Author's Note:

Here's another chapter. I'm really trying to update more frequently as I have some free time right now. Anyway, I thought I would write a longer chapter to make up for previous one.


Emma's POV

After what happened last night, I didn't think I would have the courage to return to the mansion. I didn't think I would be standing outside deciding whether to enter or not. I don't want to see Regina, not after I said all those stupid things about wanting Ruby. God, I was such a mess. But this pain is enough for me to put my pride aside. Plus, I want to see Henry.

Taking a deep breath, I use my key to open the door. Curiously walking through the house, I can't help but feel like an intruder in a place I once called home. I make my way to the living room, knowing Henry is there.

"Hey kid."

"Ma?"

"What're you playing?"

"Rainbow Six Siege."

"You actually got your mom to buy you that game?"

"I told her it was educational."

"And she believed you?"

"Probably not. You want to play?"

"Yeah, why not?"

I take a seat next to Henry, grabbing the controller.

"So, where's your mom?"

"She went on a date with Robin."

"Oh."

"You don't seem happy to hear that."

Believe me, I'm not.

"Did she say when she'll be back?"

"No, she just said she wouldn't be late."

"Do you mind if I stay until she comes back?"

"Since when did you need to ask if you could stay?"

"Well, I don't live here anymore."

"So, this is still your home."

"Thanks kid. Now teach me how to play this game."

"Alright, it's not hard, you just shoot people."

"Sounds like my kind of game."

Hours go by before the front door finally opens, and as soon as it does her laughter fills my ears. A sound that I have come to miss, a sound that always warms my heart.

I breath in her distinctive sweet scent and I feel the pain in my chest slowly begin to ease.

However, as soon as her scent engulfs my senses, it isn't long before his follows.

God, it would be so easy to just snap his neck, so easy.

"Ma? Are you ok?"

The tips of my teeth slowly started to extend from my gums, I knew my face was slowly beginning to change.

"I…Yeah, I'm ok."

"You sure?"

"Of course."

"Then concentrate, you're going to make us lose."

When was the last time I drank from Regina? It seems like a lifetime ago.

I need to leave, I can't be here while he is. Not with how hungry I suddenly feel, my emotions all over the place, and this ache in my chest. It's all too much. Coming here was a mistake. I need to go now. I'll just ask Regina to give me a vile of her blood, and I'll figure out how to deal with this pain on my own.

"I'm sorry Henry, I need to leave. I have this thing I need to do."

"Ma, were in the middle of a game."

"I know. I'm sorry, I just… I really need to leave."

Not giving him a chance to respond I put the controller down. Grabbing my coat, I make my way out the living room.

"Ma!"

"I'm sorry kid, I'll make it up to you."

Trying to make a quick exit, I head towards the kitchen to leave out the backdoor. I don't want to face either of them.

"Emma?"

Not responding, I continue walking.

"Robin, I'll see you tomorrow."

"Regina-"

I could hear her walking after me.

"Tomorrow."

"Alright, I'll see my way out then. Tonight, was amazing."

"Goodnight Robin."

She picked up her pace.

"Emma."

Before I could make it out the door, she had poofed behind me grabbing my wrist. I wish she hadn't done this. She smells of him, he's all over her, his scent is everywhere now.

A part of me is thankful that I am only now smelling forest boy's scent in the mansion. At least it answers my question as to whether he is staying here.

"Can you at least turn around and face me?" Regina asked.

"I need to leave. I just came here to see Henry."

"You're lying."

"How would you know?"

"I know you Emma."

I swivel around to face her.

"Do you? Do you really?"

I knew my face had changed; eyes golden, black veins under my eyes, teeth fully extended. God, I just needed to leave, being here with his scent on her is driving me insane.

She goes to touch my face and I flinch away from her touch.

"Don't."

"Emma-"

"I thought I could come here and see you, fulfil this need to always be near you because of this stupid blood bond then leave, but you smell like him. God, I just need to leave."

"Emma, you can't keep doing this. Not only do you need to feed, I know our link is causing you pain. I… I think it would be best if you move back in. That way-"

"Are you being serious?" I laugh out. "Oh my God you are!"

"Emma, it doesn't have to be like this, you can move back here. The pain will go away, you can feed from me whenever you need to. I'm trying to make things better Emma, I'm trying to include you."

