"Kim."
Kim whipped her head around from her desk to find Trudy standing at the top of the stairs. From the look on her face and the use of her first name, she could already tell something wasn't right.
"Sarge?" Kim stood up from her desk, trying to read her expression.
"We have to go." Trudy finally said after a few seconds of silence and a blank expression on her face. She started her descent down the stairs without another word.
"What?" Kim followed her, going down the stairs a little slower these days, gripping onto the railing. "What's wrong?"
"Just come with me. I need you for something."
Kim slid into the passenger side of Trudy's car which had been waiting right outside of the precinct's entrance. "I hope it's not much. I'm on light duty. You know that I'm on light duty, right?"
Trudy took off immediately after Kim's seatbelt was secure, and turned her lights and sirens on.
"What's going on?" This was weird. Kim was trying to call Adam as they were pulling into med. She quickly realized that he wasn't answering, and felt knots in her stomach.
Trudy stopped in front of the E.D. entrance.
Kim stuttered. "Is-Is he-"
"Yes. Go."
Kim ran through the front doors, ignoring the employee at the front desk trying to stop her. Her head was spinning, and she had tunnel vision trying to look around the hospital for any sign of Adam.
"Burgess."
Kim heard her name, but couldn't locate where the voice was coming from.
"Burgess. Hey." Voight stepped in front of her, trying to get her to focus.
"Adam- where's Adam? What happened?"
Voight placed his hands on her shoulders, steadying her. Sirens were growing louder in the background. "He's in the ambulance pulling up now. Listen, Burgess."
Kim shook her head, knowing whatever he was about to say next wouldn't be good.
"Adam got shot."
Kim stumbled backwards, feeling like the wind got knocked out of her, but Voight stopped her from falling.
"He's alive. He's alive, but-"
She snapped out of her dream like state when she heard a paramedic saying Adam's name as she pushed a gurney into the hospital.
"Adam Ruzek, two bullets to the chest stopped by his vest, one bullet in the thigh. Entry wound, no exit wound. Going in and out of consciousness."
Jay was running alongside of the paramedics trying to talk to Adam. "You're gonna be okay, man. You're okay. Look, Kim is here."
With Voight right on her heels, Kim ran to meet Adam. Will Halstead beat them there, shooting Kim a quick, knowing glance.
"Pressure is dropping!" The paramedic yelled, placing two fingers on his neck. "I'm not getting a pulse."
Will jumped into action and immediately started performing CPR.
"Adam!" Kim yelled through her tears. She followed behind Adam, trying to reach over to touch his hand, get a better look at his face, or something. Anything. But he was rolled through a set of double doors, stopping her from following him.
"He needs surgery now!" She heard Will yell as the doors sealed shut.
Kim lunged forward and tried to push and pull the doors frantically, but they were locked. "Let me in!" She screamed, pounding at the doors. She felt two pairs of arms pull her away from the door. She tried to resist, but crying and panicking was making her weak, unable to fight back. Jay and Voight tried to make her sit down in a chair but she refused, still trying to fight her way back to the doors she needed to get through. She needed to get to Adam.
"Kim." Voight finally pulled her into a tight hug, having no other way to calm her down. At first she resisted, trying to push him away.
"I-I need Adam," She gave up her fight and sunk into the chair behind her, turning into a sobbing mess. Voight wrapped his arms around her while she cried. "He's going to pull through."
This couldn't be happening. Life without Adam wasn't a life she could ever imagine. But now it wouldn't just be her life without Adam, it was their baby's life without Adam. Their baby growing up without a father-
"Adam's okay." Will came running into the waiting room, stopping in front of Kim.
Kim exhaled hard, trying to catch her breath but she still felt herself crying.
"We had to intubate, but he's okay. He's in surgery now." Will explained.
Jay let out a deep breath and reached over to squeeze Kim's shoulder.
"How long until I can see him?" Kim wiped her eyes, trying to gain control.
"I'll come get you in about thirty minutes when he's in a recovery room. I'm sure he wants you there when he wakes up."
Kim nodded, still not able to stop crying no matter how hard she tried. Will reassured her a few more times that Adam was going to be perfectly fine, but she wouldn't fully believe him until she could see Adam for herself.
•••
Will eventually took her to a recovery room where Adam was asleep under a blanket. Kim felt more relief when she could see his chest moving up and down. He was no longer intubated, he just had oxygen in his nose.
Will gave her instructions before he left the two alone. "He has two big bruises on his abdomen. Don't be alarmed when you see them later. When he wakes up press the nurse button so we can come check on him."
Kim pulled up a chair next to the hospital bed and grabbed Adam's hand. She pulled his hand to her face and held it to her cheek.
