Several months later...
"Be with me...be with me...be with me..."
Rey opened her eyes, sitting cross legged in the nursery, hands folded together. She tied so hard to summon Ben's face. Clear, pale, handsome, breathing heavy, locking eyes with her as the dyad made that force connection with her. She remembered every single detail of that night, the way of blue and gray smoke swirled around him, with his thick shoulder length dark hair, and handsome brown eyes. Sadly instead of summoning him the way she wished she could, all that kept repeating over and over again as their first and only kiss they were able to share. She remembered her vision clearing. The last thing she remembered as hearing the voices of all the past jedi guiding her, as she looked beyond the stars. the details of what happened after that were cloudy. She remembered standing off against Palpatine, fighting with every single ounce of her fighting back, holding the sabes, feeling her own energy and life force drain as flashes of exploding light flashed and then...darkness. She thought she had faintly heard Ben's voice telling her to hold on, somewhere off in the distance, as if she was walking through the darkness of a thick fog. She searched frantically for him, as if she finally now knew what she had been looking for after all these years. She had been torn for the last two years, fighting against the urge to cross over to the darkside. She had wanted to join him...but knew it wasn't Kylo Ren she wanted to join, but Ben. Not the insane monster who had killed his own father, attacked her friends, or punched his bleeding side screaming at her that snowy night in the forest. She still remembered the first time he ever removed his helmet and how her breath caught in her throat. He was absolutely gorgeous. Not a monster, but a young man with conflict in his dark eyes. She remembered him asking her to join him, and the pleading in his voice.
"Please..."
It wasn't until they both felt Leia pass, able to reach them as they fought by the stormy seas. She had used her transfer of lifeforce energy to heal him, and the stunned expression on his face as she confessed that she did want to take his hand...Ben's hand. That time in the elevator, telling him when they had touched hands, made contact she knew he would cross over. How he had saved her that evening from Snoke, and that unspoken understanding where the two teamed up in the throne room. She remembered rolling against his back, fighting with him, and the look of pure anger and concern when one of the knights burned her. She now understood why he was trying to protect her, and that deep down inside he did care for her. He sadly back then he was being manipulated and it wasn't until it was too late until the real Ben Solo broke through. He had saved her, and when she opened her eyes her vision cleaning she saw him staring at her, relieved, and exhausted. She knew she was no longer looking at Kylo Ren...but Ben. Ben Solo.
"Ben..."
She said smiling, knowing he had saved her life, and she had found her home. She knew she couldn't wait any longer, she leaned forward firmly kissing him as hard as she could, neve wanting to kiss and touch somebody more in her entire life. Two straight years of passion, tension, and build up all exploded at this exact moment. They had won. They now had each other. She felt his plump lips fimly kiss her back in surprise as she tasted him, and felt a strange feeling of pin pricks wash up and down over her body. When the kiss broke, she pulled her head back, and touched his face, in complete awe that they had won. Ben stared back and for the first time ever in his life... He smiled. His entire face lit up, lines around his mouth and face drew back, as Rey's heart skipped a beat staring at him. She couldn't believe how handsome he looked. After all these years, after all this pain...he was finally free. That's when she instantly knew something was wrong. His body felt ice cold as a strange look of panic flickered in his eyes as if he was about to shout...
"Please! I don't want to go!"
Instead, Ben stared at her with so much love, having absolutely no idea that he had placed a child into her when he brought her back. She felt his muscles go limp, as he began to fall back. She held him, before watching him close his eyes and fade away. He was gone. Rey sat there for a second truly not understanding. His eyes filled with tears staring down at the empty clothing before screaming...
"BEN!"
Rey opened her eyes. Her heart was pounding, as she sat there alone. Faintly in the distance she heard Solo crying from the nursery. Rising, she dusted off her pants before walking towards the direction. As she entered the tunnel, she saw BB8 come rolling in her direction, beeping happily. Rey smiled as she continued walking.
"She's just hungry, she's fine BB..."
Last month Poe and Finn visited to see the baby, both amazed that this had even happened. While Poe was holding Solo, he made a face before sighing.
"She looks just like her father..."
Rey sadly smiled as Poe began to make faces and talk in a high pitched baby voice as Finn and Rey sat back amused. She knew even though Ben had crossed over and saved her life, his past was what everyone would remember. He had nearly killed Poe and Finn multiple times. Still, she had to agree, the baby had thick black hair and was the spitting image of Ben. Today Rey hated to admit it, but she felt lonely. She often wondered what life at the ranch would be like if Ben was alive? Constantly day dreaming of them restarting the Jedi academy here with their daughter. She figured she would want as many children as she could with Ben, maybe even a son? They would train their children here and be safe...and happy.
Entering the nursery, she smiled before walking over to the crib where Solo laid. A mobiel of glittering stars hung above her. Leaning down, she scooped her up as she gurgled and wiggled. As always before sitting down as nursing her, she would sing and walk in circles around the room trying to sooth her. The baby was fussy, but Rey held her smiling down as she began to hum the same song she remembered Leia humming during those long days while she trained. The same song she remembered Ben humming in her dream she had while delivering Solo. This was the same song she hummed whenever the baby was being fussy, and somehow it always worked. Humming gently, she stared down at her gorgeous daughter, and the wave of loneliness faded away...
That night...
Solo had been put to bed, and as always BB8 stayed in the nursery with her, ready to alert Rey if she woke up. In her own chambers, she shut the door and dressed for the bed, before crawling under the covers, and grabbing the item she kept hidden beneath the other pillow. Ben's shirt. She knew it was silly to still keep it, his scent slowly fading from it, but she didn't care. His pants and boots were safely stored in her closet, and tonight she just wanted to lay it against her, and pretend that Ben was actually here. Laying back, she closed her eyes, before her hand slowly crept down between her legs. She stained hard to see Ben in her mind, looking as he did right before he died. Her fingers entered her, while her thumb rubbed up and down against her clit. She had his shirt over her, and she began feeling a friction building. She noticed whenever she thought of Ben it was easy to orgasm. Laying back she continued to rub, entering another finger, feeling how wet she was getting, before her body tensed, ready to climax when...
"Rey..."
Her eyes snapped open, knowing that deep voice. Her lantern was off, but she could see clear enough. Ben was laying beside her, shitless, and lying beneath the covers. He stared at her with curious eyes before Rey laid back, her hand leaving her body, as she stared speechless. Her hand that hadn't been touching herself reached over and grabbed his arm. It was warm and firm. She squeezed his bicep, and couldn't believe it. "You're...really here?" Ben's eyes became intense before he suddenly moved over, under the covers before climbing on top of her. His weight felt good, something she had been longing for. He climbed on top of her, before he began to lower his slacks. Instantly as if it was the most natural thing in the world, Rey spread her legs, before taking a deep breath.
He was here. He was really here.
