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D: LAW AND ORDER SVU AND ITS CHARACTERS ARE NOT MINE

Chapter 15 I see a little light
Song: see a Little light- Belinda

I cuddle on the room's couch putting my arms around myself trying not to feel alone. I concentrate on the sound of the thunders followed by the lightning. I hadn't leave the room in what seems an eternity, I don't want to. I close my eyes but I can't help seen him lying on the ambulance. I open my eyes to avoid the pain which keeps growing up from the bottom of my chest. Everything is still dark around me. I don't move, I just froze here with my eyes full open looking into the dark.

"Olivia." I hear a whisper in the midst of the darkness. "Are you in here? The power went away." I manage to identify Munch's voice. I listen as he enters the room. I let out a noise from my mouth to let him know that indeed I'm still here; in the same place where he had left me before. I hear him moving some things and suddenly I get to see a little light dancing in the distance. It starts getting closer to me, slowly. I get up and sit in the sofa in order to see it.

"Candles are always helpful." He says as he sits next to me placing the candle on the table next to the window. I turn to him trying to understand his words, when it comes to Munch there is always something behind his words.

"You see, when darkness surrounds us they always give us a little light; when the night is cold they always give us some warmth; when we need guidance their light can show us the way." I notice how a slight supportive smile forms on his face. My gaze is fixed on the fire that keeps dancing at the top of the candle. I try to imagine what Munch is saying, the light, the heat, the way out; and all that just takes me to the same thought of the day when I had all three figures in one person.

"He was my light." I get to say as my eyes are filled with burning tears.

"He IS your light Liv, he is still here." He says trying not to let his own tears out. I know that he is trying to encourage me and to give me his support; but in the darkness that surrounds me there is no light any more.

"Look, Olivia, I know it's not easy. But believe this old man's words, he's still here." He says pointing into my chest; into the place where my heart is suppose to be. "And he will always be here, with all of us."

"Why can't I feel him?"

"Because, you haven't had the chance to feel him, yet. Everything Why you lived with him, everything you learned with him, all the things he has said, all that no one can ever take it away from you. That's how he will live in you." I try to understand his words, but I'm not in that place which he is talking about. As much as I want to control it, the pain is too strong. I can't afford to create any bit of hope that the light will come back because if it dies again it will kill me.

I only listen as he sights before passing his hand over my shoulder to then rise up from his place.

"Want a ride home." I watch him and stay silent for a few seconds. I have not been in my house since... since we were together in there. It may be a place stuck in time. I don't want to look back, not to that day in which I had feel like the happiest woman in the world. Why should I remember that now?

"No thanks. I will... I'll stay here." I tell him putting my hand on the couch.

"You need to eat something. I can bring you fast food or something." He offers friendly, but I really have no urge to eat anything. I'm pretty sure my body is trying to die because, besides the pain, I can't feel anything else. I don't need anything.

"No, I need to be alone." I say with evident tiredness in my voice.

"Olivia, call me if you need anything… please." I just nod my head as I see him put what seems a box of matches next to the table before leaving saying no more.

I am alone in the room again so I just watch as the candle is consumed in the middle of the night while the rain drops hit the window. I try to settle down on the couch and think of nothing, concentrating on the ticking of a clock in the wall in front of me. My eyes close without being able to stop them falling into a light sleep and waking up immediately, everything is just the same; it's just a second later, and I'm still alone. 'If only you could give me a sign to know you are here. To keep me breathing and not letting me die. Just a little light to help me find a little faith, if only I knew where you are, are you near or are you far away from me. I just need to see a little light.' Somehow, lost in the ticking, I let myself go.

Darkness returns to surround me. I try to look for the candle light around me but I can't find it. I start clumsily walking in the dark and in a second there it is in front of me dancing again, the small flame. I observe it and I approach a little more. A familiar scent fills my lungs while inhaling the air. I try to hold my breath a little closing my eyes, concentrating. Suddenly I can feel the warmth it gives me, and when I open my eyes I can see a path in front me. I begin to follow that wonderful aroma and that little light.

"Liv." I hear his voice calling me so I hasten my pace. The light stops and a small explosion illuminate his face. There are those deep blue eyes watching me with a warm smile and outstretched arms. I don't think twice, I just run to him and hug him. I can feel his heat and his heart beating so I realize that this is too real ... too real to be true. I know that if I let myself go further, I'll regret it later. The feeling is too vivid that the pain will be even worse. Resigned I sigh and open my eyes trying to dispel that beautiful illusion.

"Oh." I sight. I think I've already allowed myself too far. It's a huge mistake to let my imagination out of my hands. I opened my eyes and Elliot is still here, with his eyes fixed on my eyes just inches from my face. I try to remember what the last thing that was real is. I remember being with Munch, and I remember feeling like my body was dying.

"Elliot, I'm dead, aren't I?" I ask him with some trepidation.

"No, you are not."

"Then why I hadn't wake up. The only way you could be with me is if I were in heaven."

"You are sleep." He says calmly. I try to think what he says.

"If this is a dream I don't want to wake up ever. Because if I do, everything will be worse."

"No it won't." He assures me. "I promised you I'll never leave you alone, and I never will. I'm with you, Liv. Remember? I will always be by your side when you wake up."

"How can you?"

"I live in you." I hear his voice in the distance as if I suddenly understood that I am not really dead. I'm just dreaming.

TO BE CONTINUE