The rein of the new year now here, a time and moment of celebration and joy. Yes, it ran all around, a new year for new possibilities to happen. New ways of life and a new future. A new time.
Yes, that's what the New Year brought. Yet, such a feeling was not found among one, who did not seem to share such pleasure, Sebastian noticed on unusual quiet the carriage ride back to the manor. The only source of sound came from the two sleeping children. The Lady Harmony curled securely in his lap, pressed against his chest. Soundly asleep and his master, Ciel. Lay resting across on the other side upon the Baroness, held close by her. She didn't seem to mind the least, the youngest sleep took them sooner than expected. Giving their still growing bodies and ages it was only natural. Harmony fell victim first, from her sugar high it was expected really. Ciel fell an hour after her.
Sebastian thought May would have been too, considering her vexing spout about the irksome Earl Grey, being forced to be by his side for the whole time. Politely cursing him in a the most...modest way that she could. To the point it started to fall on deaf ears. Though became sort of a lullaby for Ciel. Who preferred to sleep than hear her. She stopped after a few minutes, silencing herself instead and took to an oath of silence. The only time breaking it when softly humming to Ciel, to sooth anything might distress him. Surprising it worked, then again it wasn't much a surprise.
A touch from the Baroness had an unusual effect, when needed. It worked well on his master, good.
Though she remained silent it spoke. The desolating feeling softly wrinkled upon her brow, barely noticed. The way her hand rested still in her lap, gripping just a bit of her dress. Her eyes seem different too, they remained their brightness, but it was nothing but smoke and mirrors that covered those eyes. Eyes that stared in eternal absence out the window towards the night sky. That was both sorrowful and enchanting. Her eyes where heavy and filled, filled with what? Was the only question on the demon's mind.
One it seem the Baroness sensed, a small amused smile forms. Falls just as quickly as it came, the moment her eyes landed upon Harmony. They filled with undaunted love and warmth, that feel to his master as well. Quickly twisted into a deepen sadness behind that love and warmth.
"Harmony," you speak in a soft hum eyes remained on Ciel. "truly does enjoy her life here. That is very pleasing to me. A new year," your eyes lift to her. While your words tinged despite it's softness and smile. "she always enjoyed such a time. The coming of the year. It meant so much to her, even when she was a babe,"
Why was there a tremble in your words? Sebastian noticed.
"It was something about it, that made her so. I am not sure why, but, it did. I suppose," your eyes move back to the night sky. As your hand softly strokes the top of Ciel's head. Every few words did it stop to resume again. "she knew that her birthday was approaching." You laugh lightly. Being careful not to wake either child. Holding a finger to your lips. "Though her actual birthday I have recall of it, it has come to be in Spring. For, it represented so much."
Why were you speaking in such a manner? Another question sprouted in the demon's mind. His ears remained observant. And listened.
You lay Ciel's head upon your lap, he slept just like a child, despite everything. How precious, it hurt, it bled inside. Yet, you smile remained and gentle touch. Such a darling child, a beautiful one. Just like Harmony. Both of them, you smile through dry tears of your words. Even if it hurt, you smiled. Resting the hand you stroke him with upon his head, take in a deep soft breath.
There was clearly something troubling you, there was no denying it, Sebastian could see it. Even if you tired to hide it, was something said between you and the Earl Grey? He tries to recall, from the talks he happen to...overhear between you both. But, as far as he could remember there was not much, then again he could be wrong. What has come over you?
Your eyes had yet to even look to him, they remained all around, but to him, why? Was it shame? Was it something else? It was rather nerve racking, but he kept his patience. And you went back to silence, once more. An air of solace griming silence. Lasting for a few minutes.
And you finally speak, this time to him. "Sebastian." He gives his full attention. Your words when you spoke where like a hand strong but hesitant to outreach. "As, I said before, Harmony, she truly enjoys this life. She loves it, her new home. I know should anything befall me, that she will be safe no matter what. Coming to live with, Ciel," your eyes fall to him. Kissing him softly with your eyes. "it was rather cold at first, if not large. I didn't have an understanding why, at first, but...I did eventually. Now, there is hearth in his manor. At every turn, which makes me glad beyond reason. There is not one day Harmony does not enjoy, that Ciel doesn't work hard to provide, that everyone doesn't provide. Even if a demon doesn't believe in such."
