Hello, I'm Gay
Chapter Eleven
Surprisingly, Bella truly doesn't care that we're all vampires. In fact, she seems happier at this fact? I can't decipher her reaction. I'm just happy she's not running for the hills. If anything, our relationship has gotten stronger, and for once, I feel like I can be truly myself around her.
After Jasper's apology for him trying to eat her, we all give up the charade of being human. She comes around our house and we display our strength and speed easily. We even let her in on the fact we have powers. "I can see the future, most of the time," Alice says.
"I can control emotion," Jasper filled in.
"And I can read minds, but not yours," Edward said, frowning as he did so.
"This is all so cool. And what about you?" she turns to me, eager to know what my power is.
"I don't have one."
"Why not?"
I shrugged. "Wasn't lucky enough." It had used to bother me long ago, but not anymore. Sometimes these gifts could be a curse and not a blessing. Jasper was too easily swept up in other's emotions, Alice got called a freak for freezing cause of her visions, and Edward suffered the mental agony of others thoughts.
"Ah, I think your hotness could be a superpower," she tells me playfully and I swat her on the arm but internally I am very pleased by her compliments.
She learns about our lifestyle, about our abilities, about our past histories and how we were turned. She cries openly when I tell her my story and I almost regret telling her it, except she holds me so tightly to her like she might lose me and I can't deny that I love how I can feel how deeply she cares through this action.
It's only been two months that I've been dating Bella, and yet it's begun to feel like we know each other for forever. The relationship certainly has not gotten boring, I can say that. Bella always finds ways to rev me up. Especially in school were we should be behaving.
"I dropped my pen. Rosalie, could you get it for me?" Bella asked, faux innocent. I looked at her, then at the pen, which was literally right by her foot. Dropped there on purpose in the middle of the hall.
"Bella, you can get it yourself-"
"ROSALIE I DROPPED MY PEN," she said loudly, arching a brow up at me.
"Okay..." Bella was acting weird today. First, wearing a skirt, and now dropping pens. I walked closer to her and bent down to get it. As I was straightening back up I saw Bella shift her legs wider and looked right up.
I think I saw God for a second. Hiding in a girl's vagina.
She dropped down to be on my eye level as I was frozen in shock, still bent towards the floor. Her face was serious now. "Thanks for the pen-" even though it had slipped out of my fingers and back onto the floor. She took it. "-meet me by your car in ten." And then she left.
I stood up, swallowing hard. Everything else around me had faded away as I zoned in that one thing.
Bella hadn't been wearing anything under that skirt. She was as naked as the day she was born. And she was wet. I bit my bottom lip so hard I chewed through it. I couldn't wait ten minutes. I raced after her now.
Things take an unexpected turn when one day at home, while Emmett, Edward, Bella and I are there, Edward does something. So dramatic that it catches us all off guard, even our vampire reflexes too slow to catch on to it. I should have known though. I should known before hand. Edward had been acting weird ever since I heard about him creeping in Bella's room, trying to prove something about her.
He sprays Bella with holy water.
For a second nothing registers. Bella and I sit on the couch, Edward in front of us with the bottle of holy water, and Bella soaking wet on her face and her chest. "Edward-" I snap out, rising to my feet, and ready to defend my girlfriend.
"Look," he says eyes wide and I turn to where there is now steam rising off of Bella's skin. Her eyes are blood red and she's grimacing as if this is burning her. Emmett quickly stands up behind us, leaning in to look as well.
"Uh, oops," Bella shrugs, looking awkward as hell right now.
Edward smiles, triumphant. "Ha! I knew it! I knew she was a succubus. A mere mortal would not react this way to the holy water." He spun away dramatically, laughing as he did.
Oh. I felt my heart sink a bit.
"Um, can we talk?" Bella asked, standing up. "Let me just wash this off first. It's really starting to hurt." And she went upstairs to my room to use the bathroom there. I felt shell shocked. What the hell did I do now? For once, Edward had been right about something. For once, he hadn't been over-dramatic without good reason.
Emmett clasped me hard on the shoulder in solidarity. "Well, we all knew Bella was different from other humans. This explains why."
"But why didn't she tell us?" I asked, voice soft.
"Maybe she had her reasons. Like why we don't tell anyone about us," he reasoned.
This did not make me feel better. "Go talk to her," he shooed me upstairs. "Things will get better if you do."
I was reluctant to go upstairs but did as he said because I knew delaying this conversation would do neither of us good. I walk into my room, Bella's face dry, and her wearing one of my shirts.
"Please tell me what I saw was a hallucination?" I asked, as a last minute resort.
"Nope," she said jovially though I could hear the sadness weighing down her voice.
"Wait, you're actually a succubus?!" I exclaimed, shocked, and scared, and a bit...aroused. How was she one? It didn't make much sense. She never came off as one to me.
