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Chapter 48

Elliot could tell that he had upset Jessica after telling her she was another one of his bad decisions that he made in life but he never meant it to hurt her. Jessica had stormed off towards the hotel, Elliot really wanted to chase after her but he could already tell that everyone had been watching and he didn't want to make more of a scene by chasing after her but he knew a scene was the last thing Jessica would have wanted.

Jake had noticed that Jessica has looked really upset, "Hey Elliot what's wrong with Jessica?" Jake asked.

The last person Elliot wanted to talk about this was Jake and although Jake was his best friend it wasn't exactly easy to talk to him about his sisters in the current situation, and telling him that he more or less called Jessica a bad decision in his life probably wasn't the best thing to tell Jake.

"Nothing really I think Jessica just kinds misunderstood what I said or more maybe it came out a bit wrong when I said it," Elliot said to Jake, tying to tell him what happened but without telling him too much.

"What exactly did you say?" Jake asked.

"I was kind of just saying how I always make bad decision in life and she asked was I a bad decisions and I said well yeah because getting with you ex's sisters isn't really a great decision, but I think she took it too heart," Elliot explained.

"I had better go talk to her then," Jake said as he headed inside to go speak to his sister. Elliot could tell that Jake was annoyed with him, although Jake had always played it cool as he didn't want to lose Elliot as a friend again, Elliot knew that Jake probably just really wanted to punch him sometimes for hurting his sisters.

"No wait," Elliot said as he caught up with Jake, "I should probably go I need to explain what it was that I actually meant".

"Well I'm coming with you because I don't want to see you upsetting my little sister again," Jake said as he decided he it was his responsibility to look out for his sister.

"Seriously dude you don't need to, I won't upset her any more I just need to explain myself and apologise," Elliot said as he didn't exactly want Jake to hear what it was that he wanted to say.

"I just want to check on her first make sure she is alright," Jake replied as he was adamant he was wasn't leaving Elliot to do it in case he made it worse.

They were now upstairs standing in the hallway outside Jessica's room.

"Look you just stay quiet and pretend you're not here because if you've upset her and she knows your here she probably won't open the door!" Jake said to Elliot to which he agreed to.

"Hey Jess it's Jake," He said as he knocked on the door, "I just want to make sure you're okay!"

"Please just leave, I want to be alone," Jessica replied, Jake could hear it in her voice that she was crying. It made Jake really mad that Elliot had really upset his sister as he hated seeing any of them cry but recently he had seen it a lot and it was mostly because of Elliot. Jake found it quite difficult as times to just bite his tongue and say nothing to Elliot but at the end of the day he didn't want to lose his friend and what good would it do shouting at him. Jake knew that Elliot was hurting too and although he probably hadn't cried in front of him he probably had his fair share of tears too over the last few months.

"Jess please I hate seeing you this upset just open the door," Jake asked again. Elliot really wanted to just apologise but he decided he was best just listening to Jake and not saying anything because there was more chance of Jessica letting them in that way.

After a couple minutes Jessica finally opened the door, "You never said he was here," Jessica said referring to Elliot.

"I know I did tell him to wait downstairs but he insisted on coming so I just told him to keep his mouth shut as I didn't think you would open the door if you knew he was here," Jake explained.

"Jessica I want to explain that when I said you were a bad decision it didn't mean I regret anything, all I was saying was that initially it was a bad decision sometimes bad decisions can turn out to be the best ones," Elliot said as he tried to explain that he didn't see her as a mistake.

"Jake could you give us a few minutes?" Jessica asked her brother.

"You sure?"

"Yeah please I'll be fine," Jessica reassured her brother.

"Okay but I'll just be waiting downstairs," Jake said as he left the room.

Elliot sat next to Jessica on the edge of her bed and continued to explain himself.

"I was only trying to say that I always screw things up and make bad decisions in life and yeah initially choosing to get with your ex's sister isn't exactly a great decision from the point of view that I knew it would upset Sarah but I'm really glad that I did make that decision because you're one of the most amazing people I have ever met and I know things are complicated and you don't know what you want and I don't know what I want but at this minute in time I know one thing I really want," Elliot said as he leant forward and kissed Jessica, Jessica kissed him back and she could feel that she had butterflies in her stomach, in one sense it felt so right and she was so happy but in another she felt really bad and thought this was wrong.