Finally, Adam's eyes started to flutter open. He looked around, still coming off of the anesthesia. When he saw Kim his eyes got big.
"Kim? Baby-the baby?"
"I'm right here. The baby is okay." She grabbed his hand tighter to attempt to calm him.
"What-what's happening?" Adam tried to sit up, but groaned in pain and fell back on the pillow.
"Look at me, Adam." Kim instructed him. "You got shot. Do you remember?"
Adam sighed and squeezed his eyes shut. "Yeah. Damn."
"Your vest stopped two bullets but you just had surgery for one stuck in your leg."
"Sounds about right." Adam turned his head to look at her and smiled softly. "I'm so glad you're here."
Kim couldn't help herself from crying again. She reached over and gave Adam a gentle hug, careful not to hurt him anymore than he already was. "You stopped breathing when you got here."
"Probably because I saw you. You take my breath away." Adam cracked a smile, not missing a beat.
Kim huffed, but couldn't help herself when she laughed at him. "Stop it."
She pressed the button Will instructed her to press earlier, and he came in with a nurse.
Kim had to hold back a gasp when she saw the bruises on his chest. They were the darkest bruises she'd ever seen, covering a good portion of his abdomen.
Adam winced when so much as a finger brushed over the bruise.
"You're going to have to take a week off of work at least." Will told him after he finished the examination. "You need to rest and that's it. Okay? I mean it. Nothing but rest if you want to get back to work."
"Do you think you can keep your hands off of me for a whole week?" Adam joked as soon as Will left the room.
"No." Kim laughed, but she wasn't joking. "I guess I'll have to try though."
"I'm sorry I scared you, baby." Adam grabbed her hand and ran his thumb over her fingers.
"I just can't imagine my life without you." Kim sniffled, starting to tear up again.
"I'm not going anywhere." Adam reassured her. "A few bullets won't take me out."
"I'm serious. You've been there for everything. The good, bad, awkward..." Kim wiped her eyes. "Adam, I don't want to do life without you. I want you to be the one I share everything with. I just-I love you. I love you so much."
Adam pulled Kim down into a kiss and embraced her, despite the pain he felt.
"It's always been you and me, Kim. And it's always going to be you and me."
•••
Adam felt more than ready to go back to work after two weeks even though he had to be on light duty for a while. He enjoyed the time off, but he loved his job and felt like something was missing when he wasn't working.
After a bit of a slow morning, Adam and Kevin went to a witness's house to see if he was around. He had been dodging their calls and hadn't shown up to work in a few days, so it was time to pay him a visit.
As soon as Kevin knocked on the door, they heard the back door slam shut. They gave each other a quick nod before going around the back of the house. They spotted the man they were looking for trying to climb over a fence.
"Chicago PD! Stop!" Adam wanted to charge towards him, but quickly remembered he wasn't supposed to run yet. He was thankful he hadn't gotten much closer when the man pulled a gun out of his waist band. He fired a shot at Adam who jumped out of the way, barely missing the bullet. Luckily Kevin reacted quickly, shooting down the gunman.
"Ten-four, ten-four! Shots fired at the police!" Kevin yelled into the radio. "Offender down."
Adam was still on the ground, trying to catch his breath. His first day back at work after being shot and he almost got shot again. Kim wasn't going to like this.
A few minutes later, Voight's car and an ambulance pulled up to the scene. Kim came out of the passenger seat, face full of panic and tears. "Adam?" She spotted him right away and ran - kind of - towards him.
Adam pulled her into a hug and tried to comfort her. "I'm fine, baby. It's okay."
Voight told the couple to take the rest of the day off. Adam wasn't so sure, but Kim looked relieved, so he decided not to argue.
•••
Adam looked over at Kim every few seconds while he was driving home. She wasn't saying anything and she looked almost angry.
Kim made a bee line for her bedroom when they walked in their apartment, but Adam wasn't having it.
He opened the door the second she shut it in his face.
"Kim."
She whipped her head around to face him, already welling up with tears. His eyes softened, instantly feeling bad for getting upset just because she was.
"Don't do that, baby. Don't cry." He moved in to hug her, and she reluctantly let him.
"You could have died last week, and again today." Kim pulled away, anger coming back to her expression.
"An officer can die at any point on the job. You know that, Kim."
"You're not just an officer. You're the father of our baby." Kim wrapped her arms around her stomach.
Adam reached over to touch Kim's belly. "I'm sorry you had to see me when I came in on the ambulance last week. I know you were scared. But I'm not going to let myself get hurt."
"You can't control that. Like you said, an officer can die at any time." Kim said bitterly.
"Where is this coming from, baby?" Adam asked.