"I don't want to be included! I want nothing to do with him," I hiss out, not want Henry to hear any of this.

"I've seen you now, the pain I feel should go away."

"Emma, I saw you yesterday, did the pain go away? Emma, you avoiding me will only cause us more pain. You need to drink from me Emma."

"I'd rather starve than drink from you right now."

"You don't mean that."

"I do. You made your choice Regina. Now I'm making mine."

"Why do you even care about Robin, you're with Ruby now! She's your future, isn't that what you said?"

"I was drunk Regina," I mutter out as I try to pull away from her gaze.

"Don't you dare leave Emma. We need to talk properly."

"Yeah, and I came to do that, but you were out with him."

"You couldn't have expected me to know you were coming!"

"Goodbye Regina."

"Don't go," I hear her whisper as I use my inhumane speed to leave the mansion.

I don't know how many times I'm going to be able to do this back and forth with Regina, if I'll even have the energy to.

Regina's POV

Even when I try to keep my mind off Emma Swan, no matter how much I try to distract myself from thinking about the blonde, she always manages to weasel her way into my mind. It has always been like that, since she entered this town, hell even before she came to Storybrooke she was all I could think about. It doesn't matter how far I dive into my work, as soon as it hits 12pm I find myself looking to my office door waiting for Emma to walk in with lunch for the both of us. Waiting for her to bring something relatively healthy for me while bringing complete junk for herself.

Once again, I look at the time before glancing over to my office door, hoping she will burst through. She never did knock, walking into my office like she owned the place. I miss her. If someone told me a few years ago that I would one day miss Emma Swan, I wouldn't hesitate to throw a fire ball intheir face.

We've been at odds for just over a week, but it feels like so much longer. Sometimes, I go into her room in the mansion hoping that she will eventually come back home. I make too much food hoping she will come home for dinner, I have leftovers for days. Emma and I can't keep going on like this, not only because I miss her, but it will only cause us more pain.

The thought of losing the relationship we have is eating at me. I know I'm close to losing her, that my relationship with Robin will eventually make me lose her. The thought of losing Emma makes me ache, which is why I try to pretend like everything is fine when I know it's not. I know there will never be a chance that her and Robin will get on. That she will never accept mine and Robin's relationship. The way she reacts to him, to the smell of him, she can't even be in the same room as him. And Robin has asked me to keep my distance from Emma, something I shut down quickly. I know he sees Emma as a threat and if I'm being honest, he should.

I don't know if Robin is worth me breaking my family apart. A part of me is afraid that I will one day wake up to Emma gone. That she will finally cross the town line and I won't be able to do anything about it. The thought alone makes me sick to my stomach.

The door to my office opens, and my head snaps up from the report papers in front of me. My heart races at the hopes of Emma walking through those doors.

"M-Marian?"

I know my shock is clear on my face.

What the hell is she doing here? How? How is she here? Why is she here?

"Regina."

She walks further into the office, sitting opposite me.

"So, how are things going? You know, with Robin?"

I don't know how to respond to that. What do you say when your soulmate's wife is asking you how her husband is doing?

"Don't be shy now, I already know you're screwing him again."

"I. We haven't… Why are you here?"

"I knew that coward wouldn't tell you." She cackles out.

"Oh, this is rich, aren't you in for a shock."

"I don't know what happened between Robin and yourself, but you need to leave."

"What happened between me and Robin? You happened to us, you killed me remember? If it wasn't for the saviour I would be dead."

"I was a different person then."

"Personally, I don't care what you have to say. I just came to deliver a message."

She reaches into her pocket taking out two plastic sticks.

"What is that?"

"Oh, I think you know Regina."

I stand up from my chair to get a better look at the pregnancy tests in her hand. Both reading positive.

She stands up, throwing the pregnancy tests across the desk.

"You're going to be an aunty Regina."

I look at the pregnancy tests and feel my eyes cloud up with tears. Tears that I would never let fall in front of her.

"How do I know this real?"

"Why would I lie?"

"I don't know, because you don't want me and Robin to be together."

"Please, I don't want that idiot, I was only with him to ruin your happiness Regina. This baby is a bonus, to know that your true love is having a baby with another person. That person being me of all people. That it took barely a few weeks before he was begging to be in between my legs. How does it feel to know that your niece or nephew's dad will be your soul mate?"
"My niece or nephew? What the hell are you talking about?"

