I own nothing though I wish I did. This chapter will have some huge revelations about Ed and Rosalie's relationship and I hope you enjoy it. Thanks so much for reading.

Chapter 3

Rosalie's POV…

As I felt Eddie's arms wrap around me again after so long I couldn't suppress a moan.

"I love you too, Rosie," whispered Eddie making me smile even as I hoped he didn't hear the sound that slipped past. If only he knew that I didn't mean it the way he thought. That was why I sighed when it became clear he didn't hear my moan. He couldn't hear it, if he did he wouldn't accept everything I just said; he would realize it was all a lie. And Eddie could never know that because as much as I loved him still I couldn't be with him. I needed someone who would take care of me.

I needed someone stable and that wasn't Edward Nygma. Despite the fact that I didn't love him the way I said, I needed Nathanial Barnes. Though the love I felt for him was more platonic then romantic I did care deeply for him and I knew he would never let anyone harm me. Nathanial would take care of me, he could take care of me in ways that Edward could not. As much as I wished for it to be different, it wasn't. That was the way it was, Eddie was a wonderful, but when it all came down to it I didn't think he could take care of me. If someone tried to hurt me how would he protect me? I knew he would try, but in the end I knew he wouldn't be able to. I knew that even as we parted looking at each other once more before going back to our lunch. I was keenly aware of Eddie right next to me in this place and though I didn't want them to my memories was coming back to me.

"I couldn't pretend to not see you, Eddie. You mean more to me then that even now," I whispered suddenly remembering his question from before.

Our eyes met in that moment, I knew the look in his eyes too well, I had seen it many times during our high school days. It was a look I used to see every time he wanted to kiss me except now he couldn't act on it. I could tell he wanted to. That he wanted to kiss me, but in his eyes I saw something else too. I saw a deep fear that I would reject him; I had seen that look before years ago as we sat together in classes or at this very table. I hated that fear, I wanted him to kiss me, but when he didn't act on it I was secretly glad. Him kissing me now would break my resolve, my resolve to just be friends again, and I couldn't let that happen. Even if that wasn't what I wanted.

"You mean the world to me, Eddie, you always have. You always will," I whispered never looking away from him thinking deep down inside that I wanted him to swoop down and kiss me.

"You know I feel the same. You'll always be my best girl, Rosie," whispered Eddie in response giving me a smile his eyes shining as he leaned forward making me shiver as he kissed my cheek. That simple kiss made me remember another simple kiss, except it was on the mouth; it was our first kiss.

I remembered it so vividly, we had sat in this very booth our books open. Things had been unusually silent between us that day as we sat side by side our eyes skimming the pages of our books. To me it was all very strange, we were never this silent when we were together, but on that day Eddie was silent. He wouldn't even look at me something I hadn't failed to notice I just chose not to comment on it. But that all changed when he finally did look at me sneaking glances at me whenever he thought I wasn't looking.

"Something wrong, Eddie?" I said not looking at him for a moment choosing to wait until he snuck another look at me. When our eyes met his widened instantly and he stared at me for a moment before looking away again. But I didn't look away from him not until he finally looked my way again. Eddie had stared at me then unabashedly his brown eyes like rays of light beaming at me. They held a look of indecision and something else I couldn't place his glasses slipping precariously down his nose. But he didn't seem to notice in that moment he just kept staring at me; it was like he couldn't take his eyes off me. I'll never forget the way he looked sitting there that day. He looked so cute, so flustered, so nervous. It was classic Eddie, it was the Eddie I fell in love with.

"Eddie, say something?" I whispered looking into his eyes still so naïve in that moment.

"Eddie…are you alright?" I exclaimed finally beginning to get fed up with the silence. I brought my hand from its folded position in my lap then bringing it to touch his arm, but when I did he did something he never did before. He jumped at my very touch.

I stared at him in my surprised not understanding his jumpy nature. My eyes held a question as they continued to peer into his, but my mouth never got to ask that question. He stopped me before I could. In that moment Edward Nygma kissed me.

"Eddie," I gasped in response his lips soft against mine in that first kiss. In that moment I can't deny he surprised the hell out of me, I was so surprised I had never considered anything more than friendship with him until that moment. I was just so…surprised. That first time I didn't kiss him right back, I was too overwhelmed in that moment. I still couldn't believe what was happening, but then he tried to pull away. He tried to pull away and end it. In that moment something came alive in my brain. Slowly my hands moved to grip his shirt holding him in place not letting him go until I needed to breathe.

