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Chapter 15: Days follow each other but are not the same

Callie, with her nose into the files, could not concentrate. Arizona seemed extremely distant and troubled for several weeks. Returning late and leaving early, adjusting by text the daily for Sofia, she really seemed to do everything to avoid Callie; On second thought, it was since the day, they had sex. She thought that they had found each other, that their exchange had been positive and would allow them to rebuild on new solid foundations this time, that they would finally start again getting off on the right foot.

Still, it was blatant Arizona was walking away, she didn't understand. Maybe she didn't give her enough time? Maybe she scared her? Or maybe she just didn't want a fresh start and it was just a drive for old times' sake? Perhaps even, she regretted. Absorbed in considering the various hypotheses, and decided to talk soon to the blonde, she doesn't see Arizona heading towards her with a firm step.

-You've got a second? I'd like to talk to you

Callie jumps to the tone used by her ex-wife

-Uh hello, I'm happy to see you too

- Yes hi. So, do you have time?

- Is it urgent? Because I'm going back to the O.R. in 15 minutes for a long procedure.

Arizona seems upset,

- No, forget it, it'll wait, I don't want to interfere with your concentration, let's meet at the bar when you're done, and we'll have a drink.

Callie tries to joke to lighten the mood

- Like a date?

- No! Not like a date Callie, rather as a conversation that we must have without Sofia's presence

The tone was dry, Arizona was closed like an oyster, her face was serious, not even a slight smile on her lips. It was the Arizona in bad days and it didn't bode well.

The surgery was laborious, on the one hand because she had encountered unforeseen and unpredictable difficulties, and on the other hand she could not help thinking back the Arizona tone, and dread what was going to fall on her, yet another tile she was certain of it. Anyway Arizona was blowing hot and cold, and it was starting to seriously irritate her. She had promised herself to be patient, but still, you had to know what you wanted in life, you had to know if you want to get involved or was rushing through her head and it is very upset that she leaves the hospital to join the bar, as agreed.

Arizona is already sitting in front of a glass, her attitude has changed, she looks more relaxed, she smiles at the arrival of Callie.

- I ordered you a drink, they have this St Emilion that you love. Is that still your favorite?

-Yes. Perfect. Thank you

- So your intervention? Well gone?

-Complicated

- What was it?"

Callie wishing to put an end to the suspense maintained by the chatter of Arizona gets impatient

-Arizona I doubt you brought me here to discuss oenology or medicine, so please, don't beat around the bush!

-Okay, well so... I wanted to tell you that I had found an apartment and that it would be available in a month, I wanted to see with you if it was okay, if it wasn't too long, because I can also go to the hotel in the meantime, and then there's Sofia, we'd have to agree on custody and I was wondering if we 'd explaining it to her now, or if we'd wait, and if you'd rather we do it together or I'll do it alone?

Here it was done, she had delivered the message that had been running for several days in her mind, although it seemed less confused when she had repeated it in her head.

Callie takes the hit, she expected everything but not this. In response to this succession of questions, she just drinks in one shot, without uttering a word, without taking a look at Arizona. With a gesture towards the server she orders another drink. She digests the information she rephrased it to make sure she understood it correctly. Arizona had just told her clearly, that once again she was running away.

Faced with the unusual muteness of the latina, Arizona pretty embarrassed, is no longer quite sure that she was right, she now fears to have been clumsy. All those days she had convinced herself that this was the only thing to do and now that she had verbalized it she was less convinced, and then Callie looked really, really upset and she hates to seeing her like that.

- Callie, you're not going to say anything?

Callie seeks her breathing deeply she focuses on finding her calm, she does not want to be overwhelmed by the emotion that leads her systematically to anger and then to hurtful phrases, and then to inextricable situations.

-Frankly Arizona, I have to admit it, but I haven't got a leg to stand on.

-Oh well for me it's easier! I have many legs

-It's not funny Arizona, I don't really feel like laughing

-Ah sorry I thought ...

She cuts her firmly

- I thought we had moved forward recently, I thought we had found each other I thought we had met again, whereas in reality we find ourselves once again discussing Sofia's custody. I don't know what to say to you anymore, we'll do whatever you want and like you want, because I'm tired of fighting windmills, I don't have the soul of Don Quixote anymore. Life can't always be so complicated Arizona!

On these words she rises to leave adding

- I'm going back to the hospital to do my patient's post op, I will call Sofia before she falls asleep.

Arizona follows her down the street and stops her by standing in front of her, thus preventing her from continuing on her way.

- Hey don't take things high, Callie Torres, you should think about being an adult, it's not just you and me in the story. We have a daughter and I don't want her to pay for our incessant separations anymore. One day you love me, the next day you don't love me anymore and you want to feel free, then you shout all over the place that you've found love, the real, the one, the one for a lifetime, and then suddenly you love me again. What about your great love? Do you remember? The one for which you separated me from my daughter, is no longer on the agenda? When are you going to stop loving me for someone else? How long before I suffocate you again? And what would you want ? I would have to go with you again with my eyes closed! Why? Because we had sex? Seriously, you really think it's enough to get back together? Apparently not! It didn't stop you from crashing me into the therapist's office the next day. I'm sorry, I can't believe it, I can't believe it anymore and I don't want Sofia to suffer anymore.

Callie stoic, observes Arizona painfully pouring out her anger, her anguish and her resentments. She listens to the verbal marathon of her ex-wife, with sadness.

Defeated, she nods accepting the reproaches that she herself so often makes. Hearing them in Arizona's mouth mortifies her even if they are deserved. She knows that her behavior had only fuelled the fears, the insecurities that Arizona had always had.

From the beginning of their relationship because of her bi-sexuality she had always been afraid that Callie would not be perfectly satisfied with her, and it was not her relationship with Marc while she was in Africa, which could reassure her , then the loss of the leg had long deprived her wife of trust and she was always afraid of not being enough for her, to the point of having done everything to make things unforgivable and unconsciously or not, push Callie to leave her.

Arizona, who realized that she had raised her voice to the point of almost yelling at Callie in the middle of the street, swallowed and pursues more calmly.

-Callie listens to you! My wife, my ex-wife you don't even know what I am anymore, you really don't know what you want, that's why I think if I have an apartment...

She can't hear any more. Is she not entitled to the error as well Wishing to put an end to this discussion, she declared that disillusioned.

-I guess, in our relationship, forgiveness is exclusively reserved for Arizona Robbins. I'm going to the hospital.

Without waiting for an answer, she leaves Arizona stunned by the veracity of the subject.


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