Okay guys, I finally got the time to finish the manga, and since then this little one shot was begging to come out from my brain. PLEASE DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU HAVE NOT READ MANGA, THERE ARE SPOILERS. I HAVE CAUTIONED YOU READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.
This is two hours of me furiously typing to get words out, sitting in the clinic between treating patients, just because this story was not leaving my head. This is my first time actually writing anything. Please enjoy. And I'm sorry for mistakes. #KageHina. This is going to be a one shot only.
I have to get better. I HAVE TO GET BETTER AND STRONGER.
I have to get better and stronger for him.
Its hard, not the practice, practice is good. What's hard is the loneliness. Yeah I make friends easily. Yeah, it's fun and new. I don't regret my choices, but it's hard. I'm fine most of the days, practising, improving, but then there comes the night, knocking me on my ass with waves of homesickness. I miss everyone, I miss him. I left him behind, I needed to, but it left my heart in pieces. He never asked me to stay. Well he did once, in the darkness of the night, I was almost asleep, he thought I wouldn't hear him, his sad voice pulling at my heart making it much more harder for me, " sho, I wish you didn't have to go, but I know you do, I can't be the one to stop you. I can't be that person. All I ask is that you come back to me. I need you here to remind me who I am. You make me better. You make me feel like I can conquer the world. I love you. "
It was harder beacuse anybody who knows him knows he doesn't speak this much, it's hard for him to show his emotions, so for this for him to even say, even though he thought I was asleep, was more than what I could take. Lord knows how I manged to control my tears.
I almost replied. I almost told him that I wouldn't go. But I couldn't do that. I was doing this for me, for us. He understood, I know he did. I think he's the only one who ever did. Everybody else thought I'm crazy, or wasting my time. He understood me better than anyone, but nevertheless it didn't make it any easier.
I sighed, it's a new day, sun is shining, everything is bright and beautiful. Time for me to start my day. I'm always exited in the mornings. New opportunities to learn are always around the corner.
The reason I'm here, Beach volleyball, soo different, soo exciting, soo fun. I want to become better and better, so that when I step on the court the next time, nobody will doubt me, nobody will question whether I should even be there.
I spend my whole day, everyday polishing my skills, and working. The challenge of playing on the beach, is soo exciting. I was vibrating with energy, with happiness. This unrelenting environment, looks inviting, makes you say " It's going to be easy. " That point in time, that moment you say it, the sand, the wind, and even the sun, will laugh and make you regret for ever taking them lightly.
Two years, its been two long years since I've met him, talked to him. Two years of not hearing his voice, his shy laugh, his" hinata, you dumbass ". But I can't just go and have him back. First I have to show him how much I've changed. I will blow him away. And then, only then I'll reclaim my love.
We talked here and there a little bit but the time difference and distance made it hard. We both needed to focus on ourselves, this is what we had to sacrifice. It was too painful sometimes but neither of us told each other anything, we suffered silently, neither of us wanting to see the other person sad. Whatever little we did talk we tried to keep each other upbeat. But after a couple of months of me leaving our communication almost stopped, to be honest it felt like it was for the better, what was to point of feeling all this pain. Knowing the other person is upset, because of you, only brought us more sadness. A lot of things left unsaid.
SCHWEIDEN ADLERS V/S MSBY BLACK JACKALS
FOURTH SET
Finally, yes, yes, yes.
" Bokuto-San, you are amazing" I screamed as bokuto-san scores us our set point effectively winning our match. And then I laughed, like everything I've worked soo hard for, every sacrifice, seems worth it in face of this feeling. I turned around towards the net, Tobio already facing me. We both smiled, Heart racing, a little teary eyed.
Kageyama said, merely stating a fact, "you're back".
"I'M BACK" I smiled soo big, I couldn't control it.
At that moment, suddenly the whole atmosphere changed, the world faded away. It didn't matter where we were, who was watching. All that mattered was Tobio, Tobio my best friend, my love, the one I left behind.
He kept staring and then, he moved. Rules be damned. The world be damned. He started walking towards me, ducking the net, like we were being pulled towards each other. I couldn't move, me, Hinata Shoyou, who never stood still, who needed to be in motion always, was stuck, mesmerised watching him.
He pulled me closer and the dam broke, we kissed each other like our lives depended on it. It was like I was drowning, and he was the breath of fresh air I needed to survive. He's still soo tall. Me on my toes. Him holding me against his chest, trying to bring each other as physically close as we can. My hands in his hair, the silky smooth hair, pulling, kneading. Tears mixing with our kisses, both of ours. Pouring our love for each other in that single kiss.
We finally pulled apart, still holding each other, kageyama tenderly holding my face, me leaning into his touch, closing my eyes.
Kageyama declared, " I love you, Shoyou."
Too overwhelmed by being in his arms I struggled to get words out, " I love you too Tobio"
He replied as if still not believing I was there in flesh right in front of him, thick with emotions he never showed openly, " you came back."
I opened my eyes looking at him directly, " For you Bakageyama, always."
Laughter erupted from both our chests, I don't think anybody has ever seen kageyama laugh. Such a beautiful sound. Kageyama chuckled out loud, " you stupid tangerine. " it was not an insult, if anything it was a term of endearment he started using sometimes, after we got together in high school.
" I'm never leaving you again T." we leaned our heads on each other. Then we heard someone trying to clear his throat to get our attention. The moment over. When we turned around, everybody was looking at us. Our teammates certainly shocked, looking at us like how I look at anything to do with studies. Utterly confused. Like this is some alien situation you cannot process. Information overload.
A voice rang out, "damn you dumbasses, what are you trying to do making me cry?" I looked up and Sugawara San was screaming , laughing. I could see whole karasuno team cheering. Our friends, our family. I laughed, not even a bit embarrassed.
We went back to our teams, both teams thanking each other, shaking hands. We both knew there will be plenty of questions, but none of that mattered right now.
After we left the arena we met up with everyone who came to watch us from karasuno, along with other friends we made on the way. We decided to have dinner together and catch up.
We spent hours laughing and crying, acting like how we always did. Even Ukai sensei and Takeda sensei came. I sat next to Tobio, too close, both of us feeling the need to touch each other, just to know we are here. Nobody said anything. What was there to say.
At this moment our journey has merely started but together we can do anything. At last it feels like parts of me are finally complete.