Has mine and Robin's relationship driven her mad?

"My apologies sister."

"Sister?"

What the hell is going on?

"Sometimes I forget I have this glamour spell up. Ah, that's better. It's tiring keeping this commoner act up."

"Zelena?!"

I stumble back in shock.

No. NO! She should be dead, I saw her die in that cell.

"In the flesh. You almost sound disappointed to see me." She gives me a wicked grin.

She walks around my desk leaving little room between us.

"You're supposed to be dead."

"You see, Rumple tried to kill me, but his plans didn't quite work out. Another example that I'm stronger than you. If you must know, I did go to the past like I planned, however things didn't go as planned because of that stupid savior."

"I don't understand."

"Come, don't sound so disappointed. You should be happy your sister is still alive. Aren't you going to congratulate me? Give me a hug?"

"I…I don't believe you."

"The test doesn't lie."

"How did you get back into Storybrooke? What have you done to Marian?"

I close the small gap between us, my face a few inches away from her own.

"Details. Details. Is that all you care about?"

"Where is she?!"

"She was a casualty that I dealt with in the past."

I raise my hand, ready to release my magic.

"I wouldn't do that if I were you, wouldn't want to hurt your niece or nephew, now would you? How would you explain that to Robin? Not only did you try to kill his wife, now his child."

"You killed his wife!"

"Well yeah, if you want to be technical. To be fair, I technically saved her from you until I had to kill her. In fact, you should be thanking me. I stopped you killing your soulmate's wife. I'm sure that would put strain on any relationship. Now you can be with him without the fear he will go back to his wife. You can have everything you always wanted. Oh, wait I forgot. I'm pregnant with his child, funny how things work. Don't be so angry sis... Anyway, I'll leave you to do… Whatever it is you were doing."

She brushes passed me making her way towards the door.

"He doesn't know. He can't," I breathe out, shaking my head in disbelief.

This can't be happening. Why can't I just live a happy normal life.

"Oh, he knows about the baby."

"Not about the baby, about you. That you're not Marian."

"Yeah, he knows that too. Why do you think he was so eager to come back to you when he had the chance? At first, I was a little insulted, but then I realized what the opportunity coming back to Storybrooke could provide."

"You used him, deceived him to have this… This baby with you."

"He didn't seem to mind being deceived. Especially with the way he was begging me."

"He thought you were his wife!"

"Maybe the first few times. He found out who I was months ago. You of all people should know magic doesn't work that well outside of Storybrooke. How does it feel to know your soulmate was willingly with me over and over again? That he begged me. Please Zelena, just for tonight. Please Zelena, no one will know. I don't know why you want him so much, he's a selfish lover. But knowing your soulmate was begging me to be with him knowing who I was, it made everything worth it. Imagining the look on your face was enough to get me through those nights. You know it looked kind of how you look now."

Without thinking I threw a fireball at the witch, one she easily deflected.

"Now. Now. Don't forget, I'm with child now."

"Why?! What did I do to make you hate me so much?!"

"You exist! You know Regina, you're pathetic. You decided to be with a man because of a tattoo, a man who forgot you within a week."

"Shut. Up."

Robin wouldn't do that. He loves me, we're soulmates.

But he stopped answering my calls within a week. What if- No. She's lying, that's all she does, she's just trying to get to me. I won't give her the satisfaction of getting another reaction out of me.

"I will never understand why mother choose you over me. You're weak."

"This is what this is about? Your mommy issues? Still hurt about being abandoned? You call me pathetic, but you're the one dedicating your whole life to me. You're so obsessed with me. You're alone, with no one to love, stuck on this belief that if I wasn't born, mother would have kept you. You're the pathetic one Zelena. I'm weak yet you're the one who was given away."

My words were clearly affecting her. Her whole-body language changed, anger apparent in her stance. If the circumstances were different, I'm sure I wouldn't have said half those things. I wish every day that Cora abandoned me the way she did her.

She barks out a laugh.

"Projecting your feelings towards me I see. I get it, I would be upset too. I can see you need time to digest what I've told you. Before I leave, I just want to remind you in case you forgot, I am going to take everything from you away. Destroy even the smallest amount of happiness you find. Starting with Robin, working my way down to Henry."

