Hello and happy new year! This is just an anthology of the Kingdom Hearts oneshots I write, starting with a Kairi and Lea piece I wrote back in September. By the way, all of these will be og timeline/canon timeline stories (like, not AU) and happening in the same continuity. Happy reading!

to those people and places I can never go to

The past few days on Destiny Islands had been perfect. Sounds of laughter and chatter resounded from the beach. After everyone gathered for the celebration, they figured it wouldn't hurt to stay on the islands for a little bit. It was just the right amount of hot so that it wouldn't be stifling, and the ocean was just the right temperature to wade in at any time of the day.

Kairi let the waves lap at her feet as she watched Lea – sorry, Axel - all but drag Isa into the water, the latter halfheartedly protesting as the former flicked water droplets at Isa and teased him, telling him not to 'die in my arms a second time'. Roxas and Xion were not too far off, giggling as they floated on their backs, each one trying to outlast the other. She felt a hand on her shoulder and turned around, already knowing who it was.

"Riku," she said, smiling softly at one of her oldest friends.

He smiled a similar smile in return, hiking up his pants a little as he stepped beside her, letting the ocean run over his feet like she was. The sunset framed his head like a halo, coloring his silver hair shades of pink and orange.

"Beautiful day, huh?" she said, moving a little closer to Riku and nudging his arm. Barely swaying at the contact, he hummed in agreement. There was a sentence left hanging in the air between them that was left unsaid.

it would be better if Sora were here

Kairi leaned a little against the taller boy, who wrapped his arm around her shoulder. They stayed that way for a while, watching Mickey and Minnie exchanging soft smiles as they talked on the dock, watching Namine drawing them from inconspicuous glances over her sketchbook, watching Axel complaining about his now drenched hair as Isa held back laughter, watching Xion wade over to Roxas to show him a pretty seashell she had found.

A loud quack of irritation startled them both. They turned around to see Donald being held back by Goofy as he squawked about how Ventus ruined his sand statue yet again. The accused stood by the crime scene, flying disc in hand, cheeks pink as Aqua and Terra stifled giggles behind him.

"Oh," Riku said after a moment, posture a little straighter as if he remembered something. "Ventus and I were playing around with Axel's discs earlier. Want to join? It's fun."

"That's sweet, Riku, but perhaps tomorrow." She gave a small apologetic smile.

"Alright, then," he said, then added, "Everything okay?"

She nodded. "Yeah."

A little more silence, filled with more questions and answers left unsaid. "Well, I'm going to go back to them, alright?" He raised his eyebrows in an 'is this okay?' motion. Kairi nodded, lips quirking up in another smile. He squeezed her shoulder lightly, and then he was gone.

Most everyone had headed back by now, having either gone back to their respective houses or whoever's house they were staying at for the time being. Kairi stayed behind, the wet sand between her toes feeling more like hardening cement. She didn't move from her spot by the waves for a while, letting the ocean pull the sand from under her feet over and over. She stepped away when the sun was barely peeking out over the ocean, the sky slowly deepening from its dark orange to something of a dark lavender. She didn't know where her feet took her from there, exactly, but she wound up at the large, crooked paopu tree she spent so much of her time looking out at their small world on. She stared at it for a moment, then reached out and pushed herself onto the tree, swinging her legs over the thick trunk and sitting down. She watched the sunset for a while, right hand sitting expectantly on the rough surface, like it wanted a hand to hold. His hand to hold.

His name hadn't left her mind since the Keyblade Graveyard. It was always on her tongue; to the point where she would catch herself almost saying his name instead of what she really intended to say. Often times after that, she'd forget what it was, anyway, and would dismiss herself with a little 'nothing' or 'I forgot'.

She gave a sad, halfhearted smile to the empty space next to her. She thought she had seen him here, with her, a few days ago. She felt the weight of his hand on hers. Maybe he was there. She'd like to believe he was. She'd like to believe he'd appear again. Maybe it was all some sick dream, and he'd show up behind her like nothing ever happened. She squeezed her eyes shut in a desperate attempt to wake up, if she could.

She opened them. Same lavender sky, same waves, same salty air, same lack of a certain someone. Her chest hurt where Xehanort had run her through only a few days earlier. She bowed her head and shut her eyes again, a futile effort to hold back the tears falling down her face and making dark spots on her dress.

"Sora," she choked out between her sobs. She hid her face in her hands, although there was no one to see her cry.

It could have been a minute, or it could have been an hour, but however long it was, she jumped and a quiet shocked noise escaped her mouth when she heard a twig snap from behind her. She hastily wiped her tears (trying to make it seem like she was rubbing her nose) and turned around.

"Axel." She looked up at the fiery-haired figure standing behind her. "You're still here."

"Oh no, I'd left a while ago," he said, his ever-present nonchalant air apparent in his speech. "I just came back out since I never saw you head in. I think Riku may have noticed too, but I don't know if he said anything." He took a few steps towards the tree, but stopped as a weak ray of sunset shone on her face.

"Oh… kid, were you crying?" He rested both hands on the trunk and leaned forward, concern written plainly on his face.

