A/N: hope you like it, it is a little long and there are some flashbacks which I hope make sense. This was a tricky one to write as this episode was pretty powerful and intense as well as being super well done but hopefully it comes across as understandable. Anyway, Happy Walking Dead Day! Enjoy tonight's episode, and please leave a review! Enjoy!

Chapter Forty-Nine: Cold

'Noah was dead…he was dead…dead. A simple supply run had gone horribly wrong and it was all thanks to one person…Nicholas. Nicholas was a coward and should have never been allowed to leave the confined of the gates, he wasn't prepared, wasn't capable to handle what the real world…this world had to offer and in the end, it got Noah killed. Riley had watched been front and center as Walkers tore Noah apart, she watched as the young boy was pulled and pushed among the throng of the dead. She watched as the life left his scared and frightful eyes. In the end her eyes held the emptiness, held the fact that she had truly lost it all. The ride back to Alexandria was quiet, Nicholas was still knocked out in the back of the van and Riley's eyes stayed locked on the pitiful man "we'll deal with him later" Riley looked over at Glenn as the man drove his eyes quickly going back to the rearview mirror "he'll pay one way or another…" Riley could only turn back looking at the man that had taken away her last lifeline to the woman she loved. It was nearing sunset when the van pulled through the gates. Riley was out of the vehicle before it could even be put in park. Glenn called after the girl, but could only watch as she turned the corner and disappeared out of sight. Tara hadn't said a word since she had been filled in on what happened. She turned to Glenn and bit her lip "I'll go after her" Glenn nodded as his eyes stayed fixed to where Riley had walked "she's going to shut down" the man mumbled. Tara shook her head "I won't let that happen" and without another word she jogged off in the direction of the Dixon. Tara spent a few minutes running around the community but with no sign of Riley she returned home. Heading towards the houses she walked towards the one she shared with Riley. She had recently moved into her own home when things between Abraham and Rosita had gone south, it was too awkward and Riley had agreed to move in as well so as to not have anyone living alone. The front door was open and Tara could see into the kitchen, Riley was standing at the counter her head bowed. Entering the house Tara softly closed the door and walked towards the girl. It was then that she saw Riley had a bottle of beer sitting in front of her…it was unopened but Tara knew how the Dixons felt about liquor and instantly become concerned "Riles…" Riley gripped the bottle of beer "I've lost her…I've lost her all over again" it was barely a whisper but Tara heard it and took a small step forward, and gently removed Riley's hand from the bottle pulling it away "no you haven't…" Riley's eyes shot up, showing Tara just how broken she was "come on…I have something to show you". Riley followed Tara up the stairs and into the bedroom "sit" Tara spoke pushing Riley onto the bed, before moving into the closet. Riley sat and stared blankly at the wall. When Tara returned she held a small folded piece of paper. "this…this is for you, Noah…he…he was working on it, had been for a while, was waiting for a good time to give it to you…" Tara trailed off, holding the paper out for Riley to take. Gently taking the paper, Riley looked to Tara before back at the paper and slowly unfolded the cardstock. Tara watched as Riley opened the paper, watched as her eyes took in the image, watched as her body became rigid, watched as she appeared to get taken away. "he said that the photo you had got ruined in the rain, back out on the road and he wanted you to have something so he spent weeks on that…when we got here he was thrilled that the children had colored pencils, wanted her eyes to be exactly how you remembered". Riley stared at the drawing of Beth, her light sunshine hair, her shy smile, her sky colored orbs…it was just how Riley remembered her, dreamt of her, it was exactly like the photo. "people are only gone, if we chose to forgot them, chose to say they're gone…Beth's still her, Noah's still here…. I'm still here" Riley looked away from the picture, into the brown orbs of Tara. Standing Riley walked the few steps towards the girl "thank you" she softly spoke pulling Tara into a hug. "anytime…. Rye…love you" Riley let out a breath "you too…you too…"

Riley looked at the door to the RV before back at the drawing she kept sealed in a ziplocked bag. She closed her eyes, thinking about that day, the day when she thought she lost it all, when in fact it was the day she gained it all.