Bella shrugged. "Retired, actually."
"Retired?" I wheezed out, needing a second. I sat down on my bed so as to support myself. Something uncomfortable clicked in my head. "Edward was right about you seducing us."
"Well, you, actually," she said with a sly grin as she slid onto my lap. I looked at her in betrayal. "Only the human way, I swear on God," she said, crossing a finger over her heart seriously. "I gave up that lifestyle long ago in search of true love. I haven't fed from anyone in centuries, nor have I used my powers. And I don't intend to."
"You made me fall in love with you?" I questioned. I felt like everything was a lie. My body was numb.
"Don't be silly. Like I said, no powers. And you're a vamp. You'd sense it if I did."
Well, that part was true. This whole time she'd come off as human. If she'd used her powers at any point, I would have known. Wait, had Alice foreseen this? I had to ask her. But not now. Bella was caressing a hand through my hair.
"So, will you let me keep loving you, Rosalie?" Bella breathed out, drawing her lips closer to mine.
I nodded my head, too unsure to say anything with my mouth because the truth was just too fresh. Then she kissed me.
The shock eventually faded away, and life continued on as usual. True to her word, Bella never used her succubus powers. I couldn't sense them on her at all. She truly seemed content pretending to be a human, just as I pretended to be human too.
"You know, now that we both know we're supernatural, why don't we learn more about each other?" Bella suggested one evening as we were watching a movie together on the couch. It was some mindless romcom, both of us far more invested in holding hands and snuggling up to each other.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean that I don't know much about vampires. And I'm sure you don't know much about succubi," she said, propping her head up on my knee. "So...ask away. I'll answer anything you want to know about me."
Oh, this was tempting. Super tempting. What could I even ask? She had already told me she powered herself through human food rather than sex so I didn't have to worry about that. "Was it...was it hard to give up your lifestyle? It makes up so much of who you are-"
"I didn't ask to be this way, so no, it wasn't hard to give it up for me. When I was younger, I thought I had to do it, but then I did some reading and some research, and found out there are alternatives. There are always alternatives to a situation if we try hard enough. Eating human food gets rid of most of my powers- the rest I just keep locked away. But I don't care if I don't have powers. I wanted love. Pure love, the undying kind. And I knew I couldn't get it as how I was, so I changed myself. And I was able to meet you," she told me with a loving grin. I could feel the intensity and depth of her feeling behind her words and I felt my chest clench. "What of you? I feel like you and your family are not the human eating type either."
"No," I told her with a small shake of my head. "We thrive on animal blood. It doesn't taste great but it does the job. And we just refrain from being in contact with too many humans so we don't get tempted by them."
"You ever eat a human."
"No, I've never tasted human blood."
"That's impressive," Bella said with raised brows.
"How long have you been a succubi? I admit I don't know how you're made. Vampires are turned by venom in a bite, after being sucked dry, but you, I don't know how it would work."
"Birth," Bella says. "My parents are the same as me. But I don't really talk to them. They disowned me when they found out what I was doing. That I was giving up this way of life. Still, I don't regret it. I don't want to live life the way they do."
"Wait, so if you were born this way, how old are you? I'm about a hundred years old," I tell her. "I was changed in 1920."
"Uhhh, I think I was born in the 18th century or something like that," Bella said with a shrug.
"Wait, so you're immortal, right?" I asked.
"Yea."
"Good. I was worried about our relationship. About having to face the conundrum of whether or not to turn you."
"You were thinking of turning me into a vamp?" Bella asked, eyes sparkling.
"If I had to. I would never do it against your will of course-" I hastened to explain. Bella stopped my rambling by grabbing my hands. "Rosalie it's alright. If I had to be human and turned by you, I would a thousand percent do it. I mean, do you know how hot it is to be turned by someone like you?"
"It's a painful process," I tell her cautiously.
"Worth it," she said with a wide grin. "But, it's a good thing we're both immortal girlfriend's already."
"Yea," I said, because it did make things easier. I no longer had to worry about her growing old on me, on my heart breaking to see her like that. On having to lose her. "What if I was human. What would you do?"
"Hm," Bella tapped her chin thoughtfully. "I'm not sure. We don't really have ways of making you immortal like a vampire can do...but I'm sure I'd find some way for us to be together. Because I truly believe you're the one, Rosalie," Bella told me, rising up to hover over my form on the couch. "My one true love."
I blushed at this. Despite being with Bella for a while now, I still was taken off guard by her bold declarations of love. They were more difficult for me to say. But I wanted Bella to know I cared for her the same way. So I reached up to cup her face and brought her lips down to meet mine.
She smiled into our kiss as on the TV screen, the couple there got married.
