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Chapter 39
Jessica arrived home and went straight to her room. Right now she just wanted to be alone, she was already embarrassed enough after the showdown at the basketball game today because she knew everyone blamed her and they were right because it was all her fault.
Jake had arrived home about ten minutes later and went to the kitchen to get a drink of juice, Tom was sitting there reading the paper.
"Hey there Jake how was the game?" An interested Tom asked.
"Eventful," Jake replied and began to drink orange juice out of the bottle.
"Jake stop that, you know that you should pour that in a glass because other people drink that too," Kate said as she walked into the kitchen and seen Jake drinking out the bottle.
"Sorry," Jake said under his breath.
"What made the game eventful?" Tom asked.
"Jessica actually," Jake replied.
"Jessica what did she do?" Kate asked with a look of concern on her face.
"Well she didn't do anything. But as you know both Elliot and Ryan are on the team and they weren't passing the ball to each other and eventually they started shouting at each other, Ryan was saying he treated Jessica better than Elliot did. Then they basically got into a fight and both got sent off and I think they are suspended from the team now," Jake explained to his parents.
"I had better speak to Jessica," Kate said. She was concerned about Jessica but she was under the impression that Elliot and Ryan must of both still liked her or else they wouldn't be fighting over her.
"Was Sarah at the game?" Tom asked Jake.
"Yeah she was there but she wasn't playing because she is injured," Jake replied.
Dinner game and again it was a very awkward meal with minimal conversation as Sarah, Kim and Jessica ignored each other again and the boys said very little.
After Dinner Sarah was going to meet Ethan she thought that she still had a lot to speak about with him since she hadn't spoken to him properly in a week.
Ethan had invited Sarah round to his house and she had met him round the corner from her house as she wasn't too sure where exactly his house was.
"Well I asked someone the story about your sister Jessica and Elliot and they filled me in," Ethan said since earlier Sarah had told him ask anyone because they are bound to have heard the story.
"I still can't believe that you hadn't already heard the story," Sarah replied.
"Are you ok with everything after the fight and that at the game today?" Ethan asked. Ethan was quite shocked when he found out because he didn't even know that Sarah had gone out with Elliot before.
"Yeah I'm fine. It was a little weird to watch as they fought over my sister I must say," Sarah replied. They got to Ethan's house and no one was in as his parents were out to the movies with his younger brother.
"You know you can talk to me. Anything you say to me I'll keep to myself I promise," Ethan said to Sarah. Sarah wasn't good at opening up to people and she had only know Ethan for a short time. She wanted to be honest with him but she just wasn't sure if she could trust him because she barley knew him.
Sarah tried her best to keep a straight face, "Sarah I can tell that this whole thing is upsetting you," Ethan could see the sadness in Sarah's eyes. He felt sorry for her because he could tell she was upset and angry but he also knew that she kept in all inside and didn't share her thoughts with anyone else.
"I still can't believe that Jessica would do that to me," Sarah said as she began to open up to Ethan. Ethan was so nice and sweet he just made Sarah feel safe and she was pretty sure that he was a really nice guy and that she could trust him, "I trusted her, I opened up to her and told her how I felt about Elliot".
"If you don't mind me asking how did you feel about Elliot?" Ethan asked.
Sarah found it awkward to tell Ethan about her ex and the way she felt about him but she thought she was best to be honest, "Well during the summer at the lake I still liked Elliot but as much as I liked him I didn't want to be with him because he had hurt me to much times already. He had lost my trust and I knew I needed to move on from him. I told Jessica that I still liked him". This was the first time Sarah had properly told her side of the story she had to admit it did feel good letting out her true feelings on the situation.
"I knew how close Jessica and Elliot were and I asked if they was anything going on but everytime they told me no. But I could see it myself that liked each other. I could tell by the way Elliot looked at Jessica, he looked at her the same way he use to look at me, and Jessica well she was joint at the hip with Kim but when she started to really distance herself from Kim because she liked Elliot. She was genially just much more happy. The term head over heels come to mind," Sarah continued.
Ethan was actually quite surprised that he got Sarah talking and opening up, he quite honestly thought, that she would never open up to him. Sarah was surprised by herself as to how honest she was being.
"I always knew it was coming but the day I seen them kiss was the worst day ever. I was so upset and heartbroken, I was angry that they would do that to me and upset because I still liked Elliot and there is nothing worse than watching someone you like move when it's with your sister. Elliot moved here and they continued to lie to me and never told me they were together," Sarah explained, "Although in their defence I don't think they were in a relationship but they wanted to be, they jsut didn't want to upset me".
"You say they didn't want to upset you. That shows that they both cared about you," Ethan stated. Sarah had never thought about it like that. She had always seen it be that they were too scared to tell her rather than that they actually might have cared about her.