Hearing Henry's name leave her mouth ignites an anger within I haven't felt in years.

Once again, I raise my hand to send her across the room, ready to start a battle I wasn't ready or prepared for.

Before I could inflict any damage, she was gone in a plume of green smoke.

Her words cause my heart to pound as if it was beating its way out of my chest. My magic screamed to be released.

An anguished cry escapes past my lips before I fall into my chair in tears. I'm crying violently, to the point I feel like I can no longer breathe.

Another sob wrenches itself out of me. I'm flinging the reports across the desk, hurling anything within my grasp across the room until I collapse in tearful exhaustion.

How could I have been so stupid, people like me don't get happy endings. Why would this be any different?

Why would he come back if he knew she was pregnant, if he knew he got my sister pregnant; someone who has tried to kill me and my family several times. Why didn't he just stay away. Why did he have to come back! I need to know why.

I use my magic to transport me to Robin's campsite where I knew he would be. The destruction I created momentarily forgotten.

I stride furiously to his tent, quickly passing the merry man. I don't want them to see the tear tracks still present on my face.

I open the tent, making my presence known.

"Gina!"

Roland runs towards me wrapping his arms around me.

I know Roland is innocent in all of this, but I can't pretend like everything is ok, like I'm not close to setting this whole camp site on fire.

"Hi," I barely manage to get out without breaking down.

"Regina, are you alright?"

"We need to talk."

"Ok."

"Roland, why don't you go see what Will is doing?"

"Papa I don't want to, I want to stay here with Gina."

"I know, but Regina needs to tell me something really important. It's grown up things, you'll find it boring. Now go on, we won't be long."

"Fine."

"Regina what's wrong?"

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"Tell you what?"

"Tell you what?" A humorless laugh bubbles out of me.

"Take a wild guess."

"Regina, what's going on?"

"I want to believe that you don't know, that she was lying."

"Who was?"

"Zelena!"

"What about her?"

"Don't play dumb with me Robin."

I could feel the Evil Queen wanting to come out to play. Wanting to show him what happened to people who decided to make a mockery out of me.

"How did you find out?"

"How did I find out? That's all you have to say? You're not going to deny it? That you got my sister pregnant? You're not even going to deny that you didn't know who she was?!"

"Why, when it will only anger you further? I'm assuming she came and told you."

"She came to my office with two pregnancy tests."

"I'm sorry Regina, I was trying to protect you."

He reaches for my hand and I immediately jerk back, increasing the distance between us.

"How? By sleeping with my sister? By bringing her back into Storybrooke?!"

"I didn't know it was her at first. What do you want me to do Regina? She's carrying my child."

"Did you know it was her at the time of conception?"

"Regina-"

"Did. You. Know? I can't believe this. She killed your wife!"

"And so did you!"

"She's my sister! How could you do this to me?!"

"Regina, I'm sorry."

"I gave up everything for you! I was happy before you came back, I was ready to move on! Then you came back, and everything changed. You came here talking about this soulmate nonsense, and I believed you. Yet you were screwing my sister behind my back!"

"Regina it's not like that. You weren't there, I thought I would never see you again!"

"I lost everything because of you! Emma, Henry, and I were happy. We were a family, and being with you has ruined that. We were happy, now I've lost-"

"Emma."

"Yes Emma, I'm losing her because of you, because I chose you."

"Do you really think you two can be together? That after this curse she will still want you? If you were meant to be together you would have been a long time ago. She wouldn't be with Hook, Regina."

"They broke up."

"What are you going to do when the curse breaks and she doesn't want you? I know I made a mistake, but we have another chance to be together, to make things right."

"A relationship shouldn't be this hard. I think this relationship was doomed the very moment I didn't enter that tavern."

"We can get through this, we can raise this child together, be a family. We're soulmates Regina."

I let out a sob at his words.

Not responding, I close my eyes, thinking of the one person who has always been there for me. Who has always protected and believed in me when no one else would, including myself. The person who has told me I deserve happiness, deserve to let myself be happy.

"Regina?"

"E-Emma."

Emma's POV

As soon as the purple cloud smoke filled my room, I knew who it was. One thing I didn't expect was for Regina to just appear in my bedroom.

Any confusion or shock I felt immediately diminished once the smoke had cleared. The tears that were running down her face, and the way she called my name was enough for me to forget everything that has happened over the past few days.

