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Chapter 19 "The Effects of Hormones"

Callie goes up to the pediatric ward, looking for Arizona, a coffee in recent days, they barely crossed paths, their schedules have been shifted for two weeks. She finds her in her office, immersed in folders, she doesn't get her nose out for carelessly throwing at her partner

- Hi baby how are you?

- The hormones you prescribed me, cause rather surprising effects it's not a legend it's very real.

Arizona responds in a detached and very professional tone

- Side effects of ovarian stimulation

Callie approaching Arizona from behind and surrounding her lovingly whispering in her ear

- You might have some time to give me in the on-call, It might help me deal with it

- I would love to , of course but I am overwhelmed, I have to do job interviews non-stop for the center, all morning

Although disappointed and somewhat offended by the indifference towards her, Callie continues in a way that wants to be playful

- Okay! too bad, you don't know what you're missing out honey! Do you at least have time to have lunch with me, or may be we could skip lunch?

- Callie, sorry, I'm not gonna be able to, I really have too much to do!

- Awesome! I thought your job had to come after us, that we were your priority.

The brunette leaves the room, angry, slamming the door, once again frustrated to pass again and always after her partner's job

Arizona, jumping at the noise the sagging shoulders, closes her eyes for a second, the Seattle Callie is back. She can behave like a spoiled child when she doesn't get what she wants as soon as she wants it. No, in fact it's not fair, this isn't even the case, she could have been a person of this kind, who gets everything effortlessly, living superficially in her golden world, without taking a look at the rest of the world. Indeed, she was the heiress of the Torres companies. Carlos, her father is at the head of an international business consortium in various fields. She had grown up in opulence, with a father adulating her, not refusing her anything she desired. Callie Torres didn't fall into this ease, she worked hard to become a renowned surgeon, without any special treatment. What Callie is, she owes it only to herself , to her exceptional intelligence, to her extraordinary generosity, to a relentless effort to make the world a better place, to an admirable determination to repair everything , yet for a reason that Arizona never understood considering all of this, she presented a mind-boggling lack of confidence, and she found this part of Callie so sweet.

No, Callie is not an anger ball because she is a spoiled child, she is irascible because she is Calliope, her passionate, fearless Calliope not enduring injustice, a wonderful being ... and apparently severely shaken by hormone treatment. Arizona dreamy, smiling at the thought of the beautiful woman who occupies her mind days and nights, shakes her head to get out of the dream. Sorry for Callie's bad mood, she sends her a message.

"I miss you too! Just a little more patience. I'll be happy to take care of your hormones tonight. Promised. I love you, I love you, I love you "A

"Sorry, I got carried away, work well! I love you too. Proposal accepted for tonight! " C

Reassured that Callie feels better , she smiles at the answer, looks away from her phone to focus on her work, appearing however concerned. Throughout the morning she has to arrange a succession of appointments in order to gather the necessary staff for the proper functioning of the center. She would like to finalize everything before starting the I.V.F. and before Herman's arrival.

The timing is tight, because first there is Callie's process, after ovarian stimulation and the triggering ovulation, there's gonna be egg harvesting, fertilization, and freezing because of course the cycle of the two women not being synchronized the re implantation of an embryo of the brunette and an embryo of the blonde will take place, when Arizona has in turn followed the same process. Again and always a fan of hyper control, she has worked hard in recent weeks to make everything perfect, to avoid any possibility of a professional hiccup.

She obviously also checked all the tests and treatment given to her girlfriend, in order to ensure the chances of having a happy event soon, and it is true that she had somewhat abandoned the "family daily" part. She makes a mental note, not to be swallowed by work.

Arizona is a different person, grow up in a small close-up family, she was raised , by a Father Colonel and was accustomed to putting the notion of duty and work first. Even if she came from a less well-off background than Callie's, she was a spoiled child because everything was always easy for her. She had always been intellectually brilliant, nature had also endowed her with a breathtaking physique, with beautiful eyes, a smile and dimples that made her both hyper sexy and charming and very very attractive. Even her sexual orientation had not been a big problem, she had been easily accepted by her family and that's just what mattered. She was always joyful in temperament, with a touch of self-centeredness, and until she met Callie she had largely taken advantage of her seductive abilities without worrying too much about what revolved around her. But if life had spared her all her childhood until her life as a young adult, she had gone wild against her afterwards, and Arizona hadn't been ready to handle so much adversity. Fortunately she had met on her way Calliope Torres who had long been by her side to help her endure so much pain. Callie had been at the origin of her greatest moments of happiness and her greatest moments of despair, but they had gone through them to find again each other and they were there, together and that's all that mattered. The brunette in the grip of hormones, the blonde in the grip of anguish that if everything is not perfect, something could go wrong

At 12:30 p.m. as she prepares to leave the hospital, she looks like an inmate on the run, checking discreetly, if the lane is clear before exiting the elevator, or at the crossroads of the hallways . She walks through the doors of the hospital exhaling a breath she didn't realize she was holding, and goes to a restaurant near Mount Sinaï Hospital so as not to disturb her schedule too much.

Intrigued by the meeting, she pushes the door of the establishment seeing her appointment already sitting at table

- Hey Arizona still so sexy! You're okay?

It's a big start, thought Arizona. She had preferred not to tell anything to Callie about this meeting, certainly avoiding a thousand questions, anyway there was nothing to say. She just listened, and then, she went back to her perfect life, with Callie, Sofia and the hospital, end point.

