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D: LAW AND ORDER SVU AND THEIR CHARACTERS ARE NOT MINE.

WYAG
CAP : 12 – She needs us.
"Wait." I recognize Fin's voice who soon is taking me by the shoulders. "Ballistics are still working. You better not go in there." He says taking me down the hall. I can't help but see through the windows; there are some men accommodating what I know are the instruments to determine the bullet's pad, but my eyes remained motionless. The sight of that place forms a huge lump in my throat and makes my eyes burn with the stinging tears. The floor is full of a deep red color that keeps my attention on it.

"Liv, please." Fin asks me with an evident tremble in his voice. He must surely be sad. I don't think my shock is very helpful. But how can I go back to a reality where I'm not sure I can survive? I take deep gulp and look down. I'm not able to feel my heart beat; I just feel a sharp pain from deep in my chest where it is supposed to be my vital organ. The burn comes from deep inside me reaching my throat. I cling to Fin and let my head drop on his chest. It's hard to breathe, he hugs me tightly without saying a word; he just hugs me.

Time has passed, I don't really know how many but enough for me to take a breath. I wasn't able to cry. I raise my eyes and he looks at me with great sadness in his expression.

"I'm sorry" I try to calm down a bit. He takes me away from any point where my eyes can sneak back to that place.

"Where were you?" He asks me with great concern in his voice.

"I don't know… ahm… Homicide's."

"They found you in the middle of central park in the early morning. Liv, it was hours." I think he already knew where I was and he is just trying to know if I'm aware of where I've been.

"It doesn't matter anymore." A tingle runs down my throat reaching my nose making me sneeze uncontrollably.

"You'll get sick. Come, take a hot bath." Fin keeps guiding me by my hand and leads me to the cribs. He takes from the little closet. Meanwhile my eyes fly to one of the beds. Before I can remember anything I walk to the bathroom in a hurry.

"Hey! I'll be out here." I try to answer but I can't let out a word so I just nod.

I take out Karen's clothes and feel how the atmosphere is warm compared to the ice temperature my body has. I slide my hands along my arm feeling how I have goose bumps already. It is not a bad sensation, it is nothing compare to the burning in my chest. I try not to think about it; I try not to leave my shield; I try to hide there as much as possible. I open the shower and turn on the hot water. The steam is quickly to fill the place and I get into the rain. My skin burn with the touch of the hot water, I slide my hands up my face and close my eyes. Immediately a memory comes to my mind.. Elliot on the floor and my hands pressing his chest. I open my eyes and there they are: my hands still stained with his blood. I feel like if someone is pressing my neck avoiding me to breathe. My hands fly to my chest, there's no one here. No one is trying to choke me. My tears fall down my cheeks; they feel so cold in my skin. I can't hold them anymore, a sob comes out of my throat and finally I start to mourn. I struggle to take a breath but I can't stop it. I feel the wall against my back and I just let the water run... the tears run.

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Odafin's POV

I'm sitting in one of the beds waiting for Liv to get out of the shower. I already took out some clothes from her locker but I'm not sure if I should go in.

"How is she?" I hear Munch entering the room. God, His expression takes certain amount of sadness as he asks about Liv.

"I don't know. She saw the office." I saw her suffer as he… but today I saw the pain relivein her face. This shit is difficult for each one of us but I don't understand how she is stand. Her light faint with his.

Munch sits beside me and during this short time there are no words. I don't think they can express what we are feeling. I've never seen Munch mourn as he does now. A couple of tears fall down his old cheeks. "The last time I saw him was in here." He says with a cracked voice taking his glasses off to try and dry his tears.

"Hey. We mustn't let ourselves fall apart. She needs us." I tell him taking my hand to his shoulder.

"I know, it's just that I thought I would never go through this pain again. I always thought I'd be the first to go. I mean, I was the next in the natural list right?"

"No one expects these things to happen. They just happen." What a cliché. "There is no a natural order." I really have no more words.

"The Captain went to break the news to his family." He says trying to calm down. We know that Kathy and he were divorced but they are his family. I can't imagine what this will result in his children.

"And internal affairs came today." I turn to look him with doubt. "Tucker is looking for Olivia." We know that they will soon appear around here, they will put all of us to therapy, but internal affairs always means problems.

"Why they need her?" I mumble. "She doesn't have to take their shit right now."

"I don't know, but surely nothing good." He rolls his eyes in disapproval. Well she is not alone.

The room is soon filled with silence. The only thing we can listen to is Olivia's sobbing from the bathroom. We share a sad look; she is suffering and we can't do anything to help her.
TO BE CONTINUE ...

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PREVIEW:

"Detective, please focus, this is an important." The man says annoyed. why are we in the interrogation room? Why am I being interrogated?

"I don't know what you are you talking about." I achieve to say.

"The person responsible for Elliot Stabler's death."

"I ..." my voice is cut, the huge lump that is formed in my throat doesn't allow me to talk.

"Yes, you shoot the gun."

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