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Ciel slept a disappointed, dreamless sleep.
The following morning, the bluenette woke up with a backache and Sebastian was immediately concerned.
The next day it was something else……
Ciel felt like Sebastian was just putting her off but really, Sebastian was deeply concerned for Ciel.
And Sebastian was a man of immense patience………
Sebastian tried to cover Ciel in kisses and hold her close so that she wouldn't take his refusal as an insult, but Ciel was too vain, far too vain.
The following week, ever closer to the baby's arrival, Ciel once again approached her husband.
"Sebastian?" Ciel asked quietly one morning while Sebastian helped her dress for the day.
Sebastian already knew what Ciel wanted…….
"Bocchan~, don't you remember that I give the orders now? I'm afraid my stance on the subject won't change." Sebastian replied in a calm, gentle tone.
Ciel pouted at Sebastian but Sebastian was unbothered.
Ciel pouted at Sebastian all the time, especially since his return…….
Sebastian turned around to reach for Ciel's hairbrush when a soft sound startled him.
Sebastian's eyes widened.
That couldn't be………
Sebastian looked over his shoulder and he frowned when he saw Ciel weeping with her hands over her eyes.
"Kitten!" Sebastian cried, kneeling down in front of his wife.
There was something that Sebastian wasn't used to…….seeing Ciel cry.
"Kitten, please….." Sebastian soothed.
Sebastian made a crucial mistake by splaying his hands across Ciel's round belly.
Sebastian had meant the gesture to be loving, but Ciel took offense.
To Sebastian's shock, the bluenette promptly and sharply slapped his hands away.
"Stop it!" Ciel cried, her tears rolling down to dampen the frilly collar that hung around her neck. "That's all you do now! You don't care about me anymore! You never cared about me! I'm no use to you now!"
Sebastian's eyes were still wide as he listened to Ciel's accusations in disbelief.
Carefully, painstakingly, Sebastian chose his next words with extreme discretion……..
"Bocchan……..you know that's not true." Sebastian said slowly. "You know that I live my very life for you."
Ciel looked at Sebastian and continued to weep as fat, heavy tears rolled down her cheeks.
"...You know that I've always acted in your best interests." Sebastian reasoned.
Ciel's shoulders shook with the weight of her sobs.
"And of course you're useless, my sweet kitten~. You can't even dress without me, how do you think I expect you to do anything? I didn't fall in love with you because of your usefulness, you're not a gardening tool." Sebastian smirked, trying to earn a smile from Ciel.
Ciel chuckled in the middle of her tears, but they didn't stop flowing, even as she raised a shaky hand and wiped some of them away, "I…..I'm still a person, Sebastian."
Sebastian sighed in defeat.
Ciel could be very stubborn.
It didn't seem that the bluenette was going to let the issue go.
That meant there was only way to settle the matter……
Sebastian purred softly and moved to gently kiss Ciel's lips.
Ciel sniffled for a moment, but as Sebastian's kiss became deeper and full of passionate urgency, the bluenette quieted down.
Ciel's tears dried up nearly instantly when Sebastian crawled onto the bed and wrapped her in his arms as best he could.
Ciel whimpered into Sebastian's kiss, clearly happy when he began to remove the clothes that he had just finished placing her in.
When Ciel laid underneath Sebastian completely bare, she smirked up at him.
Sebastian purred softly as he gazed down at Ciel.
For Ciel, Sebastian was more than willing to deny himself the bliss of their love, but he couldn't…….
No…….
Sebastian just couldn't ignore Ciel's tears.
While they coupled, Ciel tried her best to pretend like her condition was not a concern, but Sebastian was well aware of the potential threat that their activities could pose to Ciel's health.
With his fragile bluenette in an even more delicate state, Sebastian made love to Ciel as gently as possible.
Sebastian was careful to keep his kisses soft and his touches light, using pressure and force only when he had to so that Ciel could gain her pleasure.
As soon as Ciel cried out, Sebastian was quick to end things and pull her into his arms for a soothing cuddle, silently hoping there would be no dangerous repercussions.
"Sebastian…." Ciel sighed softly, lying against Sebastian while he wrapped them both up in the covers, wanting to protect Ciel from the morning chill.
