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This is the last chapter for this first part. Because, life is not a long quiet river, I lack time to ensure a regular update of the second part. I do not personally like to be frustrated too long, so I will publish something that I will have advanced enough to be able to do it regularly at least twice a week.

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Chapter 20 "Everyone Abandons Me"

Callie is desperate, Arizona's message is an end of non receipt, it's obvious, she no longer accepts her incessant apologies. She is mechanically going into a store to reduce stress, before returning home, she looks for a way to improve things, how can they love each other passionately and hurt each other so much? She always wanted the happiness of this woman yet she hurt her so much, Arizona loved her, she was sure of it, but she had also destroyed her by betraying her in the worst way. She grabs her phone and as a shipwreck throws a message in the bottle into the sea, she sends:

"We can do something wrong, but that doesn't make us a bad person.

We can make a bad choice, turn around and do better.

I'm going to turn around, I'm going to do better, I promise! »

Tormented by the dispute that has just pitted her against Arizona, she does not notice the unrest that reigns around her. Suddenly, she is gripped by the sound of a gunfight. A young gunman stands in front of the cashier of the shop who took the gun hidden under the counter, trying to defend himself. The latter collapses to the ground, while the thief is hit in the shoulder.

Unable to restrain the doctor's reflex, she immediately approaches the wounded person lying on the ground, immediately applying a compression, while the armed offender, summons her of not moving.

- I am a surgeon and you will not prevent me from trying to save this man's life and I think it is also in your interest that he does not die.

The armed man agrees that this woman's argument is rather judicious, to be tried for robbery with assault would be less serious than to be tried for murder!

- Ok but in this case you have to treat me too

Callie takes a quick look at the thug's shoulder and retaliates dryly.

- Your injury is less serious, I am the doctor, I decide the emergency and you will have to wait.

- This woman is a badass, grumbles the man with the revolver,

It's not going to be easy with her, she have to calm down it's still me who's on the right side of the gun.

Meanwhile Callie takes clothes from the store's shelves, rips them to make improvised dressings, she asks for help from other customers, who are also hostages, in order to make cuts. She carelessly throws a piece of tissue towards the scoundrel and orders him to lay it on his wound and press it.

Entering into the apartment Arizona can no longer think about it. Callie's last message echoes in her, she repeated to her word for word, the phrase she herself used when she begged for forgiveness after cheating on her. Today she no longer knows how to interpret her own words. Of course everyone can be wrong, she is well placed to know this, of course everyone makes mistakes and is entitled to a second... third chance even, but it must face the facts, they will not be able to rebuild anything on the ever incandescent ashes of their past mistakes. Callie will remain, her inaccessible star. She wipes away a tear that escaped in spite of herself, at this thought, but that is what she is determined to say to Callie. They must admit it, they have failed again, not knowing how to trust or listen to each other. If she had spoken to Callie all this drama could have been avoided, if Callie had let her explain herself, none of this, would have happened. This has always been their difficulty and it will clearly not going to change.

After giving leave to the baby Sitter of Sofia, she turns on the TV, in order to try to occupy her mind and especially to get Calliope Torres out of it. She zaps from one channel to another without giving he slightest interest to the images that scroll before her eyes, when suddenly the broadcasts are interrupted by a special Flash.

"New York hostage-taking in a shop, near Mount Sinaï Hospital, police are already on the scene and trying to contact the kidnappers"

In the store the first emergency actions are carried out but it is necessary to operate. This man is not going to last long, he's already lost a lot of blood. Callie addresses the offender, with her sure and professional voice.

- He needs emergency surgery, otherwise he will die. You have to let him out, an ambulance is outside. We need to get him on a stretcher and continuing with the compression points. I need four people to keep pressing

She had deliberately exaggerated the number of people needed, so the hostages would also be released

The perpetrator suspecting that things are escaping him, that he is losing control, points the weapon on her head and exclaims

- Hey you! Don't try to play it upside down, if he goes out with the 4, you're going to stay with me, you're a doctor I'm going to need you!