A light tease to him, he humors you with a light smile.
Softly, you giggle. Wink an eye at him, holding a finger to your lip. "Though Ciel insist you make sure Harmony is well kept, he did not say to go to extreme lengths."
The smile Sebastian had, spoke his response. Another soft laugh left your lips and your eyes stare back to the night sky. Silence again, closing your eyes enjoy the mystical night sky. It was beautiful than before, even more than when you lived back in the cottage. Even more beautiful night in that..concrete city. You hoovered above, above the clouds under star covered sky. A with those, dear to you.
Opening your eyes find the same night sky staring back, the stars glimmered like tiny lights. "Time surely does change, doesn't it? Sebastian."
He nods. "Yes, it does."
"And with time comes desires, desires wishing to be filled. A future really." Your words spoke featherily. Quickly become solid and serious. Dropping. "My future is one in which I know Harmony will be forever where there is a hearth and love. Where she can have a life filled with joy and laughter. Will she will be protected, not just physically, but also emotionally. No matter what, when she turns around she will find a field full of her favorite flowers. Her garden. Sun always shinning. Like a endless dream. And perhaps, Ciel can lead her hand in hand. " You inhale softly. Focusing on the crescent shaped moon. "Yes, her garden."
Which beg the question, one that surprised you from Sebastian. "And are you in this garden?"
Straight forward and bold. It was expected, yet still surprised you. Your mind went blank for a moment, unsure what to say. His question sunk deep, shutting your eyes open them. Finding such a beautiful garden blessed by the rays of the sun, filled with such color and beauty. It straight out of a story book and there dressed in white running and frolicking around as innocent as angel, her black hair flowing behind her under her crown of white flowers, that too decorated her dress. Those bright amber eyes that never extinguished joy or happiness. And a laughter that drew doves and more rays.
Harmony, her arms spun with her as she twirled. Stopping ever few flower to smell and go to the other. Yes, her garden and there with her whom she ran too, Ciel and the others. You watch as she runs straight to him, arms open throwing herself on him. Everyone was there, there for Harmony. In her garden. Her very own garden, even Madam Red. Who's arms she went to next. Everyone was there, everyone but...closing your eyes open them. Back in the carriage, with Sebastian's answer.
A silent shiver ran down your spine, your eyes Sebastian noticed did not fall to Harmony. Nor Ciel. Not even him, they seem to look pass the moon and stars into the darken space. The corners of your lips trembled softly as you produced a smile. With your sullen eyes that you forced to smile.
Despite the strain. "No." It came out so simple. It was the smile you had on that held you together. "I am afraid that I am not righteous enough to be bestowed with a wonderous fate. Surely, you understand." Quickly stare at your hands as they trembled quietly." There is another, that...all I know," you stop and switch. "that Harmony will have her garden, along with Ciel. As long as she can." You start back up stroking his hair once again.
There was something else in your eyes Sebastian noticed that seem to flicker and cry at once. Weep when your eyes laid upon Ciel, as if tormented by something you held against yourself.
He opens mouth to speak, but you do. "I wish for Ciel to find his garden as well. Even if it is withered just a bit, I wish for too." Whisper the last words as if meant only for Ciel's words.
"Ma-"Sebastian speaks up.
You cut him off. "After all, it is a desire on must have their children? Right, Sebastian?" Turn your eyes to him with an illuminating smile that was enhanced more by the light of the moon.
He gave no answer, just meet his eyes with your closed ones. Waited for you to open them, just as they did his attention was brought to Harmony who stretched and adjusted her position in his arms. His arms adjust for her, looks back up finding your eyes staring back to the night sky.
Peacefully. Silently.
With a smile to match.