"I think we should get different jobs." Kim looked down, avoiding eye contact with Adam.
He didn't know what to say at first. This was not the way he expected this conversation to go.
"If we're going to bring a baby into this world. We need to get a job that doesn't require us to put our life on the line every day." Kim continued, finally getting brave enough to look up at him.
"Kim, no." Adam shook his head. "This is crazy."
"Is it? Or am I the only one who wants to look out for our family." Kim snapped.
"That's not fair." Adam didn't want to fight fire with fire. He was trying his hardest not to say something out of anger.
"You know what's not fair? Being in this line of work now that we have a family." Kim wasn't making this any easier.
"You can't ask me to quit. I won't do it." Adam stood his ground.
"You won't even think about it. You won't even consider my opinion." Kim argued.
"No, Kim, I won't. What the hell is this?"
"You almost died today. Again." Kim was trying to keep her voice controlled, Adam could tell. She was about to cry at any minute.
"Almost died?" Adam groaned and rubbed his eyes. "The bullet didn't even graze me. Look at me, I'm perfectly fine."
"Why won't you even consider it?" Kim tried again.
"You know what, fine. I'll go consider it." Adam grabbed his keys, and headed for the door. He knew he shouldn't be doing this, but this was his only option if he wanted to keep his temper at bay.
"Where are you going?" Kim followed him out to the door, getting angrier with every step he took away from her. "I'm trying to talk to you."
Adam knew if he looked at Kim, he would feel bad and want to apologize. He kept his back towards her and walked out of the door. "I'm going to Molly's."
•••
The sound of someone knocking on the front door fifteen minutes later surprised Kim. Adam must have turned around halfway to Molly's.
"Hi."
Kim was even more surprised to see who was standing outside her door.
"Hailey?"
"I didn't want to bother you and Adam but Vanessa isn't answering her phone-"
"Come in." Kim gestured for Hailey to enter her apartment. "Adam isn't home right now."
"Where is he?" Hailey asked, taking a seat at the kitchen counter.
"Molly's." Kim didn't even trying to mask her disappointment.
"Ha." Hailey laughed dryly. "I bet Jay is on his way there now."
"Did you guys have a fight too?" Kim asked as she grabbed a bottle of liquor from one of the cabinets. "For you, not me."
"Yeah." Hailey gratefully accepted the shot glass from her friend. She downed it and held it out for more. Kim grabbed a bigger glass for and filled it up. She would have to live vicariously through her drinking for now.
"You might be drinking a little too fast there." Kim raised her eyebrow at her friend.
Hailey shrugged. "Who cares."
"What happened? Talk to me." Kim filled her glass up again, taking a few sips of water for herself.
"Jay suggested we move in together." Hailey shook her head, downing another shot. "I said no."
"Why?" Kim asked.
"I thought we would be moving too fast. But now... I don't know." Hailey paused, staring off into space for a few minutes before she turned her attention back to Kim. "What's wrong with you?"
"I told Adam we need to get new jobs." Kim admitted.
"Because of the baby?" Hailey asked. Kim had expected her to not understand either, but she sounded like she did. There was no hint of judgement in her voice.
"Yeah." Kim sent Hailey a sad smile.
The two sat in silence for a few minutes. Hailey downing drinks, Kim staring at the front door.
"I wish he could see where I was coming from." Kim sighed.
"I just don't want this to ruin what we have." Hailey's words were starting to slur.
"I mean, maybe I came at him a little too harsh." Kim thought back to their conversation. It was a little one-sided.
"I guess we sleep in the same bed every night though." Hailey turned her head to the side, lost in thought.
"I basically demanded that we get new jobs out of the blue." Kim took a big gulp of water, pretending it was alcohol.
"But moving in together is different. That's like, almost marriage." Hailey followed Kim's lead and took another big drink.
"I should have talked to him calmly about how I felt." Kim snorted. "Ha, calm. My hormones don't know what that means."
"But then again, why is marriage even a bad thing when it's with Jay?" Hailey slapped her hand over her mouth in disbelief. "I'm drunk."
"Talking about this out loud really helped. Thanks, Hailey. And-" Kim stopped her rambling for a minute to look at Hailey in surprise, registering what she just said. "I think you just said you'd marry Jay."
"Um..." Hailey looked back and forth at Kim, then at her drink. "I think I did."
"So maybe moving in with him wouldn't be so bad?" Kim tried to encourage her.
"Maybe not." Hailey downed the glass in front of her. "I just-I was. I don't know-"
"You were a little scared and you overreacted as a defense mechanism?" Kim finished the sentence for her, easily finding an explanation for Hailey's behavior because that's exactly what she had done earlier.
