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Chapter 49
Elliot headed downstairs in the hotel and outside to where Sarah was sitting. He still had couple tears coming down his face but right now he couldn't care. Elliot still wasn't sure what exactly he was going to tell Sarah how was he going to put it all into words. How would she react? This was going to change everything, what he was going to say was going to leave someone really hurt.
Elliot's hands were shaking he could barely walk properly as his legs had turned to Jelly. He felt like he was away to pass out. Elliot couldn't get the vision of Jessica crying out of his head he could see her face in his head now, full of sadness as Jake tried to comfort her. It was enough to make him want to cry as well. It was always Jake who was left to pick up the pieces of Elliot's mess he was actually really surprised that Jake was still his friend he knew that someone like that doesn't come along very often.
"Elliot there you are where have you been?" Kenneth asked as he bumped into him in the reception of the hotel. Elliot continued to walk towards the BBQ outside he hadn't even noticed Kenneth speaking to him he as too focused on speaking to Sarah as he went over and over in his head what exactly he was going to say but every time he got lost for words or it didn't sound great.
Elliot got outside and there Sarah was sitting smiling and laughing as she joked around with Henry, Mark and Charlie. She was none the wiser of what had been going on for the last hour, Elliot and Jessica's half an hour worth of making out to then end up arguing and now Jessica was crying her heart out upstairs in the hotel.
Elliot realised just how happy Sarah looked she was enjoying the day and making the most of it like she didn't have a care in the world, but Elliot knew all that would change after he spoke to her. After he told her what was going through his mind and something he should have told her a very long time ago before everything escalated. Before all the lies and betrayal, before too many people got hurt.
The sun was shining and it was really hot outside, a drop of sweat fell from Elliot's forehead as he was so nervous, he was even more nervous than when he first asked Sarah out. Now that he thought of it he was really cool and relaxed then and even on their first date to the cinema when Jimmy and Tom decided to spy on them and ruin the whole thing. Maybe that was a sign that say of how disastrous things would turn out.
Elliot kept his eyes on Sarah's as he walked towards her and Sarah had now noticed Elliot staring at her as he got closer and closer towards her. Actually just about everyone had noticed Elliot staring and approaching Sarah. Charlie, Henry and Mark had taken that as a hint that they should probably leave and let the two of them talk alone.
Sarah had never seen Elliot so serious she could see the look in his eye that he was nervous she had no idea what he was going to say or do. Sarah didn't know whether he was really angry and she had done something wrong to upset him or whether he just had a really serious look on his face. Sarah's heart started racing the closer and closer Elliot got as she was nervous as she had no idea what was about to happen.
"Sarah we need to talk," Elliot said as he broke the silence.
"What's wrong that was so intense you walking over hear has something happened?" Sarah asked as she was concerned as she had never seen Elliot this serious before.
"No I just really need to tell you something, that I should have told you a long time ago," Elliot said, his breathing was becoming faster as he was getting more and more nervous.
"Sarah I know I have been such a jerk and I have caused so many problems with you and Jessica but now it's got to end, this can't keep going on," Elliot began.
"Elliot just spit it out what are you actually trying to tell me?" Sarah didn't want to hear Elliot blabbing on and she just wanted to hear what his point was.
"Sarah I still love you, I never stopped loving you!" Elliot confessed.
Sarah's froze she was lost for words she didn't know what to say part of her was over the moon and part of her was so mad. Sarah tried to find words but she couldn't she was lost for words she didn't even know how to react to this, was this all she ever wanted or was this really what she didn't want she had finally began to move on and accept Jessica and Elliot and now this?
"Nobody feels the way I do about you, and I have so much stuff that I have wanted to say to you but I just didn't have the guts to do it," Elliot said, "Sarah please say something"
Sarah's jaw had dropped she was in disbelief.
"Sarah I know things haven't worked with us in the past but we can make this work we just go so well together," Elliot had no idea what Sarah was thinking since she hadn't said anything Elliot had never seen Sarah so quiet before.
"After everything you think I'm just going to turn around with open arms and welcome you back into my life like that as if everything will go back to the way it was before Sophie, before your lies, before you basically tore my family apart and made my little brother run away. Oh and most of all you got with my little sister behind my back and tried to keep it hidden from and now you tell me you love me and we belong together. Did you seriously think I was just going to say yeah like that?" Sarah was really mad she couldn't believe he would just think she would take him back like that.
"Whatever even gave you the idea that I wanted you back?" Sarah asked.
"Well why else would you be so upset about Jessica and me if you didn't want me back, you wouldn't fall out with your little sister and stop speaking to her completely unless she had took something form you that you still wanted," Elliot was sure that Sarah had still wanted him.
"I was upset because she was my sister and morally it is wrong to get with your sisters ex especially one who caused your entire family to fall out, I needed time to get over you but instead I see you kissing my sister at the lake then you move here keep meeting up with Jessica telling me you two are just friends when really you two were probably laughing behind my back as I looked like the idiot as you two acted the happy couple. It's the lies that why I was so mad did you ever stop to think things might have been different if you had just told me upfront!" Sarah had never properly got to tell Elliot how much he had hurt her and now she was just letting everything flow out.
Elliot had not planned this to turn out this way he had visions of Sarah being over the moon and kissing him but this was the total opposite and now Elliot felt like an idiot. Not only had he made Sarah really angry but he had also left Jessica heartbroken upstairs.
"Sarah all I can say is I am so sorry and you know I never wanted to hurt you that I why I kept mine and Jessica's relationship hidden from you and now I've hurt both of you, but I never intended to do that and the last thing I want is Jessica to feel like she was just used in all of this because I do love her, but the reason I was never upfront with you and told you about Jessica was because I love you too," Elliot knew sorry wasn't good enough but he could only try and prove that he was.
"How can I be with someone who loves my sister too how can I ever trust you! Like I can't expect you to totally ignore Jessica because after all what I do know is that she was a real friend to you when you had no one else and I know I didn't agree with it at the time, but Jessica has a big heart and that's why she was there for you and you fell for each other. I get all that it happens in life but it's the lies that hurt me and what about the feeling you have for Jess are they just going to magically disappear," Sarah just couldn't see how any of this would ever work everything was way too complicated.
"Answer this one question honestly and if the answer is no I will walk away and never bother you again. Do you still love me?" Elliot just wanted to know if they had any chance at all.
"Yeah I do, I'm not going to lie because it's lies that have landed us in this situation!" Sarah decided being honest was the best thing here, "But that doesn't go to say that I want us again, maybe we do just need to move on!
"Sarah I will give you time because I'm not giving up on us not yet anyway!" Elliot replied.
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