Our eyes met then, his looked unsure, mine were most likely filled with love; at least I hope they were because I did love him. Though it was a different love, not yet romantic, but not exactly platonic; it was love. That love then grew into the love I feel now. It is the love I shall always feel for my Eddie, for he will always be the love of my life.

"Was that alright?" said Eddie his voice so low I barely heard him.

" Yes, it was fine," I breathed my eyes never leaving him as I nodded too not wanting to stop as my brain continued to process what had just happened.

" I'm sorry…I caught you off guard…I should have waited," stammered Eddie looking away from me as I continued to nod not being able to stop for a long time as he returned to focus on his work. He probably expected me to continue working too, but first my head had to stop shaking. I couldn't believe what just happened. Eddie had kissed me that was the last thing I expected him to do. I wasn't sure how to feel or what to do now. I wasn't even sure what I wanted to do now. I was so unsure of everything; suddenly nothing seemed to make sense. But when I knew, it happened suddenly.

"Do it again. You will…won't you?" I said suddenly finally looking at him. He had been sitting there writing in his tiny notebook until that moment, but in that moment he stopped. He stopped all movement, he just sat there staring at the page in his notebook, but then he looked at me. Eddie looked about as surprised as I had just been.

"You want me to?" exclaimed Eddie his eyes searching mine. His notebook and whatever he had been writing were forgotten in that moment as he inched ever slowly closer to me. His question made me smile because it was so silly yet so understandable because why wouldn't I want him to kiss me again?

"Yes, I do, very much. If you want to that is?" I breathed moving closer too.

"What…you want me to do what? I need to hear you say it," exclaimed Eddie clearly flustered. Slowly then I sighed building up the courage to tell him what I needed to. I was still so nervous that it took me a moment, but then taking his hand I looked into his eyes even deeper than before. I knew I had to say it; I had to be brave, and say it.

Looking into his eyes I could see how much he wanted me to say it. That was the first time I saw that look in his eyes for in that moment he wanted more than anything to kiss me, but he needed to be sure I wanted it. And I did. I really wanted it.

"Kiss me," I whispered watching as slowly a smile formed on his face. He didn't hesitate then moving his lips until they were touching mine in the sweetest of kisses. He was so passionate, but so tender. He was my Eddie; he put his personality in everything he did, and that included kissing me. The second kiss was as good as the first, the ones that followed were even better.

Slowly that memory faded away and I found myself out of the past and back in the present. Looking at Eddie again I found he still had that look in his eyes and I still wanted him back. Suddenly I took his hand intertwining them just the way I used to long before that kiss.

"I never forgot about you, how could I? You'll always be one of my greatest memories, Eddie," I whispered hoping that would lessen the hurt I knew I had inflicted on him. Just knowing that I had done that made my own heart hurt. Staring at him then I felt his eyes on me even as mine looked away. Suddenly I couldn't help, but wonder if he had thought of me over the years. Or had I been someone he had forgotten until a day ago. As much as I knew it shouldn't the thought that he might have hurt me.

"Did you forget about me?" I said feeling instantly as his hands gripped mine. Eddie brought my hand to his lips; I noted that his lips were still so soft against my skin, and stroking his thumb across my knuckles he smiled.

"No, I never forgot you. I just stored you, the memory of you, in the back of my mind," whispered Eddie making me smile. What he said made chills as cold as wind go through my body. It felt good to know I was always on his mind as he was mine. And though we couldn't be together it was good to know he still loved me as I did him. Even if I couldn't tell him. Before I knew it both our hands were joined as our heads inched closer and it was just as our noses touched that reality came crashing down.

"Rosie," breathed Eddie moving closer before I pulled away knowing this couldn't happen, not anymore.

"Eddie, don't," I whispered turning away from him my eyes seeking out the clock that hung in the corner.

"We should go," I smiled looking at him ever so briefly. Discreetly then I moved away from him not being strong enough to bare being close to him anymore. He was a temptation I couldn't give into. Being close to him now would ruin everything I had built when I came to Gotham. It would set things in motion that couldn't happen and he would find out things he didn't need to know. Things that would only hurt him more than he already was and that was the last thing I ever wanted to do. Eddie only nodded in response his eyes on me as I stood up to pay the bill.