'Tara smiled as she walked down the stairs, she watched as Riley poured herself a cup of coffee and looked up, catching Tara's eye as she descended the last few steps "morning" she smirked, offering Tara a cup as well "good morning" she spoke softly. It had been a month since Noah and Tara was glad that Riley was doing alright, that she hadn't gone down the rabbit hole, that she was choosing to see things differently, she had even talked to Nicholas and saw just how scared, confused, lost and broken the man was, she decided that living with the guilt and fear was enough punishment "sometimes mental pain is worse than physical". In the last few weeks, Tara's relationship with Riley had gotten stronger and she was for once truly happy with how life was playing out. She had the girl of her dreams, a place to call home and a family that worked together to protect one another, she had sure come a long way since her time with Governor. "what are your plans for the day" Tara asked as she pulled her backpack out, she was going on a run with Glenn and Heath and Riley had said she was sitting this one out "Maggie needs a hand with some stuff Deanna wants done…figured I help out around here for a change" Tara smiled "you just miss spending time with Judith…" Riley smiled over her coffee cup "anyway…." Riley spoke changing the subject "be safe out there yeah" Tara finished off her coffee walking around to put the cup in the sink "always" she whispered coming to stand in front of the Dixon laying a gentle kiss on her lips "keep an eye on Glenn too", smirking into the kiss Tara mumbled "always" before deepening the kiss "love you" Riley snaked an arm around the girl pulling her closer "love you"

Looking back at the door Riley let the memories drift away. She knew that tonight after Negan finished up out there she would have to sit down with the man and explain how she was feeling, explain that she needed to find her family, that she needed to know, explain that it wasn't personal that it just was…

Negan smiled as he exited the RV, closing the door, in a blink of an eye he was no longer the protective father figure, he was now the leader, the fear inducing man that didn't have a signal fuck to give "Pissing our pants yet? Boy, do I have a feeling we're getting close. Yep. It's gonna be pee-pee pants city here real soon. Which one of you pricks is the leader?"

Negan watched as Simon pointed to the man kneeling in front of him "it's this one, he's the guy". Smiling Negan walked over and squatted in front of the man he knew as Rick

"hi…you're Rick, right? I'm Negan" he stopped giving Rick a once over a small smirk on his lips "and I do not appreciate you killing my men, also, when I sent my people to kill your people for killing my people, you killed more of my people, not cool…not cool"

Standing Negan spoke once more his eyes going down the line, glancing over each face before landing back on Rick "You have no idea how not cool that shit is, but I think you're gonna be up to speed shortly. Yeah. You are so gonna regret crossing me in a few minutes. Yes, you are."

Riley sat in the booth, her eyes scanning the papers, shaking her head she erased the last three outpost she had made and dropped the pencil. She quickly looked over at the door and wondered if she was fast enough if she could just take one look, see what was happening. Sighing she knew it was pointless, it would end one of two ways and both had bad outcomes…. for her. She could however make out mumbled voices, the booming tone of Negan and the soft scuffles of others. Turning back to the papers she ran her hands over the material removing the signs of her trial and error, rolling the paper up she shoved it in her backpack and leaned her head against the cool window. Her eyes drifted to the back and the memories of where she had been, what she had done and what she had lost flashing throughout her mind. She closed her eyes hearing Dale's long forgotten voice as he tried and fail to teach Glenn the ins and outs of this large vehicle. She smiled but only for a moment, outside shouts had broken out and she slid from her seat, slowly she approached the door her hand reaching out before jerking it away, biting her lip she sat back down her eyes locked on the door as Negan spoke his voice muffled but strong and menacing nevertheless. She heard cries and sobs and instantly was filled with dread.

"So…" Negan starts, walking back and forth in front of the group "now I'm gonna beat the holy hell outta one of you."

Smirking, Negan swings his bat in front of him holding it up and letting the barbed wire hit the light the trucks were emitting "This… this is Lucille, and she is awesome…." with a small sigh Negan brings the bat back to rest on his shoulder, with a shake of his head he gestured around them "All this, all this is just so we can pick out which one of you gets the honor."