Not wasting any time, I pull her into a hug, using everything within me to ignoring the fact that once again she smelled like him.

"Regina, what happened? What's wrong?"

Her response was a heartbroken cry.

For the first time I don't know what to do. A small part of me wanted to still be angry at her. To let her know how she has hurt me. That she can't keep using me when she deems fit. But the larger part doesn't care. The larger part of me just wants to do anything in my power to make her pain go away. To kill anyone that has caused this pain.

Once she has calmed down, I pull away from her, so I can look into her eyes.

I lift my hand to wipe away the tears that paint her cheeks, only for them to be replaced with fresh ones.

"What happened?"

"She, p-pregnant Emma," Regina stutters.

"Who is?"

"Marian. Zelena."

"I don't understand."

"Zelena. Robin got Zelena pregnant."

"I thought she was dead?"

"Somehow she went back to the past with you and killed Marian."

"So, she's been pretending to be Marian all this time?"

"Yes."

"She tricked Robin into having a baby with her just to get at you?"

Regina chuckles bitterly.

"He knew who she was?!"

"So much for a soulmate."

"That's fucked up, Regina I'm so sorry."

I pull her into another hug.

I don't know how Tinkerbelle came to the conclusion that this douchebag is Regina's soulmate. How can he come back spouting this soulmate crap when he knows he's been sleeping with Regina's sister? When he brought back someone who has tried to kill Regina for months, someone that has put our son, and this town in danger!

"I will kill him for hurting you Regina, I swear I will," I growl out letting her know I was being serious.

"Don't. Just, hold me please."

I tighten my arms around her.

I don't know how long we stand there holding each other, before I reluctantly pull away from her.

As much as I want to continue holding her, my self-control was quickly unraveling. I can't continue to smell his scent on her like this.

"Regina."

Before I could finish, she waves her hand and any trace of him is gone.

I take her hand, guiding us both to my bed.

We remain in silence, clasped tightly to each other. I can feel her tears soaking through the fabric of my t-shirt.

"You know, I don't know why I'm surprised this happened. People like me don't get happy endings. And when we do, we screw them up."

"Regina, what Robin did has nothing to do with you. He screwed up, not you."

"I wasn't talking about him." She looked up at me through her watery gaze.

"I'm sorry Emma."

I don't know what to say to that.

"I'm so sorry. I wish things were different, that I didn't mess everything up. I always mess everything up. Hurt those I care about the most."

"Regina-"

She cuts me off, leaning up to kiss me. I'm so shocked that I just lie here not responding to her kiss. She continues to kiss me until my lips eventually begin to move against her own. The tip of her tongue traces over my bottom lip, asking for access into my mouth, access that I quickly grant without a second thought.

I can't stop the moan that leaves my mouth once her tongue brushes against mine.

Our kiss quickly becomes heated as we fight for dominance, a battle I was surely winning.

The moan that I draw out of her mouth makes me weak.

I know I should stop her. She just found out her 'soulmate' got her sister pregnant. She's vulnerable right now, we both are. This can only make things worse than they already are. I don't know what I would do if I go through with this, only for her to go back to him in the morning. Pushing her away is going to be one of the hardest things I've ever done.

"Regina, what are you doing?"

I push her back again, preventing any further advances.

"You don't want this, you don't want me."

"I do. I want you Emma, I need you."

"You may want me now, but you won't tomorrow."

"I will always want you Emma, no matter how much I tell myself I don't."

I know she's hurt, angry, and confused. It's just she's saying all these things I've been waiting so long to hear. I don't know how I can continue to fight her off. If I'll even want to.

God, I hope she's not just saying this, that she's not just using me to get over Robin.

"Regina you're confused and hurt."

"Do you not want me anymore?"

"You know I do."

"Then what's holding you back?"

"Him."

She sits up, swinging her leg over me to straddle mine. She leans down, placing soft kisses on my neck.

"I need you Emma. Not him. You," she whispers into my ear. I let a rugged breath out, trying to calm my racing heart.

"Regina please."

"You don't have to beg Emma."

"You know that's not what I meant."

She pushes off her blazer throwing it across the room.

Once the blazer is out of sight, she starts to unbutton her white top, revealing her black lace bra.