Callie is scared for the first time since the hostage-taking began. Until now she had focused on the care to be given and had not yet considered the danger. Sofia and Arizona's faces impose themselves on her mind. She suddenly thinks it's late and she doesn't have wished her daughter a good night and ARIZONA she's gonna worry, she's gonna think she left her again without a word. She could not die without talking to Arizona, she had so much to tell her, they cannot yet be separated on this misunderstanding…... OH THEN SHE had to prepare cookies for Sofia's school this evening , Arizona still did not know how to make them, she put flour all over the kitchen, she had it all over her face, but the result was still not conclusive. In these moments the details of life scroll up in your mind and suddenly take on enormous importance. Smiling, she remembered the cooking sessions in Arizona, which was Marc's little hand. She ended up loving Marc, they had gathered around Marc's new passion for cooking, and Arizona had supported him, encouraged him and shared it with him. She didn't do it for the sake of cooking she was a good taster but about cook she was more like «What is this delicious taste of burning?». She had really, done it out of love for Callie, she had sacrificed a lot of her own desires out of love for Callie. She had given up her dream of Africa, she had married Callie's dream of having a child, and she had made it her own, she had accepted the co-parenting of three and sharing her life with her wife's ex. She had given a lot to Callie, without speaking of her gaze which had cured Callie of her lack of confidence only because she saw herself great and beautiful in the blue eyes, not to mention the contact of her hand placed on her arm that was enough to soothe her. She had given so much that when she resumed everything after the crash Callie had felt abandoned alone, and despite all her efforts to find her, she had only seen a watered-down version of her wife, and then she cheated on her. It was like her whole world had collapsed, the person she trusted most in her life had just betrayed her. She had never gotten over it really, she had tried, really tried, but it was still there lurking in the shadow of their daily lives, to resurface and prevent them from moving forward serenely

It was a mistake one mistake, it was so little in view of all this moments of love , of respect, of tenderness that they had shared. She had to talk to Arizona, tell her all this and it would be fine, she must get there .They can't live without each other, so they have to do it

Outside, the media cover the case, local radio and T.V. broadcast live events. The police begins the usual summons in the megaphone

" Give up, you are surrounded. ».

Out of her meditation the robber pushes Callie towards the door always with the gun on her temple.

- Ask them for a stretcher, and something to treat me , and tell them that we're going to get the wounded and four hostages out. I want a car parked in the back of the shop and you come with me. Make it clear that if they follow us, if they try anything, they will have your death on their conscience.

Callie in her most assured voice screams through the door

- I am Dr. Callie Torres, I am a hostage ... then she transmits very precisely the message dictated by the abductor.

Arizona's stomach falls into her heels, paralyzed in front of the TV, she's stunned, she can't believe it, it's not possible, it can't be Callie she sees live, she's devastated. Panic invades her, tears flow down her face, but what is she doing in this mess? She looks so scared. Her phone keeps ringing, like her, their friends have seen the information and want more details, needless to answer she knows no more than they do.

She has to go there, she can't stay here, powerless to wait, to wait what else? She must be at Callie's side, but Sofia is asleep, she can't wake her, she also has to protect her, it would be such a trauma for the little girl, it is also not possible to leave her alone in the apartment.

Thoughts clash in her head, she must however try to see Callie, she must do something. Arizona forces herself to calm down, she has to be efficient. She calls one of Sofia's baby-Sitter and as soon as she arrives she will go to the place where Callie has to go through hell, again. Her tears flow to this thought, but she chases them out quickly, so she will have to be strong for Callie and Sofia, for her family.

The police accepted all the conditions of the abductor, a few hours later, a stretcher, all the medical equipment as well as the medicines requested by Callie were provided. She will be able to evacuate the cashier and the four other hostages who have not stopped keeping their pressure on the man's body. When they are gone, it'll be just her, one-on-one with the kidnapper. She opens the door to announce the evacuation, the weapon still pointed at her. That's when she hears screams.

- Callie, Callie! Let me pass through that's my wife over there! Callie!

She sees Arizona struggling hard, as the police cordon tries to subdue her. This vision slackens all the courage she's been trying to keep for hours now. She suddenly feels feverish, and if doesn't get out of it and they never get another chance, and Sofia she had already lost her father. Callie is recovering, no it's not an option, her wife is almost immortal, she survived a car accident, a plane crash, she came back after staying for long days in the cold, in the midst of the woods horribly wounded and she even overcame the loss of a limb in record time. She will not, collapse in the face of a small offender who threatens her? with a weapon, despair now gives way for anger. No No, no, no, no, no! they will not have survived everything to end up like this, they will find themselves, they will settle things among themselves, and they will finally have this happiness that is constantly taken away from them as soon as they approach it

- Arizona! She's screaming to reach the blonde despite all the fuss, Arizona I'm fine, don't worry, if... Take care of Sofia... Please take care of yourself and Sofia! I love you, please believe it, I always loved you.

She is brutally pushed back by the robber.

- It's okay you'll talk another day, we'll evacuate them, you heal me and we get rid of this shit.