Walking down the line Negan chuckles at Abraham running a hand along his bread "huh…man I gotta shave this shit…." Going silent for a moment Negan glances back at the RV and his thoughts drifting to the person sitting inside… "you…you got one of our guns, whoa, yeah…. you actually got a lot of our guns…." kneeling Negan looks at Carl flicking the tip of the hat on his head "shit kid, lighten up…at least cry a little bit huh"

Making his way down the group he eyes Maggie and her pale, shaking, exhausted form "Jesus…you look shitty" he mumbles as she breaths heavily, tears pooling in her eyes "I should just put you out of your misery right now…"

In a spilt second Negan watches as Glenn lunges forward shouting out, crying out, Negan shakes his head pinching the bridge of his nose "nope…nope…back in line…" Dwight pulls Glenn back knocking him in the back of the head as the man digs into the gravel

Spinning around Negan faces the RV, "alright…none of you do anything like that again…I get it I do..." he speaks turning back around eyeing Glenn before looking at everyone "it's an emotional moment…"

Negan turns his eyes to Rick, the man broken and defeated no matter how much he tried to look tough, tried to look like he still had it under control, walking over Negan leans down smirking "sucks don't it…the moment you realize you don't know shit…"

Riley paced back and forth in the small space, she didn't listen and she peeked but because of the angle of the RV and the headlights of every vehicle turned on and pointed directly at the large motorhome she couldn't make out anything expect shadows and outlines. From what she could tell from her brief peeping tom exploit was that there were at least eleven people who were kneeling in front of Negan. Riley was relieved of her wild imagination when a knock sounded from the door followed by Negan's voice

"come on out here goose…I need your help"

Negan stood up tall and let out a breath "man…I got to pick someone…everyone's here at the table waiting for me to order and fuck me I simply cannot decide…"

Peering over his shoulder he knew what he needed to do, even if he wanted to shield her from this she would be able to add some insight, offer another point of view, look and see something he may have glossed over.

"you know…I got an idea…. give me a minute"

Everyone watched as Negan walked back to the RV and knocked asking someone to come out and offer help…

Riley stood wiping her hands on her jeans and taking a slow step towards the door…she glanced around ensuring she had her weapons, her knife in her boot, her gun at her hip, she reached to grab her bow but then decided against it. She stopped and stared at the door…why did Negan need her…what had happened

"come on out…it's okay, I need your advice on the matter that's all"

Riley pushed the door open and walked down the few stairs, as her feet hit the gravel she looked over at Negan, the man smirked and placed a hand on her shoulder. Negan turned his attention to the line "not sure which one of these lucky ducks should be the employee of the month…". Riley followed Negan's eye and felt all the oxygen leave her body

Rick hung his head, he heard Negan knock on the door, heard the click as it opened, heard him mumble words to whoever emerged. It wasn't until Carl whispered out did Rick raise his eyes. He watched as Negan spoke to Riley, watched as he smiled stepping away from her to gesture to each one of them. He watched as her eyes locked onto him, watched as she quickly looked away. It was all a blur. Negan walked back over to Riley, placing a hand on the back of her neck, swinging the bat out

"so…I need your help, help me figure out which one is the one…which one should hold the honor…."

Riley looked away from Negan and back over at her family. Her eyes found her father first before quickly looking away and taking in everyone else. She took a shaky breath but she knew she had to play this just so, if Negan caught on it would go south quicker then she wanted and it wouldn't end well for any of them. Looking back at Negan she shook her head…

"I think…I think you should let them go…."

Negan's smiled faltered "let them go…Rye…these people…they killed our people"

Riley took a small step forward, she needed to get away from Negan, away from the unbearable feeling in her gut, she needed to be closer to the people she thought she never see again…her father…her father… "yeah you should let them go…" Riley took another step forward, walking by Maggie "I mean look at this one, she's pretty much knocking on death's door…." Staring at Maggie she bit down on her teeth, she couldn't cry, couldn't show emotion…. moving down the line she stopped at her father "yeah…just let them go"

Negan walked swiftly over to Riley "I don't think I agree with you on this one kiddo…"

Riley turned and looked at Negan "I think they learned their lesson…look at them, they know you're out there, could pop out at any time, it will change what they do, how they act, where they go…their scared…. just let them go"

Negan stared long and hard at Riley before turning back to the line, his eyes traveling down the group, stopping at Carl before drifting back to Rick, he did this a couple of times before turning to Riley with a sly smirk "you…you got to be shitting me…honestly…please say you're fucking with me…."

Taking a step back he walked towards Carl and flicked the tip of his hat "your old man…he used to be a sheriff before the world went to shit right…." Standing he walks back towards Riley "so this…this fucktard is your dad"

Riley could only stand there, watching as Negan put the puzzle pieces together. She watched as Negan smiled but this was a smile she had seen many times before, it was different, more controlled then the others, this one was given to people who had crossed him and he was thinking…plotting out how to make them pay…make them suffer…make them see they had royally fucked with the wrong guy.

