1985, August
-Oh sorry, I didn't know there were people here still- Lily speaks without realizing who it was, but he would recognize that voice wherever he went from any distance, sighing deeply and putting all his occlumancy shields in place
-Don't worry, I'm almost done- He says without turning to her
- Sev ?
- Lily!
-Long time no see, huh? -She says and approaches him watching him as he analyzes some sample, probably his newest project
-Yes, since Hogwarts I believe- He still had not looked at her, who was impressed by the tone of his voice, so deep and somber that she did not understand her reaction, but ignoring everything she tries to continue the conversation
-Thanks for helping Harry after all
-Who? -He finally looks in her direction
-A little boy lost here in St . Mungos , you helped take back to the pediatric ward
-Ah yes! I remember, I thought he could be your son- He says looking back at his experiment
-Well, I wanted to thank you, I was already going crazy looking for him
-I imagine, you're welcome- He then starts to store his materials
-Are you going already?
-Yes
-Oh! It was good to see you Sev
-You too -He finishes packing his things and with a mere goodbye from the two he leaves, that night he didn't even think about not taking the potion of the dreamless night
1986, January
-I'll make a deal withyou- Regulus tells Severus that was sitting across from him in his office
-What kind of deal? -The potions master looks at him suspiciously
-We talked seriously now and I won't disturb you with that kind of conversation for the next two years, unless of course something extremely important happens
-What is classified as extremely important?
-The birth of your firstborn, for example- Severus rolls his eyes
-Make five and you have a deal
-Fine
-What do you want to talk about, then?
-You and Mrs. Potter
-What are you talking about?
-Don't pretend. You renewed your friendship, she leaves you close to her son and now what?
-Now nothing and we're not exactly best friends again
-What really happened between you two? I remember you fought during your fifth year
-I'll need a drink if I'm going to talk about this- He gets up and goes to the Director's mini bar- That morning I had received the news that my mother had died, that my father was under arrest for having her killed, that was before the defense test, then I needed to be alone and I went to the lake- He says looking at the mirror that was on the wall next to the drink, he takes a sip of his drink- Potter and his friends appeared and they were using my own spell against me, do you have any idea how humiliating it was, in addition to the rest of the humiliation? -He says and turns to his friend- I could undo that spell wordlessly and wandlessly, but I couldn't concentrate and then she arrived- He takes another sip of his drink- She was the only friend I had, the only person I trusted, the girl I loved and she laughed
-She laughed?
- Yeah, I couldn't take it and took it out on her, I regretted it later and apologized, she didn't forgive me or apologize, then I betrayed by joining the dinner parties and she betrayed me by marrying Potter
-Betrayed you?
-He tortured me for all my seven years at Hogwarts and I was supposed to be her best friend
-I understand, but it was nine years ago it's time to move on
-She hasn't yet, she's still looking for a way to cure Potter , right? She dedicated her whole life to it, she wanted to be a master of charms, but because of him now she is a mediwitch to heal him
-I think you two need to talk and put everything on clean plates and start over
-It's easier said than done
-I never understood why you never said anything to her, you're not exactly shy with women when you're interested
-First it wasn't always like that, it only changed after Dhalia and second at the time I only had her as a friend and I knew she didn't feel the same way about me, she was the type of girl who went after the Potters or Blacks and I wasn't wrong in the end, was I? Anyway, I didn't want her to start looking at me differently with pity or something, or stop being my friend, so I never said
-And then? Why didn't you take any chances after you fought?
-She didn't want to be my friend, what would I aggravate by telling her the truth, I had already been humiliated too much, to humiliate myself even more
a few weeks after that conversation Regulus had summoned Lily to his office, and left the memory of his conversation in the pensieve, knowing that she would not resist
-Oh Sev ! -She says when leaving the memory
-I called her here to give you these papers don't look at my pensieve again, Mrs. Potter- Regulus says drawing her attention to him and handing her a folder of documents
-I apologize Mr Black- She says with eyes full of tears
-Now you know what to do! -He says in a tone indicating that the conversation was over, when she leaves he returns his memory to his own mind
Three days had passed, three days she spent thinking and reliving all the moments of the last years of her life, three days for her to take courage to go to him
-We need to talk- She says passing him as soon as he opens the door
-But of course Mrs. Potter , you can come in, feel free, how are you doing on this beautiful day?- He says closing the door and turning to her- Would you like some tea?
- Sure -She says sitting down and he sits facing her
- Missy -He calls and the house elf appears and he orders tea- Now, what do you want to talk about?