- And then? Worries Callie

- Then? I do not know, we'll figure it out as we go.! You shut up and do what I say

Callie couldn't help noticing that the tone had changed,he was agitated, he panicked she feared that it would degenerate. She would follow him nicely, she had a plan but she had to wait, take no risks. She would have liked to be able to tell Arizona not to try anything She knows only too well the reactions of her little soldier, she had seemed so distraught, she could put herself in danger? But she has no way to reach her. Her cell phone having been confiscated from the first minutes of the hostage situation. She decides to try to establish a relaxed relationship with her kidnapper

- What is your name?

He looks at her with a suspicious air

- Just a first name it will be easier

- Brandon

- Well, then Brandon come close for me to do your bandage again before we go. Is it painful?

- It's all right

He was clearly not used to being cared for and and he is baffled, he was not going to let himself be softened, he knew very well and for a long time, that he should not, nor could trust anyone.

- We're leaving now

- Ok Brandon stay calm and they won't do anything

They entered the car, Callie took the driver's seat, while Brandon, seated on the passenger side, still threatens her with his gun. She drives at a very slow pace, past police officers, firefighters, so that it takes the time to cross the Arizona's ,blue eyes filled with tears their exchange is as deep and intense as if it were the last. As she tries to prolong the moment by looking in the rear view mirror, she sees the woman of her life, literally collapse. Tears escape from the eyes of the Latina.

Brandon blows her with a surprisingly kind tone

- If you do what I ask you to do, you'll see her again soon

- Where are we going?

- You don't ask questions! I'll guide you as you go along.

Arizona was taken over into the police hotel to questioned her in order to consider different various leads to identify the hostage-taker. Sitting in the waiting room, she was looking back on that day. She had left Callie on a violent text message, again. She had again become angry, against the one who had taught her everything from love. The only one, whose courage, kindness, generosity, loving protection, had helped her through everything, and even to overcome the fears of such love, the fear of vulnerability, face of the intensity of her feelings. Calliope had given her that strength and she was not going to resist it, because even though things might not always be perfect the journey promised to be beautiful, and whatever it was only at her side, her hand in her hand she wanted to do it

Brandon and Callie ride for about an hour in agonizing silence. Callie carefully obeys Brandon's orders, they finally take a dirt road that ends up in front of an isolated cabin. Callie tried to retain as much detail as possible from the road, but it's really a godforsaken place.

Brandon is apparently suffering more and more, the painkiller he thinks he is taking is a vulgar placebo and therefore has no effectiveness.

On entering the cabin, she discovers a sketchy furniture, a table, a chair and a mattress thrown on the floor, are the only objects in the room, they certainly will not be able to stay long here, Brandon sits on the chair grimacing in pain, Callie questions him.

- Is it very painful?

- Yeah it doesn't matter this pill, have you nothing stronger?

- Yes, but it needs not to be afraid with shots

- I'm afraid of nothing

- Okay, let me see the wound first and then I give you an intravenous painkiller. It will relieve you quickly.

When Callie had requested necessary medical supplies, she had requested a powerful anesthetic, hoping to put the kidnapper out of harm's way.

The infusion performed, Brandon understands too late what is happening to him and can no longer react, he cannot fight the sleep that takes hold of him and falls asleep immediately. With the pieces of fabric she had taken for the purpose of making bandages. She made ties and firmly trussed Brandon to the posts of the chair with her arms behind her back. He's so young, she looks at him with compassion, how did he get to this point? What could have happened in that boy's life barely out of childhood, to find himself in this situation? To have a gun and practically killed someone for a few dollars. What's wrong in this world? But this was not the time to make feelings. She grabbed the young offender's phone, not knowing what he had done with hers . And shit no network. She plagues

- No, couldn't I have any luck once in my life!

She runs on the way, leaving at high speed, in the opposite direction of the journey they had made a few hours ago by car and finally finds network. She calls the only number she knows by heart, praying for an answer because it is an unknown number.

- Hello

- Arizona!

- Oh my God, Calliope my love! Where are you? Are you okay? Are you hurt?

- Arizona please listens to me first, you have to go to the police station

- But I'm already there Callie!

- Ok it's even better! Put someone on then.. I got free, but they have to locate this phone because I'm in the middle of nowhere right now

- Okay, I'm putting you through to the chief of police and we're coming to get you -

- Arizona no, I don't want you putting yourself in danger, stay with our daughter

Callie was talking in the void , Arizona was already gone. Promising that she would pay the costs, she demanded a helicopter to get to the scene faster, forgetting her phobia of flying, she also claimed a place in it, as a doctor, girlfriend, wife and anything else they'd want as long as they let her get on that damn chopper.