Riley was stunned when Negan gripped her arm and placed Lucille in her hands. The smile grew and he shook his head "you see Riley, just like I told your daddy here, I'm a reasonable guy, I try to make things easy for people, make them comfortable but then something like this happens and I think to myself "Negan why did you try so fucking hard" so here it is Riley…. you wanted your chance, well you got it"

Riley held the bat, looking from the wooden object before back at Negan "you're a smart girl Riley…figure it out…." Negan stopped and leaned down looking Riley in the eye "that's right…" he spoke when he saw something in her mind click "you…you're going to kill one of them"

Riley was pulled back a step so she was fully facing her family, the bat hanging limply in her hand. She watched as Negan took a few more steps back so he was leaning against the RV a smug smile gracing his lips. "it's a hard choice ain't it…I just couldn't decide for the life of me and hell I don't even know these fuckers…." Negan stopped for a minute looking at the back of Riley "…I know…" Negan spoke jogging back up and placing a hand on her shoulder "why don't you play that game…you know the one you told me your real old man use to play when trying to figure out between you and your brothers which one to beat…do that…"

'Riley stood in the middle of Merle and Daryl, she watched as her dad walked back and forth in a semi drunken manner. He held his belt in his hands snapping it back and forth in the air, causing Riley to flinch. Merle could see from the corner of his eye Riley sneak a hand over and grip Daryl's. He took a small step forward "just get it over with dad". Riley and Daryl watched as Merle spoke out willing to take the beating himself. Closing her eyes as her father's rough and quiet voice turned on Merle "listen to me boy…get back in that line and I'll be the one telling you when I'm good and ready" Riley felt Merle come back in step and hung her head. She peeked her eyes up and over and watched as her father took a step closer and cracked his neck, his belt snapping in time "eenie…" one snap, "meenie…" snap, "miney…" snap… "fuck this…" and time stood still'

Riley looked at her family, her breathing rapid but shallow "Negan…I…please…"

"do it Riley…and don't make me ask again"

Holding the bat out in front of her Riley pointed it at her father "eenie…"

Riley walked slowly down the line, stopping at each person and holding the bat out to them as another word of the stupid nursery rhyme left her lips. As she walked by each member of her family she locked eyes with them trying to express just how horrible she felt, she couldn't bear to see the sadness and despair within their eyes but what hurt most was that a few held traces of betrayal. She walked by her brother "moe" she whispered as the pain of looking at him was more than she could take.

Rick kneeled there, watching and listening as Riley was forced to walk up and down in front of her family, was forced to pick one to…to…to kill. He watched as she stopped in front of Carl completely unable to look the boy in the eye. Stopping in front Maggie, he watched as she held the bat out hesitating on her words. Before moving over to her own brother. He watched as Daryl stared at Riley the two sharing a moment that visibly shook Riley and made her advert her attention.

Daryl sat hunched over, watching as Riley made her way slowly down the broken, battered stretch of her family. He watched as she made a stop at each one, saying another line to the rhyme that he knew all too well. Watching as she stopped at Carl, the boy wanting so badly for her to look at him, only for her to stare anywhere but him. He watched as she headed towards him, her blue eyes looking so bright but filled with such guilt and fear. She stopped in front of him locking eyes and trying to say everything that had transpired in the past few months, he stared back letting her know it was okay, that everything in the end would be okay…she just had to stay strong, stay with them. He then watched as she continued on, stopping at Rick and it was then that he thought she might break.

Riley knew she was coming to the end of the rhyme, she knew that any second the fate of one of her friends would be sealed. No matter who it landed on it was a blow to the group as a whole and to herself who hated how all this had pieced together…it wasn't supposed to be like this…

"and"… Michonne

"you"… Rick

"are"… Carl

"it"….

