I worked on my homework everyday I was suspended. I finished it on Saturday night. I wished I'd never miss that much school again. I would be lucky if all the work I did even brought my grade up to a C, but I would be happy with that because at least I would be passing.

With all the working I hadn't even had time to think about what I was going to say to Kyle. I guess I still had until Sunday evening, but I doubted I would think of anything good. I was just going to wing it and hope for the best. Winging it had basically become my life.

I gathered up all my homework and put it in my backpack. I didn't want to think about it anymore.

Downstairs I heard a knock on the front door. I got up an went to answer it. It was Cartman, Bebe and Wendy. "Hey guys." I let them in and closed the door behind them. "What's up?"

"We just came by to hang out." Cartman explained.

"Everyone was talking about the fire you guys started." Bebe interjected.

"Yeah, the foods teacher was pissed as fuck." Wendy smiled.

"It was all Stan's fault." Cartman pointed out.

"You shouldn't have been talking about your stupid party. Maybe then I wouldn't have been distracted." I retorted, crossing my arms.

"Oh yeah, my party!" Cartman smiled, "Lots of people are coming."

"Yeah, I'm sure that almost everyone will be there." Wendy said, she smiled. "It'll be fun." I nodded in agreement.

Cartman walked over to me. "Stan I need to talk to you about something."

"Uh, okay." I looked at him, he looked at me.

"Could you guys go outside for a minute?" Cartman asked Wendy and Bebe.

"Yeah, I have to go out my finishing touches on my costume for tomorrow anyways." Wendy said. She hugged Cartman and then gave him a kiss on the cheek before leaving with Bebe. I hadn't even thought about wearing a costume. It was probably too late now anyways, and I didn't give enough of a shit to find one either.

"Okay dude, I need your help." Cartman turned to me immediately after they left.

"With?"

"Bebe! She's been third wheeling so hard and it's annoying as fuck. You gotta help me get her get back together with Kenny so she'll leave me and Wendy alone."

I laughed. Been there, done that. Sure it was annoying, but I didn't think Kenny wanted to get back with Bebe, and I doubted we could change his mind. "No way dude, Kenny doesn't like her anymore."

"But he's Kenny, don't you think he'd at least sleep with her to distract her for a little while?" He asked.

I shrugged, "Probably, but why are you asking me this instead of just asking Kenny?"

"Two reasons. One, because Kenny lives in the ghetto and I'm not going over there and two because I have a plan and want you to help me."

"Oh god. Is this plan going to end in me getting hurt?" I questioned.

"Not if it goes well." Cartman laughed, "It'll be fine."

"What is it?"

"So tomorrow at the party, we're going to lock Bebe and Kenny in the same room." Cartman began.

"Wait, this isn't a good plan." I interrupted.

"God dammit Stan, you didn't even let me finish the plan. I need you to get Kenny in there and I'll get Bebe in there and we're going to lock them in. They're already attracted to each other anyways, so it'll work out fine. Also, even if it doesn't, Bebe will be gone for awhile." Cartman rambled on. I listened, but I doubted any of this would work.

"Okay, fine." I agreed just to get him to shut up. "I'll try my best to get Kenny to go in there."

"You need to get him in there." Cartman emphasized. "I never realized Bebe was so annoying until now."

I laughed and then smiled at him. "You'll get used to it."

"Oh my god." Cartman mumbled.

"I have to apologize to Kyle tomorrow." I told him.

"God, finally. You fags really need to get along better."

I rolled my eyes. "I guess you're right, but just this one time."

After that Cartman said he needed to leave. I guess it was to prep for his party or something.

I wondered if that plan would work. I doubted it. But I guess I'd just have to wait and see.

The next evening I was standing on Cartman's front porch with a few other people. Inside the party was already raging. Cartman came and answered the door, "I'm just gonna leave this damn door open from here on out." He propped the door open and then motioned for us to all come in.

I hadn't been to a part since New Years Eve. This party was similar, just with Halloween decorations. About half the people were dressed up, but the other half were all just in normal clothes. Everyone seemed to be having a good time.

