December 21st, Gift number 21 :
It was a particularly gray and sultry Monday morning on this December 21. The rain drummed vigorously on the window upstream of the bed where Marinette was peacefully asleep.
The muffled sound of water pearls falling just above her head awakened the young woman who stared at her still-sleepy look at the trickle of drops against the glass.
A lightning bolt illuminated Marinette's room and she slowly extricated herself from her bed, happy not to have to brave the storm to go to the college.
True to the habit she had been in for three weeks now, she stopped near her meridian and grabbed a pearly red envelope with barley sugars on it as motifs, sealed with a sticker representing the digits 21.
In the envelope she found a USB stick on which was stuck a small white post-it where she could read: "You know what to do, Bugaboo."
Marinette knew that this USB key meant that she would hear Chat Noir playing and singing a song to her, as he had already done two weeks before. She was excited and eager to discover the choice he had made and at the same time already upset by the moment of emotion she knew she was about to live.
With a shaking hand, she started the audio recording and began reading the comments her partner had sprinkled on some of the lyrics of "Everything I do, from Bryan Adams", comments that seemed to form a love letter.
"Look into my eyes, you will see What you mean to me. Search your heart, search your soul. And when you find me there you'll search no more. Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for. You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for. You know it's true. "
Today I'm going to lay my heart bare, I hope not to make you uncomfortable or hurt you, but there are words that I really need to say to you, I need to do that, it's necessary for me to shed light on my emotions, both positive and negative.
Before I met you, I felt empty and incomplete.
I have suffered and am still suffering, my wounds are from yesterday and there are harder days than others, especially when I am not wearing the suit. But when I become Chat Noir, and I can see you, the suffering disappears, I look at you, and without you even knowing, you give me strength, hope, love and happiness. Sometimes I want to let go of the mask and collapse in your arms, to reveal to you all the abrasions that life has left me, all the sorrows, all the bitterness. And you know why? Because I know that I could never find better comfort than with you. You are my sweet and warm refuge in the midst of the biggest storms, the sun that comes after the rain.
"Look into my heart, you will find. There's nothin' there to hide. Take me as I am, take my life. I would give it all. I would sacrifice Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for. I can't help it there's nothin' I want more. You know it's true. Everything I do, I do it for you. "
I love you for two, I know, it's dangerous. But I can no longer imagine my world without you, my life without you. You are my whole world.
Whatever you say, whatever you think, the love I feel for you never ceases to grow in me, to grow day by day, ever more, to consume me whole. It's like a big fire burning in my heart. A blaze that I want to constantly fuel and that I refuse to put out. No matter how many times you repelled me, the flames in my heart never lost their intensity. You are the spark that crackles and that gave life to this fire, so hot and bright, that fire that reminds me that life is worth living. I don't want to do without you anymore. I can't do without you anymore. I won't do without you. Because, without you who lit this gigantic fire in my heart, without you who reminded me of what it meant to be alive, today I would be nothing but ashes scattered by the wind.
" There's no love, like your love. And no other, could give more love. There's nowhere, unless you're there. All the time, all the way. "
I no longer feel able to be the only one to love, I no longer want this one-way love, I can't handle it anymore. I know it's selfish. And what comes next might seem pretentious to you, but I'm sure that you too are aware of the feelings floating between us, I know that you feel something for me, even if you try to deny it. And I'm willing to do anything to prove to you that together we would be invincible.
I'm aware that the situation is not ideal, Hawkmoth, Mayura, our duty, your guardian mission... I know that you are afraid. I am too. I'd be lying to you if I said it doesn't scare me. Yes, I'm scared. I'm afraid that our mission will take you away from me. I'm scared by the thought that you're turning your back on what might be built between us. I am terrified of the idea that you are giving up on us because you think that our love would be an obstacle to your mission. The scary concept that you lose memory, that you forget about me, petrifies me. But when I am afraid, when doubt grows in me and these dark thoughts invade me, I think of you. I'm thinking about us. And I remember then that I'm ready to live a thousand terrors, as long as it's for you, as long as it's with you.
"Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for. I can't help it there's nothin' I want more. I would fight for you, I'd lie for you. Walk the wire for you, I'd die for you. "
I am ready to learn everything from you. Learn all about your weaknesses and fears. I'm willing to share the weight on your shoulders. And if I'm willing to know anything about you, it's so I can be your best support. I want to be the pillar that keeps you standing when you threaten to collapse. I want to be the lighthouse who will guide your heart when it's at the edge of the shipwreck, carried away like a ship by the waves of your fears and doubts. I want to be that star that will show you the way in your darkest nights. I only wish to be able to continue to be the one who will throw himself, without thinking, in the front line, before you, to protect you. I'll fight for you.
And If patience is learned, I will learn what it's to wait. Take as long as you need, I'll wait, but please teach me how to love you, there's nothing I want more. I want to love you my Lady, let me only love you as it should, as you deserve and I will make sure that you never be afraid again.
Your kitty, madly and desperately in love with you.
She could hear her partner's voice crackling under the emotion as he sang and struck the final notes of the song.
This listening rich in emotion and especially this upsetting reading, had on her the effect of a cataclysm: which meant that her heart had just erupted like a volcano overflowing with lava, her heart was overflowing with love and passion.
Marinette put her two hands in front of her mouth to suppress the sound of the sobs that had taken hold of her but could not hold back the tears loaded with strong feelings that were now rolling down her cheeks.
A lightning bolt again split the room of the young woman who was still in the dusky early morning, while a deep, deaf roar echoed a few seconds later.
This thunderbolt made Marinette's entire body vibrate, as the realization took hold of her.
I love him.
To be continued...
RITORU DEITO
: Adrien Nervous , this is something I like to see. Even if it happens infrequently. This scene was so convenient. And as you understood well the goal was for him to begin to understand that maybe he does not leave Marinette indifferent.He deserves all the love of the world, our kitty, so I also give him what he deserves in this story even if it's Ladybug who receives gifts. So I confirm) ... I also want the Chat Noir candle! If you ever get the chance to go to a shop selling fragrance. Ask to smell Spice Bomb from Viktor Rolf. It's a concentrate of spices, suave and full of character! I just imagine our kitty perfectly with this perfume!
Tomorrow... Some Ladynoir... Stay connected!