Negan pushed off the RV as the last swing of the bat rounded around the group. He placed a hand on Riley's back and gestured to the group, looking at Riley as her eyes stayed fixated on the person. He smiled and walked around her, looking at his men before back at the group "Anybody moves, anybody says anything, cut the boy's other eye out and feed it to his father, and then we'll start. You can breathe. You can blink. You can cry. Hell, you're all gonna be doing that. Riley do it"

Riley stopped hearing the world around her it was only when Negan pushed her on the back did she look at the man, his lips were moving but she didn't hear sounds. Negan gripped her face in both of his hands "do it…do it now"

Riley watched as Negan pushed into her again "do it or I kill all of them" Riley watched as Negan snapped and his man raised their guns and held them at everyone's head

Riley took a breath and lifted the bat locking eyes with Abraham "I'm sorry" she whispered before bringing the bat down hard, she didn't want to do this but she also didn't want to make Abraham suffer anymore then he needed. After one hit the burly man had blood streaming down his face. Riley froze as Abraham pushed himself back up to his knees

"look at that Riles…taking it like a motherfucking champ…"

Abraham looked at Negan "suck my nuts". Negan chuckled before taking a step back "should finish that off Riley"

Riley looked at Abraham "it's okay Rye…. it's okay…okay…"

Riley closed her eyes and took a breath before lifting the bat one more time and slamming it down, sending the man to the ground. With one final blow Abraham was dead, his body limp and unmoving.

Riley felt the bat leave her hands as Negan gripped it and held it up to the light "she was a thirsty little lady…and boy did she enjoy that drink"

Riley's eyes stayed locked onto Abraham and the man's slumped body, his blood soaking into the pebbles. "it's funny ain't it…." Negan spoke looking over Riley's shoulder at the large man "thinking that you could have it all…this world only takes from you Riley…it never gives"

Negan stepped away a slight smirk on his face, in truth he was trying to hide and mask the hurt that coursed through his body. As he walked away from Riley he gestured to the group "you see that…that's what happens when you try to adjust the system of play…."

In a fraction of a second Negan was knocked down, a swift upper cut to his chin. He raised his face as Dwight pulled Daryl back by the neck. Riley turned in time to see Negan stand rubbing his jaw and looking at Daryl with a smile. Looking back at Riley he watched as she looked at the man who had just knocked him down, turning back he kneeled down so he was level with the man, he stared long and hard before looking back over at the young Dixon "this…this must be Daryl…I've heard a lot about you"

Riley took a step forward before Negan held up a hand pointing a finger at her "stay put". Looking back at the older hunter Negan titled his head "Daryl, Daryl, Daryl…. the last big brother…" Standing Negan spun around "I already told you people first one's free, then what'd I say… I said I would shut that shit down! No exceptions, Now, I don't know what kind of lying assholes you've been dealing with but I'm a man of my word…." with a sigh Negan rose "….so back at it"

It all happened so quick, Riley watched as Glenn was hit over and over, watched as he spoke out mumbled words to Maggie, watched as Maggie sat open mouthed, tears falling down her face. Riley looked to Daryl, watched as he looked at Glenn, looked to her, watched as everything that was built and could have been, fall apart and break.

There was a pause in the movement, a pause in the action. Negan walked over to Rick and dragged him towards the RV "I'm taking Rick here for a little drive…maybe he'll be back…." Negan stopped after shoving Rick inside "Simon…make sure little Riles doesn't go anywhere, make sure she doesn't say a word…"

Riley heard the RV start and pull away she heard the sniffles and sobs escape her family members, her eyes drifted over the destruction that had happened, her eyes lingering over the dead, her eyes traveled over the bent knees of her family stopping on Carl's. She slowly raised her eyes and saw him staring at her, his eyes sad and confused, she stared before raising her eyes more and seeing Simon locked onto her "don't even think about sweetheart you heard the man…"

Riley swallowed and lowered her gaze. Slowly she moved her hand an inch watching as Carl's eyes wondered over to her moving limb. Watching as her fingertips moved and danced across each other

'Carl walked down the stairs and smirked as he saw Riley sitting on one of the bar stools her eyes traveling over the poster of Morse code that hung in their kitchen "what are you doing" he asked with a chuckle. Riley didn't even glance over in his direction "this is a great poster…Merle tried to teach me some when we were younger in case…in case something came up with our old man…I remember a few letters…" Carl came and stood beside his sister "seems like a waste of time…." Riley shook her head "nothing in this world that could help you stay safe…stay alive, communicate with people is a waste of time, Morse code could save your life" Carl pulled over a chair "but don't you need one of those clicker things or light" Carl spoke looking over the letters, dots and dashes "not always, you can teach yourself how to tap it out on your fingertips, blinks, leg movements…" Riley smirked as she watched Carl from the corner of her eye start to attempt tapping out the letters on his leg "could be our own secret language" Riley smiled "so I figured out 'a through m' on my fingers…."'