I followed Cartman into his living room. He lead me to where Bebe and Wendy were standing and talking.

Bebe was dressed up as a cop, a sexy cop. She was wearing a low cut short black dress and knee high boots. The look was completed with the police hat, reflective sunglasses, and handcuffs that hung around a belt loop.

Wendy was dressed up as a prisoner. She had an orange jump suit that was unzipped far enough down to show off just a bit of cleavage. She was also wearing knee high boots. I could tell that Bebe had planned this, they both looked good though. I wondered if they were cold, there was about three inches of snow on the ground and they were both wearing shorts.

I was so distracted by Wendy and Bebe's costumes and the blaring music that I hadn't even realized that Cartman was talking to them. I tried to listen as best as I could, but I couldn't hear him.

I felt a tap on my shoulder and turned around to see Kenny. He was dressed as a pirate, but it was a chick pirate costume. It had a corset, and shorts that were too short for anyone sensible to wear. The only reason I knew he was supposed to be a pirate was because of the hat and the sword. Cartman burst out laughing, "Oh my god Kenny!"

"I'm Kenny, and I'm here to get all the booty." Kenny declared, snickering. We all laughed along with him. "I wanted my costume is a joke, just like my existence."

Cartman continued laughing. "Wait do you guys wanna see my costume?" He asked, we nodded. "I tried to dress up like you guys." He turned around. There was a hole cut in the back of his jeans and boxers. The part of skin that was showing had the word "fag" written in beautiful calligraphy.

"I drew it." Wendy stayed proudly. Cartman with half his ass hung out his jeans with the word fag written on it really summed him up, in my option.

Cartman laughed, "I forgot the final touch." He reached over and grabbed my hat off my head and then put it on. "Now I can be a real fag."

I rolled my eyes and laughed. "I didn't even think about getting a costume."

Cartman put his hat on my head. "You can be me."

Kenny grinned, "He'd need to gain about fifty more pounds to be you, fatass."

Cartman shook his head. "Shut up." After that I left to go find something to drink. I figured it would be easy, since everyone had cups.

I found a keg in the kitchen and got me a cup. It was warm beer, but warm beer was better than no beer. I guess I was pretty stupid because getting alcohol pinioning didn't teach me a lesson I should've learned by now. I decided I wouldn't drink too much, I still had to talk to Kyle.

I had no idea where he was though. I thought it would be easy to find him, but I guess I was wrong. I stood in the living room, sipping my beer and watching Cartman and Kenny have a karaoke contest. Everyone agreed that Kenny had won. After them more people went up to sing, it was a half drunk Clyde verses a hammered Red.

Now the party was blasting with music and poorly sung, drunken karaoke filled the small living room. I had somehow gotten lucky enough to find a place on the couch. Kenny walked over and looked at me. "Wanna share this with me? Thanks." He grabbed the cup of beer out of my hand and drank it.

"That was a dick move." I told him.

"Yeah but I'm kind of a dick so." Kenny shrugged and took another sip. "Have you talked to Kyle yet?"

"No, I haven't seen him."

"Dude I just saw him!" Kenny exclaimed. "Come on, let's go find him." I stood up and began to follow Kenny thorough Cartman's house.

Everyone was drunk and laughing. "Wanna see who's making out in the closet?" Kenny asked, stopping in front of the closed closet door. "I can almost guarantee someone's in there."

"Open it." I laughed. Kenny opened the door and inside there was Tweek and Craig. Craig flipped us off before closing the door again.

"Damn, I hoped it would've been someone besides those two. Everyone knows they're together anyways." Kenny said as he lead me to the back of Cartman's house. Then he stopped dead in his tracks. "Oh my god!"

"What? What is it?" I asked.

"Look at how hot that ass is!" He exclaimed, "I have to go over there any talk to them." He turned to me, "Watch Kenny McCormick work his magic."

I followed as Kenny walked over to the person. When we got closer I realized it was Butters.

Kenny grinned, "Hi I'm Kenny, and I'm pleased to fuck- I mean frick you. Pardon my language, it's just that, that ass is magnificent."

