Torin walked to her bed and sat on the edge; looking up she watched as the stars passed by. The same sight just minutes ago brought her so much comfort, though now it just made her feel cold and empty. Taking a deep breath to try and calm herself she finds that this too does not work, so she looks to the bottle. She tosses the shot glass aside and just takes a swig straight from the bottle. She waits a moment "Finally" she thinks as she lets out a sigh. The alcohol has done its job, as she feels the last bit of her body aches melt away.

She falls back onto the bed with her arms out to her side like wings. She continues staring at the stars. Her emotional barriers also starting to fall away. Aria had given the commander one of the strongest drinks she knew of, but didn't tell the commander of its effects on humans. Don't ask, don't tell was the creed of Aria in all things business and pleasure.

"I can't believe he fell in love with me. I told him from the start that it would be nothing more than physical. I should have just found another person. Someone who wasn't part of the crew. The problem is that stupid image that people have of "THE" Commander Shepard that makes it hard to find that sort of service. When people have that image of you, you can't just go out and fuck anything that moves. Word gets around. Now I don't care really what people think about me, but I know what I do reflects on my crew. I just thought with who he was and what he did he could keep his feelings out if it and keep it purely physical. Dad of course would have just told me I shouldn't have done it. I should have just worked it off, do some extra drills and ignore those needs cause they just cause trouble." She lets out a soft chortle "Course if he listened to his own advice I never would have been born. Guess he took on that attitude once he had his own family to worry about."

Sighing and running her hand through her short hair she rises from the bed and sways a bit then steadies herself and starts to pace back and forth. With each step she takes around the small area in front of her bed she unconsciously clenches and unclenches her fists. Her body language speaks of her nervousness and unease, to anyone who really knew Torin; and there were few on that list; these were indications that her defenses were coming down and fast. She doesn't like to lose control, but that is what the elixir is for and its effect were setting in.

" I should have known, he was so artful in all he did. Hell he offered prayers for those he killed. Can you believe that mom? I defiantly should have known better."

She turns to fully face the holographic beam, being unable to fully pinpoint the feelings that were coming now that her defenses were practically gone, she bites her lip and just powers through, trying to keep control, though losing that particular battle.

"He confessed he never feared death until now; he said he felt alive again because of his feelings for me. He cried and it just killed me. I just couldn't let that go without some kind of response. I gave in that night. I told him to feel alive with me. I allowed myself to give into feelings I was keeping hidden. I knew the feelings were not for him. Im sure he could sense it, but he didn't say a word. "

She slips into the memories of that night. The images seem real and she finds herself slipping into the sensation. With the effect of the batarian ethonal having set in, it is like she is at that point of time again. She can feel the sensations of his hands running down her arms as he leans in against her back.

His voice in her ear, soft and graceful "Thank you Shia for this gift" he slowly backs away while turning her around to face him.

Torin's eyes go wide and she feels a jolt go through her as she sees before her not Thane but Liara. Her mind spins, she knows this is not what happened. Her heart starts to race and she tries to come to grips what she is seeing. .