"It's nothing. Just… something in my eyes." Kairi knew he wouldn't believe that for a second.

"I wonder where I've heard that before," Axel replied simply, but no menace in his voice. Kairi mentally cringed. I knew he wouldn't buy it. She furrowed her brows and looked down.

"Can I…" Axel gestured to the empty space beside her.

no not there

"Sure," she replied, scooting over a bit so he could sit down. Her heart gave a barely felt twinge as he shifted on the bark.

Neither of them said anything as the sun sunk below the horizon. Eventually, she felt a light tap on her shoulder, and was met with a blue ice cream bar and the strong smell of sea salt and vanilla filling her nose.

"That'd better not have been in your pocket this time," she said, a small smile tugging at her lips as she took the ice cream. Her eyes were still damp, yes, but she was already feeling better with Axel around.

"Picky," he teased as he produced an ice cream for himself. "Everyone forgets that I wrap them after I make 'em. And besides, I was holding them in my hand. Not my pocket."

Kairi bit off the corner of her bar. Axel followed suit, and opened his mouth to speak.

"Ah." Kairi lifted a finger, eyebrows raised. Axel squinted in a mock glare, then swallowed the ice cream, rolling his eyes at her a little. She giggled, thinking back to how she'd always have to remind Sora not to speak with his mouth full.

Sor-

"You know, for a while, I used to not like these," Axel said, gesturing to the ice cream with his free hand. "When I was a Nobody, anyway. I would eat them all the time – you know, with Isa – when I was younger. But when I was a Nobody, I don't think I ate any more of this until Roxas came along. I don't know why, but he wanted ice cream. So I went out to get some, and, remembering how much I used to eat it, I chose the sea-salt. When I tasted it for the first time – well, not really the first time, but you get my idea – it tasted awful. I didn't know why I used to be so fond of it." He cringed, as if he were reliving the memory. "I got used to it, though, eventually. I think I ended up getting the recipe myself, somehow."

Kairi hummed in response, looking at Axel, red hair looking aflame under the fading rays of the sun.

"I didn't tell you before, but… I like your outfit," Kairi said, lightly touching the sleeve of Axel's shirt.

He looked down at it as if he hadn't realized he was even wearing it, then chuckled in a decidedly Axel-esque way, nudging her lightly. "Thanks, kid. You don't look so bad yourself, you know."

"Yeah, I know," Kairi replied, nudging him back. The sky was in that odd transition phase between purple and blue, and right now, it was the color of Sora's eyes. Kairi smiled at the sky, but it was pained and just brought yet another round of tears to her eyes. She ducked her head quickly, hoping Axel didn't see. Obviously, he did.

"I know you miss him," Axel said quietly, tentatively placing a hand on her back. Kairi nodded, too choked up to say anything back. "I'm not happy about it either," he continued. "Didn't expect it to happen, you know? Kid had a knack for surviving."

Kairi nodded again, although she didn't quite know what she was nodding at. She spoke, voice so quiet she could have been talking to herself. "Sora and I shared a paopu fruit here." Axel raised his eyebrows in question. "Legends say that when two people share one, their destinies become intertwined. They'll remain a part of each others' lives, no matter what." She swiped at her eyes. "When you miss someone, they're everywhere. They're in everything you see. It's unbearable."

"Yeah," Axel said. Kairi looked up at him a little, wiping a tear from her chin. He looked vulnerable, just like he did that day when they were training in their little corner of time. "It was the same with Roxas and Xion. It felt like a part of me was missing. A large part. We had spent so much time together, and then… they weren't. They just weren't there anymore. While we were training, there were times when I looked at you… and Xion was all I could see." Kairi could see Axel's cheeks glistening, although it didn't seem like he had realized it himself. "It hurt. It hurt so bad."

"Axel," Kairi said softly, placing a hand on his arm. He jolted, like he had forgotten she was there. His grip on his half-eaten ice cream stick - which had gotten so tight the wood seemed like it was going to choke – loosened, and he touched his cheek, staring at the tears that came away with his hand.

"Guess we both need those markings under our eyes, huh?" He joked, the delivery halfhearted. Kairi laughed, the sound coming out wet and a little pained. He inched a bit closer to her, his hand moving from the middle of her back to wrapping around her in a one-armed hug.

"You must be cold," he said simply after a quiet sniff.

"I'm not anymore," she said, curling up on the branch and leaning into his arm. They stayed that way as the sky turned from its odd blue to indigo, from indigo to navy, from navy to a star-littered sea of black.

By now, Kairi felt herself drifting off. She didn't know if Axel had already done that – he was lying back on where the tree bent, his shape curving with the trunk. Kairi was still curled up by him, head resting on his legs. The moonlight was illuminating his face and hair in strange ways, making him look almost alien, but not unpleasant.

Her eyes fluttered. She was going to fall asleep soon enough. "Axel?" She murmured, voice impossibly quiet. No reply. "Axel?" She tried again. "Lea?"

After a moment, a barely audible reply of "Kairi?" came drifting back.

Kairi smiled sadly at the sound, then curled into herself further, finally closing her eyes. "Thank you."