Hey I decided to do something a little but differnt with this chapter and do it form the point of view of Jessica. I did this a few times in my first story, but I haven't done it in this one yet, so I thought I would give it a try. Let me know what you think and if i should do it again and what Character's point of view you would like it to be from. Sorry that this chapter is a little short.

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Chapter 38

Jessica POV

I was still in shock I couldn't believe what I had just witnessed. Ryan and Elliot fighting and it was all because of me. Everyone there watching was staring at me now and I could hear their remarks as they blamed me and called me all sort of names but I tried my best to block it out. I knew that what they were saying was right though. I had to sort this out and I had to sort it now.

"Where are you going?" Emily asked.

"I need to try sort this out it's all my fault," I said as she left.

As I approached the changing rooms Sarah was heading back towards the basketball court, "There in there if you're here to try and sort it out". This was the first time Sarah had actually spoken to me since she found out about me and Elliot.

I felt so nervous as I approached the changing room. I had no idea what I was going to say. I knew nothing that I said would make this situation any better.

I took a deep breath as I entered the changing room, "I am so so sorry to both of you what I did to you both there is no excuse. But please don't take it out on each other it's me you should be blaming". I just blurted out the first thing that came to into my mind.

"Oh I hold you very much responsible," Elliot interrupted. Elliot looked really mad, I had never seen him this mad before.

"Let her finish," Ryan said raising his voice.

"You two really have no reason to hate each other it's me who is in the wrong and you have no idea how awful I feel for what I have put you through and everything I have caused," I continued.

"But why Jess, I thought what we had was special?" Elliot asked. The was the first time he had spoken to me since he found out about Ryan. I froze for a few seconds, I didn't know how to answer that question, I knew what I had with Elliot was special but I also knew what I had with Ryan was special too. The truth was I didn't know why I did what I did.

"I don't know Elliot that is the truth, I fell for Ryan too," I said, trying my best to tell the truth but as honest as I was beig I could tell by the expression on Elliot's face that he didn't believe me.

"But we were so close. I didn't even look at another girl while your cheating on me with him," Elliot replied looking angry.

"Cheating! How the hell did she cheat on you. You were never in a relationship, you told her you couldn't even be friends," Ryan shouted, "Don't ever say she cheated on you again because that is not the case!"

"Why are you so upset about all of this because you seem to know all about me and seem to know that me and Jessica had something special yet your upset and surprised that she still wanted to be with me. How do you think I feel I didn't know anything about you!"

I didn't know what I could say to stop this all I knew was that I had made these two people hate each other when really they didn't even know each other properly. Come to think of it they were both very similar and they would probably have gotten along very well if it hadn't been for me. Maybe that is why I fell for them both.

"Well I suppose Jessica finds it easier to be honest with me," Ryan replied. Ryan was right I did find it easy to be honest with him and I found it easier to talk to him about Elliot then I did anyone else because he never once judged me for getting with my sister ex.

"Guys! Stop it!" I shouted. I couldn't handle watching them at each other's throats.

"Well we just want to know who is it you really want to be with?" Elliot asked.

"What does it matter neither of you want me now," I replied. How could they after what I had done to them.

I knew that I wasn't going to be able to fix this just now and I left the changing room. I felt awful that I couldn't even give them the answer of who I really wanted, but how could I answer them when I don't even know myself. Elliot was the first boy I ever properly liked and he made me feel so special and always knew how to put a smile on my face, but then Ryan was one of the first boys I properly trusted and felt that I could speak to him about anything. I knew that he use to properly trust me too, he made me nervous and gave me butterflies in my stomach.

Was it possible to be in love with two people at once. This was the first time I had even admitted it to myself but I was in love but the only problem was I was in love with two people.

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