Chapter 15

Jessica and Elliot had walked down towards the skate park before stopping and sitting down on the grass at the side of the skate park.

"So how did Sarah's date with Ethan go?" Elliot asked.

"She said it went good," Jessica replied, she was waiting for a response from Elliot. She didn't know if he was asking because he still liked Sarah or because he wanted her to move on so that maybe he would to.

"That's good then," Elliot said. He was a little upset to see Sarah move on.

"I hope it works out for her," Jessica said.

Elliot just smiled back.

"So what about you then?" Jessica asked, "Anyone at school taken a shine to you?"

Elliot was surprised Jessica was asking about him liking any other girls considering the circumstances.

"No well some girl, think her name was Vanessa came up and was like trying to flirt with me," Elliot laughed, "So not interested in her".

"Elliot this is kind of a strange thing to ask and I don't know how to ask it but it's like I need to know where I stand," Jessica said.

Elliot looked a little worried about where this may be leading.

"You say you don't want anything to happen between us because you don't want to ruin our friendship and you don't want to hurt Sarah. While at the lake we confessed our feelings towards each other, so are we suppose to move on from each other?" Jessica asked.

Elliot didn't like where this conversation was heading, "I don't know. Do you still like me?" Elliot asked.

Jessica wasn't sure if Elliot wanted her to say yes or no to that," Well yeah I still do".

"It is kind of awkward is it?" Elliot said as started to understand why Jessica was asking him this.

"So do you still like me then?" Jessica asked.

"Yeah I do," Elliot answered. There was a very tense atmosphere now.

"You see we say we can't be together because we don't want to ruin our friendship or hurt Sarah but what are we suppose to do when we still like each other?" Jessica asked. "It hurts every day knowing you can't be with the person you want to be with, wishing that somehow you could".

"I know the exact feeling," Elliot replied, "But I hurt Sarah so much before and I made a promise that I wouldn't hurt her again".

"So what does that mean you can just never move on because it might hurt Sarah?" Jessica asked.

"Well moving on and getting with her sister no, I mean imagine having to watch us be together every day? That not going to be easy and I'm sure it's going to hurt her. Do you not think it would hurt her for you to get with her ex?" Elliot asked.

"I know she would hate me," Jessica said sadly, "I just hate this situation, so if we're saying we can never be together then are we suppose to move on?"

Elliot didn't want to see Jessica move on and he didn't really want to move on from Jessica, "I don't know," Elliot replied.

"So am I just supposed to carry on hurting everyday because I can't be with you? And then not try move on either?" Jessica was getting quite frustrated; she knew it was the truth. Why carry on liking someone when you know nothing can ever happen. Why not just move on.

"I feel the same," Elliot replied, "It's not just you who is going through this, it's me as well".

"I hate this," Jessica said.

Elliot put his arm round her, "Me too Jess".

Jessica never got any answers so she took it that meant things were just going to continue as they were. All she wanted was for Elliot to say 'let's be together and tell the world' but she was never going to hear it. Jessica knew Sarah would probably be annoyed at her, but she was willing to take that risk because maybe she wouldn't be or she would at first but she'd get over it.

"Well I better get going it's after 5 now so my mom will have the dinner on by now," Jessica said as stood up.

"Yeah me too," Elliot said as he stood up as well and they began to walk home.

They had almost arrived to their street and there hadn't been much conversation on the walk home between the two of them.

"Well bye then," Jessica said as she crossed the road to go over to her house.

"Jess wait," Elliot said he grabbed her hand, "I just want to let you know that I feel the same way as you, and I understand everything you were saying and whenever you feel like talking I'm here".

"Thanks," Jessica smiled before heading off home.

Dinner had passed and Jessica sat in her room again thinking about the conversation she and Elliot had had today. He had never actually answered her question as she still did not know where she stood. She needed to speak to someone, ask them what she should do.

Jessica left her room and knocked on Kim's door, before she hears her shout come in.

"Something up?" Kim asked as Jessica walked in, she could tell by Jessica's face that something was bothering.

"Yeah it is," Jessica said as she sat down on Kim's computer chair.

"It's got something to do with Elliot you've been with him all day," Kim guessed.

"Yeah," Jessica answered, "It's just I'm sick of liking somebody who it's like impossible to be with, and then I feel like we're too attached so it's like I would guilty if I was to date anyone else".

"So you want to date someone else?" Kim asked.