Butters blushed but then laughed. "I already know you Kenny."

After that I turned to leave. I still needed to find Kyle. I wandered around the house until I found him.

Kyle seemed to light up the room. He was smiling and laughing happily as he talked to Wendy in Cartman's living room. He seemed to stand out from everyone else in the sea of tipsy people. He wasn't in a costume. Ringlets of orange hair peaked out from under his hat. His eyes were the color of a glimmering emerald, they really were sparkling.

I felt a soft smile form on my lips as I watched him from afar. He looked so happy, so genuinely happy, in that moment. He was beautiful. And I had messed up our friendship. My smile turned into a frown. I was going to fix it.

I walked over and glanced between Kyle and Wendy. "Hey guys." I greeted.

"Hey Stan." Wendy chirped, smiling. I thought I heard Kyle mumble something, but I wasn't quite sure.

I smiled at Wendy before turning to Kyle. "Come with me, I have to tell you something." I told him. He looked unconvinced, but eventually I got him to follow me through Cartman's kitchen and out his back door.

Snow was falling lightly so there was no one out there with us. I turned to Kyle. "I'm sorry dude."

Kyle crossed his arms. "For?"

"Being a dick to you for the past few weeks." I answered, "I feel bad, and I miss you."

Kyle sighed, "I'm not even mad anymore. I was mad at the beginning though, but I'm over it."

"Things have just been really bad lately." I told him, putting my hands in the pockets of my jacket.

"I've noticed. Just tell me what's going on Stan." Kyle looked at me, and I looked at him. I didn't know what to say, but I had to say something. Even though Kyle said he wasn't mad anymore I knew he was still at least a little annoyed by this whole thing.

I looked at Kyle and sighed. "I really am sorry." I told him again.

Kyle sighed and dropped his arms. "I'm sorry too." He finally said, "We've both been acting like dicks."

I smiled, "Can we forget all this?" I asked him. He nodded and then we hugged. Kyle smelled good. We stood like that for a moment as the snow fell softly around us.

"Have you been drinking?" He asked suddenly, letting go of me.

"Just a little." I answered sheepishly.

Kyle groaned and then crossed his arms again. "You really need to stop drinking dude."

I shrugged, "Probably."

Kyle laughed. It was a weird laugh, it wavered through the snow. "Stan..." He started, then he trailed off. He didn't say anything else, but he looked far away. His beautiful eyes stared out into Cartman's backyard. "Remember that time my kidney's started failing when we were younger?" He asked.

"Of course I do dude." I replied, how could I forget about something like that?

"Well remember when everyone thought I was gonna die?"

"Well yeah, I was really worried. I remember crying about it to Kenny, and he was mad because he thought I wouldn't care as much if he died." Which was crazy. If Kenny died I would be upset about it, he just wasn't as close to me as Kyle was.

"Yeah, well we all thought you were going to die the other day." Kyle stated bluntly, "You really had us all worried dude. Even Cartman was concerned."

Had I really almost died? Everything around that time was blurry. I guess I could've been at death's door and not even realized it. Maybe that's why Kenny had taken my drink. He hardly ever drank, he said it reminded him too much of his parents being drunk all the time, so instead he smoked. Smoking was probably just as bad as drinking though. Maybe Kyle just worried about me because all of this shit happened so recently.

"Oh." I said in response. I didn't know what to do, I was torn. Of course I wanted Kyle to stop worrying but at the same time drinking was my only escape.

I didn't even know why I was sad anymore. Things between Kyle and I were starting to get better, Kenny and Kyle were just playing a prank, I didn't die from alcohol poisoning. I couldn't understand it, and I didn't want to think about it too much.

Kyle laughed dryly again. "That's all you have to say? Oh?"

"Look, dude, I'm sorry." My voice was softer now, and I was upset because I was stupid.

"I just want you to try to stop drinking." Kyle turned to me.

"I hadn't drank until tonight, it wasn't even that much." I defended, "Kenny took my drink anyways."

