Mako's Message: I frittered away so much of my evening I don't have time to come up with any decent commentary. But I am looking for suggestions on a certain topic over on my facebook page. Could be fun.
I'm worried I might be starting to burn out again.
I just haven't really been able to focus. A lot of it has been autopilot. An advantage of training yourself to exhaustion on a regular basis is that your body learns to just do the thing without thinking about it. It's not effective but it is functional.
It's weird that it also seems to work with questions, because I know I answered some in class and they were correct. I think.
Nobody laughed at what I said at least.
It's when I actually have to think that I end up with problems. And by think I mean not just remember things, but come up with things, like, "Our next exercise will be."
Which is exactly what happened today and made me realize I might have a problem. I just completely blanked on what we were going to do next during practice and stood there for almost a minute before one of the girls asked me if I was okay.
It even took me a moment to respond to that question. But I shook it off and said, "Yeah, I just haven't been getting much sleep lately."
So of course Brooke saw an opportunity and said, "What? Too busy being a slut?"
And I turned my head and looked at her, and blinked, and said, "Yeah, your dad has just been in-satiable lately."
Most of the team seemed to get a kick out of that.
Having Angela as my co-captain is probably the smartest thing I've done regarding this whole cheerleading thing. She's been a huge help. Though I have no idea who else I could have asked.
Having to constantly stake out St. Baptist isn't helping. No one believes that Chris ISN'T going to hit that place. But we were expecting it to have happened by now. It's putting us all on edge. And of course we can't just not watch the place. And we also have to keep patrolling since there's a huge chance that some cunts might try and take advantage of us being 'distracted' watching over the school. Assuming they even thought about that.
I kinda miss how it was before Chris made his appearance as The Motherfucker. There were dozens of people doing neighborhood patrols then and we could really use those kinds of numbers right now. But not everybody is cut out for this, and ninety percent of those people probably wouldn't have been much help in a real fight.
Chris still has hundreds if not thousands of followers on twitter alone though, so the raw numbers would be appreciated.
Maybe we should go see if that Grey Guard guy wants to work with us.
It is kinda nice getting to stake the place outwith the other JF members though, since Dave isn't always able at the same times I am.
And we haven't been able to take nights off.
The downside is that I'm not comfortable enough with any of them except Alice to bullshit with them like I am with Dave which makes the stakeouts seem so much longer.
Life would be so much easier if we could actually find Chris. The asshole's greatest skill is making his ass scarce as fuck. Nobody seems to actually know where he is. It's almost like he doesn't trust anyone.
And since he can give orders with twitter and shit I guess he doesn't need too.
I bet that little shit cock isn't even in the city. He's probably lounging around upstate or something.
Fucker.
I don't care if it's a school day, the day after we finally get that cum guzzling ass sucker I'm going to celebrate by sleeping all day. Hopefully with Dave.
I'll even except if it's just like, cuddling, so long as we spend the whole day in bed together.
I must be fucking burnt if I'm fantasizing about sleeping.
I should probably have been napping now.
Fuck.