-I've been thinking a lot in these last days and one of the things that was most present in these thoughts was you
-Me? -He asks confused, she had decided not to comment on the memory that she had seen, at least not for now
-Yes, why we parted from each other and I wanted to apologize for my participation both for laughing at what James was doing and for not accepting your apology, I would like to explain the reason for my rejection at that time - He didn't know what to say, he wasn't waiting for that when he woke up that morning, Missy came back with the tray of tea and to occupy himself he served them both
-Explain then- He says handing the cup and sitting down again
-I honestly don't know why I laughed, but as soon as I realized what I was doing I was disgusted with myself and that was when I pulled out my wand, but when you called me that name I thought I had lost you. I was seeing how close you were to those future death eathers, I saw how much you were involved with the dark arts ... Don't let me finish please- She says when she sees him try to interrupt and he nods and shut up- And when you called me a mudblood it broke my heart, to see my best friend, the boy I loved to say that- he chokes on his tea- I thought you really believed in all that and I decided to walk away because it was the best way left to protect the pieces of my heart- He gets up and turns his back to her for a moment before turning to her
-You loved me?
-Yes Sev, I loved you- She says with a small smile- But we can leave to talk about it later
- Okay, I can try- He says smiling- You knew why my interest in the dark arts I told you countless times, I even am one of the most renowned curse breakers in Europe because of this knowledge, you were the one who preferred to believe what the rest of the Gryffindors talked about me
-I know Sev , I confess that I fell into the worst cliché of Hogwarts and because you are a Slytherin I let myself believe it all and I apologize, I understand now, maybe it's because I'm older and I care less about what others think and more with what I really think- She also says getting up and starting to walk around in front of him- I also know that in the end it was your loneliness that led you to you know who
-The decision was mine Lily , it was not your fault
-I know it wasn't exactly my fault, but I could have done more
-And I could have resisted more, there are many 'what ifs' for us to consider who is really to blame- He leans on the couch
-Sev, I found out that James lied to me, he said he stopped hurting you when we started dating and I apologize for believing him, I wish I could apologize for being with him, but I can't. Even knowing that he lied to me, knowing that I should have fought for us more than I fought, even so I cannot apologize or regret it, because even with all this I got Harry and he is the best gift that I ever had
-I understand, I felt betrayed when I found out that you were together, but I had nothing more to do with it
-You always had something to do with everything in my life, I never stopped loving you- She gets even closer to him
- Lily ... -He whispers bewildered by her approach- I also need to apologize, I was the one who told ...
-The prophecy to you-know-who , I always knew Sev!
-And yet you forgive me and still love me?
-Yes, I love you Severus Snape- He can't resist anymore and kisses her. And that kiss was just the beginning of that day for those two, they had years of catch up to do.
1986, November
-I have a surprise- Lily
-I'm not one of the biggest fans of surprises
-This one you will like
-Tell me then
-There will be a Quidditch Cup in Bulgaria this month and Sirius will take Harry and I will have a week off, I was thinking that we could take a little trip just the two of us, to some muggle place where we wouldn't need to hide- She says with a big smile
-I do not object to that idea- He smiles when he sees her smile even more- Where would we go?
-How about Norway?
-Why?
-I want to see the Aurora Borealis
-It's not guaranteed that we will see
-I know
-Norway then, should I prepare things or do you prepare?
-I prepare you get the next
And it was on that trip with the Aurora Borealis above them that the Snape twins were conceived, even though for many years to come they would be known as the Evans twins.
1987, March
-What are you doing? -She asks when entering his office
-Trying to finish the second part of your surprise- He gets up and goes over to her and kisses her
-Second? And whath is the first?
-The second will take a while and I may need your help
-You asking for help? It must be quite a problem
-You have no idea, come on I'll show you the first part already- He hugs her and apparates with her being the only one who could from his house, they stopped in another room, which had essential furniture, but no decoration
-Where are we?
-In our future home, I thought of moving here, we put the house under the Fidelius and only the two of us and the children will have access
- Including Harry?
-Of course, he is your son, no matter who his father is I will take care and protect him in the same way- She kisses him emotionally
-How am I going to explain this?
-You are scared for the safety of your son even more no that there are two more on the way and you are alone, he is Harry Potter after all he needs all possible security
-And why wouldn't I tell Sirius and Remus ?
-I don't know that, I don't know them enough to invent a lie that would works, but tell them that you won't get Harry out of their lives, they'll still see each other a lot, whenever they want, but that you want to have a place that is really safe and that no one knows where it is
-Okay
-We can put Fidelius now and then you can start decorating the house
- Aren't you going to help?
-With whatever you need, but decoration is not my specialty for me it's good the way it is
-Is the house all furnished?
-Yes, but as I said only with the basics the rest is up to you
-Okay- They perform the charm with her as guardian of the secret- What's the second part?
-Let's go back and I'll show you- He apparates her back and hands her some papers- I'm trying to create a compulsion spell so to speak, that we can put in Harry and in the future in the children, so that I can be a part of their lives without the risk of them letting it escape, I already got a lot of it, but it's still permanent, I want to be able to take it out later if everything ends well- She again, without being able to control her hormones, cries and kisses him. It didn't take long for them to discover the solution and already in the middle of May they were living together starting their family in the biggest secret of all, absolutely no one knew what was going on between them, until a few months later he put another child under the compulsion and told them the whole truth.
I apologize for the long wait, I hope you are all still around. I will try to publish it faster ;););)