- Great! And what brings you to New York?

- The job

- The job? Arizona is hallucinating, she's thinking at a lightning speed. No, no, no she's not going to work in the same hospital as Callie and I. I don't want any complications. It can't be that! there are other hospitals in New York, many other hospitals.

- You're going to work in New York, but in which hospital? she asks her to look as little involved as possible

- Actually I want to apply for the Robbins-Herman Center, and I wanted to get your "unofficial" opinion before making an "official!" appointment with you.

- Wow! She expected anything but certainly not this perspective, she had not envisaged for a second that by publishing a job advertisement she would face this situation.

- Uh, I can't stop you from applying, but I don't hide that from you...

- Good appetite Dr. Robbins

Arizona bemused, raises her head to the voice that she recognized perfectly. That's all that was missing, she also perfectly recognizes this expression on Callie's face. What will happen next, will approach the apocalypse, she is absolutely convinced of it. Petrified, trying to swallow the ball that forms in her throat, she watched the exchange

- I don't have the pleasure of knowing you Callie addresses the person who stands in front of her girlfriend voluntarily ignoring Arizona

- Dr. Carina Deluca Obstetrician Gynecologist specializing in female and male orgasm, but I confess , I have a preference for female orgasm.

Faced with this deliberate provocation from her ex, who also recognized Callie as seeing the number of pictures of "Sofia's other mother", which were on the walls of the Arizona's home in Seattle, Arizona opened bewildered, eyes. She's been swallowing hard considering the pill's gonna be hard for Callie to swallow too . Her mental state is approaching dissolution, if she had been able to teleport to another planet and avoid being in the middle of what appears to be a new storm, she would have done so immediately. How was she going to explain to Callie? If so much so that the angry Latina lets her explain herself. She, who did not want any complications, really it was successful! She had put herself in an inextricable situation again.

On the other hand Callie, after having processing all that, without letting anything appear of the boiling that settled in her, doesn't disassemble, she questions Carina staring at her brazenly.

- Hum very interesting. Do you take human guinea pigs for your tests? I could volunteer, apparently my girlfriend is ... Uh, very busy, I am rather neglected.

She doesn't wait for the answer and leaves the women with speechless. Arizona knows Callie too well, she knows full well that irony precedes the explosion and that, it's only one step back to better jump . She gets up hurriedly, determined not to let the situation rot, and takes leave of Carina who tries a useless

- What about my appointment?

- I don't know! That's the least of my worries right now. I'll call you later.

She tries to phone Callie obviously her call falls directly on voice mail, she sends a text message

"Calliope, whatever you think, you're wrong, let me explain, tell me where you are, I'll join you"

Obviously her calls remain deaf, testifying to wrath of the Latina. She'll comb the hospital if she has to, but she's gonna find her, she must find her . Freaked out, she's going around the orthopedic department, no one saw her, she's opening all the call rooms, she was nowhere. Arizona is devastated, she imagines Callie, hurt again because of her , because she still misjudged, panicked and didn't take the right decision. Suddenly she remembers, in Seattle, she was hiding in the basement, which is actually where she finds her, sitting on a gurney with her head in her hands.

- Calliope you could answer your phone! I was worried.

She takes a tone that is tender and reassuring

- I don't know what you're imagining, but I can assure you, there's nothing wrong with that. It's Carina...

- Yes thank you! I know. I think she is the last of your very long list of exes? You didn't feel it necessary to tell me that you had a date with her.

Arizona tries to resume speaking in the face of a Callie obviously very angry and very hurt, she decides to let go the acid remark, it is not that her rather active sexuality bothers her or that she has to justify herself in front of anyone. She'd be pretty proud of it, it tended to reassure her, but face of Callie she wasn't so proud, she knows only too well what is behind these words in Callie's mouth.

- Hey, but it wasn't a date! it was...

- I understand that you have no time to eat with me, you reserve your precious time for your ex, apparently orgasm specialist moreover!

- Callie don't, don't do that, you're blinded by jealousy, stop!

Mad with anger Callie starts screaming now, nothing and no one can stop her.

- No, I don't stop , you stop. Why is she in New York? Why are they all in New York, Eliza, Carina, and by the way, when Boswell gets here she's carpooling with Murphy maybe?

Arizona takes hardly this low blow, she swallows hard, her face reflects not only sadness but also disappointment. She looks at Callie at length with a disillusioned gaze, and then without a word, she turns her heels. She had vowed not to accept this reproach, she will no longer accept it any more, she refuses to live in guilt again.

Callie stays for a long time, alone, sitting on a stretcher in the grip of her thoughts. She tries to calm down, she has gone crazy again, she is jealous and has not given Arizona any chance. She never should have talked about Lauren again, she promised, and at the first opportunity she brings it up again. But what's wrong with her, she's not going to ruin their lives with this old story, she won't let a single misstep, end such a beautiful journey. She realizes that Arizona is forced to hide things from her, so much she must fear her reactions, She picks up her phone and texts

"I'm so, so sorry. I shouldn't have! Could be pretended that these are the effects of hormone? "C

Arizona's response is not long in coming, and leaves no doubt about her decision

"You're right to be sorry, I am also, infinitely so, for us and for our daughter. Clearly, you'll never be able to change that, and I never want to have to go through it again. I really thought we were going to get there, apparently I was wrong."


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