I close my eyes trying to erase the image from my mind, calling on what little self-control I have left.

"We should stop."

"Why?"

She grinds her hips against me, and I grip tightly to the sheets below me to stop myself from grabbing hold of her waist, encouraging her to continue.

Even though my eyes are closed, I knew she had taken off her top and thrown it across the room just like she did her blazer.

"Emma, look at me."

She takes hold on my hands, placing them on her hips.

"Do you want me to stop?"

"No."

The response left my mouth without my permission. It was as if I had no control over my body. I was trying to fight my instincts, which were telling me to take Regina, and ignore what was right. It seemed my instincts were winning the battle.

She traces my hands along her abdomen, not stopping until my hands were cupping her breasts.

"Fuck."

I open my eyes, wanting to confirm that she was in fact braless.

I gasp at the sight before me.

Her top half was bare. My eyes wander over her toned stomach to her full breasts. I move my hands, so I can get a better view of her perfection.

Seeing her bared before me is enough for me to forget why I was trying to stop this in the first place.

I run my hands over her breasts, massaging them in my palms before giving her nipples a slight pinch. The way she arches her back while moaning drives me crazy.

The room fills with her arousal. So thick as if I could taste it.

"You smell amazing."

Her grinding becomes more frantic, moans coming faster and faster.

"Em-ma. I need you. I need your fingers. Please," She sighs breathless.

I can't resist her anymore. At least I tried right?

I flip her over so that she's beneath me, and hover close overtop.

She brings our lips together in another heated kiss, receiving no objection from me this time. This kiss is filled with lust and passion, desperate. The clashing of tongue and teeth.

We pull apart for second to catch our breath. She gives me a smoldering look before re-joining our lips hungrily.

"You're wearing too many clothes Emma."

I immediately pull back to remove my top.

"No. I have a better idea," she drawls, grinning mischievously.

With a wave of her hand we're both naked. Our bodies wound together in the best way possible.

Her breasts press against my own. Her arousal coats my stomach. There's nothing keeping us apart.

A lingering part of me waits for her to change her mind, to decide this is not what she wants. However, that moment never comes.

I attack her neck, sucking viciously just under her ear, soothing the pain with my tongue.

She threads her hand into my hair and moans in appreciation.

I pull away, the scent of her too overpowering, but she pulls me back.

"Emma. Drink."

She doesn't need to explain any further. I sink my teeth into her neck and her body arches into my own. She lifts her legs to wrap them around my waist. Once my hunger is sated, I draw back, and bite down on my tongue to make a small cut before kissing her.

I wait for her neck to fully heal before I start trailing kisses down her body. Stopping to bringing an erect nipple into my mouth, while massaging the other between my fingers.

"Em-ma," she cries arching into me, as her hold on my hair tightens.

"Please. No more teasing."

I release her nipple with a pop, kissing down her body until I'm face to face with her entrance. I spread her legs, so I can see every part of her.

"Damn Regina, you're so wet."

I run my fingers between her folds, coating my fingers in her essence. Her hips bucking with every stroke.

I bring my coated fingers into my mouth, sucking off the juices left behind.

"Hmm. You taste as good as you smell."

Before she can respond, I tug her body towards my mouth, running my tongue between her folds.

The gasp that left her mouth while my tongue went to work was almost enough to make me come alone.

Sucking her clit into my mouth, I slowly insert one finger inside her before adding another one.

"Yesss."

She thrusts against my fingers, reaching down to keep my head in place.

"Faster Emma. Harder."

I throw her legs over my shoulder, so I can reach even deeper. I look up to see that her back is arched off the bed, one hand fisted in the sheets while the other plays with her breasts.

I curl my fingers in search of her spot, and once I find it I pick up my pace.

I can tell she's close by the way her walls tighten around my fingers. It wouldn't take much to make her come.

"Fuck! Just like that Emma. R-Right there."

Reaching up, I massage the breast that was left untouched.

"God. I'm close. I'm so close."

I suck harder on her clit, and she comes with an earth-shattering scream. My name comes off her lips repeatedly until she has no voice left.

Once her body stops trembling, I kiss my way back up her body and wait until she finally opens her eyes to look at me.

She looks breathtaking. Her hair sprawled over the pillow, her lips swollen, her body covered in a thin layer of sweat.

"You look good after being fucked."

