April

April intends to drive to a nearby shop but finds herself at Grey-Sloan memorial hospital, where Matthew died instead.

She walks in, stumbling into the ER, and people let her as some are not aware that Matthew is gone.

April looks up and around the ER and what she finds is a mess. She hadn't stepped foot in the hospital in a long while before Matthew was admitted and hadn't looked around when he was there as Matthew and her kids were her priority.

Irritated, she walks up to the reception to give the place some needed order. A man working at the ER sees her and lets her help because he is tired from working all night and is just scared of doctor Kepner, who is ordering him around, saying things like, "you don't know what you are doing lives depend on how orderly you keep this place, understood!" She says, in what sounds like an angry growl to him, not even looking his way.

"But doctor Kepner protocol-" he tries again in a timid voice, looking around for help but finding none as people avoid them both.

"I just got tested and am negative." He gives up and goes to ask for Dr. Webber's help.

After a while of looking around, he finally finds him. Richard goes to talk to her.

"What are you doing? You don't work here anymore, Kepner!"

"Calm down and let it go. I was only trying to help. You were working yourselves into an even more important crisis here."

April says, waving her hand around to show him the state of the hospital. "Disorder amid a pandemic is just one mistake away from all hell breaking loose." She says, looking angry.

"A mistake could cause a fire, and you become a widow, and your kids are fatherless! you need my help!"

"Look, Kepner, I get that you have been through an ordeal, but protocol says that I will have to call security if you don't stop, so please, stop. For your children's sake, please, stop." He says, softening his voice in the end.

Her hands go still at the mention of her children. She lets go of the things she had in her hands and stops working.

When she walks away, Richard looks around and realizes the place is in order and working smoothly in a way it hasn't in a while. When he looks over at her again, she has her hands in a tight fist.

She closes her eyes and presses her lips together in her attempt to hold back tears, and when she opens them again, she looks around at the hospital, with a look of offense on her face as she evaluates everything. When she sees someone rushed to the OR, she looks at them for a long time.

After they are long gone, she looks back at her hands, starts wringing them, and keeps looking at them like she sees something there that she needs to squeeze into submission.

He goes to sit next to her and asks, "how are you doing?"

"If you can't let me work to keep my mind busy for a bit. Then please don't ask questions that will make me break down." She says, still paying close attention to her hands.

Looking around again and seeing what a good job she did. Richard realizes that it would not harm anyone if she can help out as she won't be doing any surgeries. He turns back to her and says. "You can work for an hour. Just don't let Bailey catch you."

After a couple of hours, Richard goes back home and comes back the next morning to find April still working.

"Why are you still here? Aren't you tired?"

She answers in an overly enthusiastic tone. "No, I just need a few more hours, sir."

"April, you know very well I shouldn't have left you here. I thought you left hours ago, and you are asking for more hours, how did you?... You are still wearing the same clothes Kepner, you didn't even sleep!" She looks at him for a long moment and then, with a small smile, nods. She carries on like he didn't say anything.

Confused, he tries again, "Kepner!"

"Stop! Let me work! You said you'd give me an hour of work, but this place needs more than an hour, so if you will, please let me do what I am good at, which is putting order in disorder!"

More doctors start noticing her and ask Richard why she is there. Richard tells them, "none of your business!"

He tries calling Jackson, but he doesn't answer. Not knowing what else to do and not wanting to throw her out with no one to help, he calls Catherine.

Catherine comes in and after a couple of attempts, finally talks April out of work, in the end she tells her.

"Working so hard will not bring back the dead." She says this in a soft, emphatic and motherly voice.

April finally stops working. Dropping her shoulders, she starts crying, her whole body trembling in grief.

"What am I going to tell the kids?" She says, asking no one in particular, her voice barely a whisper. Her throat catches as she faints onto Catherine's arms.