knowing she would regret this, lexie opened her phone to her and mark's old texts. feeling the tears brim in her eyes, she began to scroll up for no other reason, than the fact she missed him more than anything.
lexie: can you stop leaving your beard scruff in the sink? it's super gross
mark: ugh, fine.
mark: is it true dereks going rogue on that guys spine?
lexie: he says he's doing a surgery that he believes in, but i still think he's going rogue... can you scrub in and make sure he doesn't go bat crazy?
lexie: the apartment is so lonely. i miss you!
mark: i miss you too... we haven't even been apart for 12 hours. this is bad.
seeing the picture that she sent to mark, she remembered how it used to be her lockscreen. meredith took it, when her, mark, derek, meredith, cristina, and owen all played baseball together, and it was still lexies favorite picture ever.
hitting the ball perfectly, it immediately went for a home run. "that's my girl!" mark said, and lexie immediately ran to him. "did you see that? i'm basically the next like baseball goddess!" "hell yeah you are." "wait, let me get a picture of you two." meredith says, and the two obviously comply. lexie wraps her arms around her boyfriend, who kisses her on the cheek. lexies smile was so big, and basically spread from ear to ear.
no other guy, not jackson, not alex, definitely not george could make her smile half as big as as mark could.
lexie: hey! want to have lunch together?
mark: ugh, you know i wish i could. im stuck with some imbecile intern, who can't tell his ass from the floor.
lexie: weren't not all so bad. when's your shift over tonight then?
mark: i think like 5? i'll wait for you
lexie: so sweet... i'll be done by like 6:45! love you so much.
mark: love you forever.
seeing the forever in his last message, just made her heart even more. it was one of their last messages before, well, sloan showed up. she was so so happy, and took it for granted, completely.
mustering up all her courage, she hit the call button. his phone began to ring, and looked confusedly at the name flashing across his screen.
"lexie? are you okay?"
"yeah, yeah. i uh, just have a few things, i kinda want to say."
"waiy, give me a second, let me get in the car, i'm in the parking lot right now."
"oh, yeah. do that."
"does this have something to do with valentine's day?"
"uh, yeah. kinda. actually, it has uh- everything to do with that."
"i'm in my car now, so start talking."
"okay, so i was just looking through our old texts, because i- uh really miss you, and i know that you used to always say love you forever. and then i would say love your forever and ever, back. it was really uh cheesy, but i just kinda wanted to let you know that i still love you forever and ever. i kinda can't stop loving you, and i keep getting this weird thought in my head that you, uh, might be my soulmate and the love of my life? because, the way i feel about you is kinda like nothing i've felt for anyone else, not for alex, not for jackson, not for george. i really love you, so much. i miss you and us, all the time. it's every minute of every day, at this point. i sound really desperate right now, and i probably should stop rambling... mark?" lexies voice says, her voice trembling.
"thank you? lex, you gotta give me a little bit of time to process all of that."
"oh, yeah, definitely. i'll see you around."
"yeah, see you around." mark says, ending the call.
lexie slumped back against her bed, feeling defeated. was she really expecting mark to just come running back to her? she had left him hanging on a big love confession once, and now she knew how awful that felt.
mark pulled into the Walgreens parking lot, and quickly called derek.
"hey, man. are you home now?"
"what? no, i think it's just lexie."
"oh, okay. have a good one!"
"wait, mark, one thing. she's really in love with you. like crazy amounts. and i've tried the trying to ignore your feelings, and just mashing them down and settling for someone else, and trust me, it didn't work out very well."
"are you saying julia is my addison? and lexies my meredith?"
"yes."
