"Take a look at our little paradise
It ain't much but baby, you and I
Picked the right stars, made the right wish
Ain't nothing out there like this"
Lying in bed after a delicious moment of love, the women remain silent enjoying each other's company until Alexandra, showing a thoughtful face, comments:
— How strange, my cell phone hasn't rang at all... and I have no idea what time is it... — Alexandra sighs and sees Olivia laughing. — What?!
— Crazy, you didn't bring your phone... as far as I could tell, you didn't bring anything but your love for me!
The detective comments with a funny wink at the prosecutor, who immediately sits down and puts her hands on her head:
— Oh, I don't believe it!? Soon the police will show up here, I'm sure! Detective Marson will look for me, if I know him.
Olivia also sits down and, bothering about the woman's concern for someone else, looks at her seriously:
— Now, you're with me and, IF this detective comes after you, you won't need to give him any satisfaction, since there is no better person in the world than me for you to be safe, is there?
Alexandra looks at Olivia seriously and, stroking her face, says:
— It's all right, Liv! You don't have to worry about it... I know there is no better person than you... — she laughs delicately. — It's just that I would like to warn my team that this weekend I won't be available, as I had promised that I would be...
Olivia doesn't seem to improve her expressions, not liking all that Alexandra's concern with other people and calling them "my team". How come other detectives, other than she and the UVE staff, would be Alexandra Cabot's team?
With a slight sigh, Olivia feels a fear that Alexandra is getting used to a life that isn't necessarily hers and that is only for a short time, making her completely forget the love they fought so hard to keep and live... even in the shadows of a friendship.
— Liv?! — Alexandra asks when touching the detective's arm gently and looks at her with concern. — Are you alright? You seem sad... What happened?
Olivia finally puts her brown eyes in the blue ones and the memories of that fateful night of the shots return in her mind, reliving the scene of her lover falling to the floor and bleeding in her arms.
Swallowing hard and wishing not to remember those dark moments that forced them to walk away from each other, Olivia smiles weakly, unable to prevent her tongue from questioning and looking weak:
— You aren't changing our life in NY for something that isn't for real, are you, Alex? — the woman tries to argue, but the detective continues: — I would do anything to get back in time and prevent all this torment from happening. — she caresses Alexandra's hands and kisses them for a long time. — I can't forgive myself for not having protected you...
— Stop! — Alexandra exclaims desperately and covers the detective's mouth with one hand, but in a gentle way. — Stop blaming yourself, please, Liv... — she smiles sadly as she lightly kisses Olivia's lips. — You can't blame yourself for anything, my love! I'm alive, right here in front of you and loving you more and more.
At that moment, feeling her heart stop for a few seconds just looking at the person she misses most every day, Olivia tries not to look so romantic or, at least, not so pathetic (since she is always afraid of looking weak that much).
However, unable to forbid the happiness she feels just by seeing the love in those eyes that know her so well, Olivia kisses Alexandra deeply in the mouth as she murmurs:
— I know we promise to hold on to our longing and keep our distance, but I couldn't bear to be without one more day. — she leans her forehead on hers and smiles. — I needed to find out where you were and that's what I did, going to the last of the resources, but I did it!
Looking worriedly at the detective, Alexandra, stroking her face, asks:
— Liv... what did you do?! And what did you say at the unit to be here these days? Please don't spoil your life because of me. We will get over this and we will still be together, believe me. We cannot do something wrong and thus put everything to waste.
Olivia doesn't say anything right away, she gently gets out of bed and, approaching the suitcase next to her, starts looking for something:
— I asked for a favor to someone who knows how to enter "secret" systems, if you know what I mean. — she puts on sweatpants and winks at Alexandra. — And I just told Cragen that I needed to deal with a private important matter.
Raising an eyebrow, Alexandra lies back on the bed and, covering herself with the blanket, asks laughing:
— And he believed?! You?! Stopping working to take care of something particular?! Out of nowhere?!
Olivia just shrugs and, putting on a T-shirt, says:
— Yes! Believe it or not, I'm entitled to a few days off, since I haven't taken a vacation in years. It was just hard to trick Elliot, but it was a necessary thing to do. I couldn't put our relationship at risk and, mainly, you!
