruptly:'Who the fuck was she meeting with?'


Rose:" Are you feeling better Rey? Does it hurt anymore?'

Rey:' I'm OK now. The blast was hard but it missed anything important. The bacta tub was enough to get me on track."

Kylo smiled silently. He was happy she was OK. It would seem he was fortunate enough that he took most of the blow in the explosion.

Rose:' OK then, since you're better: Tell me EVERYTHING! I want names, looks, scents, anything you can give me. The boys were going crazy in the Med Bay when they came back. Poe in particular was very possessive and defensive of you, did that guy do anything to you?'

Kylo twisted his torso to look at them carefully and paid extra attention to this part. Rey was seemingly oblivious to the Bond being active and his presence there (probably due to lack of training), so he would use this time to spy on her.

Rey:' I don't know if I should, it was a secret rendezvous.'

Rose:" Oh come on we're alone in your room, please! At least describe him. Honestly even Finn pushed his chest out in defiance when talking about him. And Finn never feels that way with any man we know.'

Rey:" Well I will say he's the most beautiful creature I've seen so far."

Rose:" What!?"

Kylo:'What!?'

Rose:' More than the Supreme Leader?' Rose added with a wide grin.

Kylo held his breath, mouth started to open and he sunk his fingers in the plush of the chair and squeezed hard.

Rey:' Noo, Ben is a different know..unconventional type."

Rose:' So This guy is the normal kind of beauty?'

Rey:' Yes, really painting type beauty. He's a prince too. Maker he was so graceful and elegant."

Rose:' Yes yes keep it coming." She was giddy now. Girl talk was the best when it was juicy.

Kylo had his finger fully embedded in the chair, knuckle white and mouth wide open so sure of his decision to spy at this point.

Kylo:' What the fuck is "unconventional" supposed to mean?'

Rose:' Goddness a prince, did you ever meet one before?'

Rey:' Nooo, never! He's my first.' She said with a wide smile.

Kylo:' I'm A prince!' he taught with furrowed brow. Didn't she even know this about him. Did he not count?

Rey:' But he was so much to take in. I've never seen a man so passionate. His words felt like silk on my skin. And Maker he smelled so good, he smelled kinda like tea. Like that tea Leia always drinks, yes that's the one. He had it on his breath.'


The ship started to shake. Kylo knew exactly what tea was his mother's favorite. It was Gatalentan tea, which means he knew exactly which prince she met that night. A new check on his mother's "Disappointment List" would be marked after he burned every last trace of that cursed tea and that aristocratic planet from the existing Universe.

Rose:'Turbulence.."

Rey:' I think it's stopping."

Kylo was biting his fist through the binding material he still had in hand and panting trying to slow his breath. He forced himself to calm down. He needed to know exactly what happened to know exactly how long he needed to torture the prince before erasing his entire memory and leaving him on a farming planet like Tatooine to rot.

Rey:' But it didn't feel right. I don't know, I just felt weird. A sort of tightness right here' she said and placed her hand on her lower abdomen and Kylo bit harder. He would pierce the skin soon.

Rose:" Oh Rey that means you liked him", a warm and hopeful smile on her face.

Rey:' How so? It felt tight, not right. I was not calm at all, I felt very agitated. I could feel my heart pounding also."

Rose:' Sometimes I forget you grew up alone in a desert. Rey trust me, that means you liked him. That's what it feels like when you like someone. Don't you feel like that when you see Ren?'

Rey:" Well no honestly. He just feels right to me. I feel calm and safe most times. Unless he's angry and then you run for your life.."

Kylo felt a hit to the gut.

Rey:" Or we're in a full blown battle between teams and then he tries to kill as many of you as he can. That also makes me feel very scared and agitated."

Kylo felt another 2 jabs to the gut. He was back on his butt leaning his back on the chair, facing away from the was a bad idea, the sooner the Bond lets him go the better.

Rey:' But I do feel the same when he's naked or halfway undressed.'

Kylo's eyes lit up and the smallest sweetest spark of hope ignited.

Rose:' It's the same. I guess you can call that lust. It's a sign you want them."