Less than an hour later, she threw herself into Callie's arms, covering her with kisses. She was alive, everything else seemed now to be negligible details.

- What about, going to a desert island where there would be no car accident, crash, mad killer in hospitals or robber in shops?

-Are You laughing we would be, still able to find ourselves in the middle of Jurassik Park.

They burst out laughing. Arizona huddled in the arms of the woman of her life and whispered to her

- I was so scared! Sorry, I should have explained to you about Carina.

Callie puts a kiss on her forehead

- No, don't apologize, I'm the one asking for forgiveness. I'd like to go home and curl up in a ball

- Whatever you want my James Bond Girl!

Arriving at the apartment the baby-Sitter is asleep on the couch. For Sofia everything has been transparent, she always sleeps peacefully, unaware her mother's adventures. Both women decide to let everyone rest

Callie runs a bath to relax from all her emotions and relieve stress and fear.

- Would you like my the company offer her Arizona by entering their bathroom

- I'd love to smiles the exhausted brunette

Arizona slips first into the bathtub and reaches out to Callie inviting her to cuddle up against her to hug her. Measuring the chance to hold her in her arms, she gently cradles her, massaging her head, caressing her hair. Gradually the tensions disappear, she can feel Callie's body relaxing against hers.

- I'm always so fine right here, it looks like this place was made for me

- It is, only for you my love and a little for our children susurre Arizona in her ear

- You know, I trust you Arizona, but...

- But ?

- There is something really wrong with my jealousy...

Arizona tries a comment she knows is risky

- Why are you always afraid of being abandoned Calliope?

Callie answers as if it were obvious, if it flowed effortlessly...

- Because throughout my whole life, everyone always, ends up abandoning me: George, Erika, my mother... you . Oh Georges and Erika it wasn't very serious actually, it wasn't really love. But you...

- I have never abandoned you, Callie, I came back from Africa for you, and since then I have committed myself to a life with you. Every time we split up, it was you who wished it, never me, and I came back whenever you wanted it because I never, never stopped loving you! She takes a deep breath to explain once again what life has taken away from her and her way to find herself and be able to find Callie again.

I once gave up life, which was my life because it could never be the same, but even then, I couldn't give up on you. I couldn't leave you and I was both so terrified but so convinced, that you were going to run, that I was pushing you to do it, and I made stupid huge mistakes, and please believe me I will spend every day of my life regretting it, but I never abandoned you Calliope, never

She repeats these words, she needs Callie so much to acknowledge that even if she had not been perfect, she had sincerely engaged with her.

Callie remains thoughtful for a moment and then trying to dispel her annoyance, she concedes

- Yes it's true! in fact it was only my mother who really abandoned me. But don't you think that's enough? Would you abandon your daughter because these life choices don't suit you?

With these words all the defenses that Callie has erected for years are collapsing, the tension today has been too high. She bursts into tears, abandons herself against Arizona who holds her in her arms, caresses her hair, kisses her in the neck, saying words of love to relieve her, convinced that the knot of the problem has just been pointed.

That night they made love tenderly, the azure eyes not leaving the ebony-coloured ones, their mouths not separating, they had never attained such communion in their intimacy.

Arizona whispers in Callie's ear, who is already sleeping in her arms.

- For the record, I can't get a better specialist in my orgasm than my wife, whom I love more than anything.

Callie smiles, savoring the word she so desperately wanted to hear again in Arizona's mouth, she raises an inquisitive eyebrow

- My wife hum?

- Yes, your wife. I'm yours and you're mine Calliope Torres, and nothing and no one can change that.

- Arizona? Will you marry me again? She is stammering timidly

Arizona is not even surprised, deep down, she never stopped being Callie's wife. It's just the right return of things in their place. The last piece of the puzzle.

- I'll marry you again, but I warn you this is the last time Torres, if you ever talk about divorce again, I will kick your ass She jokes.

- Okay! Anyway, you've always had a thing for my ass!

- Yes it's a true, but not only do, I love your boobs so much too Arizona adds with a laugh

Their eyes close but before sinking into a deep sleep Arizona whispers

- Callie, we really need to work on our marriage proposals, it's really not very romantic

- At least mine is secure. No chance of an accident unless you fall out of bed.

Feigning to push Arizona out of bed while holding her back, she brings the smaller woman back in her arms, delivered with a great weight they fall asleep in each other's arms, a smile illuminating their faces, taking advantage of the lightness of this perfect moment, that life finally offers them.


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