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Sorry translation can be rough, I'm French and my English is not so good

Chapter 1: The Journey

During the six-hours flight from Seattle to New York, Sofia was very excited, she kept frantically, telling to her mother, how her friends were FOR MI DA BLES! She is certain that she was going to A DO RE them!

- Mom, we're going to invite them, okay? We could throw a party or a sleepover!

- Slowly, slowly miss, let me settle down, before launching the invitations

- Are you going to come and see me at my dance class?

- Of course, I will be there as soon as your next class. I promise.

- It's gonna be great! Mama alwayscame to see me, you can both come!

Arizona addresses her, a smile that satisfies the child, whose interest is immediately focused on her drawing book and her color pencils.

She hadn't seen Sofia so cheerful for months. How did She and Callie, had they thought for a second, that could their daughter be happy with this mode of custody? Deprive her of one of her parents ten months a year and ask her every 10 months of adapting to a new school, new friends etc. ... the poor child could not tolerate that not even half a year Really, they had to be blinded by their own story, to imagine that it was going to work. For Arizona one thing was clear now, this, will never happen again. Sofia should be the highest priority, and she welcomed herself, to have made the decision to move to New York for her.

Of course, she was leaving her life, a job she adored, her friends, her hospital, all that had been her only landmarks during these last few months, and certainly all of this would be missed. However, Sofia's joy confirms her, that it was the right decision. It's obvious, she is convinced, it was the right thing to do! She would give everything for her child, that's how moms do.

However, she is tormented by conflicting feelings. To the delight of seeing her daughter finally with a smile on her face and her own happyness to see Callie again, comes to mingle a feeling of anguish, of unease. The breakup had been extremely painful. Arizona felt abandoned, lost and she had been in a lot of pain, but the trial for Sofia's custody was much worse and had left indelibles marks.

Moreover, even though the two mothers have spoken much more in recent weeks to arrange Arizona's move, since Callie's departure, they have been in contact very little, and had not seen each other for months, she thought, that it is therefore legitimate to panic a little.

After the crash Callie had become her anchor, her support, and even though this situation did not suit her, she had not known manage differently this cataclysm that changed her life. Their relationship had become unbalanced. Callie was always present for her, she had carried her at arm's length for many months, she had given her evidence of a sincere attachment, whereas, for her part, she was focused only on her person. She hated this addiction, had made her pay in a way awful, blaming her for everything, even blaming her for having two legs... She had been somehow absent for her wife, all this time. She had ceased to be a good man in the storm... oh the storm, Lauren, her mistake, this memory torture her again.

The road to reconstruction had been long and arduous, and when she finally saw the end of the tunnel, Callie had run out of breath, she had given up, she couldn't take it anymore, she didn't want any more.

Arizona could not blame her, Callie had so supported, she had tried so hard, but she had never been able to forget that she had been unfaithful to her.

They had terribly suffered both and even though she could understand today what Callie had felt, even though she stood felt responsible for all this mess, even today the memory of the pain was still perennial.

During the first months of their separation, even if it had been painful, she was waiting, hoping that Callie would return to her, she thought that they needed time but that they would eventually find each other, their love would be enough to go through this new ordeal.

However, Callie had fallen in love with Pennie and it had been awful. Arizona takes a deep breath in this memory.

She had done the right thing, she had been understanding, smiling, she had even pretended to rejoice. She loved Callie, she wanted her to be happy, though, she would have given the last week of her life for it to be with her. She had made it, easier for her, she owed her that. It had taken her months, to finally find the strength to survive this failure, for Sofia. Sofia, her baby, she was her sun in the midst of the storms, the best decision of her life, the most beautiful thing that has ever happened to her.

In the private sphere, she had recently tried to get involved in new relationships. Oh nothing comparable to his great love, this one, she had put it in a corner of her head, to think about it as little as possible so that he would no longer prevent her from living.

Apart from marijuana cookies, nothing could dislodge it. Apart, perhaps, from Amelia Shepperd the great neuro surgeon, no one could know where it was hidden in his brain. She herself did not really know, where she was, on that ground, and to tell the truth, she avoided thinking about it.

Nevertheless, these numerous conquests of love and his exceptional professional success, had allowed her to regain the confidence and self-esteem, which she had lost at the same time as her leg, the baby, the love of her life and her family...

An elbow from Sofia, abruptly breaks the train of her thoughts to project her into the reality of the moment: A new place, a new adventure, a new life begin for Arizona Robbins

Mommy, we're coming! I'm sure Mama is already downstairs, Sofia is screaming with bright eyes of happiness

Indeed, the captain announces the landing on J.F.K. airport in five minutes

As her stomach tightens, Arizona concludes her ramblings with an inner speech:

- The important thing is not to lose sight of the way. I settle here for Sofia's happiness. Taking the slightest risk to make her live a new heartbreak, another separation is unthinkable, she has already lived enough for her age. So, at best Callie can only be a friend. It's THE TRACK TO STAY ON.

She mentally repeats this sentence as if it were essential for her to convince herself of it.

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