"That." Hailey pointed at Kim, her direction slightly off. "That's it."
While Hailey tried to practice what she was going to say to Jay to make up with him, Kim slipped into another room to call him.
"Is Hailey with you?" Jay answered on the first ring, sounding worried.
"She's at my place. She's fine but-"
"What? But what?" Jay interrupted.
"She's really drunk. Will you come get her?" Kim asked, knowing he would without a doubt.
"On my way."
•••
Hailey was still trying to practice what she wanted to say to Jay, but she could only get a few words out before she forgot what she was trying to do. She didn't even notice the knock at the front door.
Kim let Jay in and pointed to the kitchen counter.
"Hailey?" Jay asked softly as he approached her.
Hailey turned her attention to Jay, not registering what was happening right away. Her eyes got big, and she opened her mouth to say something but no words came out. Her expression turned into a sad face like she was about to cry. Jay quickly moved in and wrapped his arms around her.
"I didn't mean it." Hailey pulled back from the hug. "I tried-I was-" she looked at Jay, then at Kim. "Kim?"
Kim stepped in to help her very drunk friend. "Hailey wants to move in with you. She's sorry for reacting the way she did."
"And?" Hailey wanted her to continue.
"She was just scared, so she said you were moving too fast, fought with you, and ran out as a defensive mechanism." Kim nodded at Hailey, who nodded back, satisfied.
A smile spread across Jay's face as Hailey looked at him expectedly. "It's okay." He told her.
"Don't tell him the other part." Hailey sent Kim a warning glance. Kim bit her lip to keep from laughing and agreed.
"What other part?" Jay looked at the two girls. Kim shook her head. "Sorry."
Hailey dropped her voice to a whisper. "I told Kim that I would marry you, but she can't tell anyone." Alcohol had no secrets.
Jay's eyebrows shot up in surprise, but then he pulled her into another hug.
Kim partially regretted giving Hailey so much to drink, but at the same time it wasn't so bad that she was telling Jay her real feelings. He certainly didn't seem to mind.
"I'm going to get her home." Jay cleared his throat, looking slightly embarrassed that Kim just witnessed all of that. "Hey, where's Adam?"
As if on cue, Adam came through the front door. "Kim- oh?" He was caught off guard by the unexpected company. "Everything alright?"
Hailey had nodded off on Jay's shoulder for a few minutes, but woke up at the sound of Adam's voice. "Don't tell Jay what I told Kim." She directed her glance at Adam.
"I'm taking her home. She came over here and got a little drunk." Jay explained, putting Hailey's arm over his shoulder. He picked her up bridal style, and Adam moved to open the door for them.
"I told Kim I'm marrying Jay." Hailey attempted to whisper to Adam on her way out. She looked down at Jay and tilted her head. "You look hot right now."
"And with that being said, goodnight." Jay chuckled, nodding at Adam.
"You had way too much to drink." They heard Jay and Hailey laughing as they shut the door.
Kim felt awkward now that Jay and Hailey were gone. They were a nice distraction for a while, but now she needed to swallow her pride and apologize.
Adam tried to beat her to it. "Baby, look-"
"No." Kim interrupted him. "Let me go first."
He looked like he was about to protest, but stopped. He took a seat at the kitchen island, Kim following.
"I'm sorry." She swallowed hard, already feeling like she was about to cry. "I panicked when you almost got shot today and my mind went to the worst case scenario. All I could think of was our baby growing up without both of us-" she stopped to collect herself, her voice cracking.
Adam got up and pulled her into a hug. She felt better when his arms were around her.
"I'm sorry I walked out on you." Adam said, pressing a kiss to the top of her head. "Let's make a deal. If one of us ever finds ourselves in a life threatening situation at work again, we can talk about a career change. Just talk."
"Okay." Kim nodded. "Deal."
"Alright." Adam reached up and brushed her hair to the side. "I love you, you know?"
"I know." Kim broke into a smile. "I love you too."
"I have something to show you. Wait here." Adam disappeared into his bedroom and brought his laptop over to where Kim was sitting.
"How would you like to go on vacation before our baby gets here?" He asked, opening up an email that contained airline tickets.
Kim's mouth dropped open. "A babymoon?"
"Yes." Adam chuckled at her reaction. "I found a nice resort on a beach in Florida. We have vacation time saved up and Voight approved it."
"Are you serious?" Kim asked, still in disbelief.
"I'm super serious." Adam pulled up the resort's website, letting Kim look through the photos of the hotel.
"Do you have any idea how excited I am for this?" Kim smiled up at Adam.
"How excited?" He asked.
"I'll show you." Kim stood up from her chair and pointed to the bedroom. "In there."