He was waiting for me at the door when I was done and this time though I knew I shouldn't I took his hand almost immediately. Once again we found ourselves sitting together in a cab on our way back to the precinct and once again all my silent. I could see him watching me throughout the ride, it took everything for me not to shiver in response, but when I could take it no more I looked at him. Our eyes met and we smiled. Despite the unpleasant parts I was glad we had done this and looking at him still I knew he was too. But still all too soon the cab was in front of the precinct signaling that our time together was coming to an end. My steps were slow as I walked into the precinct by his side, I never wanted to leave him, but I would have to deny it for the rest of my life. I would have to deny I loved him for the rest of my life. Eddie tried to leave me without a word, but I wasn't going to let our lunch end like that. He was going to say goodbye to me, I was going to say goodbye to him, but then I reminded myself this wasn't goodbye. We would see each other much more after this. But still when he tried to leave me I grabbed his hand keeping him in place.

"Don't just walk away, Eddie," I exclaimed our eyes meeting as he turned to face me once more.

"I have to go, Rosie. Duty calls," whispered Eddie giving me a soft smile that grew bigger as I smiled too choosing that moment to lean in to kiss his cheek.

"I hope we have more days like this, Eddie. I really have missed you; I want to spend more time with you. We will…won't we?" I whispered my eyes silently begging him for an answer. Eddie looked at me a moment before slowly he took both my hands in his bringing them to his lips.

"We will," smiled Eddie giving my hands one last kiss before letting them drop. Slowly I shared his smile and after a moment I took a step away from him.

"Bye, Eddie," I smiled my eyes lingering on him until I left the precinct. Soon I found myself in another cab on my way to my apartment. My eyes watched the streets, but they didn't see them. All I could think about was Eddie. The day replayed in my mind like a video. Nothing had changed after we had it out after all these years. We were madly in love we just couldn't show it. I would always love him, but though I hated myself for it I hoped he wouldn't always feel the same. I wanted Eddie to be happy and if he found someone else to be happy with I would be heart broken, but happy. As much as he loved me I hoped he would stop loving me so that he could love again. That way he would lead a happy life. I loved Edward Nygma, I always would. As that thought repeated in my mind I let my head fall back in my seat until it pulled up outside my apartment.

I was truly happy to have Eddie back. I wanted him to be my best friend again, but in the back of my mind I knew one thing. The fact that I still loved him would make what followed harder. We would have to work at it to have the friendship we once had. Part of me was worried that we couldn't be friends not after everything that happened, but I wanted it more than anything. And that night that thought was proven in the subject of my very dreams. It was a normal night, Nathanial came home, we had dinner, and went to bed as was our routine. But the man I was set to marry was not the one in my dreams that night. Instead it was the one I loved. I was dreaming of Edward Nygma.

I knew where I was, I was in a room, Eddie's room or what used to be his room. It was eerily silent, everything was just as I remembered it, but I loved it. I had missed his room; it held so many great memories. I stood there alone my back to the closed mahogany door, but I didn't stay alone. Soon the door opened. Suddenly I heard a creak behind me and turning I found Eddie there close enough to touch dressed in the plaid green pajamas I remembered so well. Slowly Eddie approached me until gripping my hips he pulled me close, it was only then that I realized I was standing nearly naked in front of him my bra and panties were the only things covering me.

"Eddie," I breathed leaning in close to him enjoying the feel of his hands on me.

"You are still so beautiful," whispered Eddie moving his hand up my side in the same moment as his lips met mine.

"Oh, Eddie," I exclaimed longing in the very sound of my voice as I moaned into his kiss. My arms surrounded him in that moment as I instinctively clung to his pale skinny form. I never wanted to let him go and in that moment I didn't plan to. But then he let me fall onto the green comforter of his bed not waiting a second to fall on top of me. In that moment that's how I knew it was a dream, for this would never, could never happen in real life. Not now. Eddie kissed me still with the lips of a man who truly loved a woman. His kiss was as soft as our first, as sweet as his soul, and so tender it made me fall apart. But what was even better was his touch. The way he cupped my breasts in his hand squeezing them showing me that he appreciated them, the way he held me as if losing me would kill him. I silently wondered if it would; if it had all those years ago when I left him so abruptly. But I let that slip away as I focused on him, on this dream. Part of me wondered if this would be like this if this were real. Eddie suddenly looked into my eyes in that moment and it made me shiver just like before. Everything he did added to the love I felt for him. It all made me want it to be real.

"Rosie…god I love you…I've missed you," growled Eddie pulling me impossibly closer making my eyes widen. His eyes were blown wide with lust, lust for me, and it made me smile as I peered helplessly into his eyes. I was transfixed by them I never wanted to look away. Gently he stroked my sides with his fingertips as he looked down at me.