Carl lowered his gaze after a minute of Riley's fingers going still. He looked over and watched as Daryl stared at the side of Riley's head, the onetime Riley did try and look over Simon spoke out telling Riley to stay still, that she had already dug herself into a hole…

The sound of crunching gravel alerted the return of Negan and Rick and Riley lowered her gaze to her boots as the door opened and Rick was pushed down beside her. Riley could feel Negan behind her and lost her breath as the man pushed her to her knees before slamming her form into the ground. Leaning down he rolled her sleeve up, she could faintly hear him ask Simon for a pen. Her eyes watched as Negan drew a band around her arm above her elbow.

"okay Rick…I want you take your axe and cut off your daughters left arm…" Negan watched as Riley's eyes drifted over to her father "I know Rick…it's a lot to process, you just find her alive, all this shit just went down, but the thing is you need to do it or all these people are going to die…"

Riley closed her eyes as Michonne spoke out, she took a breath as the woman tried, she opened her eyes and looked at her dad, crying and broken

"dad" she spoke, causing Rick to snap his eyes over to her, the tears falling quicker "it's okay…just do it"

Negan clicked his jaw "you heard her Rick…and if you think about she's kind of a traitor…"

Rick looked from Riley, to Negan, to his family "no…no…you…you can do it to me…. I can go with you….no…no….no"

Riley felt Negan step onto her shoulder "the thing is Rick…. Riley is kind of on my shit list at the moment so you either do this or I stomp her skull in…."

"just do it…. dad…look at me…" Rick turned to Riley "I'm so sorry…. I didn't know…I love you…. just do it…."

Negan watched as Riley spoke to Rick, heard the love and respect in her voice and bit down on his teeth, he dropped in front of Rick "you…" he spoke anger lacing through each word, he gripped Rick's face "you provide for me, you answer to me, you belong to me…"

Negan watched as Rick nodded, tears dripping from his eyes "speak when spoken to…"

"I provide for you, I answer to you, I belong to you"

Negan stood "I'm glad you understand…" he looked to Michonne before back at Rick "truly understand how things are now….and whatever you thought you had going for you well that's over now…Dwight load them up" Negan walked towards Daryl "and take that one with you…. he's got guts…balls unlike another person I know…."

Negan walked back towards Rick "we'll expect our first offering in a week and boy you better deliver…" Rick could only nod, he watched as Negan pulled Riley up by the back of her jacket standing her on her feet before making his way to the RV "Riley…. let's move it…"

Riley stood still for a moment looking at her family "Riley, I said now, you don't honestly think I would let you stay…. you know too damn much…." Negan walked slowly over to the girl leaning down to whisper in her ear "plus you got a hot date back at home, can't keep him waiting can we…."

Riley swallowed and turned looking over at her dad one last time "dad…"

"nope…you talked to him enough…let's go…."

Rick could only watch as Riley was pulled back to the RV and disappeared from him once again. Once the Saviors had left the broken family came together removing Abraham and Glenn from the scene. Rick walked defeated back through the woods. The quiet and heartbreaking cries still fresh in his mind. He walked slowly behind the group, watching Maggie walk silently next to Glenn who was being carried by Eugene and Aaron. His mind lingering on Riley. Carl stopped short, Rick coming up next to him.

"she…she" Carl mumbled. Rick stared over his son's head as the group shuffled along "she's coming back…she said she would find us, that she would find a way to get out, that she was sorry, that she was sorry that she didn't know, that she loved us and hoped we could forgive her…that she would be back…."

'please don't hate me'

'I'm sorry'

'I will find you'

'I will get out'

'I'm sorry…'

'I love you'

'I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm sorry...'

A/N: will get better I promise…. chapters may get a little shorter after this one so that we can do some catch up but I hope you're liking it so far. As always let me know your thoughts! I also am going to try and get on a writing schedule and update on Sunday's also known as The Walking Dead Day! Reviews mean the world I want to make sure you all are enjoying it and can only get better and improve things with your input and suggestions! Also I'm sure some of you notice that most of the chapter titles are songs, music is a big inspiration to me when I write so I would love to hear song suggestions as well! Thanks! xoxoxo