Hello people! I just wanted to apologise for the delay on the story, this story is going to be loooong (trust me), so we still have a bunch of chapters to go through. I've had a lot of stuff in my plate these days and I haven't been able to write anything, but here's another chapter, hope you enjoy! Reviews are love :)
Chapter 4
They fell asleep rather fast, Nasir fell first and Agron followed, Nasir didn't woke up anymore and they got up late the next day, it was Sunday either way. Agron woke up first, as always, but he didn't get up, he stayed there thinking about the future, what he wanted to achieve and provide for Nasir, always and only for Nasir. Maybe they could go somewhere else, were Nasir wouldn't feel cold all of the time, somewhere sunnier, to remind him of Syria. He would have to work hard and get a great job for all of that, he did say he was going to support Nasir all through college, maybe Mr. Safar could pay for all the college expenses and he could pay for all the living expenses?... What the hell? He was thinking way into the future; he had to impress Nasir's family now, so he could live a beautiful and loving life with him again.
He was deep in thought when Nasir startled him a bit
"What are you thinking about?" – he said from his bed – "And don't say nothing, I know you and that deep thought face you make"
Agron smiled – "I was just thinking about our future…" – he thought for a little bit – "Where do you want to go to study?"
"UCSF. California, where's warm, but also because it's a good medical school"
"And then? Do you wanna stay there?" - Agron asked – "Or would you want to move?"
"Maybe, I don't know, that degree allows me to go work at any hospital or ER, so I could go anywhere I think" – he said giving it a thought – "why do you ask? Do you want to move?"
"Maybe, for your sake I would stay at California" – he said being charming – "I can also work anywhere really, if you want to stay because of your family I won't move at all"
"Well, I could use a warmer place, like California" – he said imagining possibilities – "I'd like to look at the ocean"
"I really like the sea, maybe we could go to California, or to L.A" – he said fantasizing – "we could go to the beach"
"I like that idea; we're going to have to save money to move though" – he started to get up.
"Yeah, maybe I would have to work double shifts or something" – he got up too – "ask for a loan to my dad maybe"
They went to the bathroom to wash their faces and brush their teeth
"By the way" – said Nasir – "when are you going to talk to your parents?"
Agron sighed – "I don't know, I don't think this is something I can talk about on the phone…"
"What about Skype? Maybe you can use that?" – he didn't know how technological were Agron's parents.
"Well, maybe, but still, I feel this is something I have to tell to their faces, but also I can't wait that long" – he contemplated – "you have to be with me though"
"Always" – he said finishing everything and going down stairs for breakfast.
"Later today?" – asked Agron.
"So soon? Are you sure?" – asked Nasir, he took his time telling his parents.
"Well yeah, we know we are going to stay with each other forever, and if they support that then great, but if they don't, I don't care" – he said stopping for a minute and looking into Nasir's eyes – "I'm gonna spend my life with you, not them"
"But it's your family Agron" – he said sadly but also happy for hearing that.
"No babe, you are" – he gave him a small peck and went to the kitchen – "common, let's eat some breakfast"
"Ah, you woke up" – said Safiya – "I was afraid I was gonna have to go there and woke you"
"Good morning to you to Safiya" – said sarcastically Nasir – "and we have been awake for a while, we were just talking"
"Talking?" – she asked with a sneer
"Yes, talking" – said Agron – "I haven't told my parents yet, so we were talking about doing it today"
"What have you not told them dear?" – asked Mrs. Safar
"Everything" – and they looked at him – "no one knows… except you of course"
"You never told anyone?" – asked Mr. Safar
"No, my father is a scientist and my mom even though she is a German historian, doesn't believe in reincarnation or anything like that, so I just kept it to myself" – he received a mug full of hot coffee from Nasir – "Thank you" – he said with a loving smile.
"No one at all?" – ask Safiya in disbelief – "Really?"
"Really" – answered Agron – "I almost told my brother and my sister, but in the end, I didn't have the guts" – he explained sadly – "I'm not really good with words either… Nasir was always better at that"
"Toast hon?" – asked Nasir.
"Yes, please and thank you" – answered Agron, he was happy that Nasir looked better, he even looked as like nothing happened at all.
"So now, you plan on explaining everything, Nizar included?" – asked Mr. Safar, he was not going to tolerate a half way relationship.
"Yes sir, everything, if they support us, then that's great, if not then I don't care" – he said confidently while he sipped his coffee - "I'm going to spend my life with Nasir until the day I die. I love my family, but Nasir comes first, always and forever"
"Where is your family Alex?" – asked Mrs. Safar putting jam in her toast.