"That's good."

"Yeah, better Kenny drink than me." I said sarcastically.

I could basically hear Kyle roll his eyes. We stood in silence. The snow was starting to slow.

"Nice hat." Kyle commented.

I reached up and touched the hat. I realized it was Cartman's from earlier. I had almost forgot that we were at a party at his house.

Then I remembered I was supposed to lock Kenny and Bebe in a room as a last ditch effort for them to get back together.

"Shit." I mumbled, "I forgot I said I'd help Cartman with something." I explained to Kyle. "I have to go in and find him."

I turned to leave and Kyle followed me inside. I didn't understand why he wanted to lock Bebe and Kenny in a room. If he wanted to hook up with Wendy it made more sense to lock himself and her in a room. I guess he just wanted this to happen so Bebe would stop third wheeling.

It wasn't hard to find Cartman. In fact he was talking to Bebe and Wendy. He glanced at us and then smiled, "I'm glad you two fags are talking again." Kyle just laughed.

I pulled Cartman aside. "Let's lock Bebe and Kenny up now and get it out of the way." I told him.

He nodded, "Let's put them in my mom's room, I'll make sure no one's in there. You get Kenny and I'll get Bebe, then I'll lock the door in five minutes."

Cartman had really thought this through. Now all I had to do was search for Kenny.

I looked everywhere, he was nowhere to be found. It wasn't unusual for Kenny to disappear like this, I was just annoyed that it had happened right now. Cartman was going to give me tons of shit for this.

Kyle had been following me around the whole time I hunted for Kenny. In the end we gave up and headed to Cartman's mom's room to wait for him to come up with Bebe. "This was a stupid idea." I told Kyle as we stood in the bedroom.

"I can tell." Kyle laughed and then sat on the edge of the bed.

"I wonder how many times Cartman's Mom has had sex on this bed." I wondered out loud.

"I wish you hadn't reminded me that his mom was such a slut." Kyle laughed, be didn't move.

We heard Cartman and Bebe walking down the hall, they were laughing. When they were outside the door they stopped. "Go in my mom's room and see for yourself." Cartman said.

I wonder what he had told Bebe was in here. "Fine, I hope it's as good as you say it is." Bebe walked into the room and then the door closed behind her and we heard it click.

I groaned, "Fucking Cartman didn't even check so see if we were in here."

Bebe turned to us. "What was that fatass doing?" She questioned.

I explained to her about Kenny and how Cartman wanted them locked in a room together. I left out the part about third wheeling, because I didn't want to see like a complete ass.

"Dammit. Kenny and I are never going to get back together anyways. I figured Cartman knew this by now. I just wanted to have fun at this party." Bebe complained, plopping down next to Kyle. She rested her head in her hands and her blonde hair fell around her face.

"I'm sure that there's some way you can get out of here." Kyle looked around the room. "You could go out the window." He suggested.

"Hey, that's a good idea. We are only on the first for anyways." Bebe walked over to the window and opened it. We watched as she tried to remove the screen but failed. Eventually she just punched a hole through it and tore it the rest of the way. "This is what Cartman gets for trying to lock me in here." She gestured to the torn screen.

Kyle and I laughed as she climbed out the window. "Are you guys coming?" She asked.

"We'll be out in a minute." I told her. Really I just wanted to hang out with Kyle alone. If that meant we had to hang out in Cartman's Mom's room then so be it.

Bebe shrugged. "Suit yourself." She smiled happily and left. I waked over and closed the window to stop any more chilly wind from blowing in.

Then I walked back over and sat down next to Kyle. "We're your parents pissed about you getting suspended?" I asked him.

Kyle laughed, "Of course. My mom almost killed me. Plus she's still mad that Kenny 'left' that porn magazine in our house. I wasn't supposed to be here, but I just snuck out." He explained to me.

I laughed, "Dude your parents are going to kill you."

"Yeah, if they find out." Kyle laughed too.

We sat in silence for a moment. It didn't seem awkward or heavy, it just seemed to flow. The music from the party could be heard though the door but it wasn't as loud as it was earlier.