"well, uh, thanks for that." mark said, hanging up the phone.
mark had been in love with lexie for as long as he could remember, but, they made eachother miserable. but they also made each other happier than anything they've ever known.
julia was the perfect girl. she wanted the kids, the marriage, the house, the typical life. but, she wasn't lexie. she would never be lexie, no matter what she did. maybe if mark stopped comparing her to lexie, he would be able to have that future with her.
he wasn't going to lie, he had always envisioned that that future would be with lexie, but she had made it clear that she didn't want him. so, he moved on. he moved onto julia, who was perfect in every sense, expect for the fact that she wasn't lexie.
mark knew who he loved, and it definitely wasn't julia.
it isn't fair to her to stay in the relationship, when he was in love with someone else. the angel and the devil were battling in his head, and eventually the devil won.
quickly calling julia and it being sent to the voicemail system, mark began to talk.
"hey, julia. i'm really sorry to do this to you, but i think we should break up. it's not you, it's me, i swear. you're great, and i'm sure you'll find your perfect man someday. i'm really sorry."
he had just made his decision, and now, he had to figure out how he was going to execute it.
the idea quickly hit him, as he walked into the walgreens that accompanied the parking lot he was currently in. as he walked in, a certain memory hit him.
"you know what i want?" "lex, you cannot possibly be ready to go again." "no, no, not that. i really want sour patch watermelons." "as in the candy?" "no, as in the fruit. of course as in the candy!" "it's like 10pm..." "walgreens is a 10 minute walk, plus it's open 24 hours." "only if you come with me." "ugh, fine." lexie said, rolling out of bed. the two of them, hand in hand, walked the brisk walk to walgreens, where lexie successfully got her sour patch watermelons, and mark got his gummy sharks. "did we really just walk to walgreens at 10pm for candy?" mark asks, almost laughing in disbelief. "that's how tightly i have you wrapped around my finger." lexie said, grabbing onto marks hand.
mark chuckled to himself as he grabbed another bag of sour patch watermelons and gummy sharks, buzzing to get to her house. knocking at her door, candy in hand, lexie came racing to the door, praying that it was him. a smile began to break out on her face, as she opened the door and he began to talk.
"i don't know if you remember, but a few years back, you convinced me to walk to Walgreens with you at like 10pm because you wanted candy. i couldn't say no to you, so we obviously went. on the walk back, you said that you have me wrapped around your finger. you still do. i still love you. and only you. it's only been you, it'll only be you, forever. i still love you forever." mark says, and sees the tear roll down lexies face.
"you love me?"
"hell yeah i do." mark says, as she goes running towards him.
he catches her in his arms, squeezing her tight. their bodies fit so perfectly together, it was almost scary.
"you got the candies?"
"of course i got you your candies."
"are we back together? are we mark and lexie again?"
"yeah, we're mark and lexie again." he says, hugging her even tighter.
"you know how much i missed you? i used to hold all your crap that you left here, and i would cry myself to sleep." she says, as the two of them walk towards the couch.
"are you serious?"
"yeah, your grey t-shirts have fallen victim to me and my many sob-fests. they still smelled like you, so, while i didn't have the real you, those t-shirts were all i had."
"well, now you have the real me, and i think that's so much better."
"it absolutely is."
"wait, is anyone else here?"
"nope. meredith and derek are on-call, and zolas still in daycare. i was going to watch the bachelorette, but then you showed up."
"i know you too well, lex. you still want to watch it."
"but, i want to be with you, more."
"what if we watch it together? i did watch a few episodes with you."
"i think i love you." lexie says, snuggling into mark's arms.
"you know what my favorite thing about you is?"
"what?" lexie says, her head on his chest, both of them still on a high from their last orgasm. the sex that they had together, could not compare to anyone else.
"how no matter where we were, you would always reach for me. whenever we would have breakfast at callies, you would always end up practically sitting on my lap, or when we played baseball with meredith and derek and cristina and owen, and you decided that you needed a piggy back ride. no matter what we were doing, you always reached for me."
"you do the same thing too. i mean, you always put your arm around me, and it was honestly my favorite thing. even during the shooting, you still did it."
"well, you're my girl."