"Well I guess you could say your apology had been accepted," Jessica smiled as she leant forward and kissed Elliot again.

For that moment everything felt right Jessica felt like she was the only girl in the world and had forgotten about everything else that has happened. Jessica looked at Elliot and could see it in his eyes that he did really love her but then when she blinked she could see Ryan's face when he found out about her and Elliot and she could see the hurt she caused and how she broke his heart because he too loved her. For that moment everything had felt so perfect but then reality sunk in and it wasn't perfect because then there was Ryan.

Jessica snuggled up next to Elliot and neither of them had said as word after them passionately kissing. Elliot kissed Jessica's head as he pulled her in closer to her, he too had felt that everything was perfect in that moment but also knew he couldn't bring himself to go downstairs and tell Sarah what had just happened because he would hurt him too much to see Sarah hurt.

"We're just back at square one again," Jessica said breaking the silence.

"What do you mean?" Elliot asked.

"Well we just go around in circles we basically confess that we like each other, act like we're together then we feel bad about it and say it shouldn't happen again, we're both confused I feel bad because of Ryan and you feel bad because of Sarah, we then distance ourselves form each other but then we'll end up back here again and the whole cycle repeats itself," Jessica explained.

She was right and something had to change the cycle has to be broken.

"The only part you missed out of there is at some point in that cycle you start kissing and confessing your love for him," Elliot said referring to Ryan "the difference with me and Sarah is we only talk as friends."

"Why because your both too scared to admit the truth that you both have feeling for each other," Jessica stated, "If she kissed you, you would kiss her back wouldn't you?"

Elliot avoided answering the question, first of all because he couldn't actually imagine Sarah kissing him at the moment.

"That got me thinking actually, what if Sarah has been more upfront in the past like what if she flirted with you and stuff unlike what she did and distance herself would you still have let yourself get close to me? Was I just a distraction?" Jessica asked Elliot, she had never really thought of it like that, Sarah never flirted with Elliot at all since they broke up she never acted like she wanted him whether she did or not.

"You know you weren't a distraction like come on Jessica, we started talking properly after we were in the forest looking for Mike, I didn't exactly think when that night began that by the next day I would have feeling about you and not be able to get you out of my head did I? And you know something actually you were the first person that took my attention off of Sarah," Elliot knew he was to blame for Mike running away that night due to him causing all the problems between him and Jake and Sarah but when he thought about one bit of good did come out of that whole situation Jessica. If Mike has never run away he would have never got to spend all that time with Jessica that night and properly get to know her like he did then.

"Anyway Jessica this has to stop!" Elliot moved the conversation on, "Every time we start enjoying a moment together we then start arguing over things like Sarah and Ryan. We never just enjoy it we always ruin it, like now we're both just going to leave this room angry and upset!"

"Well then Elliot why don't you just make up your mind, you either want to be with me or you don't?" Jessica asked, "I don't want to be your dirty little secret anymore!"

"You're not my dirty little secret anymore everything is out in the open now!" Elliot replied. He didn't answer Jessica's question because being honest he couldn't.

"Well I was your dirty little secret, and everything is out in the open then why don't you just go downstairs and tell everyone including Sarah what just happened!" Elliot was silent and didn't say anything he didn't know what to say, "Exactly you won't because I am just your little secret!"

Jessica started thinking Elliot treated Jessica like she was his bit on the side that no one else could know about however Ryan he wouldn't do that he would tell everyone he wouldn't act like he was ashamed like Elliot did. She knew the circumstances were different because everyone was against her and Elliot as they thought it was wrong and maybe it was but if they really loved each other would it matter. Jessica was at the stage now that she didn't feel she had to hide her and Elliot's relationship but he still felt he had to.

"Let's be honest Elliot we will never work if your ashamed of me," Jessica said.

"I'm not ashamed of you why would you say that?" Elliot was confused.

"You're ashamed of us, you didn't want anyone to know because you knew it was wrong to get with your ex's sister but sometimes things that are wrong happen and in the end it all turns out alright but it never will with us because your too ashamed of the fact that you did that, that you hurt someone by getting with her sister. And you know what it hurt me too doing that to Sarah but it's done now and everyone hates me everyone thinks I'm a selfish bitch but no one is saying anything about you so if I can get over it then why can't you!"