Rey:' But I didn't like it. I guess I'm OK with the idea of liking them, but I couldn't focus and the tightness was making me feel very unbalanced. Meditation doesn't help with this at all. How calm and at peace can I be when I have this fire singing my insides?' she said letting go of all her frustration.

Kylo knew the fire. Given the situation he had mixed feelings. Knowing that she felt like that for some other man was very bad, even if the girls couldn't tell anymore the ship was still vibrating a bit in resonance with his bottled up anger. Many droids would feel his rage later. But to hear that she reacted like that to him as well, that ignited his passion and want with a vengeance.

Rose:' Just rub it off girl. Meditation is good and all but a girl needs to let off some steam now and then. If you ignore it it'll only get worse. " She said as her pad vibrated again with continuous incoming message notifications.

Rey:' And how do I do that alone?'

Kylo and Rose face slapped themselves at the same time for 2 very different reasons.

Kylo couldn't believe how innocent and lost she was. How can a girl try to take him in like that just a few nights ago and at the same time be oblivious to self indulgence. Another reminder of the difference in age and experience between them.

Rose:'I'm going to pretend you didn't just say that. I need to go, this blasted pad has been vibrating on mute for some time now. Who knows what madness the boys caused now, I better go fix it. Speaking of vibrate, try making another boy toy and use your imagination on how you could blow off the steam." she winked, stood up and added" Blow of your steam, not his, OK?"

She left the room and Rey was left alone at the closed door and backed into it. She was lost. She knew of sexual relations, the visiting lowlifes often came to her home planet with lots of pretty women looking for spice and drink, "good times hotter than the dunes" as they put it. She just never had the interest to indulge in this line of thought while fending for her life on a day to day. Maybe Rose was right. She decided to try and brought her hand to her chest. She traced the line of her breast, she could easily feel it through her soft sleeping shirt. She traced all down her abdomen and brought her hand on her thighs. She didn't like to wear pants and preferred to let her skin breath, often sleeping in panties. She could feel the softness of her skin and decided to close her eyes and indulge.


Kylo was on his knees now holding on to the armchair for dear life. The corner of his head rested on the chair while he stared at her feeling herself. His mouth dropped as he realized this was turning into something different. She slid down the door, onto the floor and added a second hand on her opposing thigh. She rubbed smooth circles and parted her lips as she breathed in long and slow instances.

A wild thought came to mind and she taped into the Force, envisioning someone in front of her. Tall and Dark, an image of this man popped in front of her. He stood there with his dark hair and broad shoulders, no shirt on. He didn't say a word but Rey outstretched a hand and beckoned him to her side. He knelled on all 4'rs and started to crawl at her. When he reached her she grabbed onto him like a savage passion hungry little monkey. His lips crashed onto hers and his hands roamed her body furiously touching and feeling, above material, under material there was no part of her he wouldn't love.

She flung her legs around him and he pushed her down harder. She gasped at the pressure and lost her breath. After a hard intake she pushed against him, rolling them over. Now she was on top of him. Her eyes glazed over, breath heavy and lips parted. She started kissing his jawline and took both his hands in hers and isolated them above his head. She kept kissing and gasping now and then when the pressure was just right she started grinding herself onto him.


Kylo Ren was on his knees, one hand holding the chair for stability and the other held her breast binder at his nose furiously. He bit that hand through the binder to alleviate some tension, but the smell of her skin at that moment took him to a peak far away. That and the image of Rey dry humping a blueish boy toy that looked exactly like himself not more than 2 feet away from him.

She must have hit a good spot because she suddenly let a moan slip and his hand went to his member immediately as it pulsed in response to her moan. His pants were very tight and he could feel a very evident pressure gathering and growing down there. If he wouldn't release himself from his pants it would become very painful soon. Rey took the others' hands and placed them on her breasts and massaged hard, her nipples being visible through the soft worn out material of the shirt. Her hips ground and ground and her eyes shone as she looked at him under herself and playfully smiled at him.