Ciel laid her hand on Sebastian's chest and clutched onto his shirt possessively.
Sebastian chuckled as he asked, "Feel better now, kitten~?"
Ciel nodded silently.
Sebastian rubbed gentle circles into Ciel's lower back and the bluenette relaxed against him.
Sebastian could feel Ciel's heart racing as her pulse throbbed against his hand.
Sebastian glanced down at Ciel worriedly.
"Bocchan, I thought we cou-"
Sebastian started to speak but he stopped abruptly when he saw that Ciel had already dozed off.
Sebastian watched while Ciel napped on his chest for a while, relieved when her heart rate finally resumed a normal pace.
Sebastian smiled softly and pulled the covers closer around them.
Sebastian needed to start the preparations for lunch…..
Sebastian needed to check in with the other servants……..
Sebastian needed to do many things, but he chose to tend his little kitten by sitting quietly and letting Ciel use him as a pillow until she woke.
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Sebastian was still anxious that he had hurt Ciel in some way, so he was quite glad when the bluenette woke up an hour later with a brighter disposition than she'd had in a long time.
Sebastian thought that his mission was complete.
Ciel would be satisfied that he still loved her and still wanted her…...
Sebastian thought that Ciel would be content, at least until after the baby was born.
Sebastian was greatly mistaken.
The next day, Ciel requested another tryst with Sebastian.
When Sebastian refused, the bluenette cried and wailed to such an alarming degree that Sebastian once again acquiesced, to calm his wife down.
A pattern began.
Every time that Sebastian was with Ciel, he felt like he was playing a dangerous game.
Considering Ciel's precarious condition, Sebastian felt like he was making love to a glass doll.
As the next couple of weeks passed, Ciel's visits from the doctor and the midwife became more frequent and Sebastian's anxiety heightened.
Sebastian sighed to himself every morning when Ciel would reach over and start to cuddle up to him, pressing her curves against him under the covers of entice him.
The nursery was ready, the medical staff was ready, Sebastian was ready…..
……...But Ciel, apparently, was not ready.
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One morning, though, Ciel didn't reach for Sebastian when she woke.
Sebastian immediately thought something was wrong…….
Sebastian was always up early and when he heard Ciel stirring next to him, he looked over.
"Kitten? What's the matter?" Sebastian asked.
"My head just hurts." Ciel replied, holding one hand over her eye.
Sebastian sat up and reached out for Ciel, but she pushed him away.
"I'm fine, I just don't feel well, Sebastian." Ciel replied.
"Are you having any pain?" Sebastian asked quickly, his hands darting out to encircle Ciel's belly.
"In my head, right over my eye." Ciel said calmly, blinking vaguely at Sebastian while she frowned at his tense eagerness.
Sebastian took a deep breath and forced himself to stay calm. "I'll go and call-"
"-I don't need anyone called, I just need the curtains to be kept closed, Sebastian." Ciel huffed, rolling onto her side.
Ciel was telling the truth, she didn't have any pain except for her headache……..
Though the sun was bright and the day was beautiful, Ciel had an intense feeling of dread, almost like an aura before a terrible illness……
But Ciel didn't tell Sebastian that, he would only worry.
"Kitten….." Sebastian whispered, his hands gently rubbing Ciel's belly.
"Go on and see to the day's work, Sebastian." Ciel reassured him. "I'll send for you if I need you."
Sebastian stood, dressed, and sat beside Ciel for a while before he went to perform his duties as house butler.
When nothing changed, at Ciel's irritated urging, Sebastian eventually left her to rest.
Sebastian tried to keep everything as brief as possible and he returned to check on Ciel every hour.
By the time the sun set, Ciel was still laying in bed with the curtains drawn.
The bluenette's headache hadn't abated……
And her feeling of dread remained………
Ciel pushed aside a wave of nausea and rolled over in bed, feeling a shiver crawl across her back, even though Sebastian had lit the fireplace and her room was quite warm.
Ciel sighed and closed her eyes, wondering if she had a fever.
Sebastian checked on Ciel again a few minutes later and he frowned as he observed his wife.
Ciel was huddled up, asleep under the covers.
Ciel's face was gaunt and pallid.
Sebastian feared the worst.
Surely Ciel wasn't falling ill again…..?