"They're in New York, but Greta is in Germany visiting family" – he said while Nasir passed him his toast – "Thank you. I'm gonna tell Dan to tell my parents and set the computer"
"We can do it in my room, what time you think you'll do it" – asked Nasir.
"I don't know, the sooner the better" – he said eating in between – "I'll call Dan as soon as I finish breakfast"
Everyone had breakfast calmly and happily, it was a good Sunday morning. Agron felt fine, for now, he didn't know how he would feel if his family would turn against him, he hoped he wouldn't have to find out.
"Hey Dan!" – Agron called his brother close to lunch time – "how are you? …. Good, good, hey I need to ask you a favor bro … Can you please set our parents in front of the computer and make a skype call? I have some news" – he was already showered and dressed, talking on the phone with his brother in Nasir's room – "yeah now, please… danke" – he thanked him and hanged up.
"Alright, turn on the computer and open skype" – said Nasir.
Agron did all the necessary to connect with his parents in New York, he was getting nervous, very indeed, and of course, Nasir being Nasir, noticed immediately.
"Hey, don't worry, it'll be fine either way" – he said massaging his shoulders – "I'm here, remember?"
"And I love you the more for it" – Agron said, kissing Nasir's hand lovingly – "thank you"
"Always, now, do you want me to be present since the beginning or just after the reveal" – he asked
"I want you to be in the room, but maybe enter the picture when I tell you" – Agron said trying to create a plan.
"Sure, I'll be here" – he couldn't say more because Agron was receiving a call from home, so he got himself out of the camera frame and gave Agron two thumbs up.
Agron responded and there were his parents and Dan, they must be really curious right now, Agron thought, he never really used skype with his parents, he just called occasionally to know what had happened in the few last weeks but that was it, so that combined with "I have some news" were lapidating him. Slowly but surely.
"Hi Alexander, how are you?" – asked her mother. And of course he had to speak in German now, because otherwise it would be weird. He apologized to Nasir mentally.
"Hi, I'm good how are you doing?" – he asked, he was kind of happy, he hadn't seen those faces in some time.
"We're doing fine, how's university?" – talked his father.
"Almost done Vater, one more month of internship and then I have to do the paper work to graduate" – he said, getting nervous – "but that is not what I called you for"
"Yeah, you sounded very serious bruder, what happened?" – asked Dan.
"Well…" – he started trying to explain everything – "do you remember when I was 15 and I started to act different?" – he inquired, that was when he remembered.
"Nein" – said both his father and brother. Well thanks for not noticing, fools.
"Ja" – said his mother very surely – "it was like you learned something, that changed you forever"
"Well, I did changed forever, but I didn't learn anything, I remembered" – here we go.
"What did you remembered?" – asked Dan.
"Ok, first of all, this is going to sound completely crazy, but … I remembered my past life" – 'oh Gods, help me' – "I'm a reincarnated soul"
"It's this a joke?" – asked is father.
"Nein Vater, is not a joke. I was in history class, and we were going through Roman history…" – he started to say
"You hate Roman history" – Dan interrupted.
"Yes Dan, and there's a reason for that" – Agron continued – "We talked about Spartacus and his war against the Roman Empire and it was the first time I was hearing the story and the facts, but for some reason it just seem so familiar to me" – he kept explaining – "so, after class, I did some research at the library and read about two others at the side of the slaves, in was Onomeus and Crixus, and the memories hit me, like a big slap across the face"
"Ok, wait, so you are saying" – Dan was trying to understand, bless him – "that you were there? Like a slave?"
"I was Agron of the Rhine, second in command, one of the closest to Spartacus. Gladiator from the House of Batiatus" – he finally said it, and it felt so fucking good.
"Ok… so, you were a slave in Ancient Rome, and then fought with the Romans for freedom" – Dan said very slowly – "And you never told us this because…."
"Because it's crazy, and Mutter doesn't believe in religion or anything like that even though she is an historian, and Vater is a scientist, so I never gather the courage to tell you" – he was trying so desperately to make them understand – "that's why I started to go to the gym like I was a mad man, that's why I hate Rome, that's why I traveled so much, that's why I never dated anyone…"
"What has that to do with anything?" – at last, his father spoke.
"Because, when I was a slave fighting to be free I met the love of my life" – his face changed radically, and they all saw that – "and I hoped and prayed to the Gods that he would come to me again"
"He?" – asked his mother in disbelief – "a guy?"