"No I don't, but if we're never going to be together then I have to eventually move on but if we're still in the same situation I'd feel really bad," Jessica continued, "He asked me today if I still liked him and I said yeah and he said he still liked me and yet we can't be anything more than friends because he promised not to hurt Sarah again".

"Well maybe you should just move on then," Kim suggested.

"Really? I don't know if I can, not if when still like Elliot this much," Jessica replied.

"Well you clearly want him to commit to you, to be in a relationship with you yeah?" Kim asked.

"Well yeah," Jessica answered.

"So if you date other people he's going to get jealous, and then ,maybe he'll see that he does really want to be with you, and even though the promise he made to Sarah, he can't help his feelings," Kim said.

Jessica wasn't sure of the idea, "But what if even then he still doesn't want to break his promise to Sarah?"

"Well then you know it's never going to work, you'll be in the same situation you're in now," Kim replied.

"Anyway I thought you were against me and Elliot? I didn't think you'd be suggestion ideas for me," Jessica said.

"Well I do think Sarah doesn't deserve it and I think what you're doing is wrong, but I can see you like Elliot and like I said earlier you can't help who you fall for, even if it is your sister's ex," Kim said. She did feel bad for Sarah and knew it was wrong of Jessica to go behind Sarah's back, but she could tell Jessica liked Elliot.

"I feel bad using someone to make Elliot jealous," Jessica said as she thought about it.

"Well you could just flirt with boys in font on him," Kim said.

"I don't usually flirt with lots of boys," Jessica said.

"Well you don't have to do it, it was just a suggestion," Kim said.

"Well I'll think about it," Jessica said still not sure.

"So then when are you and Ryan next meeting for you biology project?" Kim asked.

"Tomorrow after school," Jessica replied.

"Where?" Kim asked.

"I don't know yet, will speak to him tomorrow at school," Jessica said.

"I still can't believe you got him as your partner," Kim exclaimed.

"I still can't believe you've still got a huge crush on him when you've like never spoken to him and you even know what he's like," Jessica replied, "Because since I've gotten to know him, he is well different than I expected".

"That's because you though he was full of himself," Kim replied," Where as I know he's nice".

"You don't know a thing about him that no one else in the school would know, you just know stuff because you hear talk Kim," Jessica said. She knew she didn't know Ryan well herself but she couldn't understand how Kim could have a huge crush on someone she never spoke to or hung around with to know what he's like.

"Can we end this stupid conversation now?" Kim said making an end to it.

Jessica left Kim's room and went into her own room to do some homework she had that was due in the next day. Sarah had her bedroom door open and seem Jessica leaving Kim's room and went herself to go speak to Kim.

"Hey Kim," Sarah said as she walked into her room and sat down.

"Hey," Kim said looking a bit confused, Sarah never usually came in and started to speak to her. For about ten minutes they talked causally about school and family life.

"Jessica was with Elliot again today? Wasn't she?" Sarah asked getting to the point as to why she was there, to investigate and find out if Elliot and Jessica were together.

"Yeah she was," Kim replied.

"Is there anything going on between them? They are always meeting up just the two of them," Sara asked.

Kim felt awkward trying to answer this question. She knew that nothing was happening, but she did know that they both liked each other, "No they are just real close friends".

"So she hasn't mentioned anything to you then?" Sarah asked. She knew that if Jessica was to tell anyone that it would be Kim she'd tell.

"No," Kim replied, "If there was anything going on I'm sure she would have told me," Kim said hoping Sarah would stop asking lots of questions.

"I suppose," Sarah said, she could tell that she wasn't going to find out anything form Kim because either she genuinely did not know or she was covering for Jessica.

"Why you asking anyway?" Kim asked intrigued as to what brought this one.

"Just always wondered because they are always spending time together just the two of them, it's like they are trying to keep it all secret. Maybe because they don't want me to know considering Jessica is my sister and Elliot is my ex boyfriend," Sarah replied.

"So if they were together would you be upset?" Kim asked.

Sarah was beginning to think that Kim might actually know something before she was asking if she would be upset if Jessica and Elliot were together.

"I would be upset that they didn't tell me," Sarah sad leaving it at that because she hoped that if they were together that Kim would tell them that, and maybe, just maybe they would tell Sarah.

After about another five minutes of normal conversations Sarah left and was now even more unsure whether Jessica and Elliot were together or just good friends.