"What have you been up too lately?" Kyle asked suddenly.

I didn't even know what I had been up to. I had just been feeling sad and watching Netflix all day, nothing had really changed. I had thought about Kyle a lot too. I couldn't tell him any of this, instead I just changed the subject.

"Dude can I tell you something?" I asked.

"Anything."

"So you know how I've had a crush on someone for awhile now?" I asked him. I looked down at my hands that were resting in my lap. I was really going to tell him this time, no chickening out.

"Yeah." Kyle gasped, "Are you finally going to tell me who it is?" He asked. "Wait let me guess who it is."

"Okay."

"You have to tell me if I get it right though." Kyle made me pinky promise to tell him, when and if, he guessed it. "You have to give me a hint."

"Dude no way!"

"What do you expect me to do? Just pull their name out of my ass?" Kyle asked, then he laughed.

I shook my head. "Fine... He's really nice." I told him.

"Nice? That's all you have for me?" Kyle laughed again.

I smiled, "He has a nice laugh. It kind of fills up a room."

"And?"

"He's beautiful. And not just on the outside, he has, like, a beautiful soul. I've known him for a long time. He's also forgiving and understanding. I don't know what I'd do without him. He always has good intentions, even if I'm too stupid to see that sometimes. He takes too much shit that he doesn't deserve, but he still seems hopeful and optimistic through it all. I really wish he would tell me how he stayed optimistic. He puts up with me, which is amazing. He's known me for so long and he hasn't left yet." I was looking down at my hands instead of at Kyle.

I was sure my face was red, I could feel the heat in my cheeks. I was already in too deep now to back out. If Kyle didn't know I was talking about him, then he was stupid. It was pretty obvious though, especially since I wasn't looking at him and was blushing madly. "And..." I continued softly, "He has nice green eyes, red hair, and adorable freckles."

The tension and worry about confessing to Kyle had suddenly melted away into nothing. Why had I been so worried in the first place?

But then I remembered that I could've just ruined our whole friendship. The relief I was feeling was quickly replaced with panic. Why had I said all that? It could've been so much more simple and not as deep. Fuck. I hoped I wasn't fucked.

"Stan, look at me." I turned to look at Kyle. He wasn't upset of anything, he was actually smiling. "Dude, why the hell didn't you tell me this sooner? That was so cute."

I turned away and covered my face with my hands. "Oh god." I mumbled. "That was embarrassing as fuck."

Kyle laughed, "Nah, it was sweet. Anyways, I already knew you had a crush on me." Kyle admitted.

"How?" I asked.

"Dude, it was kind of obvious." Kyle pointed out. I guess that if Bebe had figured it out, then Kyle would've figured it out too. Wow, I was an idiot.

"If you knew then why did you and Kenny play that prank on me?" I asked, annoyed.

"I don't know. We didn't think that through." Kyle sighed softly, "Look dude, the only reason we did that was because it was like an experiment."

"What did you find out?" I asked him.

"Well we did it because well, I had- or rather still have- a crush on you. Kenny always said that we were destined to be a couple. He suggested that we get you jealous so you'd admit your feelings. It didn't really work." Kyle nervously rubbed the back of his neck.

"Oh my god, dude! Hell yeah it didn't work. You two are idiots."

"Yeah, but you still told me in the end, so it kinda worked out." Kyle argued. I just shook my head.

"Jesus fucking Christ." I mumbled, "Why didn't you just tell me instead of putting me through all this shit?"

I was happy Kyle wasn't mad, and I was ecstatic that he liked me too. Ecstatic was a weird word but I couldn't think of anything that described it better. I was still slightly annoyed at him though. He had made everything so complicated for awhile.

"I couldn't just tell you, you weren't out to anyone. I couldn't tell you, you would've thought it was weird." Kyle sounded genuinely upset about this. "I wanted to come out to you a long time ago, but I was worried you would think I was weird and stop being friends with me." He admitted.

"Dude, I would never stop being friends with you." I told him, smiling slightly.