"Ja, a man Mutter, Nasir of Syria" – he said with the biggest smile on his face – "and I found him Mutter, I found him again" – he said almost at the brink of tears, he looked at Nasir's direction, who had been listening carefully, he still remember some German when Agron taught him all those centuries ago. When he saw Agron with all of that emotion in his eyes, smiling at him, he closed their distance as fast as he could and hugged him tight.
"Wait, is that him?" – asked Dan
Agron didn't answer right away; he was too busy hugging the love of his life and being comforted.
"Alexander, look at me" – said his mother, Agron did – "I don't think you're crazy, or delirious, but reincarnation is not real" – she said slowly, well at least she was not saying anything about same sex relations.
"Nein Mutter, you're wrong, the Gods gave us another chance, as crazy as that sounds, it's the thruth" – said a happy Agron.
"I not know if this German is good now" – started Nasir in a broken old German – "but it's truth, he taught German century ago, when we were slave" – he looked at everyone who looked kind of shock.
"Where did you learn that?" – asked Mrs. Scholz in a little bit of a shock – "that German is really old"
"He told you mom, I taught him centuries ago, when we were slaves of Rome, and he taught me Syrian, we also speak Latin, we remember vividly everything; every battle, every friend, every sadness and happiness" – he said happy to have him here.
"But you never talked in that old German" – said Dan.
"Oh I can, perfectly" – he said in old German – "it's just that I never saw the need to use it" – he saw how his family was looking more and more in shock – "or Syrian or Latin"
"I know this is hard to take in" – said Nasir in English – "but please believe us, it's the truth, we are not making this up, you could even ask us the smallest details in separate, and we will tell you the same thing"
"I found Nasir again yesterday evening" – Agron said trying to make his point – "just yesterday. Why would I do and say all of this? You know me, I'm not a sensible guy, or romantic, but Nasir IS the love of my life, we lived together until the day I died of old age"
Nasir was standing next to him, there wasn't another chair, and when he talked he tried to put himself at the level of the camera.
"Alex, do something for me" – Dan said.
"What?" – he was starting to get tired of this whole thing.
"Look at Nasir, look at his eyes for a bit" – he just wanted to see something.
"Uumm, ok" – he looked at Nasir into his eyes who was standing.
"No, you stupid clueless human being" – he said lovingly – "put him at your level, and then look at each other"
Nasir tried to put himself at his level, but crouching left him too far down, Agron took his hand and made him sit in his lap, Nasir tried to fight a little bit, he didn't want his family to see them in this position, but Agron made him stay, reciting a little "it's ok"; he was mortified, but he looked at him in his eyes, how he loved that man. They looked at each other for a little bit, they couldn't suppress the happiness, so they were smiling, after so many years together, they didn't need words to communicate, and right now, they were telling each other how much they loved the other one.
"Ok, stop, before you start kissing or something" – Dan said amused – "I believe you bro"
"What? Really?" – he didn't expect to be this easy.
"Yeah, I mean, you have never lied about something that big or important, and also, you can't deny the love you have; I can see it in the way you look at each other" - he said in a noble way and then added – "you must have great sex"
"Dan!" – everyone yelled but Nasir, he just laughed and buried his face in Agron neck.
"No seriously, I wish I had that, but hey" – he thought about something – "was I in there? Was I your brother before?"
"No, sorry" – Agron said, and decided to tell them about Duro – "I had a brother but he was killed when he saved me from a Roman soldier, and no, it wasn't you"
"Do I look a little bit like him?" – he asked Nasir.
"Sorry, I never met Duro" – Nasir said sadly – "we met after that"
"Vater, Mutter, anything?" – Agron asked, he didn't need the approval, but it will surely be nice.
"I don't know what to say, I know you wouldn't lie, and surely, you're not crazy" – started his mother – "and I can also see the love between you two, but…. It's gonna take a while to get use to it"
"That's completely fine mom, thank you" – he said very grateful – "Vater?"
Nasir didn't know what type of relationship Agron had with his father in this life, he didn't ask, he just hoped it was completely different from before.
"Um, it's weird Alexander, I'm not going to lie" – his father started to say – "but I also know that you are not a liar, or crazy, but it's gonna take a while" – he said honestly – "I mean, I had no idea you were gay"
"I'm not" – he said laughing – "by concept I'm bi, but since I met Nasir I'm Nasir-sexual" – he added with a big smile in his face while Nasir hit him softly in his chest.
