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Chapter 18: birthday
Song: from here to eternity - Frank Sinatra
ALEXANDRA
"... How Could I know your kiss meant goodbye!" I get to the door of her apartment only to hear the loud music coming from the interior, and if I'm not mistaken, she's… singing? At least I know she is still alive. She didn't answer the phone this morning and I was obligated to come here.
I take my keys and accomplish to open the door and I can't believe what I find. She is standing on her couch singing ... alone. I look around; something smells terrible. I see, at least, six boxes of pizza that apparently are all empty, three empty milk cartons, small boxes of Chinese food on the coffee table with two glasses of wine completely filled
"Thought You are gone this love that you left with me will live ... from here to eternityyyyy !" It's clear that she hasn't noticed my presence so I walk slowly and shut the door quietly. My eyes fly to the kitchens counter where I find the bottle of wine, like the glasses it is almost full . Worried I look if there is another one but I can't find anything. I keep quiet until the song ends and with it her performance.
"From here to eteeeerniiiityyyyy !" I gather the palms of my hands applauding making her turn to me with n evident surprise in her face. She drops herself sitting on the couch, and the next song on the cd begins to sound loudly. I think it is New York New York, but that's not important right now, and I bet the neighbors will be pleased not to listen to it again, so I hurry to switch the stereo off and sit beside her.
"Liv, are you drunk?" I ask.
"Drunk? If I can be drunk with pain, then yes I am." She answers in a low voice seeing into the emptiness. She really worries me, although I accept that I imagined her lying in bed crying but instead she was singing on her couch. She has gone mad. Perhaps the Olivia Benson who I use to know is gone without him. Well, she has been locked up for weeks in this dark place, with this horrible scent; I know I would have gone mad.
"At least you've been eating." I say taking a piece of pizza that was on the floor. Instantly her face is fill with a grimace and she stands up running to her room. I only get to listen to her vomit, and that is enough to make me sick too. I drop the pizza and my hands fly to my mouth, but I manage to control myself. I get up and pulled my cell phone out.
"Casey, we have an emergency. I need you in Olivia's apartment. Bring chlorine, brooms and trash-bags… lots of trash-bags." Is a relief to have a good backup group in times like this, and I wonder why I didn't come here before.
"What are you doing here?" She appears again asking with evident bother in her voice. I take a clean glass and give her some water which she accepts without protesting.
"I came to see you. It is kind of your birthday."
"Oh now I understand." She says again seeing into the emptiness. I'm afraid of her state… and her aroma.
"When did you take your last bath?" But there is no answer. I fed her state of zombie so I hasten to open all the curtains of the apartment, she just sits taking her water. When I enter the bedroom all the blankets are on the ground, and makes it is cold as a freezer. I hurry to the closet and pull out a pair of clean clothes and a towel.
"Come here. You need a shower." I order her taking her arm to drag her to the bathroom. I observe how she wants to open her mouth to protest but I stop her.
"Don't ever try to get out of this, Benson. You'll take a bath without protesting!"
OLIVIA
I watched Alex walking back and forth without really paying her much attention; I just concentrated on my water and kept my haze around me to keep me calm. I barely noticed as she gave me some things but when I understood what her intentions where then I try to speak but she didn't even let me.
I try to tell her to go away and leave the things as they are, this is my time capsule but she doesn't let me say a single word.
I don't feel fine, my back hurts, my throat is burning and I really have no desire to fight Alex ; I know that it will be an absurd to even try, at the end I always lose an argument with Alexandra Cabot. So I take the things and walk by myself to the shower and then I frozen. I feel the cold through my back as he memory invades me.
Elliot entering the tub while I gently remove the foam off my hair, I feel his arms surrounded me and pressed me against his chest.
"Hug me." He asked and I did.
"Wait a little longer... I want to feel you mine." He whispered before I could separate, so I stay still.
"I'm yours Elliot" I assured him.
"I want to be with you until I leave… my fate is to be with you Liv."
"You are not going anywhere. You promised."
"I mean… until the end of my life."
"Even after… I'll love you forever." I said in a low voice.
"I'll always be with you babe; in body or spirit… but here with you always."
His voice resonates in my ears as my tears build up in my eyes, I force the memory away and I find Alex beside the already filled tub.
"Tub now." She commands.
"I can do it myself." I assure her. I really need her to leave; I cannot afford mourning in front of her. I don't want her to see the pain I feel ... is my pain not hers. She looks at me with a gaze but decides to leave the room. I make sure to close the door and without wasting time on taking my clothes off I get in the tub. Maybe I can silence my cries in there. I hold my breath and the pain in my chest appears with fury. I close my eyes and try to control my tears. I sink into the water trying to extinguish the fire in my chest, and as I feel a slight relief I put my head on the edge of the tub and wait for the pain to reborn.
TO BE CONTINUE ...
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