"I know, but I couldn't just do it." Kyle laughed. "Why didn't you just tell me?"

"Because I honestly thought you and Kenny were dating, I didn't want to break you guys up like an asshole. Except I kind of had my doubts about it the whole time. Bebe told me I should tell you, but I couldn't bring myself to it. Because you know what I thought? I thought, wow Kenny actually settled down to date Kyle, they must really be in love. That was stupid of me- God dammit, there was so many signs that you two weren't actually dating." I groaned, I was an idiot. I still couldn't believe I had fallen for their prank.

"I'm sorry-"

"Kye, can we just forget about all of this? I'm tired of apologizing to each other and being in this fight. I don't even know know if it's a fight, but you know what I mean. I don't want to be upset with you anymore, I forgive you."

I was done fighting with Kyle. I didn't want to be mad at him anymore, so I decided I wouldn't be. I may have almost drank myself to death over this stuff that had been happening, but it was my fault. I guess it was a mix of me being upset all the time and not being able to deal with my emotions. I never told anyone I was feeling sad either. Maybe everything was just my fault. It seemed likely.

"I forgive you too Stan. Let's just move on past this." Kyle opened his arms for a hug, I hugged him back. "Anyways the point of that whole thing was to get you to admit that you liked me, and you did. Mission accomplished?"

I didn't respond but instead just tightened the hug. Kyle may have been stupid at times, I was too, but I still loved him. Eventually I pulled away from the hug and just looked at him.

He smiled and took my hands in his. "I'm glad you told me Stan."

"I'm glad you told me too."

We were looking into each other's eyes, Kyle's eyes were so bright, even in Mrs. Cartman's dimly lit bedroom. We both knew it was coming, even though I knew we were about to kiss I felt totally unprepared. The only other person I had kissed was Wendy. You would think that after all the time I spent with Kyle- watching him talk, laugh and smile- I would know everything there was to know about his lips. But I hadn't ever imagined how warm they would feel pressed up against my own.

The kiss obliterated every thought I had. As cheesy as it sounds, it was just like in the movies. Time seemed to stand still and nothing else mattered. I had no wish for the kiss to end anytime soon.

But of course it was short lived.

The sound of a door opening made us stop and turn our heads. It wasn't the door out to the hallway, it was the closet door. "Oh my god, that was the cutest thing I've ever heard!" Kenny gushed. He was standing in the closet doorway with Butters.

"Holy shit. What the hell Kenny?" I asked, my face turning red.

"Butters and I were making out in here, did you guys know there's a sex dungeon in the back of this closet? Cartman's mom is wild. Anyways, we heard you guys come in and originally we were gonna leave when Bebe left, but that's right when things started getting good. So we stayed." Kenny explained.

"You mean you heard all that?" I asked nervously. I was already embarrassed enough just saying all that to Kyle, but now Kenny and Butters had heard too. Shit.

"Yup, all of it." Butters chirped.

"I knew you two would get together, it's just the way that it works." Kenny grinned.

Kyle rolled his eyes. His eyes then settled on a clock hanging on the wall. "Holy shit, is it really that late?"

"It's only eleven, the night is still young." Kenny said, looking at the clock too.

"Yeah, but I snuck out." Kyle pointed out. "I have to get back home, I told my parents I was doing homework. I hope they haven't looked in my room yet." Kyle stood and walked over to the window, opening it. All four of us climbed out of it and into Cartman's backyard. It was colder now.

Kenny and Butters went back inside and Kyle and I stood on Cartman's back porch. We hugged again. "I'll talk to you tomorrow, if my parents haven't killed me." Kyle smiled at me.

"Yeah, talk to you then." I told him. I watch him leave, walking around Cartman's house.

I smiled to myself as he left. I couldn't believe that that all just happened. I put my hands in my pockets and stood in Cartman's backyard smiling like an idiot. Damn, I was a lucky bastard.

I wanted to update this fast and for once I actually did! I've been writing this story almost nonstop the past few days. It feels so good not to be stuck on it tbh. thanks for all your wonderful support! The next chapter will be up soon~