"See what I mean?" – said Dan, and he moved his lips saying "Great sex"
"Alright" – Agron said with a smile – "also, his name is Nizar, Nasir was his name in Rome, so call him Nizar"
"Wait, why can't we call him Nasir?" – Dan protested.
"Because that's not his name now, and that name it's only for me to use, got it?" – he said with a smile.
"Uh, I know when you use that name" – Dan said leaving.
"Ok, that's enough" – said his father – "let's talk about something else, since we are here; when is your graduation, do you know yet?"
"Um, November, but I don't know the date, I think it's in the first two weeks" – he said – "I would tell you as soon as I know it" - his parents were really into planning so, he understood – "also, don't tell Greta, I'll tell her myself"
"Ok, good, we're still processing it ourselves" – his mother said – "one day maybe I will fully believe the reincarnation thing and I will ask about your previous life"
"Well mom, it's not that pretty of a story, but I would tell you anything you'd like to know" – he wanted to be open about it, he spend too much time pretending, so now he wanted to be completely honest to his family – "I want to be honest with you always, I lost my family before, and they never met my family, only my sister did, so I want everyone to be able to meet my family this time, and hopefully for all to get along"
"Even like that, I would like to know some day" – his mother said – "Nizar, Alexander can be very stubborn"
"Oh, I know" – Nasir said with a smile.
"Please, take care of him" – she said politely
"He always has mom" – Agron said looking at Nasir – "I think I would have done more stupid things if he hadn't been there"
"Alright Alex, I'm going" – his father said – "take care and will see each other on November"
"Yeah, we're leaving too, we still have some things to talk about, we just met again yesterday, like I told you" – Agron informed everyone – "It was good to see you, be safe"
"You too son, we'll see ya" – said Mr. Scholz.
"Bye" – everyone said at some point and they ended the call.
"Well" – Nasir said hugging Agron, still sitting in his lap – "that went better than expected, I would even say smoothly"
"And that is because you were with me the whole time" – Agron told him, hugging him back by the waist – "you have a charisma that no one can deny, so everyone likes you, and that makes me a little jealous, not gonna lie"
"What makes you jealous? That you don't have charisma, or that, according to you, everyone likes me?" – he said teasing.
"Both, but the second makes me very jealous" – he said smiling very close to Nasir's face – "I want you all to myself, I can be very selfish"
"I know, but I also know" – Nasir said touching Agron's lips with his index finger – "that you could share me with Yakub just fine, and you loved him too" – he said finishing with a small kiss.
"That's different and you know it, we loved Yakub and he loved us, and we all lived very happily" – Agron said giving a small kiss to Nasir.
-sigh-"I miss him" – Nasir said putting his face in Agron's neck – "I wish he was here too, I want to hold him"
"I wish that too, but I don't think he's going to come back" – he told him while he comforted him.
"I know, I still miss him" – he said looking at Agron again.
"I do too, babe" – he kissed his nose – "but in the future maybe we would be three again, or four, who knows?"
Safiya had a bad habit of prying into other people's conversations, and this time wasn't different, and of course they were talking about stuff that she didn't know and that she misunderstood rather quickly; but she knew that she liked to fantasizes about stuff or sometimes her imagination ran wild, so she would ask about it instead of getting in trouble.
They were in the same position, kissing slowly; Agron was trying very strongly to not think about anything else, just kissing innocently, he didn't want to pop a boner in his partner's house, with his family inside; he was pretty sure that was a big no-no with going to the parent's house of your loved one for the first time, but Nasir was not having that, he was going all about it, because when he was with Agron like this, he forgot about everything else, and he just wanted to be taken.
"Babe" – Agron said in a whisper – "we need to stop before we can't stop at all"
"But I don't want to" – he responded in a whisper too, kissing his cheek and chin – "I want you so bad" – he started kissing his neck.
This was getting bad, he was starting to get lost, and he couldn't, he knew that. He had to create a good relationship with Nasir's new family and fucking him in his house while everyone was in it was not the way to do that. This had to stop.
"Nasir, babe, stop" – he said separating himself from Nasir, taking a huge bulk of air and made him stand up – "we need to go"
"What? No, come on" – he said trying to hug Agron again – "we can eat lunch later, let's stay here"
"Screw lunch" – he said looking for his wallet – "We're going to a motel. NOW"
"Yes, sir" – Nasir said looking for his wallet and keys.