"I'm not ashamed at all Jess, I never would be ashamed of you," Elliot pleaded with Jessica.

Jessica knew he would never admit it, "Okay if you're not ashamed then go on downstairs go tell everyone how much I mean to you!"

Elliot startled he couldn't find his words.

"That's all I needed to hear," Jessica said before she opened the door for Elliot to leave.

Jessica shut the door behind Elliot and jumped onto her bed and cried like she had never cried before, her world had come crashing down, reality had finally hit, her and Elliot had no chance ever of being happy together not when he couldn't admit his feeling to anyone else other than her.

Elliot stood still in the corridor he could hear Jessica's sobs through the door, as a tear run down his cheek, Elliot knew Jessica deserved better she deserved someone who would tell the world how much he loved her not someone like him who was too much of a coward and didn't want to hurt anyone else when all he was doing was breaking the heart of a girl who practically meant the world to him.

Jake got out the lift and walked onto the corridor where he could see Elliot and he could tell that he was upset.

"What wrong dude?" Jake asked.

"I think me and Jessica are officially over!" Elliot answered.

Jake didn't really know what to say was this good news or bad news he wasn't sure but what he did know was his little sisters heart would have been broken but he knew that this meant Sarah didn't have to watch her sister be with a guy she had feelings for.

"It is defiantly over for sure?" Jake asked.

"Well yeah or unless I, it doesn't matter?!" Elliot stopped mid sentence.

"Unless you what?" Jake wanted to know what Elliot was going to say.

"Unless I properly move on from Sarah and tell her straight that I love Jessica, or well tell the whole world that! But the truth is I still love Sarah too and I don't think I can do that!" Elliot explained.

"Does Sarah know that?" Jake asked.

"I don't know!" Elliot didn't have a clue.

"I ruined everything with Sarah anyway I've had way to many chances and I ruin it every time so what does it matter," Elliot continued.

"Maybe you should talk to her!" he suggested he knew Sarah still loved Elliot.

Elliot got in the lift and headed downstairs. Meanwhile Jake headed to Jessica's room. After pleading at the door again Jessica finally let him in. She had black circles around her eyes from where her mascara had run off due to her tears.

Jake didn't know what to say he hugged his sister and she cried her heart out.

"I really loved him Jake, he was my first love! How do I get over him? How did I manage to fall in love with someone who was too ashamed to tell everyone about me and why was I stupid enough to let myself fall in love with him, I've always known he will never want to be with me. He wouldn't do that to Sarah!" Jessica had made Jake's hoddie wet from all her tears.

"Look Elliot is my friend and I hate watching him hurt my two sister and there had been so many occasions where I just want to punch him but I never wanted to lose my best friend again but I could tell that he really did love you too and I just think you should know that!" Jake said as he tried to comfort Jessica, "I think he's just not over Sarah!"

"If Sarah did love him then why didn't she fight for him? She never acted like she wanted him!" Jessica stated.

"I don't know I don't think she wants to love Elliot but she does!" Jake replied, "What about Ryan?"

Jessica let out a little smile, "I love Ryan too but I think my love for Elliot was stronger because I have spent a lot more time with him and I really like Ryan but then there is Kim and I need time to get over Elliot I think. But I don't want to lose him that's for sure," Jessica was so confused right now she didn't even know what she wanted. One thing she knew was he though of Ryan put a smile on her face that had to count for something she felt like the Elliot situation didn't let her properly fall for Ryan like she might have if her and Elliot had never happened.

"What if Elliot went and told Sarah he wanted you then what?" Jake didn't know what Elliot was going to tell Sarah, there conversation had left it very open he could have been going to tell her he wanted Jessica or he could have been going to tell he still loved her.

Jessica didn't respond as she honestly didn't know, all Jake knew was by the look on Elliot's face he was defiantly away to tell Sarah he either loved her more and her or he loved Jessica more and wanted Jessica. Jake honestly didn't have a clue which of the two it would be.

Thanks for reading, I have written the next chapter but I just want to know your guys thought on what you think Elliot should do as I may change it a little!