"Spread your legs," breathed Eddie gripping my hip making me do so almost instantly quickly wrapping them around his waist. My legs were tight around his waist letting me feel him. Eddie was so hard and I loved that I had done that to him. When I smiled in response it was soon covered by his lips. He kissed me with a deep hunger that had me hanging onto him my heart pounding now. He held my face in his hands and gripping his upper back I wanted to tell him I loved him. That I would always love him, but I wanted his kisses so much more.

"Eddie, please make love to me," I begged as his hands left my face moving over my body making my breathing heavy. He kissed me still though until suddenly he wasn't. Skimming my neck he bit my skin making me mewl as he worshipped me like he used to. I wanted him to mark me, to make me his just as I was; I wanted this dream to be true.

"Rosie," growled Eddie as he moved his lips over my neck. I was lost in his arms and I never wanted to be found. I was his, completely his, and as I clung to him I knew I always would be. I always wanted to be. It was as his lips scoured my neck that I felt him finger my panties his lips moving down my neck as he pulled them down with a tug.

"I love you," whispered Eddie pulling my body taunt against his my legs high around his hips. I kissed him then cradling the back of his neck with my hand. He kissed me right back knowing my kiss was as much an I love you as my words could say. Slowly my hands moved down his spine then making him groan as they came to grip his ass. Only when I started to fumble with his pajama bottoms did he pull away to look at me.

He quickly helped me get them off replacing my legs around his waist as soon as he did. In that moment I felt his length flush against my heat and it made me swoon especially when I felt him. Eddie was hard his head lying against my entrance. In that moment all I wanted was for him to slip inside me and never leave.

"I want you inside me, Eddie. Please I need you," I whispered the second the words came out of my mouth he was inside me giving me exactly what I wanted. I wanted him to move then, but he didn't. He stayed settled inside of me and though he felt so good I wanted to feel him again. To feel the power of him, of him pounding into me until he lost control just like he used to; I wanted him. I wanted all of him. He held my hips firm in his as he stared down at me. It was like he was memorizing me, in his eyes I saw just how much he wanted me. But then I felt it even more when he kissed me with so much passion it could have killed me. I hoped it would, so I could die there with him. Suddenly then he was moving his lips slamming like a bulldozer into mine. He held my screams with his lips as he made love to me so sweetly with just as much power though. He could always be so sweet, so gentle, but yet so powerful too. It was one of the reasons I loved him.

"You feel good, so good inside me, Eddie," I exclaimed clinging to him as he held my hips firm with his talented hands.

"You feel good," growled Eddie giving my ass a smack making me squeal.

"Eddie," I squealed letting him claim my lips soon after his tongue seeking mine. He kissed me thoroughly his lips soft yet still insistent as his tongue took control. It all overwhelmed me making me break away breathing like a marathon runner. I was so close then I knew I wouldn't last much longer. Closing my eyes I let my head fall back just enjoying this moment afraid it would suddenly end.

"I'm gonna come," I gasped my body arching into his.

It was in that moment that my fear came true. I didn't want to leave him, I wanted to stay with him, but then I remembered it was a dream. This was all a dream, he wasn't making love to me, and none of it was real. Suddenly I was awake. I found myself in my own bed not his. Eddie was gone and I missed him instantly. I was surrounded by darkness, I could feel Nathanial by my side, and sitting there I didn't want him there. I wanted Eddie; I wanted Eddie to be lying there next to me. He stared down at me half asleep and blinking I silently wondered if I had said anything in my sleep.

"Rosalie, is everything alright?" said Nathanial his look stern.

I nodded my head despite the memory of the dream running through my mind.

"I just had a dream that's all. I'm fine," I said giving him a smile and a kiss before letting him pull me close. He said nothing more as he wrapped his arms around me laying me down next to him in bed. I felt as he spooned around me his arms like iron around me. As I closed my eyes I tried to sleep again, but this time I couldn't. All I could think about was Eddie. Eddie and the dream I had just had. I wished more than anything I could make it true.

I wanted it to be his arms around me now. I knew they would not be like iron, but as soft as Eddie himself was. I knew he wouldn't be so stern all the time he would be my love. He would love me or at least show that he loved me. All I wanted was Eddie, but I couldn't have him. If we had lived in another city, if we could sneak away from Gotham everything would be different. I could be with Eddie then, but not here. And not with him the way he was. Not if he hadn't changed. But this was Gotham, a place where no one was safe that was why I needed Nathanial.

"Goodnight honey," said Nathanial suddenly as if sensing I wasn't sleeping when I was supposed to. I closed my eyes then letting it all slip away knowing he would get mad if I didn't go to sleep soon. But as I fell asleep then I couldn't help thinking that in a city like Gotham not even love was enough to keep two people together.