We fucking lost!
I can't fucking believe it! The judges must have been on the take or something.
Okay, so, we didn't LOSE lose, we finished second. But it's the same thing!
I was actually looking forward to this! This was supposed to be a nice break. A full weekend away from all the shit going on at home. And normally I wouldn't want to be away from the city for even this long, but everything has been so crazy these last couple of weeks. I try to get as much sleep as I can but I just haven't been sleeping well and I feel like I'm running on fumes. This was a chance for me to relax and catch up on some sleep. And then this bullshit! Completely ruined my mood!
At least I got to relax for most of yesterday.
Everybody else is just so excited to have come in second. Even Coach Baum is happy about where we placed. The only person that's even half as pissed as me about this is Cameron. I found her sitting in the restaurant eating her way through a massive sundae covered in all sorts of syrup and sprinkles and candy and all sorts of crap. It made my teeth hurt just looking at it.
I've never seen her eat so much junk.
When I sat down across from her she asked why I wasn't celebrating with the rest of the team. I said, "Why would I celebrate second place?"
She looked at me and kinda smirked for just a second before handing me a spoon.
I'm not one for candy and sprinkles on my sundaes, but I was able to pick out a few spots that just had fudge on them.
After a couple minutes she asked, "So you like the competitions?"
I shrugged and said, "It's best part of being on this team."
She picked up her spoon and twisted it around, looking at the glob of ice cream and sauce dripping from it and said, "I always thought so." then stuffed it all in her mouth.
Then she stabbed the sundae with the spoon and said, "This is the furthest we've ever come. The closest to winning nationals."
So I said, "There's always next year."
And she looked at me and said, "Not for me. I graduate this year."
The only thing I could think to say was, "Sorry."
She gave me a quick smile and said, "Don't be. You're the reason we got this far. Not just because you were the smallest one on the team and able to do amazing gymnastics, but because you pushed the rest of the girls to be better. You raised the bar for us."
So we lost, and next year Cameron and Tashaya won't be there, so somebody else is going to be in charge and I don't know if I want to do this again if some dizzy bitch takes over her role. I don't even want to think about what this team could turn into if someone like Cici took over. Or Jackie.
God this sucks. I can't wait for summer to get here so all this school crap will be over and I can relax.