Alexandra doesn't seem to find the right words to argue against Olivia's explanation, which is unprecedented, since the blonde always has something to say and loves to go against unreasonable explanations.
Then, feeling tired and an absurd amount of sleep of months without really sleeping in peace, as she feels at that moment with Olivia, Alexandra sighs deeply and, settling herself more to the pillow, murmurs when closing her eyes:
— I'll just rest my eyes for a few minutes, Liv... I haven't known what this is for months... sleeping, you know...
Olivia remains standing at the foot of the bed and watching the woman clearly beginning to sleep peacefully, with her hair tossed on the pillow and with a happy face.
She kisses Alexandra's neck before covering her again, walks over to the small kitchen counter and, taking the car keys, leaves the house and locks the door.
The moment Alexandra Cabot sits slowly on the bed rubbing her eyes, she notices everything dark and just a dancing light from the small fireplace. How long has your body not rested like that?! How many months had she not felt that deep sleep?!
She finds herself still naked and, getting up from the bed, walks over to the suitcase beside the bed and looks for something to wear, concluding that Olivia had thought of everything, including the clothes she had brought.
After wearing Olivia's sweatshirt and sweatpants, Alexandra walks into the kitchen to make coffee and realizes she is alone.
— Where is she? — she scratches her hair and, looking at what she wears, smiles silly: — How I missed her smell and her clothes... — she hugs her body and closes her eyes. — It will be difficult to say goodbye when the time is right... I can't say that I don't want to go back to NY anymore...
Sitting on the sofa reading a book she found in the suitcase, Alexandra drinks her coffee and stays there for almost an hour, until Olivia enters the house carrying some bags.
As soon as her eyes meet Alexandra, Olivia smiles:
— But look who decided to wake up!? Hello...
Alexandra just smiles and continues to read, completely ignoring the presence of the detective, who takes things out of the bag and keeps them in the fridge and in the closet.
Stopping what she does and looking intently at the blonde, Olivia smiles when she sees that her Alexandra hasn't changed and that she's still the same person in love with books and that she seems to "disconnect" from everything around her to sink into reading.
Then, walking slowly until she approaches Alexandra, Olivia crouches in front of her and, taking the book from her hands sweetly, says:
— Hello...
— Hi... — Alexandra replies when she sees the detective there and points to the book. — You even thought about it, didn't you? Bringing something for me to read... You haven't forgotten my favorite hobby, have you? In fact, you thought of everything, huh?!
Letting out a silly laugh and lightly kissing her lips, Olivia returns the book to Alexandra and goes back to the sink counter, answering:
— I would never forget anything about you, Alex. How could I do that if all I think about is you? — the two look at each other passionately and the detective starts to take the shopping out of the bags. — The sweatshirt set was perfect on you... my clothes haven't your perfume for a long time...
Drinking a sip of your coffee and looking at the woman in the kitchen, Alexandra says:
— Yeah... It's been a while since I wore your clothes... I think I'll have to keep this one, don't you agree?
Olivia just laughs and, nodding, comments:
— I brought food for us, so we have dinner today, breakfast and lunch tomorrow. We don't have to leave here anytime soon...
— What will we eat, Chef Benson?! — Alexandra asks when she gets up and stops on the other side of the small counter, where she places the cup there.
— Hmmm... Miss Cabot... we'll eat something that was our first dinner... — Olivia comments by putting water in a pan and showing two packages of pasta, one spaghetti and another fusilli. — It will be pasta with white sauce! Just choose which one you prefer, madame.
The two women laugh silly and Alexandra feels her heart sink when she sees Olivia doing all that, demonstrating how much she missed her and that she hasn't forgotten her for even a minute... besides clearly maintaining a hope of her return to NY with her.
Alexandra takes a deep breath and tries not to cry, feeling horrible for not having the courage to say how much her plans have changed and that her return to NY... maybe... it would never happen again...
— Look, I even brought wine for us! — Olivia exclaims shaking a bottle and smiles beautifully. — Come open for us, please.
Putting a smile on her trembling lips and determined not to destroy all that happiness she is feeling when she is with the woman of her life again (even for a few days). Alexandra steps into the kitchen, takes the wine in her hands and kisses for a long time Olivia's cheek murmuring:
— I love you... and know that I have never felt so happy in such a small place...