Kylo lost a whimper. He grabbed his dick through his pants and squeezed a little, maybe to alleviate the pain. It didn't help it though. He was rubbing his face on her binder furiously now, his other hand squeezing and tugging through pants. His breath came in pants and he was getting tunnel vision again. He forgot he was hiding from her, that he was supposed to be quiet and this visit was meant to be a secret. He couldn't take it anymore, the pressure was too much. He ripped his pants open and pulled himself out as he started stroking. His own eyes glazed, he rubbed her sent on his face as he indulged himself as well. His eyes never left the dream playing out in front of him.


Rey felt great. It was working. The pressure in her lower abdomen was growing, but somehow it felt better. She looked down at the image of Ben looking up at her with what face she imagined he would have if he was really here. This felt so good. Everything was right: him beneath her, she was oblivious to the room, the fact that they were on the floor, everything was intense and hot and sweaty and felt so very good. His hands covered her breasts fully and she craved more. More hands, more kisses, more skin...more Him.

She pulled the shirt from her body and freed her skin to the cool air in the room. She quickly grabbed his hands again and placed them on her naked skin closing her eyes in sweet indulgence. She imagined she heard a loud whimper and a hard breathy intake of air as his thumbs traced her nipples and brought them to his mouth. She fell on her hands, her breast in his mouth, his hands on her hips as he aided her in continuously grounding onto him.

Rey:" Force you're good(pant)...(pant)Ben I don't know(pant)...Somethings happening"

The pressure was still there but it was different now, it was harder, felt hotter. Something felt like growing, like an increase in potency. It felt good and right, but it was growing in power.


Kylo was on his knees leaning his forehead into the armchair. His back was hunched over, eyes glazed mouth wide open as he rubbed the fabric onto his face. He was doing all this while pumping hard at the dream in front of him.

There it was all he ever wanted. Rey humping him and himself exploring all of her. When she took her shirt off to reveal her naked breasts his dick pulsed hard again and he whimpered loudly. He didn't care to hide himself now, he couldn't if he tried. His breath came in so hard now it was difficult to stay alive. He panted loudly as he basically tried to breathe and keep himself oxygenated. All he did was feel the heat in his face intensify and his head grow dizzy as he kept watching and kept stroking.

The image of his hands on her bare breasts, his mouth on her nipples, her face in ecstasy. His dick was so hard it pulsed violently. He knew he was getting her floor wet from the precum he was losing. He didn't care, Maker, it's like he was with her. Their bodies breath in unison and he was loving every second of it. She moaned and he responded, she whimpered and he groaned, she gasped and he hissed in pleasure. They were nowhere near silent, but she didn't stop so neither did he.

Rey must've found another good spot because she looked different now, she leaned back a bit and positioned her hands behind her. Her grind turned into elongated strokes now. I was like he was in her and she was riding him. Head back and eyes closed she was riding a wave only he could give her. Her full naked image exposed in front of him now as she rode him.

Rey:" Ben,(Ah,ah) yes..please! I need(pant)..."she was losing it as she rode something, it was getting stronger.

Ben:" Gaahh..I can't hold it(pant) Rey..Arrhhhh...Gods!" he was pumping furiously in ritm with her strokes. Torture, this was pure torture! " ...(pant)(pant)Please Rey (hiss) faster!"

Rey:" Ben..Yes, yes..Please..more!" She rode faster.

Ben:" Rey!

Rey:' Ben! I.."

Ben:" Rey I'm cu.." he started.

Rey:' Arhh... Maker, I love you BEN!" She interrupted, as the waved crashed over her in ripples. She trembled and let herself fall on her back onto the floor.

Ben's wave crashed as well and hot cum pooled at his knees as his body convulsed and he had to place his hand down and lean on it for support. He closed his eyes.


Ben opened his eyes and when he convulsed one last time and let go of the last drop of his cum on his bedroom floor. The air cold around him and he stood there on his hands and knees staring down at the hard metal floor. His eyes filled with unshed tears as he kept panting and gasping, trying to catch his breath.

Ben:" You..love..me?!" the tears fell freely now.

He dropped on his side and balled up in a fetal position holding himself.


A/N: And here we are. Another long-ish one. Thank you for reading! Hope you like the story so far. I hope to get better with the smut writing in the future.

If you have a suggestion or recommendation please don't hesitate to leave a review( it makes me happy to see others like it as well).