"I just can't see myself forgiven them right now especially Jessica. She is family and she should have told me," Sarah said, "But I have been able to speak to Elliot but I can't even look at Jessica. I am more upset with her".
"Maybe it's because Elliot has hurt you in the past so you're not so shocked that he has hurt you again whereas with Jessica you didn't expect it so that makes it worse," Ethan replied. Sarah was surprised by how much sense Ethan was making that probably was the reason that she was finding it harder to speak to Jessica.
Sarah had to admit she did feel a lot better after being opening up to Ethan and it felt good to have just let it all out. Sarah arrived home to find Elliot standing outside her house.
"What are you doing here?" Sarah asked surprised to find him there.
"I don't know whether to speak to Jessica or not?" Elliot said, "I managed to get all the way over here but I couldn't knock on the door. I don't know if I'm ready to speak to her yet".
Sarah could see that Elliot was really hurt, "I'll go get her," Sarah replied she thought it would be best that Jessica spoke to Elliot because Elliot probably had some unanswered questions.
Sarah went inside and asked Mike to get Jessica because she didn't want to speak to her. Jessica went to the front door and was surprised to find Elliot there.
"I didn't think you were talking to me anymore?" Jessica said as she went outside and shut the door behind her.
"Neither did I," Elliot laughed, "But I couldn't ignore you forever". Jessica was happy that Elliot was finally speaking to her.
"Your eye and lip looks sore," Jessica said as Elliot had a black eye and a swollen lip from the fight he and with Ryan.
"It looks worse than it is," Elliot replied.
"I've missed not being able to talk to you," Jessica said.
"I have too but I was so surprised when I found out about Ryan. I did not see that coming," Elliot replied. Jessic knew that eventually she was going to have to explain herself to Elliot.
"I never meant for any of this to happen. You obviously know how I feel about you, but I fell for Ryan too. I think part of the reason I fell for him was because part of me knew that me and you would never properly be together and that hurt me," Jessica explained. She knew that her and Elliot would never be together because it was all too complicated.
Elliot could see where Jessica was coming from because he knew that if he really wanted her then he should have just been honest and not kept it all hidden from Sarah.
"I know you have mentioned Ryan before a few times but I would never have thought that you were with him," Elliot said, "But then again it makes sense why else did he invite you Basketball games, why else would he put his arm around you when you were walking with him," it started to make sense to him now as he thought about that.
"Ryan doesn't know this but to be honest I mentioned Ryan in front of you a few times before to try and make you jealous. I hoped that you wouldn't want to see me with anyone else so that would make you want me," Jessica confessed to Elliot. Elliot felt a little smug and felt like he had one up on Ryan since Jessica had admitted just using him.
"So do you even like Ryan then?" Elliot asked.
"Well that's the thing it may have started out as us just being study partners and then I used him to make you jealous but I actually fell for him," Jessica admitted. Jessica felt awful telling Elliot that because she could see hoe heartbroken he looked.
"Now that I've been honest with you, I need you to be honest with me," Jessica said as Elliot looked at her confused.
"Be honest with you how?" Elliot thought he had been honest with Jessica.
"It's not just me you need to be honest with its yourself as well," Jessica began to say, "I know you said that the reason you didn't want to be in a relationship with me was because you didn't want to hurt Sarah, I also think it is because you are not over Sarah, you are still in love with her". Jessica had tried telling herself for ages now that Elliot didn't still liked Sarah but she knew all along that he did.
Elliot looked shocked; he hadn't even admitted that to himself. But maybe Jessica was right, maybe he didn't want to hurt Sarah because he still had feelings for her.
Jessica knew that Elliot wouldn't admit anything to her just now but she could tell that she had got him thinking. Maybe he did belong with Sarah and all along she had just been in the way causing complications. Jessica felt bad but she couldn't help how she felt she couldn't imagine not seeing Elliot everyday and she had hated these last few days of not being able to speak to him. Thoughts were running through Jessica's head, what if he got back with Sarah? How could I watch them be happy together, wouldn't I always be jealous? What if it's Ryan I belong with and not Elliot how can I forget about Elliot when he lives across the street? What if I had totally messed everything up and I was going to lose both of them?
Elliot spoke and broke her chain of thought, "Jessica I know all of this is so messed up right now but I just want you to know that I love you and a part of me will always love you no matter what happens".
Jessica couldn't believe she had heard the words come out of Elliot's mouth. He had said he loved her.
"I love you too Elliot," Jessica smiled, "I've loved every minute of the time I've spent with you. You've been like my drug I know it's wrong and I shouldn't have crossed that line but I couldn't stay away, you are my addiction".
"I feel the same way," Elliot replied, "I had better go thought I's getting late, plus I'm not really suppose to be out. My dad is not happy with me getting into a fight".
Elliot left and Jessica went back inside. She had felt a lot better now that she had spoken to Elliot but she was still confused because she loved both Elliot and Ryan, the question was who did she love more.
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