She laughs, bringing my wet fingers to her mouth and sucking them clean.

"Fuck, that's hot," I groan.

She pulls me down until my mouth meets with hers.

"Your turn."

I can't help but smirk at how husky her voice sounds after all her screams.

If we were at the mansion Henry would have surely been traumatized.

"You don't have to."

"I want to Emma."

"Not today."

I was so aroused that I'm sure if she just rubbed my clit even a little bit I would have come. I just don't feel like giving myself to her right now. I know it's because I'm scared she'll go back to Robin even after what's happened. If I'm going to give myself to her, I need to make sure he's not in the picture.

"Ok."

I could hear the disappointment in her voice.

I fall to the side of the bed, pulling her close to me so that her back presses against my front.

"So, what are you going to do with Robin?"

"I don't know."

"Are you… Are you going to go back to him?"

Her silence was enough to answer my question, and immediately I withdrew from her. Getting off the bed, I need to put some distance between us.

Suddenly me being this naked in front of her makes me feel vulnerable.

She sits up. "Emma, I didn't say that."

"You didn't have to!"

"A lot has happened, things aren't easy Emma. I'm not saying I'm taking him back!"

"Get out."

"Emma don't do this."

"No! I won't let you do this again. I won't let you use me the way everyone else has. You can't just come to me and ask me to fuck you to forget how Robin hurt you. God, I'm so stupid! I should have just told you to leave."

"Emma let me explain, I'm not going-"

"I'm worth something damn it! I'm worth fighting for, being chosen, and not because your 'soulmate' is a dick. I get it, you're scared that he's your only chance at happiness, but that doesn't make it ok for you to keep doing this to me. I could make you happy Regina."

"I know that Emma."

"So, what's the problem?"

"I don't know." She runs her hands over her face.

"It's because of this curse isn't it? You keep saying my feelings aren't real. I don't know what more you want from me Regina! I love you Regina, why can't you get that through your head! You think the curse makes me feel the way I do. Regina, we both know this curse can only heighten my feelings not change them. I wouldn't be able to feel what I feel if I didn't love you already... You said I was the same Emma I was before this curse, that nothing has changed. I guess you lied. I'm done Regina.

"Emma, just listen to me!"

"No! I'm done, if you want me Regina, earn me! This won't happen again, come back to me when you have your shit together."

"Emma-"

"Get out. I said get out!"

She was gone in an instant. Once Regina and her cloud of magic fully disappeared, I angrily rip the sheets off the bed before throwing them into the laundry basket.

Going into my drawer, I grab a pair of shorts and a long t-shirt, furiously wiping the tears off my face.

I leave my room, wanting to get away from…from whatever mess that had just happened. Her scent was everywhere, reminding me of what I had wanted for so long, but could never have. Not completely at least.

I make my way to the kitchen to drown myself in the alcohol Ruby bought a few days ago.

It isn't long before I can barely stand on my own two feet.

Why do I always pick the wrong people? Make bad decisions?

I throw the empty bottle across the room, watching it shatter against the wall. Waiting for the satisfaction of shattering the glass to come. It doesn't.

"I don't remember the last time I drank like this because of girl," I laugh and a hiccup escapes.

My drunken laugh is brought to a stop by the sound of my door bell.

"Go away!"

The ringing continues.

"I said go away!"

My anger grows as the persistent person continues to ring the bell.

I stumble towards the front door, trying not to fall in the process. Ready to rain hell on the person behind the door.

"What the hell do you want?" My words slur over each other.

"Emma, are you drunk?"

"Why the fuck are you here?!"

"Emma, we just wanted to talk."
"Didn't you hear me tell you to go away?"

"Emma, we want to help you."

"You know what you can do? You can shove your help up your asses."

I slam the door closed, and head back to the kitchen.

The sound of the door opening startles me.

"What the hell do you think you're doing? Get out!"

"The is for your own good Emma."

That's the last thing I hear before everything goes black.


Author's Note:

I know some of you maybe mad at me right now, but don't worry, Regina will get her shit together. Plus, there's only so much Outlaw Queen I can write before I make myself sick.

I'll like to thank my amazing beta reader Kelojelo61 who sent back this chapter to me on Thanksgiving. Happy Thanksgiving everyone.

Oh, and don't forget to review on your way out. Until next time ;).